Staying Happy.

29/3/12 Thurs 23:20


Staying happy is the key to me not feeling all these self-pityyyy and cham-ness and horrible-feeling-of-just-wanting-to-go-home-ness. Blahhhhh. Feel so tired. Getting sick!!!!!!! hope I don't get sick!!!! :( :( Don't wanna be sick away from home!! Got back at 9pm+ after my mock. Haha. It was hard as expected, like I didn't know what I was doing half the time but oh well. Practice practice practice!!!! Need to do questions. I ate dinner when I got back, heated up food from the fridge. Felt like I should have a proper meal cuz haven't had one in a while. Lunch is just sandwiches. And been staying at the library after school so I've been eating bananas and the Rice pudding thingy for dinner. Woke up today feeling sick so I figured I should eat something proper. So now I'm full. Feel under the weather. Tired. Going to bed soon. Sat marks the last day of this awesome weather we've been having. Been wearing tights to school and dressing slightly more like a female these past few days. And it's the kind of clothes that suit me you know? Suit my personality. Haha. Blaah. Ughhhhhhh. No more sunny days and brightness. Need to be more strict with myself. I can't afford to not study because of my sigh feelings. :( NOT ENOUGH TIME FOR THAT! Anyway. I need to talk about other stuff other than this studying studying bla bla bla. I hope I don't get sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay yay yay yay yay tmr is FRIDAY! NYONYAAAAA and FRIENDS!!!! And err holidays!!!!!!!!!!! I MUST do lots in these two weeks!!!!! Work work work work work work. Or forever hold my peace. I cannot imagine if I don't get the scores I need for dentistry. After paying a ridiculously high fee to be studying here. And what will I do if I really don't get it? Repeat another year? Or change course? To what? Was thinking about this on the tram just now. Honestly? I have no idea. At all. But what's certain is that I really really must, really! really really!!!! must!!!!! get the score I need. That means sucking it up and doing what I came here to do. Pep talk pep talk pep talk peptalkpeptalkpeptalk bla bla bla. PEP TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 


I must put in all I have. Or forever hold my peace and live with regrets.