Individuality.

I don't get it! Why am I so similar to her??? The things we do, the way we act, the way we laugh. OMYGOSH. I don't like it at all. I know this is kinda ridiculous, but it kinda gets me down lo. :( It's just that because we're so similar, I'm scared (?) that people will want to be friends with me just because I'm like a stand-in for her while she's gone. And when she's back, I'll have to go back and stand in the side lines. I don't want to be a shadow of her!!!! I don't want to be a reminder of her! Maybe I should get a tattoo or a facial piercing just to differentiate myself from her. UGH. :( 


Anyway. Denise said that Crys asked her to go to Singapore too. Or something. Yay (sarcastic). Totally not what I had in mind too (sarcastic). Oh well. My old self (which, I must say, is still there deep deep deep down inside of me) would have been so upset about it.. that I would want her to choose me to go with. Haha. Why not we go together? No thanks. That would majorly suck. After that one time having ban mian at Damai with them both, haha, puke in mouth, no thanks!!! Don't want to be a total third wheel. Anyway. The new me is now just.. sigh face. OH WELL. Let it go, cuz I won't make her choose. I don't want to have the same feelings I had with that KL thing. That was sooo saddd. And I know that I have to accept what is. I have to accept being alone. Like, they might not always choose me. I'm talking about life in general. And I'll just have to get used to that. Haha. I'm fine with it actually. Meh. Gah my writing is so bad, I don't know what I'm saying. Too sleepy. I was soooooo sleepy in physics just now. Hmm.. I shall start controlling what I eat. LESS SNACKING! Haha. St Patrick's Day on Saturday!! Apparently it's so HUGE, but I can't feel the grandeur of it yet. Apparently Ellen DeGeneres is here in Ireland for Sat.. and that lots of American Celebs fly up here for the parade. :O Coolio. Bought strawberry yoghurt with nuts and muesli and such for 1.90Euro I think. It was nice and not artificial. :D And Elaine bought a Mars Bars muffin. That was good. La la la. 


OH YEAAAA. Totally funny today in the library chatting with Denise. Cuz I was in the library (where we're not allowed to play with our phones or they get taken away) and I said that I had to go, it was study time. And I asked her to leave a message that would make me laugh. And she said that no one asks other ppl to do something like that. And that I can't push her to do it. I replied 'hahahahah PUSH' and I put the whatsapp emoticon of two open palms that kinda show a 'ten' but could also be like an act of pushing? Haha and she was like 'That's butterfly. Did you not have a childhood?'. OMGOSHHHHHH that made me laugh SO HARD cuz it did actually look like a butterfly. I was rocking my body around, laughing silently. And I was like 'butterfly, butt your head!!!!!! literally made me rotfl but on table. So it's rottl!!! hahahaha'. It was so funny. Elaine just stared at me. I kept laughing! SCLSCP rottl yo! Add it in. And Denise said 'that made me lalbbnsmcinfe' and I laughed again!!!!! -laugh a lil bit but not so much cuz it's not funny enough- SCLSCP FOR THE WIN! Sly funny! Haha. Appreciate you!!!! Bye bye. :D