The Year of Twelves.

Hello! It's been ages since I've said anything here. I should try and get back into the habit more. I will try. It's hard cuz of all the lovely distractions that have come with the advancement of technology, or should I say the internet!!! So anywho. I would just like to acknowledge the passing of 2012. YES, it is 2013! We survived the apocalypse and yadda yadda yadda. I never really believed anything would happen, but there was that what if question in my head and I did say a few "sincere goodbyes" kinda thing before the 21st of Dec. Hahaha. We should say those stuff more, shouldn't we? :) Life is short, don't take it for granted. 

ANYWAY. 2012 was a great year. Looking back at it, loads of things happened in that year. Sad things, great things. Kinda like 2011 I guess, like how amazing the S3 experience was and all that. But there are 3 and a half main events that occurred in 2012 that I would like to mention. :) 

1. I did the Leaving Cert. Kinda hard to believe that it was only last year that I did that. Seems like ages ago. I'm sure I've mentioned it before, as it was the time I blogged LOADS since I blocked Facebook from my laptop (haha sad circumstances). But yea. It showed me what I could do if I really put my mind to it. I always think of the Post-It note I saw on Kat's wall agesssss ago when she was doing her PMR I think. It said "Where there's a will, there's a way". It's actually so true. :) And also she told me "做人不能半途而废". I dunno. The Leaving Cert was amazing in that way. I worked hard, pushed myself to the limit, and I kinda succeeded. *Wipes away tear dramatically*. Haha. Another thing was that I grew in confidence. As in like, eating alone during lunch and walking around the city alone etc. Having thick skin to ask for help and just... sit alone and stuff. Just being strong. But I guess I couldn't have really gone through that if I didn't have friends back home with whom I still kept in touch with. Lalalala. 

2. Raleighhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Went to Raleigh after the Leaving Cert in Dublin and can I just say, IT WAS. AMAZINGGGGG. :D :D To any of you who will actually chance upon this post, DO LOOK IT UP and join an expedition!!!! It was a once-in-a-lifetime experience, though hopefully I'll do something like that again. It was just like you were in a totally different life. Gone with the wild, and all that jazz. I consider myself extremelyyyyy lucky because I got a great project and amazing PMs (project managers). (Sorry if I've blogged about Raleigh before but OH WELL). The other project team didn't really have such an amazing time because their PMs kinda sucked the fun out of it as they were so strict and stuff. And also we were lucky because our project site was really kampung and isolated. No phone signal, no electricity, no toilets and such. So in that sense, I got to experience what it was like to really live. Physical labour everyday, sleeping at 9pm due to actual exhaustion, relentless heat with no relief that we usually get from fans or aircons, actually interacting with other humans as we chilled out after work in the evenings. Built a HOUSE out of wood and constructed a gravity water feed, providing the few villagers with running taps. Oh and also made a FIELD where they could play volleyball or football. Like, we used parangs and hacked the wild sharp lalangs out of the way to made it a clear space. It was just truly wonderful. Miss it loads. :) :) Would love to do another one but you just know it won't be the same. We'll see where life leads me anyway. ;) 

3. University. I kinda still can't believe I'm actually here. One of the big stepping stones in life. In Cork. Sometimes I do wonder what it'll be like if I chose IMU instead of UCC, how different the lifestyles would be. But I should be grateful. Like what this girl I'm emailing said, (she's someone who's in the Institute in Dublin who wants info about UCC) we'll be here for 5 years and then we'll be qualified, then we'll go home and spend the rest of our lives there (if we choose to). So we should enjoy it now huh! True. :) But I guess sometimes it's hard to appreciate what you've got, first world problems. Haha. But anywho. There have been some.. meh times. And sometimes I feel like I don't click properly with anyone. It's all jussssttt okay. Always jussssttt okay. So sometimes I feel like I'm alone on the moon, perpetual solitute. I do keep in touch with friends back home but it's like. I feel that I'm stuck you know! Everyone is moving on and making great friends and having adventures. And I'm just having this lonely adventure and this horrible identity crisis or battle with my ethical conscience. Hahaha whutttttttttttttttttttttttttt. I guess I feel like I'm a seed that's been thrown here and I'm not growing any roots, whereas other ppl have started growing roots wherever they are. And I'm just floating. Haha. As always, I dunno whaaaaaaaat I'm saying. THE POINT IS. I got into University and I'm here for 5 years and I pray. to. God. that I make it out alive and well. Haha. 

And A Half. Lost friends in 2012. Like, really great ones. Haha that sounded like they passed away (TOUCH WOOD!). Just. Time goes on, you float apart, lose touch with some people. LIFE is what happened! haha. It's just sad. But I'm still alive. :) Oh and I went to Germany, first European trip with friends (Shuen, Swarna, Ray!). Pretty coollllllllll. Experienced snow for the first time too! :D :D :D

Anyway. 2013 is here. I will miss 2012. Loved it, bled through it, cried through it, hahahahaha-ed through it, but most importantly, lived through it! 12 is my favourite number so I'm sad it's gone. But 2013, I welcome you, this challenge I have to face! New year's resolutions? Study regularly, exercise at least 3 times a week, blog more, in overall, TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE. Eat less? PFFTT. Ain't nobody got time for that! (9gag reference!). But yea. 

Friends, do say hi once in a while. As always, be sincere, and take life by the horns!! 

16/1/2013 Wed 12:49am

ON A TOTALLY UNRELATED NOTE. DID YOU CHECK OUT GOOGLE? HAHAHA SO COOL! It's a GAME! I mean the google logo thing they occasionally do to celebrate special occasions. (hence the word occasionally -.-). I suppose it's cuz of all the snow that's falling NOT in Malaysia back home. hahaha. (And not in Cork as well! Though it's getting really cold). But yea. COOL.