Floating.

OMG. My laptop is so lag it makes me so angry! Hahaha. "Video games don't cause violence, lag does", says a post in 9gag. Hahaha. 

Anywho. I'm so tired from the gym. I feel like I've been so unproductive. Maybe cuz I've been sleeping every chance I get cuz Sleep Fights Cancer (from A Fault In Our Stars, John Green). Haha. I mean, like, sleep gives you good complexion and more energy to do more exercise in the gym. Whut. But yea. I've been napping in between classes and before going to the gym after classes too. I've been putting in a bit of studying but not as much as I would like to. Night times are super unproductive cuz after dinner everyone just chills in front of the tv and drinks hot chocolate/tea and just try and watch tv while everyone talks over the tv. It's such a joke cuz they'll be like "Oh such and such movie is on tonight! We'll watch that tgth" and everyone just ends up chatting and only 20% of the movie is actually watched. It happens all the time. 

This reminds me, have I mentioned anything about my flatmates? My absolutely lovely flatmates. Laura and Lisa from Clonakilty, Edel from Kilkenny and Katie from Clare. Then there's Jolinde from Holland who's here for 5 months only and just joined us this term. :) They are absolutely lovely! Crazy typical Irish who party loads, but absolutely great! I'm actually really gonna miss them so much when I move out next year which is highly likely. They'll probably stay tgth. But we'll see how it goes. It'll be so sad because. With them, it feels like a second home. It feels like a family. Though untidy and infected (Lisa and Laura went home cuz they got sick!!!! Not the first time too!). It's just the fact that one person cooks dinner every night, taking turns and eating together. And the fact that everyone is ALWAYS in the living room. Like they literally just go to their rooms to skype or to sleep. Their laptops are usually left outside in the living room. It's just so nice. I love it so much. If I were to stay with other Malaysians, we probably would be watching our dramas and such, and be glued to the laptop all the time. Whereas with these lovely girls, we have "the lols and the bants" in the living room and just chat and laugh and watch videos and chill. :D I really don't know what to expect if I move in with Sam the next academic year. It'll be so different. But oh well. :) 

I was rereading my some of my old posts. I need to grow closer to God. :) Haven't been doing that much. 

Also. I'm feeling kinda. Lost. Like. Though I love the girls in 30 (we're in Apartment 30, Flirty 30!!!), I'm not like bffs-so-close-we-just-clicked with them. I feel that way about every one here. It's not so bad. I do enjoy everyone's company (by everyone, I mean my coursemates and stuff). But just no click I guess. So yes. I'm just floating. Floating floating. And theeeeeeen. Oh well. I dunno. But in a small way I feel like I'm being my own man. Trying not to let it bother me so much? *shrugs shoulders* (sigh, as always, I don't know what I'm saying). Sometimes I feel like I'm living a life with nothing that's worth bragging about. Not to say that I love bragging or whatever. But to me, it's like there's nothing really that makes me feel so proud to say, hey, look at all the great things I've been doing. In S3 I at least had loads of activities, the "healthy lifestyle" I did pride myself of. But now it's just like. Meh. There are a couple of times I've been like, hey, I really enjoyed that activity or dinner etc, but then on the other hand. I've been going out partying with my flatmates. And that involves drinking and clubbing. I dunno. It's just not something I'm proud of you know? Before I left for Dublin, when Eugene and Moses and I used to hang out all the time, I learnt from them and kinda decided that yea, gambling and drinking doesn't benefit you etc, doesn't feel right to do those sort of things. But whaddaya know. I'm doing it all the time here (drinking, I mean). Haha. I've been pretty hung up about this issue. It's just such a big part of the culture and the socialising aspect here. So confused. IDENTITY CRISIS, I call it! That's part of the reason why I kinda wanna move out because I won't have to go out with my flatmates then I won't be at war with myself. But then Denise will be like Oh it's your own choice as to whether you wanna drink or not. I guess that YOLO side of me and maybe that proud side of me that wants to prove that "hey, I can drink as much as you can" makes me keep drinking. Hahaha. Omg. This is actually so embarrassing. Heart on my sleeve, yup! But the truth is the truth is the truth. 

I gotta go sleep. Have loads of lectures tmr and I didn't nap today so I'm wrecked. Haha. Wrecked is an Irish word. (I mean, an English word that the Irish use all the time). I really don't know what I was talking about in this post. 

Opps. 

16/1/13 23:34 Wed