Hello!!!!! I know. I'm still alive right? :D So, a lottttt has happened in my life. Huge things like Raleigh and Uni!!
A quick update: I'm now enrolled in University College Cork in Cork, Ireland for the 5 year Dentistry programme. Yes, that means I did well enough in my Leaving Cert to get here. (hmm, have I thanked God for that? I should). I'm staying in the student accommodation, Castlewhite Apartments with 4 other Irish girls and I love them!!! There are only 5 of us Malaysians in my course, one girls who's half chinese from KK, and one girl who is Chinese from KL.
Well. There're a lot more stuff to fill you in with but I just wanted to say. I've been here two months already. And to be honest, it is only now that I can say I've really settled in. I came here, I felt really blessed, then kinda indifferent, then really sad sad sad alone empty homesick like omgggggggbringmehome, then finally I'm here at this point. I feel like I'm finally standing on my two feet, much stronger than before. Sounds so corny oh. But I dunno, I just feel like finally I'm in control with my life, I feel.. relieved. :) No, I'm not sure whether I will be really happy here for 5 years. No, I'm not sure if I should've chosen this instead of being close to home in IMU. No, I don't know if it was stupid of me to choose not to fly home this winter break. But all I know is, I really wanna be strong and stand on my own two feet and "be my own man" (as Denise says) and deal with my own problems and forgive. :)
Anyway. Just feel really.. tall.
I've been going to the church that's on campus and I just wanna put down the two sermons that spoke to me.
Last sunday's sermon was about the apocalypse or something. the priest talked about how the past is gone and the future doesn't exist. that NOW is the gift that God gives all of us, it's a blessing. That we don't want to live in a way that when our last breath comes we'll have regrets and what-ifs. So, during the gift God gives (which is NOW, this moment), we have to live well, be the best we can be. Live with a lot of love and forgiveness. It was a sermon that spoke to me cuz regarding forgiveness and stuff, we shouldn't hold grudges or be mean or like, pretend to be mad to make the other person feel guilty so they'll give us attention etc, basically means we have to treat ppl well, so there'll be no regrets! :) And forgive!!!!! No matter how much it hurts, just forgive! For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. (Matthew 6:14-15)
Andddd. Also there was one sermon that said, no matter how black the darkness deep inside of you, God is powerful enough to forgive you. For me, it means although you always sin again and again, although you may have dark thoughts or intentions inside of you, repent and God will still forgive. :)
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