The Year Of Drowning.

Yup. Hey guys. We just started our induction week at school. Yes. Induction for Year. Twelve. And I reckon that how this week is, is how it will be most of next year. 


I. Am. Stressed. 


Today is Tuesday, and we only started our sort-of-Year-12-but-not-really-official-yet classes yesterday. Despite that, I'm already really stressed about the work load. There was no 'since you've all finished exams, let's play Pictionary!' kind of scenario. It was just handouts after handouts and then beginning of lessons. Already, I have a Chemistry revision booklet to finish by this week, and all the English texts that I have to read before next year. We've started some stuff in Specialist Maths and Physics too. Oh gosh. I already feel the throbbing headache I always get when I feel slightly overwhelmed by the amount of work needed to be done. 


It's not that bad, I guess (what?). We have all of the year-end holidays to get them done. But I really really want to finish it by this week (the Chem work, that is). I just don't want to have to work during the holidays, especially because Pei and Steph are coming (next post!!) and then I'll be back in MALAYSIA!!!! I'm just really lazy. Ugh. (Single room, next post too!!!) And also because I'm alone, there's no annoying roommate that sleeps uber early anymore, thus I have gone back to my pattern of sleeping late ie. 12am and after. So I'm actually REALLY sleepy right now. 


I am facing a HUGE dilemma right now (AGAIN?). Yes, yes. Gosh. I don't know whether I should drop Physics for Psychology. Before, it was Physics for Accounting. The thing is, Physics is just REALLY ANNOYING. It's not that it's not interesting, it actually blows your mind at how energy is transferred bla bla bla. But the way it is taught here just.. makes my head implode multiple times! I groan and hit my head with my pencil case when the next period is Physics. It's just too much 'inference' and 'do this prac and you'll understand' stuff. I guess I'm too Asian. Too used to the really concise and probably not-so-fulfilling explanations I got in M'sia I guess. Psychology is amazingly interesting, that's what EVERYONE (seriously!) tells me. But the thing is, it gets scaled down!!! Either that or it stays where it is. 


Oh goshhhh. I'm going overboard with looking at the score I might get. Ugh. WHAT DO I DO? Well, I'm sort of leaning towards Psych. Accounting is just something boring. Psych is way more interesting, and my mum already gave me the green light anyway. But the thing is, will I be able to get more than a 40 to not get scaled down? I just checked the scaling sheet, what if I did Biology then? It gets scaled up or not at all. UGHHHHH. I'll ask my friends tomorrow. I just PRAY that God will show me what I should do (corny?). But yea. Hopefully I won't make the wrong decision. :S :/