Karma.

Hey guys. Yea I know. I kept it up for a while. Sigh. I'm seriously telling you, Facebook has some kind of ridiculous hold on me. I think that it's because of the restlessness I get all the time. So I just sit there and click 'refresh' and close the window and open it again. And again. 


So guys. (haha to the fact I always deceive myself to the fact that there is a chance someone actually reads this). The latest thing is my exams. My Year 11 exams that in my childish opinion, doesn't matter. I just thought/think that I could, for once in my life, not study so hard for these exams. My whole life, or let's say, for my entire high school life (since form 1 or Year 7), it's been about studying for exams. And studying means sleeping at 12am or later, memorising stuff and being able to recite CHAPTERS from the text book. (yes, there actually IS a reason why I call myself a geek). So yea. After my Year 12 exam (Maths Methods), I just thought that I.. you know.. kind of deserved to NOT study like a crazy Asian idiot for once. But well, my mum has been totally ROAR about it. Well, not ROAR. She's just been pestering me to study and study and sometimes, IT JUST MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM. My whole life I've delivered good grades. 


Sigh. Gotta chill. Anyway. The fact that I didn't want to study made me complacent about it. (apparently 'contented' is a synonym of 'complacent' :D). Which I don't mind, because it's my own decision. And I know what kind of results I'm gonna get. Just average. "OMYGOOSHHHHHH JUST AVERAGE?????? WHAT KIND OF ASIAN ARE YOUUUUUU?". (-.-) I know. I'll probably feel the sting when everyone else gets better results than me. But oh well. I'm not a hypocrite, I don't complain about things that are of my own fault (I try not to anyway). But karma, I'm telling you. Or maybe it's God. Haha. I'm sure it's God who controls karma anyway. Well. So I had my Gen A (General A, aka AGM (Advanced General Maths), aka Specialist Maths Units 1,2)(phew) exam yesterday and there was this tough question at the end (this is Tech Open, means the one with a calculator and notes). It wasn't that tough, it was just that I didn't understand the sentence they used. So I was stuck there for quite a while, just trying to interpret what the person was trying to say. So imagine my elation when I finally GOT IT. And when I got out, and the discussion was going on and everything, I found out I did a REALLY REALLY... REALLYYY silly mistake. I square rooted (9+4m^2) to (3+2m)!!!!!! WHO DOES THAT???????? Oh gosh. So that was karma case number one. :) THEN, today I had my Literature exam and BOY am I glad that I'm not doing Lit anymore next year. The exam was on Othello, The Great Gatsby, and a poem which was The Second Coming. So there was Section A: the analytical essay, Section B: extract analysis, then it was questions for the poem. So GUESS WHAT? I did the same text, The Great Gatsby, for both Section A and Section B. And apparently we're not supposed to do that. WHO KNEW (Pink.. -.- (the song))? Ugh. Oh well. 


(BTW, sorry about all the brackets, which could means something like a thought above a thought, or a voice over, or a sarcastic comment. This is just the train of my thoughts which is ALWAYSSS running). Ok. Drumroll. My Methods exam. THE ONE THAT MATTERS. Oh goshhhhhhh. It was like something I've actually experience before. You know when you're in an exam, and you're doing maths, and you are feel your cells hurrying because you KNOW you don't have enough time and you just skip ahead of yourself and do questions halfway, get stuck, and go to the next question without finishing that one? That's what I did for my Methods Tech Open, and I did it for A LOT of questions. So yea. It was kind of expected and the paper. Oh goshhhhhhh the paper was SOOOOO HARD. We've been doing like LOADS of past papers and trial exams. Like 10, and if you want to count them by Tech Open as one and Tech Free as one, then it would've been like 20. Or so. I don't know. I never counted. Anyway. So the past VCAA ones, which is the ____ (insert own noun here.. company? thingo?) that produces our exam papers, they were all ok. Like they weren't easy peasy, they were some tough ones, but they were all do-able. Then you come to the other trial exams, like Insight, Kilbaha etc, they were all SO HARD. Like you-just-get-so-lazy-and-just-give-up-half-way hard! They were crazy. But THIS YEAR'S exam was like those ones. It was just so harddddddd. I'm serious when I'm saying that it was hard. I was doing the paper, literally sitting there and trying to think, and my exact train of thought was: 'THIS is the exam that actually matters. THE VCE exam. And I can't do it.' So yea. For Tech Free, they were pretty easy but the last question. It wasn't particularly hard, just that there's never been those kind of questions before so, naturally, with me being me, I got stuck. I THOUGHT of similar triangles BUT kept focusing on the area. ARGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!! It was just the ratio!!!!!!!! 


You know, the worst thing was when I came out and a few days after that, my friends asked me how I went, and I told them I didn't do very well. It was hard and everything. And they all just kept saying "I'm sure you did fine. You'll be fine". But I'm NOT the kind of person who says things without meaning them. The kind that say negative things so that they'll get reassurance. The kind that put negative captions for their photos saying "oh I look so fat" so people will comment saying otherwise. GOSH. I. DID. BADLY. Oh well. We'll just cross our fingers and hope that everyone else did worse than I did hey? :) Results get out on the 13th of Dec! FREAK OUT!!!!!! I seriously don't know what to expect. Gah. 


Tomorrow I'm sitting for my LAST exam this year!!!! How uber exciting!!! But like I said, I haven't been breaking my back over it, so it's all good. :) I've been watching a lot of movies. And because of my insane restlessness on the day I finish my Methods exam, I downloaded this software that allows me to play DS games on my Mac. And I'm playing Harvest Moon DS!!! WOOO!!!!!! I now have 4 chickens who love me (HAHA) and a horse! And of course crops. OH and I also have a Mushroom Shed. That's a bit sad. But oh welllll. I've watched: (prepare yourself) Die Hard, Die Harder, Die Hard with a Vengeance (all not THAT great). Repo Men (-.-), Cop Out (kind of bad), Whip It (LOVED IT!), Avatar The Last Airbender (couldn't even finish it), The Book Of Eli (AMAZING!!!!!), Date Night (-.-), Kick Ass (ngeh), Eclipse (was actually better than expected), Youth In Revolt (stupid movie) and Killers (not too bad, try hard of Mr and Mrs Smith). :D :D So yea. 


What's been hurting me and my insanity for that couple of days NEXT POST! :D