Sanity Took Leave.

What's been hurting me: needless to say, myself. It's just I feel so empty! Well, not the kind I used to talk about before, the kind that comes about with the present situation's emo-ness and loneliness put together. It's the kind where you just feel that your life is meaningless. Yea. I'm not depressed, don't get the wrong idea. It's just.. This past month or so, I've just been doing NOTHING. Facebook is a big part of that, and yes, Facebook IS nothing. It's meaningless to me. The only reason why I keep it is because it's, unfortunately, the only means to communicate with my friends back home. It's not like we actually communicate anyway. But it's just a way to look for each other and give feeble comments. Anyway. So yea, I've spent almost all my waking hours which are not spent at school on Facebook. Apart from that, I've been going onto Youtube, watching movies, watching Vampire Diaries online... and that's about it. No reading, no blogging. That's been my life. That's what's been hurting me. Well, not really hurting. More like.. just really annoying and bothering me. I don't want my life to amount to nothing. And as far as it goes, my life IS nothing. Don't worry. I've amended that. Well, at least I'm in the process of doing so. I have asked Tur to change my Facebook password. I just don't want my life to be all about depending on Facebook you know? I don't want that to be all I do. I haven't even emailed by friends for AGES. That's so sad. Because I've been too lazy or too 'busy' to do so. What an excuse. Someone please slap me. So yea I plan to not go on Facebook until after their SPM. I've changed Tur's password too. SPM is like in 7 days or 6 or something like that. But I plan to not go on Facebook even after that. Just until that itch goes away, until I no longer automatically move my mouse onto the Facebook icon once I go onto Safari. :) I'm going through a withdrawal period. :D


So anywayyy. The other day, last week on Tuesday I think? I went absoluuuutely insane. It was the second day of THAT time of the month and I was SO INCREDIBLY emotional. I never got that before. Like I've had the times when I get angry and frustrated easily, but this was nothing like that. My emotions were all over the place. Not kidding. I was happy one moment then angry, then emo, then upset, then hyper. It fluctuated like MAD and I. COULD. NOT. STAND. IT. It was making me sooooooo crazy and soooo insane. It was bad when I saw nobody online, and there wasn't anyone I could talk to. Wow. I WOULD NEVER want to feel that way again. All the heightened emotions. I couldn't take it man. Anyway. That was when I implemented Project Tur-Skype. :D I Facebook-Messaged Tur and gave her the links and everything to download Skype. Then we met online for the first time on SKYPE (NO TO FACEBOOK!) and her microphone didn't work. -.- I was insane at that time, so I tried desperately to look for one for her IN KK. And in the end, Mike BOUGHT one for her and dropped it off to HER house. Oh gosh. I owe him my sanity.. 


Well. We've had a few chats and stuff. That's why my eyes are barely able to stay open now. Because for a long time, I've been sleeping early. Yes, early as in 10pm or later, never past midnight (unless I have homework due or Jessie is online or something). This is thanks to my roommate who sleeps VERY EARLY. So now I feel like how I felt back home when I used to sleep late every night. Because of the 3 hour time difference, and Tur having tuition all the time until 9.30pm her time, I've been having to sleep at like 1am or later these few days. So yea. REALLY tired now. Gonna sleep really early tonight. I'll be revising my Gen A stuff (last exam tomorrow!!!) and then SLEEP! :D 


The happenings which I will post about next have changed my life. :)