Dominoes

I hate the dominoes effect. I HATE IT. It always makes me feel so crappy. I'm talking about when I think of something sad or something MAKES me feel sad, then as usual, my perpetually flying thoughts makes me lead that sad feeling to another, and to another, and to another.

I'm not going to talk about it too much. I'm just going to say that the end product of my 'depressed period' is me feeling immensely lonely and out of place, friendless. Curse my cursed 'speech impediment in the English language'. At times like this I wish that I was still back home, or at least studying in KL or in Malaysia. And yet I know I'm lucky for this opportunity to study here and stuff. I'm always contradicting myself. I never let myself feel one way, I always turn around and say 'but I shouldn't think like that because (state reason)'. Stupid.

I would like to talk about the cause of this, the first domino that someone flicked over and started the landslide of emotions that have landed me with this anger and resentment towards a lot of things.

Oh and yes, Jessie. This post does remind me of the song you posted up on YOUR blog so long ago which is called 'dominoes'.

Well.. Today is Kev's (and Dudu's) birthday. Happy birthday Kev!!! You're 25 (GASP!)!!! I cooked Kev an omelette (mushroom and onions) and it was pretty good. A success!! WHEE!! I love cooking omelettes!!! They are awesome! I'll talk more about these things soon.. someday. I know I haven't blogged much. Blame the games and stupid books.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEV! Hope that you will continue to grow and learn. Hope that you are always safe.