Sore

I feel so tired and sore from just now. I feel so useless, really. How come I just can't stop myself, pick up some fallen pieces and maybe take a few deep breaths and stand up for myself? Why do I always have to be the one to hold it in? To choose the path where I don't shout and scream and throw a tantrum and just silently cry?

Hate it.

Sudden rain.. There's thunder and lightning. Going off. Bye people.

Hope my eyes won't look like they have been crying.

If people like Edward existed, they would explode reading my mind.

9/10 ANYWAY, refer to above post. So A was angry and A scolded me. A said I always use A, that I don't care about what A has to do as long as A can drive me, and that I always say that A is fat. 'Who do you think you are? Princess ah?' A said.

So sad. But you know why? It is because it is true. I was so sad, cried but for a different reason this time. What I felt was very confusing. It IS true. What A said is true. I always ask A to drive me. Sometimes, because of miscommunication, A had to leave in the middle of yam cha with A's friends. And as I said in the post above, I do tease A about things, but because I'm tired of A saying A will change, but not doing anything. I'm ok with A being the way A is now, but it's the fact that A says A will change, but does not. So... I feel so sad about this. So many unsaid things. No one brought it up again.