OK. FIRST OF ALL,

Let's get the sad things out of the way first. Here is the post 'Gone Too Far'.

So anyway. This post is quite personal. I don't like A, the subject of this post who you might or might not know who it is. Why? I think it's simple yet complicated, yet isn't everything like that? But before this, you have to know the kind of person I am. I am really sensitive to what everyone aronud me is feeling. I can tell when someone wants something, when someone is starting to get angry, when someone is uncomfortable and things like that. And it's because of that I am much too nice a person because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. And I don't like people saying that they will do something but don't. I also don't laugh at people meanly, because I know what it is like to be the topic of gossip.

Back to A. As I have come to know A better, I realised that A is a very selfish person, I guess, inconsiderate. A spends alot of money and yet A doesn't go get a proper job even though A has graduated and should be at a proper job already. A even started a Masters course but pulled out in the middle of it. I don't think much of that, it is definitely understandable, but also undeniably a waste of money. A sometimes talks about buying a car which is inappropriate to me because like I said, A hasn't gotten a job yet. A spends alot of money because of the way A drives which uses up alot of petrol, because A eats alot, and A likes to buy things impulsively.

A also says A wants to lose weight, yet A doesn't do anything about it. A eats alot, doesn't bother to cut down in quantity and doesn't even bother to cut down the unhealthy food. A used to be very fit and sporty, but A has let A-self go and though A says A wants to pull A-self back together, A doesn't.

A also is prejudiced. I don't like that. A laughs at people and thinks highly of A-self's background and such. We are blessed to be from quite well-off families. A has alot of pride. A looks down on people with low pay jobs. Yet we should be grateful, I feel, for they provide a service which everyone needs. As if A is too important to be doing such low pay, low class jobs. So disappointing.

A also likes to show off. A likes to show what A's intelligence is capable of. Sometimes A goes to far. Although sometimes A is right, and the other is wrong, it is sometimes not necessary to continue to argue the point, for it is not worth it, yet A can't just let go, even though that 'other' person is someone who took care of A since born, brought A up and sacrificed so, so much for A.

I think that because of all these things, and maybe more, I just get put off by A and don't really want to spend time talking to a person like A. That is why I always jokingly say that A is fat and things like that, but actually I do mean it. A IS fat and I just want A to realise that, really realise that. But don't get me wrong, A is still a caring person.

So now, when I talk to A, I'm not that interested in what A is saying, because of his personality. But then A did this really caring thing that I am really grateful of. A laminated the piece of paper 'This is what you want' paper I got from my friends. When A passed it to me, I wasn't concentrating fully on what A was doing as I am not interested in what A says to me. So I just said, put it there. But then after A left I realised what A did for me. And I feel SO bad. I still do. Whatever A is, A did this act for me, though I did not ask it from A. Yet I did not even say a thank you to A. To you, that act might not be able to justify who A is. Can it? I don't know. But I know that act deserve a serious thank you, and it has not been served by me.

So this is how far I've come to putting A on the sidelines when I am talking to A.

Gone too far. =(