'Tis Easter!

Sun 14:39 8/4/12


Went to mass just now. They had one at 9am and one at 10.30am. I wanted to go to the earlier one but wouldn't have made it in time cuz I snoozed my alarm too much. But you know. Everything happens for a reason. Cuz the 10.30am mass, the family mass, was AMAZING. Family mass is when the parents all bring their young kids. It was kinda noisy la.. the kids crying and stuff. Meh. But it was really good. 


I loved loved loved the choir oh. It wasn't really a choir la. But oh it was so good!!!! Like home! Cuz normally, the hymns here are either sung by this really amazing choir and you can't even sing along and can't even make out the lyrics at all (don't even know if they're singing in english!!!), or it's just one person who has an amazing falsetto voice. But this choir was all youngsters and some kids and it was lead by this guy who played the guitar. And they weren't perfect, but it was amazing. And the congregation sang along too. So lively. Loved it oh. The guitarist sometimes will stop playing the guitar at the right moment and it's just the voice of the people singing. Sounds like magic in my ears. Sounded amazing! The sermon was just ok though. The priest didn't say much. But I felt it was so much more personal than the other priest last week who just read it off from paper. The sermon was pretty good (last week's), but he could improve on his delivery you know? But anyway. 


Then we came to a part where all the young kids all went up to the altar. They stood and sat around the table, surrounding the priest. I was so confused, not knowing what was happening. Then they started singing Our Father!!!! The tune was different, didn't know how to sing it. But it was. amazing. They kinda repeated a few lines, and sang louder and louder. With the guitarist doing his thing. And then when they sang 'hallowed be Thy name', the kids and all the parents will raise their hands up high, bring them down, and put them up again when they repeat the line. So fun lo. Then I started crying. How silly how lame!!!! It was so sudden you know!!!!!!!!!! And it was quite bad too. Couldn't contain my tears!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Was really kinda sobbing lo. Right there in the middle of the pew, with strangers sitting beside me. AWKWARD. Haha. But I think it was because, the Our Father song is my favourite song of all lo. (Some churches just recite the prayer, some sing it). Cuz in our KK church, the tune is quite jolly. And last time we used to have to link our hands together. Link with those you came with la. And those at the end put the palm of their free hand facing upwards. And you sing together. And always enjoyed that bit of the mass, when I'm linking hands with my parents or siblings. And always always will have this squeezing hand war. And I was just thinking about all that and how I was SURE my siblings would think that what they were doing now would be soooooo cool. GAH. Was so sad!!! But happy cuz it was awesome. Happy tears, sad tears, all mixed into one till I was half dead trying to control my emotions. Blah. It was really good OH. :'( :'( I miss my family so much!!!!!!!!!! More than ever lo. Never really missed them a lot before, to be honest. Ugh. So scared that time will pass us by without us catching hold of it... then it'll be too late. Same fear as ever la. 


Then at the end, the recessional hymn (the last hymn) just opened up the flood gates again!!!!!!!! The lyrics went: God our Father I come to say, thank You for Your love today. Thank You for my family, and all the friends that you give to me, and guard me in the dark of night, and in the morning send Your light. Wooahhhhh. All the stuff about being thankful, and family and friends. Sniff!!!!!!! So sad!!!!!! Then after most people left, I was still sitting there. I didn't want to go home like that la. Ugh. I kinda stayed for the next service too. But anyway. While I was sitting there some strangers asked me if I was ok. Haha. And this lady kinda asked me what was wrong. And I just said I miss home. She asked me if I came alone, did I have any family here. Etc etc. So nice oh!!!!!! Bless kind people like her!! :D 


Well. It was amazing la really. Sad but good. :) Cuz. I guess. Like what I said to Elaine on Good Friday when she told me she cried, we should be grateful that we have something to be homesick about right? Hmm.. Hope that's true. Haha. Can't wait for dinner. Oh ya. My host mum gave me an easter egg!!!!! So unexpected!!! Was really really surprised and I felt so loved oh!!!! So kind and sweet! She was like Happy Easter! And she gave me those air kisses and half hugs. Haha. So grateful!!! Wish I had bought them something too. I really feel welcomed in this home. They're so kind and non-judgemental too (hopefully!). 


Well. Easter is about hope! About renewal! So renew yourselves yo!! Haha. I think I'm repeating myself. Oh well. HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!!!!!! Love your family!!! 

There are places I'll remember

All my life though some have changed

Some forever not for better

Some have gone and some remain

All these places had their moments

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When I think of love as something new

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before

I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more