Hello people!!! I didn't blog yesterday! Shocker right? Well.. Tomorrow is Sunday. The last day of my holiday and also the chance for me to really catch up! :( Did I accomplish what I set out to do at the start of the holiday? A big fat NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (continue till laptop runs out of battery). Well. I can be all mopey and emo because of this, but there's no one to blame but myself anyway. All I've been doing is religion. And I didn't even get it all done!!!!!! D:< MAKES ME SO ANGRY. UGH. -.- All my own faulttttttt. I spend most of my time eating you know! SERIOUSLY! I can spend like 3 hours just eating and eating. Blah blah. But oh well. Time cannot rewind. So what is not done, remains that way.
You know. We really have to speak up. I tell myself that I'm thick-skinned and that I don't really mind about what people think of me. But then I didn't speak up to this girl in my religion class to ask her for notes that I didn't get from the classes I missed out on. AND it makes me so angry. Cuz it could've made this week of catching up way more productive. ALL JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T SPEAK UP. I was too shy. -_____- T______T Oh well. What's not done, remains not done. Haha. :( You see? This is regret.
ANYWAY. DID YOU SEE MY FISHIES? I bought fishies! :D :D :D Haha. On my side bar. In my opinion, they're really cuteeeee. They'll swim towards your mouse cursor if you put it there, and when you click, fish food appears and they'll eat it. It's pretty cool loooo. The swimming motion of the fish is well done, and when they eat, ripples appear on the 'surface' of the water! So coollll!!! I love my fishies. Haha. There's one dummy fishie, and I call it Dummy. It's the green one. Dedicated to Denise. HAHAHAHHHAHAHA. BTW. Did you SEE? I'm totally NOT the Schmidt of the Dumbo Jar anymore. HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA.
Hahahaha. She's double my amount! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Totally gonna have like a seafood buffet and whatnot man when we meet. Or like ten bowls of ngiu chap or an amazing meal of Klang MOK KUT TEH!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahha. :p :p
Next. I feel like I've kinda been drifting from what matters lo. Like my blog. Usually I can blog twice a day or something cuz I just can't shut up (or I'm like procrastinating). But then these few days I've been doing those silly things instead of blogging. Like reading manga, playing Valet Hero, GTA (OMG PLS GTA IS NOT A GAME THAT CAN BE PLAYED ON AN ITOUCH. SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!), and just.. not reading or blogging. :( K. I will read later tonight. :) I just don't wanna waste my life on all these trivial things that doesn't let me improve myself in any way. You know? I should stay grounded, don't let myself drift away. Time is valuable. :)
I would like to take this opportunity to say again, appreciate your family. I know it's hard to see for those still back home, but going overseas to study is actually not a huge deal to be excited about. I mean, yes, of course it's a big thing and you should be excited about it, but I mean.. you know how some people, leaving home to study is like something they've been wanting to do forever, something they look forward to and can't wait for. Kinda the same like getting into a relationship, getting a close guy friend... it's not as awesome as you'll think it is. I mean. Yes, it will be awesome. But what I'm trying to say (uhhh) is that.. you'll forget things. Forget the way of life you used to lead, forget how you used to really interact with your family, forget all the small teeny little things. Maybe I've said this before.. but it's like how I forgot that I was kinda scared of the dark, that I won't ever look into my room when I'm trying to turn on the light, and I'll only look into my room when I get the light on. I forgot how close I used to be with Kat... how we used to talk at night and play (play usually consists of me annoying her.. hugging her and putting my hand under her pillow when she's trying to sleep). Like you take for granted things that happen everyday. Like I actually can't imagine how it would be if my whole family reunites. The 6 of us under one roof. I have no idea whether we will manage. I don't remember how we used to tolerate each other. You know? Haha. I don't really know what I'm saying. But yea.. just appreciate your family. Take some time out to talkkkk to them more.. go out with them more. Lest. It. Be. Too. Late. Seriously. Time is scary. It just goes on and on and on and never looks back. But we do. :( Scary. :/
Also. I would like to take this opportunity (hahaha. I'm just typing whatever comes into my head man) to apologise once again. To Denise. She said "You can never be satisfied" and that kinda stayed with me. Is it true? I think so. I mean. I am alwaysssss satisfied with food (BEFORE I TRY IT) (haha). But then with her? I was gonna type maybe, but I think 'probably' is more accurate. It's just the same old 'I wanna be first on your list' thing. But I don't want to be that kind of person. So, I'm sorry!!! :( And to me, sorry seems to be the hardest word, definitely, when you mean it. I want to be the kind of person that can stand on my two feet, not hoping or expecting from other people. Palm faced downward, not upward. You know? I'll continue trying to grow yo. :) Bear with me while I do. ;)
We're having Chinese take out for dinner!!!!!!! :D :D :D Ordered szechuan beef and fried rice!!!!! Hope it's good! :D :D Satisfied before I try it. ;) haha. Tomorrow, gonna go church. And hopeeeee Aunty Ah Mei (Uncle Ah Hao's sister) will be free. Wanna meet her for lunch. :D She's really nice. But she's a obstetrician gynecologist and she might have to cover a shift tomorrow. Hope she's free!
Nirvana made a lemon cheese cake the other day! For like a pre-celebration of Gary's bday (her partner/fiancé?) on Sunday. It's SO YUMMY. I usually don't like any lemon or orange/citrus stuff in dessert. But this is so good. It actually taste like mum's!!!!!!!!! Really like hers! Just the texture is about softer.. and without the pineapple bits and the cinnamon! And of course the bottom is different too. The biscuit bottom. Haha. So yummy.
You know. This time when I go back, I WILL ask my mum to teach me how to cook and bake stuff. The stuff she always makes, I want to learn. LEST IT'S TOO LATE. I said I wanted to learn last time.. but just didn't bother when I got home. Just wanna sit on the BEST COUCH IN THE WORLD and do nothing. But I really wanna spend more time with my parents this time I'm back. :) :) Which means being a person who remembers small stuff (I'm so bad at that!). Like if I'm in town, I should think to buy the puo luo pao that's so dear to our family, and bring it over to my dad's office. Or ta pao some for my mum. You know? Things like that. I always never think of those things until I'm on the way home or something. NEED TO IMPROVE!!!!
OMGOSHHHHHHHHHH. OMGOSH!!!! I almostttt forgot to mention this. I'm. GOING. TO. SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bought flight tickets and booked hotel and stuff! Going with PAM! :D Come on! OMGOSH. You know it's kinda surreal for me? How many years has it been since I've become some kind of fan of him? Listening to his music, watching his videos, his live performances, his impromptu performances with Bushwalla, his home videos of those I Say games (is that what it's called?), reading his blog (RIP FF5000!!).. and finally I can see him LIVE!!!!!!!!! And I'm here day dreaming about getting to meet him in person, taking a photo with him, getting a guitar pick from him. UGH. If only. I really can't believe that in a few months, I can see him IN PERSON. And it says a lot that I choose to go and see him instead of going HOME lo. HOME which I miss oh so much. Haha. I can't wait.
(I also really can't believe that in a few months, Imma sit for my Leaving Cert and it's like.. I don't know what I'm doing. zzz. Haha.) Remember to pray and look to God at all times. :) Pray and believe! Pray and STRIVE! Jia you!!!!!!!!!!! :S :S :S :( :)
And my parents are coming to Ireland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH! I keep imagining the day they arrive. How happy I'll be to hug them! :D :D :D My mum hasn't seen me in person since I cut my hair short. Haha but I wonder what my hair will look like in two months time -.- Probably will be all over the place. Haha. Ok. I should stop talking. SORRY FOR THE LONG POST. Just didn't wanna stop talking. Gotta cut my nails!!!!!
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