THIS IS EPIC!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

*5 minutes later* OMGOSHHHHHHH OMG OMGOSH!!!!! HIS FAVOURITE COLOUR IS GREEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! 

Sat 23:14

COFFEE and CAKE.

Hello!! Today was an expensive day. So I went to the Stillorgan Shopping Centre and went to buy my Berocca! Hehe. Just felt that I needed some Vitamin C after I got quite sick during the holidays. And till now I'm not perfectly well, but haha. I'll survive. :) I got them on sale! So yay!!! :D :D Spent €21 on 60 tablets. Hope it was worth it. And then I went over to the library and it was FULLLLLLLLLL. :( So then I went to Bramble's Cafe. And bought food even though I just breakfast. Kinda sad. So that was €12. I guess it wasn't so bad. Cuz it was a smoked salmon roulade, whatever that is. With spinach too. And three salads. So it was really healthy. :D And then I sat there studyinggggg. And thennnn I bought a cake and coffee. It was on promotion!!! T.T Add €1 for the coffee so I just got it. Ugh. The cake was really good though. Apple and berries crumble. yummmmy!!!! :D :D The worst is that I'm going to spend money after I go to church. Ugh. But it was a good day. REALLY windy and quite cold, but still good cuz the sun was out! YEA! And while I was on the way home at about 5pm, this old man asked me for directions to the shopping centre. YAY I was so happy I could help you know!!! Then I was kindaaaa hyper from my mocha, so I was kinda skipping along.. and I was supposed to turn right at this opening in the stone wall that goes along the road, to cut through to the house, and I walked right past it cuz I was just thinking about how great the day was!!!! Then I had to stop, turn around, and walk back. I'm pretty sure the girl sitting at the bus stop saw me miss the turning. Haha. I was laughing at myself. Keep praying man!!! :D (The caffeine is kinda making me go crazy ugh!)


Anyway. From my book, he was talking about building an airstrip in the jungle. "We were going to need a big crew of Waodani, too-the bigger the better. The Waodani are all strong, and they are good workers when they are motivated. But they don't live to work. That is a unique trait common only to civilized people from the "developed" world. The Waodani work to live". It's like BAM. Just a simple phrase, but so much meaning to it!!!!!!! We kinda do live to work. No? Like since young, it's all been about our future, working towards our career choices and everything. So thought-provoking oh. And thennnnnnn. I went to Youtube Jason Mraz. HUGE MISTAKE. T.T Cuz now I'm stuck. Forever. AHHHHHH!!!! Went and clicked on a full show! 50minutes! Hahaahha. Already half way through. It's an old show from 2006, so it's all his old songs and some I've never heard before!!!! Coolio la. Listened to I'll Do Anything. Still love that song!!!! He sounds so sexy la. Haha. "Well baby, I'm single~" EEEEEEE. "So step on up to the plate get a date with mraz, see you better act fast because supplies they never last, well did you know, this is a limited time offer~" Hahahaha if I were at that show I'll shout out "I'm taking the offer!!!!!!" Hahahahahaha. 


And I mighttt have posted about this song before too: Life is Wonderful. Just the simplicity of the words. And so true too!!!!! 


It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished



I read somewhere before, like when you're thinking about how tiring a long walk from one place to another is, you should be grateful because you have functioning legs that allow you to walk that distance to make you feel tired. No? Kinda the same thing like be grateful that you feel home sick, cuz it means you have a home to begin with. Something like that. :) It takes the dust to have it polished. ;) Ohhh and he talked about Details In The Fabric. How it was called Sewing Machine before!!!! Hahahaha. And stumbled upon this new song I hadn't heard before. Now I understand what Jason Wong meant when he said that Jason Mraz's new album makes you happy, like he sings to make people happy. This song lifts my heart a lot!!! 








Let's sing to be happy, to feel things, to communicate, be heard
We sing out to protest, and to project, and to harmonize with birds
Whether it's your birthday, or your dying day
It's a celebration too
Rejoice to use your voice, and give wings to any your choice
Whatever you're choosing right now, it's right well where you are
You don't need a vacation when there's nothing to escape from


Like in A Beautiful Mess. He sings that life is a beautiful mess, and "here we are". I think he said before in his blog (RIP FF5000!!!), "and this is what my life looks like". He said that where we're standing now is what our life is. IT'S TRUE!!!! All the choices we've made lead us up to here. Like I'm here in Ireland, this is my life. Kinda the same idea lo when he says "whatever you're choosing right now, it's right well where you are". :) So yea. Our life is in our hands. Haha. And I should really stop listening to him on Youtube and start studying!!!! AHHHHH!!!!! That's the thing. When I'm happy, I find it so hard to settle down and study. Hahaha. 


LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!! Love my parents! :D 


Oh ya, here's the link to the show I'm listening to. :) His pants are pretty epic. And he was so young then man! Maybe one day, I may be able to play the guitar as well as him. :/ So go make your next choice, be your best choice! ;) YES! Click it!! OHMYGOSH! At least listen to the last song at about 43 mins in, that performance of Plane was SO GOOD! Ok. Seriously. I needa study!


Sat 28/4/12 20:15

Mysteriously...

Wooooo!!! Blogger has updated itself while I was away trying to study. Kinda confusing, tbh. But seems pretty cool but annoying too. No one really likes change I guess. So anyway. HELLO!!!!!!!! I haven't been blogging for a while! Eeeehehehehe. Nice to finally be able to lay my thoughts out man. They've been clogging up, giving me headaches and sadness. So glad that my fishies are still alive man. Aaahahahahahaaaaaaa. 


Ok, seriously. Lots of things have happened since I've been gone. Here's an update. 


1. School stuffs. Been going okayishhh. Staying at the library, studying, struggling. Nothing new I guess. Officially handed up my religion project FINALLY!!!!! Spent like 3 hours and a half hand writing it out, about 2000 words or so!! It was really tiring but amazing to finally get it all over and done with. Whee! There was one day when I got really really stressed up and even had a tear or two leaking out. I don't know.. I just made the mistake of thinking about all of the things I had to do in such a short time all at once, and I just couldn't handle it. But as always, the next day came and it was all okay. So yea. Have to keep moving forward. Don't settle for the plateau, as Jason said Bruce Lee said. Haha. Even if it kills you. I think the biggest motivation for me now comes when I think of this: Imagine if you don't get the score. OMGOSH!!!!!! That's super scary. Like grips-my-heart-so-I-can't-breathe scary! Imagine if I don't get it. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would flip a million tables in frustration and will still be frustrated!!! Really gotta put in my all! Hahahaha ohmygosh!! On Tuesday last week, I actually forgot to go to class!!!!! My Physics classes are always the last one of the day, usually at 4pm 5pm or so. On Tues it's 5pm and I have religion class before that. So during religion, I was kinda half focused only.. and was chatting to Jason a little cuz I was sooooo sleepy. I was thinking wistfully about how it used to be with really familiar friends. Where you don't really have to worry about anything.. where you could just walk into their houses.. where you know their parents. Stuff like that. Just really familiar that you don't think twice? And so I told him, Yer, miss my friends that I'm familiar with. Then he replied "Miss you too" or somethinggg like that. AAAHAHAHAHAHA then immediately I wasn't sleepy anymore cuz honestly, it was kinda amusing that he said that lo. HAHAHAHA. From a GUY! But he's always been a little diff from other guys. Haha. "Special". Hahaha. (But honestly, all jokes aside, I do miss him la. One of my 'buddies', as he puts it. Just found it really funny that a guy would say that bah. Even I don't really say that to my female friends man! :p) Then a few minutes later class was over, and I was in such a good mood I actually started going on my way home!! When I got off the tram and was walking back to the house, I suddenly stopped right on the pavement, looked at the time, and was like OH FUGGLE! I have physics! EEEEEE!!!! TRUST ME to be the kind of person that's as silly as that. WHO DOES THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha. So yea, that was something interesting that has never really happened to me before. Pretty cool pretty cool! Haha. 


2. On the Monday of this week, had an interview at RCSI for all the international students. RCSI, for Medicine. 90% of the students were from my school, all the Middle Easterners. It went quite good. I said almost all I got to say. My school held mock interviews for us all, which was pretty good for me. Though Elaine reckons that it'll make the interview kinda rehearsed, for me, it gave me a chance to really think about what my stance was with the questions they would ask. Like why I wanted to be a doctor, what qualities do you think you have that makes you suited etc etc. It gave me a chance to think about how I would answer these questions, because I struggle with those kind of questions because honestly, I don't know. I don't know how to lie, so I kept trying to find the honest answers to those questions. In the end, I did ok. Sounded convincing I guess. Oh, the lies! I said things like, I KNOW that being a doctor is what I want to do, and I will stick it out to the end and I have the determination to succeed. I'm very sure of myself, that's one of my qualities. I know that this is what I want, and I will go for it. Etc. TSK TSK. And I said things like I've heard about the long hours and the emotional stress of being a doctor, and that was one of my main concerns too. But I think that the fact that you are able to help so many people outweighs all this, and knowing that, I know I will be able to stick it out. Haha. Of course it wasn't phrased so nicely la. But yea. In actual fact, I'm terrified about that aspect of being a doctor lo. There's so much responsibility in your hands. And what happens if one of your immediate families gets sick? How would you respond, knowing you have the qualifications to save a life. What if you fail? OMGOSH. Scary!!!! Like in Grey's Anatomy... the super old episode where one of George O'Malley's family got sick. And he couldn't deal. etc etc etc. Yup. All in all, the interview was good. If I get it, will I go? I don't really know. It's kinda on the no side, because of the culture of the uni.. how it's so money-minded. And the fees are OMG expensive! My jaw literally fell open when I saw the figures online and did the multiplications in my head. Woah man!!!!!!!! But I don't know. After all the thinking about the questions and stuff, it was kinda like I was trying to convince myself that that was what I want. And I don't know oh. The end can be great, I really can help many people. But then the process is going to be a super tedious and hard and tough tough tough one. Do I really want that kind of lifestyle? There's so much more to life. etc etc. Haha. Omgosh. This is gonna be a long post. ANYWAY. The interview, everyone said it was great.. the interviewers were all so friendly etc. Haha. But guess what? If they all said it went well, then what's gonna happen? They can't let us all in. You know? I'm suspecting that they were looking for something more than your ability to communicate well. I don't know la. MEH. Lastly, I got asked an interesting question. They asked me, in my opinion, in the whole world, what is the most pressing disease/infection/illness that needs our immediate attention...that we need to find a cure for urgently. I was kinda stuck because there's just SO MANY crazy diseases out there. In the end I just went with what I knew about the most, cancer. Told them a little about Melina. How it's such a horrible disease. Kat said HIV could've been one, and I think it's probably a better answer. But I don't really know much about HIV so I couldn't have said much about it too. Haha. GENERAL KNOWLEDGE, I need to increase you. 


3. 24/4!!!! TUR'S BDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUR!!!!!! I skype with her quite often.. and it's kinda funny cuz sometimes I can't even HEAR what she's saying due to lousy microphone or whatever on her side, and sometimes my line is bad too. But yea it's kinda like whut lo when we skype. Haha. I was just hoping to get to skype her on her bday and like have a cupcake there, sing happy bday to her and then eat the cupcake on her behalf (hahaha). But then I got a whatsapp from Pei the day before Tur's bday! She asked me what I was doing, and told me she wanted to post photos up of her and her card to Tur. She asked me if I wanted to do the same. So we discussed it a little and I got the idea that we could do it together.. as in join forces, she holds happy and I hold bday kinda thing. Take a photo then upload it. You know? We discussed and GOSH the TIME DIFFERENCE! It was either she slept really late and skype me on that day we were discussing, or she wake up early and I sleep late for us to meet. Because I knew she was those early night people and that she had no trouble waking up early, I just said I'll sleep late. So we did it!!! It was crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy. The line was pretty bad! We keptttt getting disconnected! And we took so many photos of the same thing, trying this out and changing that. And we just impromptu went along with whatever other ideas we had. It was pretty outrageous and funny you know! Like when we wear both trying to join our hands tgth to make a heart shape, with each of us making half of the heart with one hand, we were like "a lil to the left, left, right!! right a lil more! back! wait wait wait! left a littleeeee! ok ok! smile!!!!!" *printscreen* hahaha. It was really funny. And in the end, it turned out AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! I only have seen a few of the final products! But Tur really liked it and she was in the lab in her school on Facebook and she was doing her signature squeals and giggles when she was looking through the photos. So that's good. :D :D Tur got a surprise party by her church friends. A large group of them you know! So it's really cool to know that she's doing well there, that though it's only been a few months, she has people who care for her. See! Church communities make a difference lo! Pei Whatsapped me when I was in school, and she said "You know? they actually took photo with our photo and said it is our group photo! So sweet!! I'm so touched! hahaha! When tur saw the album she keep making those weird sound in sch like keep yer yer yer like that. Hahaha so funny!" It was really awesome lo. You know.. it made me really miss them a lot. The four of us. KTPS. Since Senior 1, that was when it became the four of us. It hasn't been the most flawless of friendships la.. we've had minor falling outs and inevitably, now that we're all in different places, we kinda drifted apart. I hadn't really kept in touch with Pei much lo. Just life taking its toll on us la. But then with that effort for Tur, it made me realise how I had kinda slowly forgotten about how it used to be, the four of us. TIME MAKES YOU FORGET!!!!!!!! Kinda forgotten how it used to be when it's just so familiar. Like close friends, we've had sleepovers, had sleepovers with very little sleep, had sleepovers where we just slept, brush teeth tgth, eat bfast half asleep.. so many things that you just won't really do with any other ppl. Those kind of days are gonna be so rare now. We're all growing up. Sigh. Miss it much. It was all amazing. :) Haha. HAPPY BDAY to Tur again! (You know.. Felt really blessed lo. That I have all these memories. All these close friends. Like Pei, Steph, Tur.. Dummy.. Fiona.. etc. The kind of closeness that's kinda hard to find. Not every one has it. Feel so lucky! And like having a sissy sis to count me down to my super huge exam. Really just so blessed oh!!!!!!!! TTSS life is really different. :) Haha ok I dunno what the talk I am about derrrr)


4. I wonder whether teachers can tell my mind is totally blank when they make eye contact with me, and I'm kinda looking at the board but NOTHING is going through my mind. Then my nerves kinda make me register and goes ALERTTTT! TEACHER HAS MADE EYE CONTACT and my heart beats really hard once and then enough blood goes to my brain then snap back to reality and WOAHHHHHH I wonder whether he could tell I was spacing out. Then I refocus and take in what's on the board and what's being said. Haha. ALWAYS HAPPENS. My mind is just blank sometimes you know.. I really wonder if they can tell that all that's in my head are just the echos from droplets of water hitting the imaginary floor of an empty room. WHUUT. hahaha. 


5. On Tur's bday too. Had an epic skype with Ray!!!!! Hahaha. First time we really just kept talking! It wasn't that good la cuz we're both supposed to be STUDYING! But it was really awesome lo! We talked about Emer.. about friends.. judgmental, future, family. So much stuff. I kinda think Emer is like me lo.. really outgoing and talkative and loud and a lil outrageous. And I kinda was looking for the same thing that she's struggling with now: real friends. We're both kinda... idealistic? In the way that we both want a circle of close friends. I guess I was pretty lucky.. I did get that. Quite a lot too you know! So yea. I pray she'll be able to find it too, and that she'll do a better job than I did!!! Friendship is a tough journey man. Pray you'll find friends that love you as much as you love them... and that they will treat you well. Pretty coolio lo. Ray is soooooooo.. wise oh. Like when she was talking about her judgmental friend, like she even kinda told her friend off for judging one of their friends. So articulate oh! I don't think I would be able to be ever talk that way lo! And like the way she views stuff is so mature lo. How she said she will take care of her mum in the future.. how she says should never judge people etc. So seldom to meet people like that. Haha. Once again, made me kinda realise that indeed everything happens for a reason. Like in Senior 1, I got forced to buy the new uniform tho I was leaving to Melb in a month or so. Then I came back for S3 and I had uniform to wear. Then I didn't do that well in UEC.. then I came here. And so did Elaine (thank God!!!!! Wouldn't know how I would survive without her la) (WHAT ARE THE CHANCES! Two KK ppl in the same school in IRELAND). Then same time zone with Ray, become close to her. In a way, I also kinda became closer with Jason looo.. Drifted from Moses and Eugene.. became closer with Dummy too. But I have no idea where it all leads to. What's gonna happen in the future? I'm kinda worried that by the end of the year.. I might not be close with Jason anymore or Ray etc. You know how life just happens right? So yea. Kinda sad. Guess we just gotta put in the effort no? Has to be two sided!!!!! Haha. Life is mysterious.. Right? God works in mysterious ways. Pretty cool pretty cool. 


6. Oooh! I got 95% for my Maths Paper 2 mock you know!!!!!!!!! SO IMPRESSIVE, if I may say so myself. Like. Super impressive la. Greeshma got 50% for it. So it was a total shock la when I found out. BUT. I didn't manage to get my paper back. Because they just leave all the handouts from teachers at one corner of the library. And you have to go and take it yourself. So someone stole mine. SIGH. Really sad cuz I don't even REMEMBER what I did in the paper. Seriously. But anyway. So when Nini found out, (Elaine told her) she asked me to teach her probability. I was kinda hesitant cuz Prob and Statistics are the two chapters I'm the least confident about. But I said ok I'll try. So I've been looking at the units and revising them and finding ways (in some way, planning) how to explain and teach it. I was kinda worried about it la. I really wanted to do a good job. We had planned for me to teach during lunch today. So yea.. I prayed and worried etc etc. And today arrived. And it went WELL!!!!!!!!! YAYYYY! Super happy la. I blundered from time to time, having to rewind. But it went better than expected. Thank GOD!!!!! :D :D I loved it lo.. Love making a difference!!!!! Helping people! Wheee!! Didn't finish everything but yea.. continue soon if they need it I guess. Saw Nwando (who kinda joined in too but also chatting with her friend on her phone) in the library after school and she was like, "I understand it!!! I get what I'm reading!" kinda thing. And went over to Nini, she could do most of the questions!!!!! Helped her through some of the questions she had trouble with. But yea. SO SATISFYING OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life is mysterious. God works in mysterious ways. I was really happy lo. So while walking home at 7pm after studying in the library, the weather was GREAT. Well, it was kinda cold, but the sun was shining through the clouds (yes.. shining! at 7pm! Sun sets at like 9pm now!) and it wasn't raining and ridiculously windy like it had been the past few days. What a change! But the point is, is that it's not the first time when I get a great day AND the weather is coincidently great too on that day. Seriously! Rmbr that time 1st of March when I was super hyper and happy? The sky was really beautiful on that day too. And the day Big Bang's song made me happy and I was feeling good? I rmbr thinking the weather wasn't that bad. Give thanks man!!! Give thanks! :D


7. Talked to Ray about future some time ago. She showed me this video. Just made me think about all the other possibilities out there that will let me help people. So ugh la. How do you know which decision is right? AGHHH!! Makes me go crazy oh. Like.. lie-on-the-carpet-face-down crazy! But yea. Check the video out. So amazing la!!!! Srsly! :( I WANNA HELP PPL!!!! 






8. You know, now I'm reading End of the Spear, bt Steve Saint. It's a true story and it's a Christian book. Funnily enough, Ray's parents gave it to me for Christmas (I think) in 2007. Love it that they wrote the year and a wish for me on one of the blank pages in the front lo!! And for some reason, I randomly chose to bring the book here and started reading it. I've been wanting to post about it for quite a while now. It's pretty interesting. The style of writing a little repetitive but that's not the point because it's not fiction anyway. So it's basically about this tribe, the Waodani, living in the deep jungles in Ecuador (I think). And they were savages before, with killing as their way of life. Like if you got to your mid-30s, you would've been considered really old, cuz most people die young because of all the spearing (their weapons are blowguns and spears). But they were introduced to God by missionaries, and since then they've been walking in God's path. No more killing. And the story is about how Steve Saint and his family are going to move to live with them to help them be independent and live as a functional society etc. The journey of making that decision la. So ANYWAY. Nah! "I thought of what King Solomon had said a couple of thousand years ago: "Those who love money will never have enough. How meaningless to think that wealth brings true happiness!" (Ecclesiastes 5:10). I knew from my experience that he was right. I though of all the time-saving devices my North American society had devised: dishwashers, washing machines, dryers, lawn mowers, vacuum cleaners... and the biggest necessity of all- the personal car. With all those time-savers, one would think that we would have lots of time to sit around and fine-tune our relationships with our friends and families. But that never happened. Despite civilization's handy time-savers, life has become such a rat race that we can't afford to stop even for a few days, much less a couple of months without risking everything. The Waodani were the ones who had time to play with babies and tell stories about everyday occurrences." Something to think about, no? Also, "I have long dreaded the thought of getting to the end of life and regretting that I allowed my own timidity or other people's expectations to determine the course of my life. I had decided at a much younger age that several of my beliefs should determine the course of my life." :/ Have YOU lead your life with your timidity and other's expectations making decisions for you? Are you holding fast to your beliefs? Living life satisfactorily, in a way you're proud of? Living it fully? Think about it!!!! Me? I honestly don't know oh. Anyway. "That is the kind of story we yearn for, the kind that ends with "And they live happily ever after." But that never happens. After each chapter, life just grinds on, and we have to go on making choices and living with the consequences." So true. Time never stops. Relentless. Scary! Which brings me to my next point. 


9. Life and Death. It's something that's been on my mind for quite some time you know. Seriously. Scares me so much oh. So there're a few reasons why this has been on my mind. First, it's just generally been there la. Talked to Dummy once or twice about life.. Like how we should appreciate appreciate appreciate family because you don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. "Do good deeds" she said. Haha. (ps. Dummy! You know.. the only time when I get a long msg from you is when we talk about death. What the bubbles man!!!!! What a topic to choose to be talkative about! -.- Talkative my head. I take that back. Ugh what am I saying. Haha. But it's true story though. Tsk!!! p~d!!!!). Second, my hostmum's uncle in England passed away. It was kinda expected. And then my hostdad's sister or whoever (somehow related to my hostparents la!) gave birth to a boy last week (pray for them because there were complications and the baby already has had surgery etc!!!!!!!). Just made me think how life and death just happens everyday. No exceptions. "Life just grinds on". So true la. Third, Elaine told me about how one of her friend's bro had Leukemia and he passed away after many years of having that disease. She told me that he was always in hospital and stuff. And we were talking about it la. It's really sad lo. Cuz you're just living your days out in the hospital, so weak. And other people, though they may care about you, they will have their own lives to lead. And eventually, they'll get caught up in life and in a way.. kind of forget you. And especially if, like him, you've had it for so many years, they'll just kinda be desensitized to it bah. And then bam, he passed away. And Elaine said that her friend, the sister, sometimes still says "I wish I had spent more time with him". You SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life is so short. So fickle!!! We're all in danger of getting caught up with our own lives you know! We really never know what's going to happen. Don't wait until it's too late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 


Fourth and lastly, Jeffrey Voon. It was news that spread really fast. Seriously. I found out from Gee, and I didn't know who he was.. just that he was Andrew Voon's son, the man who owned Coffee Bean and had a heart attack while training for a marathon in Likas. The sad thing is that now the mum and sisters are left behind. So sad la!!!! Nobody knows if it was an accident or a suicide. It's just really sad, how his dad just recently passed and now him. And it made me think about how fickle life is again. Felt sorry for the family. But other than that, didn't feel much except for fear for time. And then even when things like that happen, Chelsea still gets into the finals of the FA Cup, the Leaving Cert still approaches, birthdays are still celebrated. Life grinds on. And we just have to make choices and keep living. :( So..... unfair laaa!!!!!! Then the other day, was talking to Elaine about him, and she showed me a photo of him from Facebook and my heart honestly skipped a beat and I was totally shocked. I knew who he was! I didn't know that I knew him! But it's him!!!! I've seen him forever!!! Since primary school man! A year older than me. Same primary school then in TTSS again. Always just seen him around. And unexpectedly, it really did bring me down lo. Like, it made me feel that life was just soooo unfair that it brought tears to my eyes oh. So sad! So shocking! I don't know what I was feeling la. :( :( :( Like that day, I was really kinda down lo. And the reason was because of the information I had just learnt. And before bed, I told Dummy, "Really scared me. That I knew Jeffrey Voon. Been seeing him all my life since pri sch. So scary la! Imagine how it would be if someone you used to see all the time just disappeared forever. :((((((((( Can you imagine that? Think about it eh! Like if suddenly forever and ever you can't ever see someone who's always just been there. Friend or family or distant cousin. Scary! N also, like if you died tmr, would you say you lived life to the fullest? Content with where you are and what you've done? :( Spend time doing things that matter! Sososososo tired. I hope I don't die tmr. Cuz if I do, I would've spent my time just studying and being in this country so far away. Blah. Scary. Pray pray pray. Gnite". I was really down that day. All these thoughts amplified in my head.. weighing on my heart. Like Ray said, what is education without family? It's true!!!!!!! There's so much more to life than just this lo. It really just...... makes me so upset it's kinda silly cuz I didn't even really know him. But today walking to school, I was kinda thinking about it, and suddenly, out of no where, this quote from Harry Potter 7 popped into my head: Don't pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, above all those who live without love - Dumbledore. And that made me feel somehow better. Pray. Said to Dummy, pray that God won't ever give us something we can't handle (that will make ppl commit suicide), pray that God will watch over the Voon family, pray that God will have mercy on them, on us all. Seriously. Make sure your priorities are right ok!!!!!!!!!!! Some things matter more than others. :) Appreciate your family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lest it's too late. Yer. Time is so scary!!!!!!!!!!!! :( :( :( Hope the weight on my heart will lift soon. Feel so worried oh. Racing against time. In every thing. 


Well. This was a super duper long post. CHISOHAMNIDA! Haha. Spent all of today writing oh! Haha. Study tmr!!! Might go to a nearby library. We'll see. To end this kinda super serious post, when I told Jason that I've been worried and stressed.. headache and stuff. He said "relax your mind. Even Stephen Hawkings used to do rowing when he was bored" Whuttttttt. That made me laugh. Haha. Gnite yall! LOVE! LIVE WITH LOVE!!!!!!!!! 


28/4/12 01:00 EXACTLY!

Ending of Play Time.

"Don't wanna screw up again!" That's what Elaine said. She said she's not gonna turn her laptop on anymore. "For real". I would too you know.. but I can't not skype. Haha. It's also Elaine's second time doing matriculation... her last one was in Adelaide. So yea. No more screwing up. For both of us. So tomorrow is the start of Study Mode. Wow.. reminiscent of the times in Zhong, closing in on UEC, we always said Study Mode: ON! And we would always say 'Pink spirit!!!!!' and stuff like that to motivate ourselves. I always believed that it really helped lo. Knowing that everyone else had that same spirit, forging on to the finish. Well. Here are my new rules: Stay in school till 6.30pm every day!!!! So sometimes I finish later at 6pm, then extra study for half an hour. Some days I finish earlier, so I'll just stay till 6.30pm! Then, travel home. Reach about 7.30pm, then shower till 8pm, dinner till 8.30pm. Then Skype and STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Only can use phone on the tram, and when I'm eating. But I mightttt decide to cut short my lunch times to half an hour. Something like that. See la. I should. Ok. I will!!!!! Sacrifice man. "Only 3 months left of tears and sweat", Kat said. What would I be if I didn't even put in any tears or sweat? Right? Jia you. 


Now, I pray to God, and I ask for His guidance and strength!!!! I lift all my worries and stress and trepidation up to Him, and I put my faith in Him. Please Lord, bless me with Your grace, that I may do my very best, to glorify Your name, and to honour my parents! That is all I ask!!


Anyway. Today. Today was great. Went to church. HALLOWED BE THY NAME!!!!! Love the family mass, seriously! So enjoyable! Thank God I didn't cry again you know!!!!! So nice oh.. just seriously the kids are kinda noisy.. all the crying babies. -.- Haha. But I do enjoy it a lot! And then I was able to meet with Aunty Ah Mei!!! Went for DIM SUM!! Which is kinda weird cuz the other day in the London Trip Whatsapp group (me, Elaine and her friend, Michelle) were talking about our trip and I said I wanted dim sum, that we could have dim sum in London. Then they were all like aiyo.. eat dim sum in KK la! Hahaha. Then BAM. Aunty called me in the morning before mass started, saying we could go for dim sum! WOAH. We went to Good World Chinese Restaurant. We didn't really have dim sum.. Only Ham Sui Kok (which was really good!!!!). We had shredded duck mee hoon, deep fried squid, wafer wrapped king prawns? (deep fried too T.T), and also KOU ROU!!!!!!!! Which was pretty yummy. It was good food la.. Really. Just the two deep fried dishes I didn't really like. And we had Chinese Tea too! FROM THE POT!!!!!!!! Miss that so much! Love it oh! Since when did I start loving it? Haha. Maybe when I knew it was so hard to come by. So yummy! And best of all, had great conversation with Aunty!!! Talked and laughed.. I felt so easy to talk to her.. tell her about stuff. So cool lo!! Really really enjoyed myself a lot! So blessed! Really yo! ^o^ 


Oh ya!!! I got so many whatsapps today! @@ A lil from Jason, Jessie, Kev, Christabelle, Pei, Kat, ma, and of course Denise (pfft). Haha. Jessie's photo of herself with the purple headband her mum bought her that she was 'wearing'!!!! Christabelle and her roughness. And our vulgar words. Roughness. Hahaha. WANNA FIGHT??? HAHAHAHA! Pei's going to Russia in Sept!!!! OMG!!! SO FAR!!!! :O :O May God watch over her!!!! Oh it was kinda nice to catch up with her too. Hehe. Kev, telling him to bring me supper on the day I arrive in KL! BAK KUT TEH!!!!!!! KLANG! OMG! SO YUMMY!!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!! Oh and in the whatsapp group with me, Billy, Wan Rong, and Steph. Well.. Steph's in Aus now and the phone's her dad.. so it was Gwen and Soph we were chatting with. Usually the group is very inactive.. But Gwen and Soph were bored so they spammed us and stuff. And so nice loooo!! I kinda chatted with Gwen and Soph a lil.. Asking if they were gonna visit Steph, if Steph got her phone already, if Soph got her license already or not.. And I told Soph to say hi to her parents for me. And she did, and she was asking questions that her mum was asking me. Like what time was it there, have I eaten. She even asked me if I went to church already or not. So cool oh!!!!!!! Love it lo! That like I'm able to have a conversation with her parents kinda thing. I don't know la.. but it makes me feel like I'm a friend that's.. close? I don't know. Haha. I'm weird. (YOU DON'T SAY!). Gary's birthday was okay. Dinner wasn't the yummiest but oh well. :) His cake was a swiss roll which was pretty yummy! :D Had two slices. And now I'm going to bed soon. 


This is the end of play time y'all. Today was a really great day. Jia you!!!! PRAY!!!! Be strong! Keep looking forward, keep looking up to God!!!!!! Tomorrow, it begins!!!!!! COUNTDOWN: 46 days! Also, I won't be blogging a lot too. Haha. I should have no life to blog about anyway. No lame whatsapp conversations to put down too. So yea. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously I do! :D Goodbye! I WILL MISS YOU! And myself! See you in like.. 80 days or so after my exam. Haha. Kidding. I'll blog during weekends and stuff la. But yea. 80 days or so, then I'll REALLY REALLY see you properly! LESS THAN THREE LESS THAN THREE!!!!! AND FEED MY FISHIES OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please and thanks! 


Sun 23:36 15/4/12

Between Hello And Goodbye.

12th April 2012

Hello!!! This is a belated birthday post for my beloved friend, Denise!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok bye. 


































Giggle. Just kidding. You probably were like 'yes!' but haha in your dreams man. You gotta hear me talk forever!! Anyway. Happy happy birthday! I hope you had an amazing one, from the bottom of my heart!!! Probably the last birthday you'll spend at HOME. Well. 19. Seems old right? Haha. First, I would like to invite you to go and look at the small album Elsa made for you last year.. the one with the whole class filling those forms in for you. Remember? Read what I wrote! I remember that I was kinda hyper when I wrote it.. It had ponies and stuff inside. No? I'm pretty sure it'll make you laugh. Anyway. I wish you all the best in this year that you're 19. Seriously. New chapter, new life. :) But don't forget the past yo! :D Have no fear about starting uni, cuz like I said, and I'll say it again, friends and family got your back. So dive right in, head first, don't worry too much. Cuz no matter what, you have a home to run to to cry to. Or your pillow. Which I know has some of your tears. Hahaha. And I know you know this too, but you'll always have me. Bla bla. Insert corny stuff here. And I know you know that you're a very important person in my life. Sometimes I may do stupid things, but you still stand there beside me. Hehe. Thankkkk youuuuuuuuuuuuuu banyak banyak. I really just want to wish you well. In all you do, all the relationships you'll make soon, all your efforts and such... all the best!!!!!!! 


And when you get your present, just want you to know that I actually did spend quite some time looking for the right one for you. It was supposed to be for Christmas but we didn't really meet (hahaha rough times man at that time :/). And just so you know, I chose that gift because I want you to always have something to remember me by just in case, God forbid, we have to say goodbye. You know? So yea. I wanted something you would use/see regularly.. then you'll think of me. Hehe. :) :) And it had to last long so I made sure it won't become outdated. So yea. I did put some thought into it ok!!! :D Hope you like it! 


And I know I've told you this before, but I want to say it here. Remember that time we were saying really silly stuff, having fun? We were talking about Long Live by Taytay. And I was quoting the lyrics, asking you to take a moment, promise me this, that you'll stand by me forever, but if, God forbid, fate should step in, and force us into a goodbye, if you have children someday, when they point to the pictures, please tell them my name... tell them how I hope they shine. And then we started being silly and I was saying that bam, I'll walk in from the back door into your kitchen, and say whatcha doing? And I see them pointing to my picture and I'll be like hey that's me. Then we'll have dinner together like we have every week. Something like that. Hahaha. And honestly, I still hope for that you know!!!!! Like you said, I really do hope that we'll forever be in between hello and goodbye. That we'll forever be making memories.. new chapter by new chapter.. never ending. Even with our children! Unless you're in america. :( Or like you get married really old and my kids will be like your kids' super seniors. zzzz CAN YOU NOT HAVE KIDS WHEN YOU'RE SO OLD????? zzz. Hahahaha. 


Ok. So yea. I know.. it's easier said than done. We'll both have to put in effort. YOU HAVE TO TELL ME STUFFS!!!!!!! Please? Haha. Well. Cheers yo. Wish you all the best. :) :) LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Giggle giggle. PHEWIT! HOTTIE!!!!!!!!!!! I COULDN'T RESIST!!!!! I'M SORRY!!!! (not really) I saw it in my phone and I just loled and just HAD TO DO IT. You know I still love you. HAHAHAHAHAHA. :D :D LESS THAN THREE!  

Sun 21:27 15/4/12

Play Time.

Sun 01:44 15/4/12


Monday. School starts. At that time, Countdown: 46! So tomorrow there's 47 days. When school starts, play time is really over. Means. When I study, it really has to be study time. You know what's the saddest thing? That means I have to really give up socialising. Kinda ironic.. I mean socialising on my PHONE. Means all the chats with Jason and Denise.. and occasionally some others.. has to be shortened! The only time is during tram rides!!!!!!! And right before bed. When no one's awake. zzz. TIME DIFFERENCE RAGE MEME!!!!! But Skype.. is always ok. Haha. But it has to be just for company. !!!!!!!!! Companion to study. :) Really have to put poker face on. Play time is OVER. Gotta think hard. These are things I HAVE to do to get what I want to get! And what I want to get is a near PERFECT score. Been wasting time. No more!!!!!! Jia you! Goodnight. :) LOVE! <3

Memory: THE PAST!

Sun 00:28 15/4/12 


1. This happened either at the end of 2009 or in mid 2010. I was back on holiday from Melbourne and then Crys (was close to her then!) and Denise came over my house. Just to say hi and stuff? Don't really remember. Then we had dinner at my house. My mum cooked stuff and we sat down to eat. Then I decided, on the spur of the moment, to call Tur and ask her to come over!!!!!! She was just finishing tuition or something and she begged her mum to drop her over. So funny!!!!!!!!!! Then she had some dinner too. Then Crys had to leave for something. Then impromptu we went for supper at Salim!!!!!!!!!! I still remember the photos we took!!!!! Me in my Kellogs Corn Flakes yellow shirt. And I think on the way to Salim, we had to pick up Jojo from tuition? Haha.. All these random memories kinda piecing themselves together.. So incomplete. But better than nothing. I'm pretty sure it was a fun hyper kinda day. If not there wouldn't have been so many impromptu stuff. Tur coming over without prior planning was something quite exciting. And supper is always good. I can imagine how happy I must've felt at that time. :) 


You know.. It's kinda hard to imagine how close I was with Crys before. Real close. It was kinda a different close than usual. Like normally with Pei them all, whenever we have sleepovers, we would spend every minutes talking and talking and silence would only fall when we're all in thought. But with Crys.. it was nice. I remember going to her house to sleepover. Loved her bed lo! So big. And we just spent the time together reading our own books!! Seriously! We didn't talk! We just read. Then slept. Haha. I started reading the Scott Westerfield Pretty series cuz of that, got it off her shelf. Yup.. we were close. Like I would chat to her parents and stuff. And I remember she was really upset that I was leaving to Aus and she was begging her parents to let her go visit or something. Kinda sad it all has come down to nothing. :/ Maybe she's forgotten.. but it doesn't really matter la. That's what time does. :) It was both our faults anyway.. Just lost touch cuz didn't put in enough effort. 


2. This was just recently after UEC. I was with Leong. Hmmmmm. What were we doing? I picked him up from school after his extra Accounting class I thinkkkk. Then we went for Bfast? Oh wait.. maybe that was another time. Maybe this time he wanted to go swimming. Then I suddenly wanted to eat chips. Haha. AND WHERE DO YOU EAT CHIPS? Sutera Harbour! Haha. Kinda weird right? Just maybe when we were young and used to go there to swim, mum or whoever was watching us (Aunty Ping or someone) would sit under the umbrella and order chips and chicken wings. :D So yea. I said that he could swim there and stuff and I called Tur and asked her whether she wanted to go Sutera to eat some chips. Haha. So we went over to her house to pick her up. Leong stayed downstairs, just sitting there, then I went up to Tur's room and she was in the toilet.. Taking a shower? Something. Then I was kinda sleepy so I just plonked on her huge messy messy overflowing bed and closed my eyes. I was begging myself to fall asleep but then she came out of the toilet before I could. Hahaha. Then after she got ready, went down and she didn't see Leong! He was prepared to say hi to her, but she didn't see him. So he was kinda stuck in an awkward position. Hahahaha. I remember looking at him and he looked at me and was like whut? Then she finally saw him and we all laughed. 


I miss Tur's house lo.. How it used to be so familiar. How I would just walk into the house, say hi to whoever was there, then go up to her room like it was mine. I've ever been in her house when she's not home. I remember that I was watching TV, Luo Zhi Xiang (Show Luo)'s show, 100% Entertainment or something like that, that's really funny. All the times we spent trying to 'study'.. or watching a movie from her laptop, eating the pudding she made. They always made them using Tupperware as the mould. So yummy ohhhh. Miss it. :) 


3. Remembered after talking to Denise about it today that after UEC, I wanted to go to Thailand. Like I really wanted to go lo!!!! Even asked my mum if I could join tours by myself etc. From what Jessie told me and what I heard, and NICHKHUN. haha. I really wanted to visit that country!!!! I totally forgot how much I wanted to go. See what time does!!!! Makes you forget your dreams. Haha. 


4. Ohmygosh!!!!! After UEC, or maybe it was before? We had school and Denise brought her lousy iPhone to school. It was either cuz there was no class after UEC or something laaa. Then I asked her to download Bounce Down. LOVE THAT GAME. So hard to beat the high score you know! Then we were all taking turns trying to beat the high score. So frustrating. And I remember finally beating it and I was so loud! I was like BAM!!!!!!! and gave the phone back to her, like IN YOUR FACE kinda thing. Hahahaha. Gosh I was so loud and hyper! When she played, I kept kacauing her, saying that she couldn't do it. La lalala. And laughing and laughing when she died. Hahahahha. Good times man. 


Then after UEC, Michelle Chung brought her game, Saboteur. There's like a grid for the game, and there were three separated downturned cards at the near end, one of them containing the gold. And you get a set of cards that are either power cards or paths, and you have to pave your way from the starting point to the one you think is the gold. And you have to work together. But there are character cards you pick randomly. Either you are one of the good guys or one of the saboteurs. And the saboteurs have to kinda use tactics to sabotage the paths.. and they have to work together. Sometimes at the last moment they come out and reveal themselves, blowing up the whole path with their power card and like BAM! And they win! Hahaha. So awesome oh the game!!!!! Like 10 people playing at once. WHEEEE!!! Then high fives all around when you win, ESPECIALLY if you're the saboteur. WOOHOO!! 


5. Last time my family and I went to Aus for a holiday. We travelled through Aus, road trips!!! <3 And Kel went to see the high school she was gonna go to in Sydney. We kept having drive thru McD which I fell in love with! Cheeseburgers were SO GOOD!!!!!! Influenced by dad cuz he always ordered that so I ordered the same one day, then found joy in the burger hahaha. Then we were in Sydney, and we were by the lake side or something with water. There was a bank of grass with lots of the birds, seagulls or something. And there were a whole row of shops selling seafood there. Like those frozen raw ones, and you pick and pay then they cook it for you. Fish n Chips and such. And I was so young and I didn't know how to look at prices and didn't really know the value of money. And I picked a LOBSTER!!!!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT????? And my parents didn't deny me that pleasure!! Hahahaha. I had a lobster omgoshhhhhhhhhhhh. And I remember we sat down on the grass and we were eating. So happy! And I remember thinking the birds were kinda scary.... there were so many of them and they wanted food so they came quite close to you. Ugh. Go away!!!! 


So yea. That's all for now. :D I LOVE MEMORIES. Seriously. :) :) :) :) :D :D :D :D Thank you, those who are part of it! :D 

Eeeee!!!!

Sat 23:29 14/4/12 


Haha hello again. GAGS! :D

This is way cool you know!!!!!!!!!!! :D HAHAHAHA. FLIP TABLE!!!!!! And the letter p is just funny! HAHAHAHAHA. I so wanna use this man! 

There's no couch like the one at home! And I believe it does understand me lo! All the times I've spent on it. Watching tv, reading books, reading HARRY POTTER, lying down and watching tv when I'm sick, being sick, napping, being angry. Eeee! Miss it so! Should take a photo of it man. Haha.

 Haha Jason sent this to me too. You know, I've actually done those typos and in my head I actually laugh and say 'yeha'. HAHAHA. 

EEEEEEEhehehehehehehe!!!!! omgoshhhh so true!!!!!!!!!! Like sometimes I walk to the beat of the song in my head and in my head it's like the drums the guitars the singing.. And I always think that's what people can hear you know! HAHAHHA. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. "Can't you tell what song I'm listening to by the rhythm my head is bobbing to?" HAHAHA! 

Hahaha been there done that!!!!!! My super craziness always says it's POSSIBLE to do it!!! IT IS! IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

AAHAHAHHAHAHHA. I know!!!!!!!!! Whenever I get an answer I'll be like YES I'm such a smartie pants I'm gonna do so well. Then look at the choices and be like.. well... round off and minus 150, that's the closest to D. HAHA WHUUT. 

Eeek!!! Dinner was okayish. Not that nice but the meat was kinda nice. As in the cuts. :D And I had cheese cake after. So happy ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. And really full too. Cuz listening to my hostparents banter around, and their son and Nirvana both making playful snide comments and stuff. Haha. SO NICE! I found out that Gary is turning 28 (or 29?) and Nirvana is kinda 4 years younger than him? So doing the maths, she got pregnant when she was like 21. So young!!!!!!! What do you think about that? Is that too young? Maybe. But honestly, seeing them as a family and seeing how Aaron is being raised, it's right. :) Really. Might have been total outrage at the time that she got pregnant, but I think it's quite a blessing to their family now. Aaron has so much love around him, hope he realises that. Haha. 

And then they were watching football recaps. Man City against Norwich (where's that????) and Man City won 6-1!!!!!!!!! Amazing la seriously! Tevez and Aguero (SO KINDA CUTE LA PLS!) (the reason why I started like Man City in the first place!) did SO WELL together la!!!! That one shot where it was so tight in front of the goal, pass pass pass to Tevez who immediately kicks it rightttt in front of Aguero then BAM SCORE!!!!!! It was really amazing oh!!!!!!!! I LOVE FOOTBALL cuz it's actually such a tough game to play, so much skill needed!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hats off to them players man! I wanna wanna wanna watch football with friends oh.. with finger food and COMPANY and just have fun, commenting and laughing and shouting. I would be so hyper like how I watch badminton oh. Ugh. Soon. Haha. GO MAN CITY!!!!! Two points behind Man U! JIA YOU!!! Then watched the last quarter of a La Liga match between Barcelona and Lev something. Messi!!!!!! (You know I didn't even know which team he was in before, just heard his name before). So precise oh his kicks. :O :O But I don't understand though. Like the rules and stuff. Offside etc.. whuut? And is Barcelona playing in Barclay's Premier League? Why not? Bleh. WHEE! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY <3

Driftingggg.

Sat 20:51 14/4/12


Hello people!!! I didn't blog yesterday! Shocker right? Well.. Tomorrow is Sunday. The last day of my holiday and also the chance for me to really catch up! :( Did I accomplish what I set out to do at the start of the holiday? A big fat NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (continue till laptop runs out of battery). Well. I can be all mopey and emo because of this, but there's no one to blame but myself anyway. All I've been doing is religion. And I didn't even get it all done!!!!!! D:< MAKES ME SO ANGRY. UGH. -.- All my own faulttttttt. I spend most of my time eating you know! SERIOUSLY! I can spend like 3 hours just eating and eating. Blah blah. But oh well. Time cannot rewind. So what is not done, remains that way. 


You know. We really have to speak up. I tell myself that I'm thick-skinned and that I don't really mind about what people think of me. But then I didn't speak up to this girl in my religion class to ask her for notes that I didn't get from the classes I missed out on. AND it makes me so angry. Cuz it could've made this week of catching up way more productive. ALL JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T SPEAK UP. I was too shy. -_____- T______T Oh well. What's not done, remains not done. Haha. :( You see? This is regret. 


ANYWAY. DID YOU SEE MY FISHIES? I bought fishies! :D :D :D Haha. On my side bar. In my opinion, they're really cuteeeee. They'll swim towards your mouse cursor if you put it there, and when you click, fish food appears and they'll eat it. It's pretty cool loooo. The swimming motion of the fish is well done, and when they eat, ripples appear on the 'surface' of the water! So coollll!!! I love my fishies. Haha. There's one dummy fishie, and I call it Dummy. It's the green one. Dedicated to Denise. HAHAHAHHHAHAHA. BTW. Did you SEE? I'm totally NOT the Schmidt of the Dumbo Jar anymore. HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA. 

Hahahaha. She's double my amount! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Totally gonna have like a seafood buffet and whatnot man when we meet. Or like ten bowls of ngiu chap or an amazing meal of Klang MOK KUT TEH!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahha. :p :p 


Next. I feel like I've kinda been drifting from what matters lo. Like my blog. Usually I can blog twice a day or something cuz I just can't shut up (or I'm like procrastinating). But then these few days I've been doing those silly things instead of blogging. Like reading manga, playing Valet Hero, GTA (OMG PLS GTA IS NOT A GAME THAT CAN BE PLAYED ON AN ITOUCH. SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!), and just.. not reading or blogging. :( K. I will read later tonight. :) I just don't wanna waste my life on all these trivial things that doesn't let me improve myself in any way. You know? I should stay grounded, don't let myself drift away. Time is valuable. :) 


I would like to take this opportunity to say again, appreciate your family. I know it's hard to see for those still back home, but going overseas to study is actually not a huge deal to be excited about. I mean, yes, of course it's a big thing and you should be excited about it, but I mean.. you know how some people, leaving home to study is like something they've been wanting to do forever, something they look forward to and can't wait for. Kinda the same like getting into a relationship, getting a close guy friend... it's not as awesome as you'll think it is. I mean. Yes, it will be awesome. But what I'm trying to say (uhhh) is that.. you'll forget things. Forget the way of life you used to lead, forget how you used to really interact with your family, forget all the small teeny little things. Maybe I've said this before.. but it's like how I forgot that I was kinda scared of the dark, that I won't ever look into my room when I'm trying to turn on the light, and I'll only look into my room when I get the light on. I forgot how close I used to be with Kat... how we used to talk at night and play (play usually consists of me annoying her.. hugging her and putting my hand under her pillow when she's trying to sleep). Like you take for granted things that happen everyday. Like I actually can't imagine how it would be if my whole family reunites. The 6 of us under one roof. I have no idea whether we will manage. I don't remember how we used to tolerate each other. You know? Haha. I don't really know what I'm saying. But yea.. just appreciate your family. Take some time out to talkkkk to them more.. go out with them more. Lest. It. Be. Too. Late. Seriously. Time is scary. It just goes on and on and on and never looks back. But we do. :( Scary. :/ 


Also. I would like to take this opportunity (hahaha. I'm just typing whatever comes into my head man) to apologise once again. To Denise. She said "You can never be satisfied" and that kinda stayed with me. Is it true? I think so. I mean. I am alwaysssss satisfied with food (BEFORE I TRY IT) (haha). But then with her? I was gonna type maybe, but I think 'probably' is more accurate. It's just the same old 'I wanna be first on your list' thing. But I don't want to be that kind of person. So, I'm sorry!!! :( And to me, sorry seems to be the hardest word, definitely, when you mean it. I want to be the kind of person that can stand on my two feet, not hoping or expecting from other people. Palm faced downward, not upward. You know? I'll continue trying to grow yo. :) Bear with me while I do. ;) 


We're having Chinese take out for dinner!!!!!!! :D :D :D Ordered szechuan beef and fried rice!!!!! Hope it's good! :D :D Satisfied before I try it. ;) haha. Tomorrow, gonna go church. And hopeeeee Aunty Ah Mei (Uncle Ah Hao's sister) will be free. Wanna meet her for lunch. :D She's really nice. But she's a obstetrician gynecologist and she might have to cover a shift tomorrow. Hope she's free! 


Nirvana made a lemon cheese cake the other day! For like a pre-celebration of Gary's bday (her partner/fiancé?) on Sunday. It's SO YUMMY. I usually don't like any lemon or orange/citrus stuff in dessert. But this is so good. It actually taste like mum's!!!!!!!!! Really like hers! Just the texture is about softer.. and without the pineapple bits and the cinnamon! And of course the bottom is different too. The biscuit bottom. Haha. So yummy. 


You know. This time when I go back, I WILL ask my mum to teach me how to cook and bake stuff. The stuff she always makes, I want to learn. LEST IT'S TOO LATE. I said I wanted to learn last time.. but just didn't bother when I got home. Just wanna sit on the BEST COUCH IN THE WORLD and do nothing. But I really wanna spend more time with my parents this time I'm back. :) :) Which means being a person who remembers small stuff (I'm so bad at that!). Like if I'm in town, I should think to buy the puo luo pao that's so dear to our family, and bring it over to my dad's office. Or ta pao some for my mum. You know? Things like that. I always never think of those things until I'm on the way home or something. NEED TO IMPROVE!!!! 


OMGOSHHHHHHHHHH. OMGOSH!!!! I almostttt forgot to mention this. I'm. GOING. TO. SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bought flight tickets and booked hotel and stuff! Going with PAM! :D Come on! OMGOSH. You know it's kinda surreal for me? How many years has it been since I've become some kind of fan of him? Listening to his music, watching his videos, his live performances, his impromptu performances with Bushwalla, his home videos of those I Say games (is that what it's called?), reading his blog (RIP FF5000!!).. and finally I can see him LIVE!!!!!!!!! And I'm here day dreaming about getting to meet him in person, taking a photo with him, getting a guitar pick from him. UGH. If only. I really can't believe that in a few months, I can see him IN PERSON. And it says a lot that I choose to go and see him instead of going HOME lo. HOME which I miss oh so much. Haha. I can't wait. 


(I also really can't believe that in a few months, Imma sit for my Leaving Cert and it's like.. I don't know what I'm doing. zzz. Haha.) Remember to pray and look to God at all times. :) Pray and believe! Pray and STRIVE! Jia you!!!!!!!!!!! :S :S :S :( :) 


And my parents are coming to Ireland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH! I keep imagining the day they arrive. How happy I'll be to hug them! :D :D :D My mum hasn't seen me in person since I cut my hair short. Haha but I wonder what my hair will look like in two months time -.- Probably will be all over the place. Haha. Ok. I should stop talking. SORRY FOR THE LONG POST. Just didn't wanna stop talking. Gotta cut my nails!!!!! 

Gay What You Need To Gay!!!

Hahahaha. No offense on homosexuals yo!!!! Has nothing to do with them! Anyway. Yesterday was a funny day. Tiring too. Stayed up till like 3am doing my religion. But I guess it's not that bad considering I didn't do much (well.. didn't do anything) the whole day. Meh. 


Oh well. Ok so I don't remember whether it was yesterday or the day before. But Jason sent me a photo of his knee all bandaged up. I asked him what happened. And he went on about him playing ball with a bunch of idiots outside his house. And they bu xuang him or something so they kinda beat him up. And the guard was so slow. And that he only got his knee hurt even though there were like 6 of them or something. And he asked me "do you know what's the CRAZIEST part?" And I was saying this really exaggerated silly stuff like "you were unconscious.. lying on the ground. But suddenly your inner self call to you and you rise up" and I was gonna say that he started fighting back or whatever. Then he said "did would've been the best April fools joke". OMGOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAGE MEME!!!!! Flip table meme!!!!! Hahaha. Ok. You got me. Again. -__________- High standard April fools yo! Not bad for a low standard dude. :p hahahaha. 


Ok so these past few days. I've been kinda sick. Since the day after Easter Sunday. Oh ya. I did say that I was sick. So I'm still sick. Feel slightly better. Throat doesn't feel as swollen as yesterday. But still so so tough to cough phlegm up, sometimes feel like I'm gonna faint cuz I cough so violently. My voice is half gone, can't really sing. :( BUT I STILL DO! BAM! Hahaha. AND THEN. Last night I got the UTERUS PUNCH (9gag)! So yea. Sick and bleeding! How pathetic. Haha. But I'm fine la. Just BACK PAIN!!!! Miss the true comfort of home. Where I would lie on the best sofa in the world and watch tv and my mum would make hot drinks for me and stuff. Sighhhhhh. A mother's love can't be replaced!!!!!! Miss home! Also. Miss HOME, where you can find everything! There's no honey in this house, and I used a lemon to make a lemon drink, and there's no more!!!!! No pih pah gao as well. NOTHING. So yea. Miss my mum who would totally know what to do in cases like these. Just feel kinda lost especially cuz it's so cold (RAINS ICE EVERYDAY!!!!!) so don't wanna go out to buy vitamins or whatever. 


But anyway. I'll survive! Been doing my religion.. writing up the essays for all the topics, studying them. Takes SO SUPER LONG cuz there's so little information in the stupid text book. MAKES ME SO ANGRY! Planned to only take one full day to finish religion. But I think I'm going to spend this whole week doing it ALL. Means all the 4 sections for the exam!!!!!!! Half drowning in religion. Don't like it at all!! Feel so disgusted! But I gotta do what I gotta do man!!!! FOCUS. As simple as that. 


Hahahaha. Yesterday, Duffer and I added to the list of SCLSCP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was super super funny. It all started from us trying to move away from the subject of MOLLY WEASLEY. So we got the idea to replace the letters we normally associate with her with other letters. A lil different than our normal sclscp because we usually replace words with words. But this time we replace combinations of letters with other combinations of letters. Haha. It's not that hard to guess, but it's hard to make sure that you use sclscp correctly in all ur sentences, applying it to the right words! Hahaha. Then, as you may have noticed, we started a DUMBO JAR!!!!!!!!!!! The records of it is on the side bar of my blog. Hahahaha. We say that when we make a mistake and forget to use sclscp, we have to put one ringgit in the dumbo jar. Much like the douchebag jar in our favourite show, New Girl!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha. Super entertaining oh!!!!! Had so much fun yesterday. Currently I'm like Schmidt who is the main contributor to the jar, but SHE JUST CAUGHT UP TODAY!!!!! Hahahahahaha. WHEEEEEEEEE. My mistakes come when I'm not paying attention to what I type, since my thoughts run so fast and I struggle to catch up with them so I quickly type and press send without checking. But DUFFER, she just makes silly mistakes when she's correcting me or whatever. HAHAHA BAM!!!!!!!!!!! SOSILLYSOFUNNY!!!!!!! 


You see! There's no one else I could do this with ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LESS THAN THREE!!!!!! YOUR BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't flinch man, REJOICE! :D :D Love you! 


Oh ya. Huge thing happened today! Well. Not huge la. Just super unexpected. Got a skype call from Moses! WoooOOooo! Haven't heard that name in a while huh! Haha. He was in the Singapore airport.. transiting to Hong Kong or somewhere on his way to the US with his family. Or something. We chatted for like 20mins. It was fine. HE SAID I DISAPPEARED. WAHHHHHHHH PLS. He was the one that disappeared la! PUNCH! Hahaha. It was nice to catch up a lil with him. :D Most of the convo just consisted of us blaming each other. Me saying he didn't reply whatsapps, then him saying that he was the one that called, not me. Haha. UGHHHHHHHH. Pull my hair out talking to him!!!! haha. I do miss him and Eugene lo. thethreebestfriendsthatanyonecouldhave. Haha. Memories memories. *wistful* Hope they're doing fine. :D


Love my family!!!!! :D Love lots of people! 


Oh. And pray for those in Indonesia who got hit by a pretty large earthquake!!!!!!!! 8.9 apparently!!! Tremors felt in Semenanjung and Penang!!!!!!!! PRAY PRAY PRAY! KK is lucky to be so isolated. Thank GOD. And Sarawak too. God have mercy!!!! Hope no deaths occurred, especially in my home country! 

Tee Are Why!

Mon 17:32 9/4/12


Hello peeps!!!! :D Today was pretty good despite the fact that I woke up later than I wanted to, and feeling really really horrible too. Woke up really sick. Well, I'm still sick now, but you know how when you've just woken up, all that mucus and phlegm is stuck inside your trachea or oesophagus or whatever, and it's just really HORRIBLE cuz you cough and cough and try and clear your throat but only tiny bits of phlegm comes out? Gosh. I spent the whole morning coughing and clearing my throat. I'm pretty sure downstairs must've been annoyed with me. But then finally it cleared up a lil and now I feel so much better. :) Ate leftovers from yesterday!!! For lunch!!!!!! Turkey, ham, stuffing! Yummy! Roasted potato and turnip mash and BROCCOLI AND BRUSSELS SPROUTS which I really dislike cuz it's bitter. But hey, I'm sick, should eat more vegies! Then I DISCOVERED peanut butter spread (!!!!!!!!!) while I was looking to see if they had honey just in case I decided to make some honey lemon for my throat. So I decided to have a slice of toast with peanut butter as my dessert. Hehehehe. BUT THEN I had dessert after that, eating the oatmeal cookies. Yummy yummy. 


I've done a couple of religion essays. BLEHHHHHHHHHHHH. Taking HOURS to do one essay that will have to take me LESS THAN 20 mins to write in the exam. EIWOFJQWOPCQMW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Skyped DENISE for a while. How rare. How super rare. I remember the PAST when we used to skype in KK and just sit there and do our studying for exams (skype study! Haha) (didn't last tho) and we would just take photos. Bleh. Well. Like always, the first call lasted like one minute. Cuz of her bad line. -.- Haha. ~what a nice skype date yo~ hahaha. Then after it settled down, we kinda had a conversation that lasted like 45 minutes. Quite an achievement I must say! The beginning of that mostly consisted of 'hello? hello? hello?' 'hellooooooo~' 'hello?' 'hello!' 'can you hear me?' 'hello?'. -.- Hahaha. Anyway. Feel privileged I guess that she chose to sit upstairs (where apparently the line is better) and skype me and not watch tv. Haha. Thank you. :)


That's all. UGH! Must do MORE WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!! On a side note, I CAN'T BELIEVE HE DIDN'T PUBLISH THIS SONG OR PERFORM IT LIVE! So kinda-weird though, cuz he hardly sings with a beat like he did in Geek in the Pink. Maybe it's an old song. But still. LOVE IT! 

K-ON!

Also, found out that Otaku in japanese kinda means geek. From one of his Geek In The Pink videos on youtube (he was wearing a pink shirt that says otaku). Haha. Cool. Hello, nice to meet you. I am an otaku! ^o^ 


Oh ya. Forgot to say. Hello, I'm the cookieeee monster! I love to eat cookiesssssssssss. ^_^_^_^

.... derrrrrrrrrrrrr.

'Tis Easter!

Sun 14:39 8/4/12


Went to mass just now. They had one at 9am and one at 10.30am. I wanted to go to the earlier one but wouldn't have made it in time cuz I snoozed my alarm too much. But you know. Everything happens for a reason. Cuz the 10.30am mass, the family mass, was AMAZING. Family mass is when the parents all bring their young kids. It was kinda noisy la.. the kids crying and stuff. Meh. But it was really good. 


I loved loved loved the choir oh. It wasn't really a choir la. But oh it was so good!!!! Like home! Cuz normally, the hymns here are either sung by this really amazing choir and you can't even sing along and can't even make out the lyrics at all (don't even know if they're singing in english!!!), or it's just one person who has an amazing falsetto voice. But this choir was all youngsters and some kids and it was lead by this guy who played the guitar. And they weren't perfect, but it was amazing. And the congregation sang along too. So lively. Loved it oh. The guitarist sometimes will stop playing the guitar at the right moment and it's just the voice of the people singing. Sounds like magic in my ears. Sounded amazing! The sermon was just ok though. The priest didn't say much. But I felt it was so much more personal than the other priest last week who just read it off from paper. The sermon was pretty good (last week's), but he could improve on his delivery you know? But anyway. 


Then we came to a part where all the young kids all went up to the altar. They stood and sat around the table, surrounding the priest. I was so confused, not knowing what was happening. Then they started singing Our Father!!!! The tune was different, didn't know how to sing it. But it was. amazing. They kinda repeated a few lines, and sang louder and louder. With the guitarist doing his thing. And then when they sang 'hallowed be Thy name', the kids and all the parents will raise their hands up high, bring them down, and put them up again when they repeat the line. So fun lo. Then I started crying. How silly how lame!!!! It was so sudden you know!!!!!!!!!! And it was quite bad too. Couldn't contain my tears!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Was really kinda sobbing lo. Right there in the middle of the pew, with strangers sitting beside me. AWKWARD. Haha. But I think it was because, the Our Father song is my favourite song of all lo. (Some churches just recite the prayer, some sing it). Cuz in our KK church, the tune is quite jolly. And last time we used to have to link our hands together. Link with those you came with la. And those at the end put the palm of their free hand facing upwards. And you sing together. And always enjoyed that bit of the mass, when I'm linking hands with my parents or siblings. And always always will have this squeezing hand war. And I was just thinking about all that and how I was SURE my siblings would think that what they were doing now would be soooooo cool. GAH. Was so sad!!! But happy cuz it was awesome. Happy tears, sad tears, all mixed into one till I was half dead trying to control my emotions. Blah. It was really good OH. :'( :'( I miss my family so much!!!!!!!!!! More than ever lo. Never really missed them a lot before, to be honest. Ugh. So scared that time will pass us by without us catching hold of it... then it'll be too late. Same fear as ever la. 


Then at the end, the recessional hymn (the last hymn) just opened up the flood gates again!!!!!!!! The lyrics went: God our Father I come to say, thank You for Your love today. Thank You for my family, and all the friends that you give to me, and guard me in the dark of night, and in the morning send Your light. Wooahhhhh. All the stuff about being thankful, and family and friends. Sniff!!!!!!! So sad!!!!!! Then after most people left, I was still sitting there. I didn't want to go home like that la. Ugh. I kinda stayed for the next service too. But anyway. While I was sitting there some strangers asked me if I was ok. Haha. And this lady kinda asked me what was wrong. And I just said I miss home. She asked me if I came alone, did I have any family here. Etc etc. So nice oh!!!!!! Bless kind people like her!! :D 


Well. It was amazing la really. Sad but good. :) Cuz. I guess. Like what I said to Elaine on Good Friday when she told me she cried, we should be grateful that we have something to be homesick about right? Hmm.. Hope that's true. Haha. Can't wait for dinner. Oh ya. My host mum gave me an easter egg!!!!! So unexpected!!! Was really really surprised and I felt so loved oh!!!! So kind and sweet! She was like Happy Easter! And she gave me those air kisses and half hugs. Haha. So grateful!!! Wish I had bought them something too. I really feel welcomed in this home. They're so kind and non-judgemental too (hopefully!). 


Well. Easter is about hope! About renewal! So renew yourselves yo!! Haha. I think I'm repeating myself. Oh well. HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!!!!!! Love your family!!! 

There are places I'll remember

All my life though some have changed

Some forever not for better

Some have gone and some remain

All these places had their moments

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When I think of love as something new

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before

I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more