Lead Our Own Lives.

I am hurt. 


1. I never asked you to ask for permission to go out with anyone else. Let's lead our own lives, is what I said. I'm not anyone you are bound to by law or by anything, I'm your friend. Who am I to control what you do, who you meet with? Sure I say things like that sometimes, but I don't really mean it 100%. I don't want to be able to stop you from going out with someone else just cuz I say I don't want you to. Then what kind of friend would I be? If you want to go, go. 


2. You always ditch my texts when you're with her. You ignore them or you just ignore your phone. When you're with me, do I say you have to put your phone away? Do I seriously complain when you text them? I just shut up and wait for you to turn your attention back to me. But when your phone dies when you're with me, you immediately ask for mine to let whoever you're texting know that you can't reply them. Do I get that? No. You just leave me to wait for you reply and leave me to pointlessly expect a reply that's not going to come. Why not just take my phone and use it to continue your conversation? I'm nothing to you anyway. I'm just some person you feel obliged to spend time with. 


3. Whatever. I never asked you to choose. I won't. Just go if it makes you happier, just leave. 


4. I'm childish and manipulative. I decided then and there that I won't text you till I get enough courage to bury it all and put on a smile. Not the first time it has happened. Get used to it. I only do it when I'm hurt.


Let's lead our own lives. Nothing lasts forever anyway.