God Is Watching Over Me.

Seriously. :) 


I always believe that everything happens for a reason. Even if it is something that seems bad, something that breaks your heart, I believe that there's always something good that happens because of it, that wouldn't have happened otherwise. Like, you know the times when you accidentally overhear a part of a conversation, that is later brought up in your classes or among your friends or something, and you get to make input that makes you seem knowledgable and informed, but you actually just repeated what you had overheard before? Everything happens for a reason, and I choose to believe that it is God's doing. :) 


So that day, it was a Wednesday and I had Bio exam. I hadn't finished studying. Ok, to come totally clean, I had only kinda studied 3 chapters out of 6, and I didn't even memorise everything, just READ it. I was planning to wake up at 5am to study, but trust myself to not wake up. So I was super stressed and I was angry as well. Cuz it was a bad morning. I look at the time when I woke up and was totally CRAPNUTS-ing, then there was no toilet paper, then my kakak hadn't put my uniform upstairs. It was just a very ugh kinda morning. Then in the car on the way to school. I breathed in and breathed out, and I sent a prayer to God asking God to watch over me and guide me, that I will study what I need to know and things like that. 


So after my BM paper which didn't go too well cuz I was really tired, we had an hour-long recess. I, of course started cramming Bio. I had choices to make, whether I should read the chapters I haven't studied, or revise what I had studied the night before. I decided to revise what I had already studied before. Steph dropped Bio, so she went home. And LeePei came over and sat in Steph's place (which is in front of me) to study. Companionable silence. Haha. I was kinda panicky and was reading really fast, shaking my legs, repeating the points over to myself, flipping the pages, again and again. And I was like revising and also studying a new chapter I thought would be important too at the same time. And I told Pei that that chapter on Muscle Contractions was quite hard to understand. And she offered me her exercise papers and notes she got from her tuition. So I was scanning through it, shaking my legs, repeating the points over to myself, flipping the pages, again and again. Haha. And when I went to the toilet, not really looking at the path I was walking on because I was studying, I was flipping through the pages and I stopped on this page at the very end of the chapter that showed the weird family trees thing, X-linked recessive, autosomal recessive etc. 


The exam itself was really good. Not like 'I'll get a great score' good, but like 'the paper was easy relative to how much I studied' good. (It's not that I didn't put lots of time to study, it's just that I studied reallllyy slowly. Too slow. Don't misunderstand! :/) Most of the questions came from the important chapters, which were the ones I studied. Genes, reproduction, sensory stuff (eyes and ears etc), and muscle contraction. And the X-linked recessive graph came out too. WHEE. It was a great feeling. I was super happy after the exam. I THINK I can pass, it'll be so disappointing if I didn't pass. But there's no one to blame but me anyway. 


When I went home, Denise had lunch with me at home, and my mum picked up the stuff Kat and I ordered online. I had been waiting for ages for it, and was SUPER excited because high at that time. It was just a super-amazing uplifting feeling. That's the right word: uplifting. I was euphoric and extremely exuberant. It was sooooooo great. So, FOR SOME REASON, I decided to revise what I had studied, instead of studying new chapters. FOR SOME REASON, Pei came and sat with me, even though for the length of the whole exam, I was the one who went over to her sometimes. FOR SOME REASON, I looked at the family tree graphs at the last minute. FOR SOME REASON, my mum remembered to get the online shopping package for me. 


What reason is that? Fate, chance, luck, you name it. It's totally up to you. But I believe it's God. God. is. watching. over. me. It was an amazing day. (I hope I pass.. seriously).


Anyway. All in all, exams were pretty bad. I don't know. 


Huh. 


I don't know. 


:/