Heya. So my exam was yesterday. And it was bad. It's kinda gotten me to put my head in my hands and think of how bad I've gotten. :/ I don't know if I've said this, but this exam is IMPORTANT. I cannot fail this exam. If I fail it, then I will have to resit the paper in Autumn aka fly back in August and do it. I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT. It'll be embarrassing, but most of all, it would be so horrible to let it be known to my parents how bad I've become. I was so unprepared for the exam, so I was so nervous.
Went up to the hospital at about 1.30pm. Then went to the reading room (the exam was at 2.30pm) and I studied a bit of materials, and then studied behavioural science for the first time. In hindsight, thank GOD I studied that man, seriously, if not I would've failed the paper for sure. Thank God Adib asked me to read a bit on Learning. OMGOSSSSSSSSHHH. I really got so lucky.
There were four sections to the paper: Dental Practice, Dental Materials, Behavioural Science, and Medical Ethics. I spent AGES memorising the essays for Medical Ethics, answered the first one alright, and the second one, BLANK. Hah. So depressing man. I did kinda write everything I could remember, but it was choppy and short and just disappointing because I was hoping to rely on that to get my points up. Then I did Dental Materials, they were ok, but didn't know the answer to 2 questions so I kinda just winged them. Then I finally looked at the first section and it's like. What man. I didn't know the answer to ANY of the questions. I only kinda knew the answer to 2 or 3 questions out of 12. So I just answered those, wrote crap for the rest of the others, and just laughed at how ridiculous ALL my answers were and how NOT FUNNY the situation was, because I while I was writing all that crap, I was just thinking about how I could really fail this exam. Did behavioural and wrote what I knew about classical conditioning. And it was the worst structured essay EVER. It's supposed to be 500-800 words long but I don't think mine reached 500. :/ But I knew I was writing stuff that was accurate, just the details were not very clear, and again about the structure. Zzzzzz. Really, thank goodness I did study that, with my fumbling in Materials and Ethics, the two sections I was counting on to let me pass, if it weren't for Behavioural, I really would've failed because I wasn't prepared at all for Section 1.
Why did I become so bad? I've never been so poorly prepared for an exam, and I can so do better. I know it's myself that's stopping me. And honestly, all the people who are saying "oh I'm sure you won't fail", you can't say that because you don't KNOW HOW IT GOES. I think people think I'm those secret studiers who goes "oh no I'm so unprepared" then they get 90 or something. No. I say it like it is. And I study smart, or well, I probably just get lucky a lot. I like to think that God is on my side, so He lets me get lucky and study the things that I NEED TO right on time. I remember in TTSS when ppl said "good luck" before a test, I would think that, you can't count on luck, luck doesn't help you. It's how hard you've studied for the test and how prepared you are for it. Hah, how things have changed.
So I guess, it's just time to breathe in and breathe out and know that I deserve it if I fail. Really hoping I don't. I think I would manage to scraaaaape a pass. But I'm not sure. I joked yesterday about how our module co-ordinator, who would probably be marking the first section, would just fail me on principal because I didn't know how many teeth there are in primary dentition. But I think I might have guessed right (just googled it haha). But anywho. Can't do anything about it now. This was a lame rant as well. BUT THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS so whatevaaaa. Haha. Sorry.
Tue 16:59 12/3/13
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Dry Eyes.
SLEEEEEEEEEPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYY. Can't wait till Monday is oveeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. ~taking a break while waiting for lecture notes to print~
Sun 03:51 10/3/13
Sun 03:51 10/3/13
Game Show.
I feel bad cuz I got an A for the physiology MCQ, the third test we've had in this season of "THE DUEL TO THE DEATH!". Haha. The "duel to the death" thing, just made it up. But it consists of 3 tests and 1 exam, the exam having a written part and an oral part, all in the space of 3 weeks. The first was Biochem (biomolecules) 15%, Anatomy 15%, then Physiology 25%. The exam is for the Dental Science module, and we don't have a summer exam for it so THIS IS IT. This is THE exam we HAVE to pass.
But anywho. This season is a time of dangerously high levels of stress, bringing along with it crazy sleeping patterns, eating habits, and consequent weight gain, neck pain and headaches. It's really been tough. So far the tests, by the grace of God and also last minute cramming at 4am in the morning, haven't been too bad.
The last physiology test, I didn't finish studying Renal Physiology and didn't finish looking at the MCQ questions, but I just prayed and hoped for the best. Got an A. Granted, an A is 70% and above, so I could've gotten a pretty low A. But I put in 9 Don't Knows. So that's quite good, no? (In the MCQ, you have three choices, True, False or Don't Know. It's +1 for a right answer, -0.5 for an incorrect one, and 0 for a Don't Know). Sam whatsapped me just now and she got a B. I'm quite surprised because she was so focused on Physiology, she started studying for it even before the Biochem test. It's because she got a C for the last MCQ before Christmas, so she wanted to get an A this time. And she said she was depressed because she thinks she might've gotten an A if she hadn't risked a few questions and put Don't Know instead.
Seriously man. This negative marking stuff is a joke. It's like a bubble game show man. As if we don't have enough to worry about. We still have to worry about whether, when you're not sure what the answer is, if you should take the risk or just play it safe. You know?! Try and calculate the odds, bla bla bla. It's really a joke. -.- But. I'm glad though that this is the last stretch of The Duel. Hahahaha. But it's so not over yet. DS is sooooooo hard to study for. I think all of us are struggling cuz there's so much to study but it's all over the place so you don't really know what to study. There are 4 components anyway. One general one, where you answer questions about different fields in dentistry and the different dental diseases blaaaaaaah -.-, then there's behavioural science, the psychology crap I hate, then there's dental materials, then ethics and law. Ethics and law makes me mad cuz, we might get case study questions for the oral and honestly, I chose a science-based degree because my brain is dead and I cannot form opinions and I would just say "aww, kasian la bah this patient", and not some smart "oh that's clinical negligence on the part of the dentist" or whatever. Zzzzzz. But WHO CARES? The uni certainly doesn't care. So yup. Back to the books. Cuz no amount of complaining or blogging will help me in any way. Haha.
This is a nice song. (yes, The Duel also brings along with it the discovery of new songs which is a consequence of procrastination haha). The lyrics are pretty meaningful. She looks kinda scary, but the end of the video is great.
Lost the battle, win the war!
13:52 Sat 9/3/13
But anywho. This season is a time of dangerously high levels of stress, bringing along with it crazy sleeping patterns, eating habits, and consequent weight gain, neck pain and headaches. It's really been tough. So far the tests, by the grace of God and also last minute cramming at 4am in the morning, haven't been too bad.
The last physiology test, I didn't finish studying Renal Physiology and didn't finish looking at the MCQ questions, but I just prayed and hoped for the best. Got an A. Granted, an A is 70% and above, so I could've gotten a pretty low A. But I put in 9 Don't Knows. So that's quite good, no? (In the MCQ, you have three choices, True, False or Don't Know. It's +1 for a right answer, -0.5 for an incorrect one, and 0 for a Don't Know). Sam whatsapped me just now and she got a B. I'm quite surprised because she was so focused on Physiology, she started studying for it even before the Biochem test. It's because she got a C for the last MCQ before Christmas, so she wanted to get an A this time. And she said she was depressed because she thinks she might've gotten an A if she hadn't risked a few questions and put Don't Know instead.
Seriously man. This negative marking stuff is a joke. It's like a bubble game show man. As if we don't have enough to worry about. We still have to worry about whether, when you're not sure what the answer is, if you should take the risk or just play it safe. You know?! Try and calculate the odds, bla bla bla. It's really a joke. -.- But. I'm glad though that this is the last stretch of The Duel. Hahahaha. But it's so not over yet. DS is sooooooo hard to study for. I think all of us are struggling cuz there's so much to study but it's all over the place so you don't really know what to study. There are 4 components anyway. One general one, where you answer questions about different fields in dentistry and the different dental diseases blaaaaaaah -.-, then there's behavioural science, the psychology crap I hate, then there's dental materials, then ethics and law. Ethics and law makes me mad cuz, we might get case study questions for the oral and honestly, I chose a science-based degree because my brain is dead and I cannot form opinions and I would just say "aww, kasian la bah this patient", and not some smart "oh that's clinical negligence on the part of the dentist" or whatever. Zzzzzz. But WHO CARES? The uni certainly doesn't care. So yup. Back to the books. Cuz no amount of complaining or blogging will help me in any way. Haha.
This is a nice song. (yes, The Duel also brings along with it the discovery of new songs which is a consequence of procrastination haha). The lyrics are pretty meaningful. She looks kinda scary, but the end of the video is great.
Lost the battle, win the war!
13:52 Sat 9/3/13
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Two Screens, One Flat Surface.
Honestly. Me being stuck in my room trying trying trying, just trying to study but not actually getting much done, it's really. It's just not going well with me at all. Staring at my laptop screen or phone screen, playing stupid games that I never even normally play, having a ridiculously long Youtube session where one video leads to three more, staring at the words on the papers piled high on my table surface, taking an hour to read a page. I haven't hung out in the living room for weeks now. I'm getting fat, haven't gone to the gym in weeks. Not even to volleyball. I can feel my underwear not being able to cover my butt properly now. (hahaha. Don't know if that's actually true). I have this perpetual neck pain after noon, and headaches in the afternoon. But the point is. I feel soooooo. Empty. Lost. Kinda the same I guess. How I can't focus on studying. How I am procrastinating so much even I can't stand myself. I feel so much stress for the upcoming Physiology test and the DS (dental science) EXAM. Really. Just so. UGH. I honestly can't wait to go home. I don't know what's wrong with me. How I feel so far from... myself and God. Hahaha. I don't know what the point of this post is.
Celebrated Sam's bday just now. It was a surprise and it was successful. :) But then, I don't feel awfully awfully close to her. We get along, we care about each other (enough to celebrate each other's bday and make it special anyway), but I don't know. Is it silly to say that I feel kinda... off because she's so much closer to other girls than I am to anyone else at all? Oh well. I'm glad her bday was a success. But miss the crazy surprise bdays we used to have back home. Hahaha.
Steph told me to pray more to God in the letter she sent me for my bday. I know, kinda ironic that I'm posting such a down post when the last one was so high. But anyway. She asked me to pray before studying and stuff like that. :) I really should try harder.
I reread the Penny post from The Frenemy. It's still really powerful.
I don’t know where you get those “more things.” I think, though, that you get those things with battle scars and with your bare hands and your fight. Be ugly about it. Life is kind of ugly, sometimes, before the promise of something else.... there is beauty in the things you work for. And work for this, Penny: work to feel full.
Feel full? I think that if I worked steadily with my academic stuff and studied hard and did well, I would feel full in that satisfaction. Part of me says it's too late to start now for these upcoming tests. But the other part says it's still possible, just have to make full use of the time I have. If I prayed more, skyped more, wrote more, I would feel full. I just have to. Take control of my life, which was funnily my new year's resolution. And it's so true too, life is kind of ugly before the promise of something else. Because, promises come along, promises of being loved and wanted, and then life turns ugly again. Just like how huge news will eventually fade and become old news even if it "shocked the nation" or whatever. It turns ugly again, back to normal after the hype descends.
Anyway. After Sam's bday, walked home, dropped my phone, bag got stuck on the door knob, the heaps of clothes on the back of my chair fell off. So I took a shower. Skyped my mum. And now I'm typing this. No studying tonight because I. I dunno. Trying to find the restart button I guess. I should sleep. I'll try take control tmr. :) It's all in me. Willpower. Where there's a will, there's a way. It's all my choice, my decisions, my fuggle bubble actions!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those are what will make the change.
Gnite yo! Haha. This was the lamest rant ever. A pep talk for myself. And I
Sometimes life is tough, but someone else's life out there is always way, way more tougher than yours.
Wed 01:29 6/3/13
Celebrated Sam's bday just now. It was a surprise and it was successful. :) But then, I don't feel awfully awfully close to her. We get along, we care about each other (enough to celebrate each other's bday and make it special anyway), but I don't know. Is it silly to say that I feel kinda... off because she's so much closer to other girls than I am to anyone else at all? Oh well. I'm glad her bday was a success. But miss the crazy surprise bdays we used to have back home. Hahaha.
Steph told me to pray more to God in the letter she sent me for my bday. I know, kinda ironic that I'm posting such a down post when the last one was so high. But anyway. She asked me to pray before studying and stuff like that. :) I really should try harder.
I reread the Penny post from The Frenemy. It's still really powerful.
I don’t know where you get those “more things.” I think, though, that you get those things with battle scars and with your bare hands and your fight. Be ugly about it. Life is kind of ugly, sometimes, before the promise of something else.... there is beauty in the things you work for. And work for this, Penny: work to feel full.
Feel full? I think that if I worked steadily with my academic stuff and studied hard and did well, I would feel full in that satisfaction. Part of me says it's too late to start now for these upcoming tests. But the other part says it's still possible, just have to make full use of the time I have. If I prayed more, skyped more, wrote more, I would feel full. I just have to. Take control of my life, which was funnily my new year's resolution. And it's so true too, life is kind of ugly before the promise of something else. Because, promises come along, promises of being loved and wanted, and then life turns ugly again. Just like how huge news will eventually fade and become old news even if it "shocked the nation" or whatever. It turns ugly again, back to normal after the hype descends.
Anyway. After Sam's bday, walked home, dropped my phone, bag got stuck on the door knob, the heaps of clothes on the back of my chair fell off. So I took a shower. Skyped my mum. And now I'm typing this. No studying tonight because I. I dunno. Trying to find the restart button I guess. I should sleep. I'll try take control tmr. :) It's all in me. Willpower. Where there's a will, there's a way. It's all my choice, my decisions, my fuggle bubble actions!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those are what will make the change.
Gnite yo! Haha. This was the lamest rant ever. A pep talk for myself. And I
Sometimes life is tough, but someone else's life out there is always way, way more tougher than yours.
Wed 01:29 6/3/13
Monday, March 4, 2013
A Little Love From Home.
Heya!!!! O. M. GOOSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Today, once again I went into reception to check the post, not knowing why I keep doing it when I always come out empty handed. But I did it anyway. Searching through all the parcels on the table, lo and behold. I got POST. WHEEEEEEE. I didn't know who it was from, cuz I only saw that it had my name on it, so I walked out of the reception with this RIDICULOUS smile on my face. I looked down at the postage slip thingy and read that it was from Shelia. Shelia! Tur tur shelia! I actually, literally stopped. in. my. tracks. And I just stared at the parcel with my jaw on the floor. I didn't expect that at all!!!!!!!!!!! She asked for my address like a week before my birthday, but now it's already March, we've had loads of tests and have more coming up. I had completely forgotten about it. I was just. Omgosssh. Absolutely thrilled. The feeling was amazing. Like, close your eyes, feel how blessed you are, send some thanks to God, amazing! hahaha!
So I went back to the apartment, squealing in delight (in my mind anyway) and I went to take a shower. Hahaha. Everything had to be perfect for when I open the post. Just like how I like to take a shower before dinner because dinner is family time then lazy time after that, and it's nice to be clean and relaxed for it all. :D (Denise is right, I'm kinda full of crap) haha. Actually it was just that I couldn't stand my hair cuz it was oily and disgusting. So yea. SAME THING. Then after shower, dry hair, moisturise, drink water, text, I sat down and opened the parcel.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. On the postage slip, it wrote "clothes, book, card". At first, I expected the book to be THE green book, THE KTPS green book between the four of us girls that we write stuff in. But it wasn't. It was a diary. There was a card from Tur, a written letter from Steph, Pei and someone that I totally didn't expect, Jason! hahahaha. Surprise surprise!!! There was this realllllllyyyyy sakai-what-a-typical-guy-gift bookmark from Jason (which I LOVE haha), pajama pants from Tur and Pei, and Steph got me the diary, a postcard from Taiwan, and birthday candles -.--.-.-.-.-.-.- cuz she said that, in case I didn't have any candles to blow out, I could light those and blow them out.... by myself. Hahaha. she's always SO hilarious.
Omygosh. As I went through the letters, one by one, I could feel my aura or my sense of feeling blessed (whuut) or afterglow or euphoria or whatever just grow grow grow growwwww around me till it was impenetrable. I was smiling like an idiot to myself, just thinking wow wow wow wow. I was almosssst brought to tears a couple of times by some of their words. It's just really. Great. You know?? I guess sometimes I forget how amazing our friendship is. (KTPS I mean, not Jason. hahahaha) To be honest, maybe sometimes I take it for granted and forget it, and feel that it... has faded to almost nothing? Because we hardly talk. We had a facebook message thread to keep each other updated but slowly, less stuff got posted. Now we have a whatsapp group, but it's only an occasional "oh is anyone going back to KK for CNY?" "omggggg I'm soo stressed :'(" kinda stuff you know?
But. Gah. It's just. Sad. Cuz we're all grown up, we're all apart (except for Steph and Tur), we all have our own lives (OMG! TUR HAS A BF!!!!!!! And Pei has one too in KL, and they both seem reallllyyyyyy happy). But I guess it's what Pei said in her letter. That our friendship has moved on to the mature stage, where we dont have to text or talk to each other every day, but we know that we still care for each other. :) You know the kind of feeling where you don't really talk to that person anymore, but you miss them and worry about them? I do.
And Steph was sooooo touching in her letter. Hahaha. At first her letter started out with this super tidy handwriting and I felt SO BAD because I honestly could not figure out who it was till I actually read it. Hahaha. She started out normal and crazy and then she became serious. She said that she knows it's tough for me to study so far away from home, and that I will feel lonely and lost and like there's no one to talk to. OMGGGGGG TEARJERKER!!!!!!!!!! And she just asked me to always look to God, cuz He's the only one who will be there whenever I need someone, no matter where I am in the world. I don't know, I think it really touched me because I've never really spoke much to her about how tough I sometimes find it here. Not the course being tough (though it is, but that's manageable (awkward if I fail)), and not the food or laundry or living by myself thing. Just, being so far from home. And she understands. I found myself shouting in my head, YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. IT'S THE EXACT SAME FOR YOU. Probably worse cuz she's so so close with her family. But anyhow. She's really a great friend. AND SHE SAID THAT SHE PROMISES THAT AFTER SHE WORKS AND SAVES MONEY, SHE WILL COME AND VISIT ME HERE!!!!
I don't know. This may sound bad but, I felt blessed all over again to be reminded of how I have these amazing friends. How I kinda forgot about them as close friends for a while. :) And I've tried and failed many times to use a diary/planner. But now that she bought me one I WILL use it. I WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll start from the next academic year. :D (Feel bad cuz Kel bought me an amazingly cute planner but I stopped using it after a while).
Oh. As for Jason. Hahahahhahaha. LOVE THE BOOKMARK cuz it's sooooooooooooo. cute. HAHAHA. It says that Friendship is a special kind of love. AWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Really appreciate that I have such an awesome friend in him. :) Simple and true. ENOUGH SAID.
So yea. I better study. :') :')
Thank you God, for blessing me with these great great gifts. It's more than I am worthy of. Thank you! And let me always remember this amazing feeling of gratitude, of friendship, of LOVE!!!!!!!!! Let me always remember to truly truly appreciate all these people in my life. :)
Tue 01:40 5/3/13
Today, once again I went into reception to check the post, not knowing why I keep doing it when I always come out empty handed. But I did it anyway. Searching through all the parcels on the table, lo and behold. I got POST. WHEEEEEEE. I didn't know who it was from, cuz I only saw that it had my name on it, so I walked out of the reception with this RIDICULOUS smile on my face. I looked down at the postage slip thingy and read that it was from Shelia. Shelia! Tur tur shelia! I actually, literally stopped. in. my. tracks. And I just stared at the parcel with my jaw on the floor. I didn't expect that at all!!!!!!!!!!! She asked for my address like a week before my birthday, but now it's already March, we've had loads of tests and have more coming up. I had completely forgotten about it. I was just. Omgosssh. Absolutely thrilled. The feeling was amazing. Like, close your eyes, feel how blessed you are, send some thanks to God, amazing! hahaha!
So I went back to the apartment, squealing in delight (in my mind anyway) and I went to take a shower. Hahaha. Everything had to be perfect for when I open the post. Just like how I like to take a shower before dinner because dinner is family time then lazy time after that, and it's nice to be clean and relaxed for it all. :D (Denise is right, I'm kinda full of crap) haha. Actually it was just that I couldn't stand my hair cuz it was oily and disgusting. So yea. SAME THING. Then after shower, dry hair, moisturise, drink water, text, I sat down and opened the parcel.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. On the postage slip, it wrote "clothes, book, card". At first, I expected the book to be THE green book, THE KTPS green book between the four of us girls that we write stuff in. But it wasn't. It was a diary. There was a card from Tur, a written letter from Steph, Pei and someone that I totally didn't expect, Jason! hahahaha. Surprise surprise!!! There was this realllllllyyyyy sakai-what-a-typical-guy-gift bookmark from Jason (which I LOVE haha), pajama pants from Tur and Pei, and Steph got me the diary, a postcard from Taiwan, and birthday candles -.--.-.-.-.-.-.- cuz she said that, in case I didn't have any candles to blow out, I could light those and blow them out.... by myself. Hahaha. she's always SO hilarious.
Omygosh. As I went through the letters, one by one, I could feel my aura or my sense of feeling blessed (whuut) or afterglow or euphoria or whatever just grow grow grow growwwww around me till it was impenetrable. I was smiling like an idiot to myself, just thinking wow wow wow wow. I was almosssst brought to tears a couple of times by some of their words. It's just really. Great. You know?? I guess sometimes I forget how amazing our friendship is. (KTPS I mean, not Jason. hahahaha) To be honest, maybe sometimes I take it for granted and forget it, and feel that it... has faded to almost nothing? Because we hardly talk. We had a facebook message thread to keep each other updated but slowly, less stuff got posted. Now we have a whatsapp group, but it's only an occasional "oh is anyone going back to KK for CNY?" "omggggg I'm soo stressed :'(" kinda stuff you know?
But. Gah. It's just. Sad. Cuz we're all grown up, we're all apart (except for Steph and Tur), we all have our own lives (OMG! TUR HAS A BF!!!!!!! And Pei has one too in KL, and they both seem reallllyyyyyy happy). But I guess it's what Pei said in her letter. That our friendship has moved on to the mature stage, where we dont have to text or talk to each other every day, but we know that we still care for each other. :) You know the kind of feeling where you don't really talk to that person anymore, but you miss them and worry about them? I do.
And Steph was sooooo touching in her letter. Hahaha. At first her letter started out with this super tidy handwriting and I felt SO BAD because I honestly could not figure out who it was till I actually read it. Hahaha. She started out normal and crazy and then she became serious. She said that she knows it's tough for me to study so far away from home, and that I will feel lonely and lost and like there's no one to talk to. OMGGGGGG TEARJERKER!!!!!!!!!! And she just asked me to always look to God, cuz He's the only one who will be there whenever I need someone, no matter where I am in the world. I don't know, I think it really touched me because I've never really spoke much to her about how tough I sometimes find it here. Not the course being tough (though it is, but that's manageable (awkward if I fail)), and not the food or laundry or living by myself thing. Just, being so far from home. And she understands. I found myself shouting in my head, YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. IT'S THE EXACT SAME FOR YOU. Probably worse cuz she's so so close with her family. But anyhow. She's really a great friend. AND SHE SAID THAT SHE PROMISES THAT AFTER SHE WORKS AND SAVES MONEY, SHE WILL COME AND VISIT ME HERE!!!!
I don't know. This may sound bad but, I felt blessed all over again to be reminded of how I have these amazing friends. How I kinda forgot about them as close friends for a while. :) And I've tried and failed many times to use a diary/planner. But now that she bought me one I WILL use it. I WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll start from the next academic year. :D (Feel bad cuz Kel bought me an amazingly cute planner but I stopped using it after a while).
Oh. As for Jason. Hahahahhahaha. LOVE THE BOOKMARK cuz it's sooooooooooooo. cute. HAHAHA. It says that Friendship is a special kind of love. AWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Really appreciate that I have such an awesome friend in him. :) Simple and true. ENOUGH SAID.
So yea. I better study. :') :')
Thank you God, for blessing me with these great great gifts. It's more than I am worthy of. Thank you! And let me always remember this amazing feeling of gratitude, of friendship, of LOVE!!!!!!!!! Let me always remember to truly truly appreciate all these people in my life. :)
Tue 01:40 5/3/13
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Headache.
I went to town today and yaaaaaay. Happy with my purchases for Sam. :D It was hard at first cuz I had NO CLUE what to get her. Cuz she's the type that buys what she wants/needs when she sees it. Not frugal like me, who says "aiyaaa save money laaa". I bought a top that I think will be nice and a back pack too because the one she uses for uni is a black adidas one. :D Happy! It came to about €90 and it's gonna be split between 9 of us I think. I really wonder how much they each paid for my guitar, oats if it was cheaper than this. :/ hahaha. OMGGGG. But anywho. I bought Ben & Jerry's ice cream, €6.95 I think. SO EXPENSIVE. On her actual bday on Tues night, I'm gonna surprise her with that as her cake. :D so yeap. Hope all goes well! I'm so sleepy now! Missed church today :( :( :( but I can only blame myself cuz I slept at 5am the night before but hey, I finished my lab reports. But hey, I could've done so much more but I'm such a procrastinator it's sickening.
Do you know what else is sickening? The government. The government back home, specifically. This Sulu army thing is ridiculous. What crap is this. The way they are handling this is just. Wow. So embarrassing. Why are there so many things that the authorities do that are just so shameful? The LGBT list, the listen listen listen thing that made me wanna strangle myself, and now this. "Peaceful negotiation"? Hah, did a great job there didn't you? I think what really gets me mad is the fact that I'm here, and I have no idea what the situation is like back home in Sabah. I go on facebook today and see so many statuses about the "war" or whatever. War is a strong word. I'm mad cuz of the bullcrap thing about the police force being sent instead of the soldiers? I'm mad cuz my family is in Sabah, and I'm worried cuz I don't know if this will develop into anything more serious. Ever since I read about this thing that started out without any bloodshed, when the government was like "oh yea, peaceful negotiation bla bla bla", I kept imagining how wars and revolutions start out. How it started out at one small area on a small island, then it spreads to the whole country etc. Just. Ugh.
Listen to Christina Aguilera's Sing For Me. Nice song. Angela introduced it to me. :D
Hope everyone is well. Really need to study!
3/3/13 19:34 Sun
Do you know what else is sickening? The government. The government back home, specifically. This Sulu army thing is ridiculous. What crap is this. The way they are handling this is just. Wow. So embarrassing. Why are there so many things that the authorities do that are just so shameful? The LGBT list, the listen listen listen thing that made me wanna strangle myself, and now this. "Peaceful negotiation"? Hah, did a great job there didn't you? I think what really gets me mad is the fact that I'm here, and I have no idea what the situation is like back home in Sabah. I go on facebook today and see so many statuses about the "war" or whatever. War is a strong word. I'm mad cuz of the bullcrap thing about the police force being sent instead of the soldiers? I'm mad cuz my family is in Sabah, and I'm worried cuz I don't know if this will develop into anything more serious. Ever since I read about this thing that started out without any bloodshed, when the government was like "oh yea, peaceful negotiation bla bla bla", I kept imagining how wars and revolutions start out. How it started out at one small area on a small island, then it spreads to the whole country etc. Just. Ugh.
Listen to Christina Aguilera's Sing For Me. Nice song. Angela introduced it to me. :D
Hope everyone is well. Really need to study!
3/3/13 19:34 Sun
Saturday, March 2, 2013
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I JUST FOUND OUT IT'S SAM'S BDAY ON TUES!!!!!! PANICKING! WHAT TO BUY?! WHEN TO CELEBRATE?!
Sat 18:39 2/3/13
Sat 18:39 2/3/13
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