So today, (technically ystd), one of my best friend's gong gong passed away. I pray that his soul may be in peace, and that his family will be able to be strong, that God will have mercy on them as they go through this sad event. :) I'm sad that he's sad. Sad that he's sad when he see's his po po sad. And it's just so weird. I've always felt that it was so wrong how life just keeps moving on and ploughing on even when something huge just happened to a person. Like death or war or a natural disaster. But I know, it's just the way life is. Moves on even when you don't want it to. It's just weird how he's there, and this just happened to him and his family and to them, time slows down and revolves around that event. And I'm here, and I still have volleyball training to get to and a dinner to attend. It's so wrong. But that's just the way it is. :/
Anywho. Once again, just pray that God will have mercy on the departed's soul, as well as those who are left behind. Pray that they'll be strong.
And somewhat selfishly, pray that I won't have to face that situation anytime soon, that all my loved ones and their loved ones will be healthy and safe.
20/1/13 Sun 01:26
Sorry for your loss bro. Hugs.
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Friday, January 18, 2013
Quitter.
I'm so sleepy. Eyes are aching in my eye sockets. Haha. Maybe cuz I watched Grey's Anatomy and OMGGGGGGGGGGG so sad how could they do that eeeeeeee next episode next week aahhhhh nooo!!!!
So anyway. Two points. Number one. I got the results for the spot exam for my topographical anatomy module. It's only worth 5% for the whole thing. I got like 64% of that 5%. It's pretty depressing cuz there's only like 9 other ppl out of 45 or so that did worse than me. BUTTTTTTT. OH WELLLLLLLLL. I really wanna do like amazingly well this year so I can hopefully apply for a scholarship somewhere. That requires studying tho, which I haven't done much of. :/ ::awkward silence::
Number two! I was doing a survey just now just because I was bored or something. Or maybe cuz if you do the survey you have a chance to win some prize. Hah, I don't even know what the prize is. But I did it anyway. It was just about how undergrads are finding their time in UCC so far. And there was a question about how motivated I am about my studies and how am I enjoying UCC so far etc. Strongly agree, agree, neither, disagree or strongly disagree? I think I chose neither? Can't really remember. But anyway. I'm just worried. Am I completely happy here? Mmmmmmmm maybe not. The activities I do, the friends I have. *shrugs shoulders, pout out bottom lip, raise eyebrows, tilt head to one side, hold pose for a while*. Hahaha. Am I happy I got a place in UCC? Yes. I deserve it, I worked so hard for it. Whether I appreciate it or not, that's a different thing. I'm just really scared. I've been scared for a while now. I'm scared that I'll pack up and leave because of the "am I completely happy here" thing. It's not like I haven't done it before. TTSS to Box Hill to Genazzano back to TTSS. I'm a quitter, that's what I am. That's why every time someone gives me a pat on the back saying I did so great in the Leaving Cert in such a short time, when I think of how I pushed myself so hard, I hold on to that feeling because UCC is the reward I got for that effort. And I deserve it. I do. So many want this opportunity but don't get it. Butttttt. I'm a quitter. I'm floating. I don't know. *shrugs shoulders, pout out bottom lip, raise eyebrows, tilt head to one side, hold pose for a while*
On a totally unrelated note, BIRTHDAY TREPIDATION. I would really like to thank the people who celebrated my birthday for me last year. The ones who planned stuff, bought me stuff, brought me places. The ones who cared enough to do something about my birthday. I really do appreciate it. :D I don't know how I'm gonna let go of my teens and become 20. The things I say, the thoughts I think, the actions I do and the attention I pay. I'm like a kid. I don't know how to be 20, how to be mature! Ugh. And is it silly to say that I'm not looking forward to my birthday because I'm scared it'll go by unnoticed? I've always felt this way. But oh well. I've decided to throw all the worries etc into the ice cold wind and just, let it be. Every little thing is gonna be alright. :D
I had baked salmon today. (Asked Louis, Ray's housemate, how he cooked it last time when I was there in Eastbourne for NYE dinner). It was really yummy. ^_^
19/1/13 Sat 01:45
So anyway. Two points. Number one. I got the results for the spot exam for my topographical anatomy module. It's only worth 5% for the whole thing. I got like 64% of that 5%. It's pretty depressing cuz there's only like 9 other ppl out of 45 or so that did worse than me. BUTTTTTTT. OH WELLLLLLLLL. I really wanna do like amazingly well this year so I can hopefully apply for a scholarship somewhere. That requires studying tho, which I haven't done much of. :/ ::awkward silence::
Number two! I was doing a survey just now just because I was bored or something. Or maybe cuz if you do the survey you have a chance to win some prize. Hah, I don't even know what the prize is. But I did it anyway. It was just about how undergrads are finding their time in UCC so far. And there was a question about how motivated I am about my studies and how am I enjoying UCC so far etc. Strongly agree, agree, neither, disagree or strongly disagree? I think I chose neither? Can't really remember. But anyway. I'm just worried. Am I completely happy here? Mmmmmmmm maybe not. The activities I do, the friends I have. *shrugs shoulders, pout out bottom lip, raise eyebrows, tilt head to one side, hold pose for a while*. Hahaha. Am I happy I got a place in UCC? Yes. I deserve it, I worked so hard for it. Whether I appreciate it or not, that's a different thing. I'm just really scared. I've been scared for a while now. I'm scared that I'll pack up and leave because of the "am I completely happy here" thing. It's not like I haven't done it before. TTSS to Box Hill to Genazzano back to TTSS. I'm a quitter, that's what I am. That's why every time someone gives me a pat on the back saying I did so great in the Leaving Cert in such a short time, when I think of how I pushed myself so hard, I hold on to that feeling because UCC is the reward I got for that effort. And I deserve it. I do. So many want this opportunity but don't get it. Butttttt. I'm a quitter. I'm floating. I don't know. *shrugs shoulders, pout out bottom lip, raise eyebrows, tilt head to one side, hold pose for a while*
On a totally unrelated note, BIRTHDAY TREPIDATION. I would really like to thank the people who celebrated my birthday for me last year. The ones who planned stuff, bought me stuff, brought me places. The ones who cared enough to do something about my birthday. I really do appreciate it. :D I don't know how I'm gonna let go of my teens and become 20. The things I say, the thoughts I think, the actions I do and the attention I pay. I'm like a kid. I don't know how to be 20, how to be mature! Ugh. And is it silly to say that I'm not looking forward to my birthday because I'm scared it'll go by unnoticed? I've always felt this way. But oh well. I've decided to throw all the worries etc into the ice cold wind and just, let it be. Every little thing is gonna be alright. :D
I had baked salmon today. (Asked Louis, Ray's housemate, how he cooked it last time when I was there in Eastbourne for NYE dinner). It was really yummy. ^_^
19/1/13 Sat 01:45
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Floating.
OMG. My laptop is so lag it makes me so angry! Hahaha. "Video games don't cause violence, lag does", says a post in 9gag. Hahaha.
Anywho. I'm so tired from the gym. I feel like I've been so unproductive. Maybe cuz I've been sleeping every chance I get cuz Sleep Fights Cancer (from A Fault In Our Stars, John Green). Haha. I mean, like, sleep gives you good complexion and more energy to do more exercise in the gym. Whut. But yea. I've been napping in between classes and before going to the gym after classes too. I've been putting in a bit of studying but not as much as I would like to. Night times are super unproductive cuz after dinner everyone just chills in front of the tv and drinks hot chocolate/tea and just try and watch tv while everyone talks over the tv. It's such a joke cuz they'll be like "Oh such and such movie is on tonight! We'll watch that tgth" and everyone just ends up chatting and only 20% of the movie is actually watched. It happens all the time.
This reminds me, have I mentioned anything about my flatmates? My absolutely lovely flatmates. Laura and Lisa from Clonakilty, Edel from Kilkenny and Katie from Clare. Then there's Jolinde from Holland who's here for 5 months only and just joined us this term. :) They are absolutely lovely! Crazy typical Irish who party loads, but absolutely great! I'm actually really gonna miss them so much when I move out next year which is highly likely. They'll probably stay tgth. But we'll see how it goes. It'll be so sad because. With them, it feels like a second home. It feels like a family. Though untidy and infected (Lisa and Laura went home cuz they got sick!!!! Not the first time too!). It's just the fact that one person cooks dinner every night, taking turns and eating together. And the fact that everyone is ALWAYS in the living room. Like they literally just go to their rooms to skype or to sleep. Their laptops are usually left outside in the living room. It's just so nice. I love it so much. If I were to stay with other Malaysians, we probably would be watching our dramas and such, and be glued to the laptop all the time. Whereas with these lovely girls, we have "the lols and the bants" in the living room and just chat and laugh and watch videos and chill. :D I really don't know what to expect if I move in with Sam the next academic year. It'll be so different. But oh well. :)
I was rereading my some of my old posts. I need to grow closer to God. :) Haven't been doing that much.
Also. I'm feeling kinda. Lost. Like. Though I love the girls in 30 (we're in Apartment 30, Flirty 30!!!), I'm not like bffs-so-close-we-just-clicked with them. I feel that way about every one here. It's not so bad. I do enjoy everyone's company (by everyone, I mean my coursemates and stuff). But just no click I guess. So yes. I'm just floating. Floating floating. And theeeeeeen. Oh well. I dunno. But in a small way I feel like I'm being my own man. Trying not to let it bother me so much? *shrugs shoulders* (sigh, as always, I don't know what I'm saying). Sometimes I feel like I'm living a life with nothing that's worth bragging about. Not to say that I love bragging or whatever. But to me, it's like there's nothing really that makes me feel so proud to say, hey, look at all the great things I've been doing. In S3 I at least had loads of activities, the "healthy lifestyle" I did pride myself of. But now it's just like. Meh. There are a couple of times I've been like, hey, I really enjoyed that activity or dinner etc, but then on the other hand. I've been going out partying with my flatmates. And that involves drinking and clubbing. I dunno. It's just not something I'm proud of you know? Before I left for Dublin, when Eugene and Moses and I used to hang out all the time, I learnt from them and kinda decided that yea, gambling and drinking doesn't benefit you etc, doesn't feel right to do those sort of things. But whaddaya know. I'm doing it all the time here (drinking, I mean). Haha. I've been pretty hung up about this issue. It's just such a big part of the culture and the socialising aspect here. So confused. IDENTITY CRISIS, I call it! That's part of the reason why I kinda wanna move out because I won't have to go out with my flatmates then I won't be at war with myself. But then Denise will be like Oh it's your own choice as to whether you wanna drink or not. I guess that YOLO side of me and maybe that proud side of me that wants to prove that "hey, I can drink as much as you can" makes me keep drinking. Hahaha. Omg. This is actually so embarrassing. Heart on my sleeve, yup! But the truth is the truth is the truth.
I gotta go sleep. Have loads of lectures tmr and I didn't nap today so I'm wrecked. Haha. Wrecked is an Irish word. (I mean, an English word that the Irish use all the time). I really don't know what I was talking about in this post.
Opps.
16/1/13 23:34 Wed
Anywho. I'm so tired from the gym. I feel like I've been so unproductive. Maybe cuz I've been sleeping every chance I get cuz Sleep Fights Cancer (from A Fault In Our Stars, John Green). Haha. I mean, like, sleep gives you good complexion and more energy to do more exercise in the gym. Whut. But yea. I've been napping in between classes and before going to the gym after classes too. I've been putting in a bit of studying but not as much as I would like to. Night times are super unproductive cuz after dinner everyone just chills in front of the tv and drinks hot chocolate/tea and just try and watch tv while everyone talks over the tv. It's such a joke cuz they'll be like "Oh such and such movie is on tonight! We'll watch that tgth" and everyone just ends up chatting and only 20% of the movie is actually watched. It happens all the time.
This reminds me, have I mentioned anything about my flatmates? My absolutely lovely flatmates. Laura and Lisa from Clonakilty, Edel from Kilkenny and Katie from Clare. Then there's Jolinde from Holland who's here for 5 months only and just joined us this term. :) They are absolutely lovely! Crazy typical Irish who party loads, but absolutely great! I'm actually really gonna miss them so much when I move out next year which is highly likely. They'll probably stay tgth. But we'll see how it goes. It'll be so sad because. With them, it feels like a second home. It feels like a family. Though untidy and infected (Lisa and Laura went home cuz they got sick!!!! Not the first time too!). It's just the fact that one person cooks dinner every night, taking turns and eating together. And the fact that everyone is ALWAYS in the living room. Like they literally just go to their rooms to skype or to sleep. Their laptops are usually left outside in the living room. It's just so nice. I love it so much. If I were to stay with other Malaysians, we probably would be watching our dramas and such, and be glued to the laptop all the time. Whereas with these lovely girls, we have "the lols and the bants" in the living room and just chat and laugh and watch videos and chill. :D I really don't know what to expect if I move in with Sam the next academic year. It'll be so different. But oh well. :)
I was rereading my some of my old posts. I need to grow closer to God. :) Haven't been doing that much.
Also. I'm feeling kinda. Lost. Like. Though I love the girls in 30 (we're in Apartment 30, Flirty 30!!!), I'm not like bffs-so-close-we-just-clicked with them. I feel that way about every one here. It's not so bad. I do enjoy everyone's company (by everyone, I mean my coursemates and stuff). But just no click I guess. So yes. I'm just floating. Floating floating. And theeeeeeen. Oh well. I dunno. But in a small way I feel like I'm being my own man. Trying not to let it bother me so much? *shrugs shoulders* (sigh, as always, I don't know what I'm saying). Sometimes I feel like I'm living a life with nothing that's worth bragging about. Not to say that I love bragging or whatever. But to me, it's like there's nothing really that makes me feel so proud to say, hey, look at all the great things I've been doing. In S3 I at least had loads of activities, the "healthy lifestyle" I did pride myself of. But now it's just like. Meh. There are a couple of times I've been like, hey, I really enjoyed that activity or dinner etc, but then on the other hand. I've been going out partying with my flatmates. And that involves drinking and clubbing. I dunno. It's just not something I'm proud of you know? Before I left for Dublin, when Eugene and Moses and I used to hang out all the time, I learnt from them and kinda decided that yea, gambling and drinking doesn't benefit you etc, doesn't feel right to do those sort of things. But whaddaya know. I'm doing it all the time here (drinking, I mean). Haha. I've been pretty hung up about this issue. It's just such a big part of the culture and the socialising aspect here. So confused. IDENTITY CRISIS, I call it! That's part of the reason why I kinda wanna move out because I won't have to go out with my flatmates then I won't be at war with myself. But then Denise will be like Oh it's your own choice as to whether you wanna drink or not. I guess that YOLO side of me and maybe that proud side of me that wants to prove that "hey, I can drink as much as you can" makes me keep drinking. Hahaha. Omg. This is actually so embarrassing. Heart on my sleeve, yup! But the truth is the truth is the truth.
I gotta go sleep. Have loads of lectures tmr and I didn't nap today so I'm wrecked. Haha. Wrecked is an Irish word. (I mean, an English word that the Irish use all the time). I really don't know what I was talking about in this post.
Opps.
16/1/13 23:34 Wed
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
The Year of Twelves.
Hello! It's been ages since I've said anything here. I should try and get back into the habit more. I will try. It's hard cuz of all the lovely distractions that have come with the advancement of technology, or should I say the internet!!! So anywho. I would just like to acknowledge the passing of 2012. YES, it is 2013! We survived the apocalypse and yadda yadda yadda. I never really believed anything would happen, but there was that what if question in my head and I did say a few "sincere goodbyes" kinda thing before the 21st of Dec. Hahaha. We should say those stuff more, shouldn't we? :) Life is short, don't take it for granted.
ANYWAY. 2012 was a great year. Looking back at it, loads of things happened in that year. Sad things, great things. Kinda like 2011 I guess, like how amazing the S3 experience was and all that. But there are 3 and a half main events that occurred in 2012 that I would like to mention. :)
1. I did the Leaving Cert. Kinda hard to believe that it was only last year that I did that. Seems like ages ago. I'm sure I've mentioned it before, as it was the time I blogged LOADS since I blocked Facebook from my laptop (haha sad circumstances). But yea. It showed me what I could do if I really put my mind to it. I always think of the Post-It note I saw on Kat's wall agesssss ago when she was doing her PMR I think. It said "Where there's a will, there's a way". It's actually so true. :) And also she told me "做人不能半途而废". I dunno. The Leaving Cert was amazing in that way. I worked hard, pushed myself to the limit, and I kinda succeeded. *Wipes away tear dramatically*. Haha. Another thing was that I grew in confidence. As in like, eating alone during lunch and walking around the city alone etc. Having thick skin to ask for help and just... sit alone and stuff. Just being strong. But I guess I couldn't have really gone through that if I didn't have friends back home with whom I still kept in touch with. Lalalala.
2. Raleighhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Went to Raleigh after the Leaving Cert in Dublin and can I just say, IT WAS. AMAZINGGGGG. :D :D To any of you who will actually chance upon this post, DO LOOK IT UP and join an expedition!!!! It was a once-in-a-lifetime experience, though hopefully I'll do something like that again. It was just like you were in a totally different life. Gone with the wild, and all that jazz. I consider myself extremelyyyyy lucky because I got a great project and amazing PMs (project managers). (Sorry if I've blogged about Raleigh before but OH WELL). The other project team didn't really have such an amazing time because their PMs kinda sucked the fun out of it as they were so strict and stuff. And also we were lucky because our project site was really kampung and isolated. No phone signal, no electricity, no toilets and such. So in that sense, I got to experience what it was like to really live. Physical labour everyday, sleeping at 9pm due to actual exhaustion, relentless heat with no relief that we usually get from fans or aircons, actually interacting with other humans as we chilled out after work in the evenings. Built a HOUSE out of wood and constructed a gravity water feed, providing the few villagers with running taps. Oh and also made a FIELD where they could play volleyball or football. Like, we used parangs and hacked the wild sharp lalangs out of the way to made it a clear space. It was just truly wonderful. Miss it loads. :) :) Would love to do another one but you just know it won't be the same. We'll see where life leads me anyway. ;)
3. University. I kinda still can't believe I'm actually here. One of the big stepping stones in life. In Cork. Sometimes I do wonder what it'll be like if I chose IMU instead of UCC, how different the lifestyles would be. But I should be grateful. Like what this girl I'm emailing said, (she's someone who's in the Institute in Dublin who wants info about UCC) we'll be here for 5 years and then we'll be qualified, then we'll go home and spend the rest of our lives there (if we choose to). So we should enjoy it now huh! True. :) But I guess sometimes it's hard to appreciate what you've got, first world problems. Haha. But anywho. There have been some.. meh times. And sometimes I feel like I don't click properly with anyone. It's all jussssttt okay. Always jussssttt okay. So sometimes I feel like I'm alone on the moon, perpetual solitute. I do keep in touch with friends back home but it's like. I feel that I'm stuck you know! Everyone is moving on and making great friends and having adventures. And I'm just having this lonely adventure and this horrible identity crisis or battle with my ethical conscience. Hahaha whutttttttttttttttttttttttttt. I guess I feel like I'm a seed that's been thrown here and I'm not growing any roots, whereas other ppl have started growing roots wherever they are. And I'm just floating. Haha. As always, I dunno whaaaaaaaat I'm saying. THE POINT IS. I got into University and I'm here for 5 years and I pray. to. God. that I make it out alive and well. Haha.
And A Half. Lost friends in 2012. Like, really great ones. Haha that sounded like they passed away (TOUCH WOOD!). Just. Time goes on, you float apart, lose touch with some people. LIFE is what happened! haha. It's just sad. But I'm still alive. :) Oh and I went to Germany, first European trip with friends (Shuen, Swarna, Ray!). Pretty coollllllllll. Experienced snow for the first time too! :D :D :D
Anyway. 2013 is here. I will miss 2012. Loved it, bled through it, cried through it, hahahahaha-ed through it, but most importantly, lived through it! 12 is my favourite number so I'm sad it's gone. But 2013, I welcome you, this challenge I have to face! New year's resolutions? Study regularly, exercise at least 3 times a week, blog more, in overall, TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE. Eat less? PFFTT. Ain't nobody got time for that! (9gag reference!). But yea.
Friends, do say hi once in a while. As always, be sincere, and take life by the horns!!
16/1/2013 Wed 12:49am
ON A TOTALLY UNRELATED NOTE. DID YOU CHECK OUT GOOGLE? HAHAHA SO COOL! It's a GAME! I mean the google logo thing they occasionally do to celebrate special occasions. (hence the word occasionally -.-). I suppose it's cuz of all the snow that's falling NOT in Malaysia back home. hahaha. (And not in Cork as well! Though it's getting really cold). But yea. COOL.
ANYWAY. 2012 was a great year. Looking back at it, loads of things happened in that year. Sad things, great things. Kinda like 2011 I guess, like how amazing the S3 experience was and all that. But there are 3 and a half main events that occurred in 2012 that I would like to mention. :)
1. I did the Leaving Cert. Kinda hard to believe that it was only last year that I did that. Seems like ages ago. I'm sure I've mentioned it before, as it was the time I blogged LOADS since I blocked Facebook from my laptop (haha sad circumstances). But yea. It showed me what I could do if I really put my mind to it. I always think of the Post-It note I saw on Kat's wall agesssss ago when she was doing her PMR I think. It said "Where there's a will, there's a way". It's actually so true. :) And also she told me "做人不能半途而废". I dunno. The Leaving Cert was amazing in that way. I worked hard, pushed myself to the limit, and I kinda succeeded. *Wipes away tear dramatically*. Haha. Another thing was that I grew in confidence. As in like, eating alone during lunch and walking around the city alone etc. Having thick skin to ask for help and just... sit alone and stuff. Just being strong. But I guess I couldn't have really gone through that if I didn't have friends back home with whom I still kept in touch with. Lalalala.
2. Raleighhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Went to Raleigh after the Leaving Cert in Dublin and can I just say, IT WAS. AMAZINGGGGG. :D :D To any of you who will actually chance upon this post, DO LOOK IT UP and join an expedition!!!! It was a once-in-a-lifetime experience, though hopefully I'll do something like that again. It was just like you were in a totally different life. Gone with the wild, and all that jazz. I consider myself extremelyyyyy lucky because I got a great project and amazing PMs (project managers). (Sorry if I've blogged about Raleigh before but OH WELL). The other project team didn't really have such an amazing time because their PMs kinda sucked the fun out of it as they were so strict and stuff. And also we were lucky because our project site was really kampung and isolated. No phone signal, no electricity, no toilets and such. So in that sense, I got to experience what it was like to really live. Physical labour everyday, sleeping at 9pm due to actual exhaustion, relentless heat with no relief that we usually get from fans or aircons, actually interacting with other humans as we chilled out after work in the evenings. Built a HOUSE out of wood and constructed a gravity water feed, providing the few villagers with running taps. Oh and also made a FIELD where they could play volleyball or football. Like, we used parangs and hacked the wild sharp lalangs out of the way to made it a clear space. It was just truly wonderful. Miss it loads. :) :) Would love to do another one but you just know it won't be the same. We'll see where life leads me anyway. ;)
3. University. I kinda still can't believe I'm actually here. One of the big stepping stones in life. In Cork. Sometimes I do wonder what it'll be like if I chose IMU instead of UCC, how different the lifestyles would be. But I should be grateful. Like what this girl I'm emailing said, (she's someone who's in the Institute in Dublin who wants info about UCC) we'll be here for 5 years and then we'll be qualified, then we'll go home and spend the rest of our lives there (if we choose to). So we should enjoy it now huh! True. :) But I guess sometimes it's hard to appreciate what you've got, first world problems. Haha. But anywho. There have been some.. meh times. And sometimes I feel like I don't click properly with anyone. It's all jussssttt okay. Always jussssttt okay. So sometimes I feel like I'm alone on the moon, perpetual solitute. I do keep in touch with friends back home but it's like. I feel that I'm stuck you know! Everyone is moving on and making great friends and having adventures. And I'm just having this lonely adventure and this horrible identity crisis or battle with my ethical conscience. Hahaha whutttttttttttttttttttttttttt. I guess I feel like I'm a seed that's been thrown here and I'm not growing any roots, whereas other ppl have started growing roots wherever they are. And I'm just floating. Haha. As always, I dunno whaaaaaaaat I'm saying. THE POINT IS. I got into University and I'm here for 5 years and I pray. to. God. that I make it out alive and well. Haha.
And A Half. Lost friends in 2012. Like, really great ones. Haha that sounded like they passed away (TOUCH WOOD!). Just. Time goes on, you float apart, lose touch with some people. LIFE is what happened! haha. It's just sad. But I'm still alive. :) Oh and I went to Germany, first European trip with friends (Shuen, Swarna, Ray!). Pretty coollllllllll. Experienced snow for the first time too! :D :D :D
Anyway. 2013 is here. I will miss 2012. Loved it, bled through it, cried through it, hahahahaha-ed through it, but most importantly, lived through it! 12 is my favourite number so I'm sad it's gone. But 2013, I welcome you, this challenge I have to face! New year's resolutions? Study regularly, exercise at least 3 times a week, blog more, in overall, TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE. Eat less? PFFTT. Ain't nobody got time for that! (9gag reference!). But yea.
Friends, do say hi once in a while. As always, be sincere, and take life by the horns!!
16/1/2013 Wed 12:49am
ON A TOTALLY UNRELATED NOTE. DID YOU CHECK OUT GOOGLE? HAHAHA SO COOL! It's a GAME! I mean the google logo thing they occasionally do to celebrate special occasions. (hence the word occasionally -.-). I suppose it's cuz of all the snow that's falling NOT in Malaysia back home. hahaha. (And not in Cork as well! Though it's getting really cold). But yea. COOL.
Monday, November 19, 2012
Two Feet.
Tue 20/11/12 12:08am
Hello!!!!! I know. I'm still alive right? :D So, a lottttt has happened in my life. Huge things like Raleigh and Uni!!
A quick update: I'm now enrolled in University College Cork in Cork, Ireland for the 5 year Dentistry programme. Yes, that means I did well enough in my Leaving Cert to get here. (hmm, have I thanked God for that? I should). I'm staying in the student accommodation, Castlewhite Apartments with 4 other Irish girls and I love them!!! There are only 5 of us Malaysians in my course, one girls who's half chinese from KK, and one girl who is Chinese from KL.
Well. There're a lot more stuff to fill you in with but I just wanted to say. I've been here two months already. And to be honest, it is only now that I can say I've really settled in. I came here, I felt really blessed, then kinda indifferent, then really sad sad sad alone empty homesick like omgggggggbringmehome, then finally I'm here at this point. I feel like I'm finally standing on my two feet, much stronger than before. Sounds so corny oh. But I dunno, I just feel like finally I'm in control with my life, I feel.. relieved. :) No, I'm not sure whether I will be really happy here for 5 years. No, I'm not sure if I should've chosen this instead of being close to home in IMU. No, I don't know if it was stupid of me to choose not to fly home this winter break. But all I know is, I really wanna be strong and stand on my own two feet and "be my own man" (as Denise says) and deal with my own problems and forgive. :)
Anyway. Just feel really.. tall.
I've been going to the church that's on campus and I just wanna put down the two sermons that spoke to me.
Last sunday's sermon was about the apocalypse or something. the priest talked about how the past is gone and the future doesn't exist. that NOW is the gift that God gives all of us, it's a blessing. That we don't want to live in a way that when our last breath comes we'll have regrets and what-ifs. So, during the gift God gives (which is NOW, this moment), we have to live well, be the best we can be. Live with a lot of love and forgiveness. It was a sermon that spoke to me cuz regarding forgiveness and stuff, we shouldn't hold grudges or be mean or like, pretend to be mad to make the other person feel guilty so they'll give us attention etc, basically means we have to treat ppl well, so there'll be no regrets! :) And forgive!!!!! No matter how much it hurts, just forgive! For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. (Matthew 6:14-15)
Hello!!!!! I know. I'm still alive right? :D So, a lottttt has happened in my life. Huge things like Raleigh and Uni!!
A quick update: I'm now enrolled in University College Cork in Cork, Ireland for the 5 year Dentistry programme. Yes, that means I did well enough in my Leaving Cert to get here. (hmm, have I thanked God for that? I should). I'm staying in the student accommodation, Castlewhite Apartments with 4 other Irish girls and I love them!!! There are only 5 of us Malaysians in my course, one girls who's half chinese from KK, and one girl who is Chinese from KL.
Well. There're a lot more stuff to fill you in with but I just wanted to say. I've been here two months already. And to be honest, it is only now that I can say I've really settled in. I came here, I felt really blessed, then kinda indifferent, then really sad sad sad alone empty homesick like omgggggggbringmehome, then finally I'm here at this point. I feel like I'm finally standing on my two feet, much stronger than before. Sounds so corny oh. But I dunno, I just feel like finally I'm in control with my life, I feel.. relieved. :) No, I'm not sure whether I will be really happy here for 5 years. No, I'm not sure if I should've chosen this instead of being close to home in IMU. No, I don't know if it was stupid of me to choose not to fly home this winter break. But all I know is, I really wanna be strong and stand on my own two feet and "be my own man" (as Denise says) and deal with my own problems and forgive. :)
Anyway. Just feel really.. tall.
I've been going to the church that's on campus and I just wanna put down the two sermons that spoke to me.
Last sunday's sermon was about the apocalypse or something. the priest talked about how the past is gone and the future doesn't exist. that NOW is the gift that God gives all of us, it's a blessing. That we don't want to live in a way that when our last breath comes we'll have regrets and what-ifs. So, during the gift God gives (which is NOW, this moment), we have to live well, be the best we can be. Live with a lot of love and forgiveness. It was a sermon that spoke to me cuz regarding forgiveness and stuff, we shouldn't hold grudges or be mean or like, pretend to be mad to make the other person feel guilty so they'll give us attention etc, basically means we have to treat ppl well, so there'll be no regrets! :) And forgive!!!!! No matter how much it hurts, just forgive! For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. (Matthew 6:14-15)
Andddd. Also there was one sermon that said, no matter how black the darkness deep inside of you, God is powerful enough to forgive you. For me, it means although you always sin again and again, although you may have dark thoughts or intentions inside of you, repent and God will still forgive. :)
Friday, July 13, 2012
PART THREE!
There's a Breaker Part 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I saw a spoiler in the forum that says that his ki centre gets fixed!!!!!!!!! YAY but NO cuz I haven't got to that part yet. Haha. Update: I am up to chapter 70+ of Breaker: New Waves (Part 2). Sped through it in a couple of days. Whee!!!!!!
On the otherrrrr hand *looks to other hand*, I guess PALS don't wait for a goodnight from the other.
Sat 01:34 14/7/12
On the otherrrrr hand *looks to other hand*, I guess PALS don't wait for a goodnight from the other.
Sat 01:34 14/7/12
ARRRGH!
My WHATSAPP ISN'T WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (And then you read Max's Tumblr/blog and you can see how lame and immature mine is). BLEH.
Sat 01:01 14/7/12
Sat 01:01 14/7/12
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