Something More?

Every time I listen/read stuff about God or having faith or Christian stuff, I feel kinda down because... I think it's because when I see what others are doing with their lives, and how it's so God-centered and how they put everything down before God, I dunno, I look at myself and I don't see something more. It's just that me who goes through life day by day, only occasionally looking up and praying, that me that's kinda without peace. The Christian mixes on 8tracks are great. :) 

Part of the confession prayer in Ray's church on Easter Sunday: "Forgive us when we live by our own strength and try to do Your work our way. Forgive us when our Christian lives seem a duty and not a joy. Forgive us when we live for this world alone and lose our perspective on heaven". It's kinda true. Recently I've been thinking about how it's hard not to swear. Not swearing kinda sucks the craic out of you. (Irish word!!!) And I don't swear (out loud anyway). I think that the me I really wanna be is one who gives the impression to others as a nice and approachable person. That's why I don't swear. But then recently, I was thinking of giving up on that to fit in more. You know? Then I read that prayer, and I realised that that's kinda losing your perspective on heaven. Living for this world alone. So yea. I guess I stand by my decision to not swear even if it makes life harder. :) 

Breathe in us a new spirit of service and make us joyfully obedient to your will, that we may serve you gladly all our days. Amen. 

Thurs 4/4/13 03:33