CNY?

Sigh. It's CNY this Sunday. I can't believe it's actually here. I'm kinda.. stressed about it, I don't really know why. I think it's because, away from home, the actual day of CNY itself, its importance and its significance is way more amplified! Usually back home, everything that happens is a blur. Reunion dinner on the eve on CNY, with the absolutely hilarious mini lion dance crew we have with the cousins in KK, or the absolutely packed house with loads of Sundrop, amazing food, noise and laughter (and sometimes singing) in Kuching, and then there's all the visiting you do, the red packets you receive, then the Chap Goh Meh dinner (元宵节) with the 汤圆 hahaha. I guess it was also cuz I was the youngest and didn't really need to do anything. But then now, I'm away from home and missing home so much it kinda hurts. And I feel that, celebrating CNY is important because it makes it feel... kinda more like home. Does that even make sense? So, on top of trying to make myself study, and thinking of what to wear to commemorate CNY, and praying I'll remember to get safety glasses for upcoming biochem labs and doing ALL the prep work for the labs, I have to remember to clean my room which I guess is my little house, and wash the sheets and everything. It's not like it's a habit, that cleaning before CNY is something I actively participate in back home. But it just feels important that I do it. Omg, I'm going crazy!!!! Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh. 

But anywho! There's dinner this Sat with the Malaysians and Singaporeans. Hopeeee it'll be good!!!! :D 

And also. I would just like to say that, I'm actually sick sick sick. It started with my nose, then now my throat is bad as well. So. bubble. itchy oh my throat. I'm so gonna lose my voice. It's so depressing laaaaaaaaa. -.- WHYYYYYYYY does this have to happen when it's CNY and my bday week?!?!?!?! UGH. I honestly believe that I won't recover back to 100% in this cold weather. Sigh. 

Tue 23:33 5/2/12

sigh  

/sī/

Verb Emit a long, deep, audible breath expressing sadness, relief, or tiredness.