TWO DOWN, TWO TO GO!!!!!!!!! The anatomy test was today, considering how much I studied, the fact that I basically crammed everything last night, I'm quite happy with the test. It was easier than I expected it to be and I think I did pretty well. Hehe. Thank you God, for giving me the strength to stay awake till 5am. T.T But see. Pushing yourself and working hard, at the end of the day, no one cares whether you didn't sleep at all or that you had twenty cans of redbull or cups of coffee to help you through the studying, no one cares if you stayed in the library overnight or whatever. At the end of the day, it's the results that count.
Yesterday, there was this exhibition thingy in conjunction with International Cultures Week. Adib, Yong, Wani and I went to check it out (cuz we heard there would be food there!). :P So there were Malaysian, Russian, Nigerian and Indian stands in the hall. The Malaysian stand was actually pretty impressive lo. They had a rack of traditional clothing, lots of interesting information and myths and stuff stuck on the wall, booklets of like customs and songs and stuff, and the traditional games too. Congkak, and the 5 stones game or something, hopscotch, and a skipping rope made of rubber bands. Haha remember those? The Indian stall had food and it was sooooo good. The Malaysian food wasn't allowed up there because it was too heavy or something, or it wasn't insured because it was home cooked you know? But yea. People started coming in and they were playing the games and they tried on the baju kurungs and baju melayus. They were jumping rope and stuff. It was so good! We went to check out all the stands and the Nigerian one was so cool! Their traditional costumes so nice and colourful. And their games didn't need any instruments or anything, just themselves. It was soooo fun watching them play you know. They're such awesome, coordinated, free people! I wanna be Nigerian too. Haha. They had this game where it's like "gu ji ba (stone scissors paper)" but using their feet, with 4 different positions, and with a pretty fast beat they had to follow and made by clapping their hands. So fun oh. Then we finally went downstairs to where the food was.
There was loads of food oh!!! At first we didn't really wanna take any cuz we were Malaysian and it was supposed to be for other people to try our food right. But I didn't know more than half of the dishes (because they were all Malay dishes) so Adib made me try some. Lompat tikam, the dessert, was SOOOO NICE. The green jelly, red sticky rice, coconut cream thingy? and gula melaka. Tried lontong, the tofu vegetarian curry thing? Haha and we stayed there for AGES man. Like for about 2 hours or so we just stood there and took little food here and there. Chatted loadssss in the cold and just joked around. It was really enjoyable loooo!! Very fun! In the end we had all the food. Ketupat, satay sauce, chicken curry, nasi lemak with the boiled egg, curry puff, and a weird bun. Hahaha. Kinda felt bad but hey. At least we know how to appreciate it. Oh, apparently Adib posted on my class' dentistry fb group and invited them to go have a taste of Malaysia or something. And he said to "take a chill pill from Dr. Toulouse's anatomy". HAHAHAHA OMG. We kept going on about how no one ever says take a chill pill anymore and kept giving him grief about it. It was so funny.
PJ and David came over. That was kinda nice of them. David enjoyed the food I think but PJ didn't really. I was having loads of fun so I was being really myself, the uninhibited, hyper me. And we were all talking and the subject of us (the Malaysians) staying in Ireland for 5 years came up and we were saying like, oh, 5 years is such a long time. Then PJ said, "ah it'll be fine. You all are such good friends amongst yourselves anyway". And being myself, I put on that sarcastic tone and said like, "oh yeaaaaaaa. *glance at Yong* Sure. We're greeeeat friends. Great friends indeed". And I could see PJ just staring at me. ................................................... ~awkward~.
I mean seriously. That got me thinking lo. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy am I sooo.... Unfeminine and so outrageous and LOLLLLLLLL and rough and loud and sarcastic?!?!?!?! SERIOUSLY. I think that lots of people don't get me lo, and they'll just be put off by me cuz I'm like so forward or talkative or whatever. I don't even know what I am. But just. Ugh. Tbh, I was kinda embarrassed lo. Some people don't get my humour or sarcasm and think I'm being serious and then I wanna strangle myself for being so ridiculous. -.-------------- I think that Spongebob influenced me too much as a child.
Btw, this video is awesome! PEACE OUT PEEPS!
00:17 1/3/12 (OMG IT'S MARCH!) Fri
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Comrades!
Heya! Yesterday after lectures I went to the library to study a little. After a couple of hours, I got hungry so I decided to leave the library. As I was leaving the reading room, going through the corridor outside that leads to the stairs to the main library, I met Mohammad, my coursemate. He's done a degree before in Pharmacy and he's always the one who answers questions. He's married and everything la. I haven't really spoken much to him but when I do, it's always been good conversations cuz he's knows how to joke around. So yea, I met him and we talked a bit. He asked me how I was doing and he seemed really concerned about how I was finding the course and everything. I guess he was asking because right now it's like, we're in a battle zone with all tests and the upcoming exam. Everyone is working really hard, and everyone (except those super smart ones like Yong, probably) (hahaha) is finding it really tough. Including myself. But anywho. Because he was at the library with Pouya (the London dude), I asked him about it and he said that he's trying to make Pouya study because Pouya was really distracted. That was really kind of him lo. And when we ended the conversation, he said that if I had any problems, we could always do a study group kind of thing. I don't know. That kind of touched me lo. Like he's so thoughtful and concerned about everyone. :)
I guess, in a warzone, you become comrades even if you're not really friends. :)
Btw. I've been finding it really tough, like I mentioned before. How I lost myself. And I sort of gave in yesterday. I put in my earphones and played some hillsongs, looked up the lyrics and just tried to find some meaning in them, tried to ask God for help. Cried a bit, and just listened and sang. Then I put everything away and started working. And I felt like my old self that, still gets distracted really easily, but that's actually capable of doing work. I don't know, maybe it was just me knowing that time is seriously seriously what I don't have and that I absolutely HAD to get a move on, or maybe it was God's grace, giving my some inner peace? Who knows. But I just hope it continues anyway. :)
Know His power, in quietness and trust. I will be still and know You are Lord!
When times get tough, don't forget that God is there with you, don't forget to surrender to God and pray, recognising that He has a plan and that He has not abandoned you. :)
13:57 Tue 26/2/13
I guess, in a warzone, you become comrades even if you're not really friends. :)
Btw. I've been finding it really tough, like I mentioned before. How I lost myself. And I sort of gave in yesterday. I put in my earphones and played some hillsongs, looked up the lyrics and just tried to find some meaning in them, tried to ask God for help. Cried a bit, and just listened and sang. Then I put everything away and started working. And I felt like my old self that, still gets distracted really easily, but that's actually capable of doing work. I don't know, maybe it was just me knowing that time is seriously seriously what I don't have and that I absolutely HAD to get a move on, or maybe it was God's grace, giving my some inner peace? Who knows. But I just hope it continues anyway. :)
Know His power, in quietness and trust. I will be still and know You are Lord!
When times get tough, don't forget that God is there with you, don't forget to surrender to God and pray, recognising that He has a plan and that He has not abandoned you. :)
13:57 Tue 26/2/13
Monday, February 25, 2013
Letting Weakness Win.
I remember in Raleigh, we were in the first week or two of the project phase in this really isolated place, where there's no running water, no electricity, no phone reception, no relief from the heat. It was just hard labour every day. I don't think I minded that very much. It was just the rules that made me want to strangle myself. All the really really tedious rules and everything about health and safety. Omg. The long-o-clock rule was the absolute worst, the hardest one to get used to. Where you absolutely had to get into longs (long sleeved shirt, long pants and socks) at 6pm every evening, even if you hadn't had a shower and are sticky and sweaty all over, even if the sunset hadn't really made it that much cooler at all. It was tough. The second rule that I think was the hardest to get used to was the always wear shoes rules no matter what. That meant even if you were going into a waterfall or whatever. Shoes or sandals must be worn. It's just so frustrating. I guess the fact that Malaysians have never been the type that really stuck to rules didn't help at all. Well, at least my whole experience going to school has been about bending the rules or just flat out breaking them.
Don't get me wrong. I enjoyed the physical challenge, I enjoyed the hard work. But the rules were really suffocating me. And the fact that the other Malaysian guy, Daryl, was really finding it tough to follow the rules kinda made me more annoyed by it. Cuz when other people suffer, I feel it too. But anywho. We were considering going home after the project phase was over, and not participating in the adventure phase. I guess it was cuz we were both from KK, and we could just call up our mums and ask them to pick drive down and pick us up. It was so easy for us to go home. And I remember that I wanted SO BADLY to go see Denise, because she was home from KL but because I joined Raleigh, I wasn't going to get a chance to even see her at all before she had to go back there again. So yea, it was so so so tempting to give up. But of course, in the end we both decided to stay.
And closer to the end of project phase, I was talking to Dec (from Reading) and this subject about going home came up. And I think I asked him whether he would pack up and go home if it wasn't a 15 hour flight home, but just like a couple of hours drive. He said, "Of course not. Because then you'd feel like crap. Cuz you'll be thinking, 'what if I stayed till the end, what would it have been like'". I dunno. It might not make sense to you, but. To a person who's quit stuff before, who has thought about quitting stuff even now, that's just such a simple reason to not let your weakness win.
00:09 Tue 26/2/13
Don't get me wrong. I enjoyed the physical challenge, I enjoyed the hard work. But the rules were really suffocating me. And the fact that the other Malaysian guy, Daryl, was really finding it tough to follow the rules kinda made me more annoyed by it. Cuz when other people suffer, I feel it too. But anywho. We were considering going home after the project phase was over, and not participating in the adventure phase. I guess it was cuz we were both from KK, and we could just call up our mums and ask them to pick drive down and pick us up. It was so easy for us to go home. And I remember that I wanted SO BADLY to go see Denise, because she was home from KL but because I joined Raleigh, I wasn't going to get a chance to even see her at all before she had to go back there again. So yea, it was so so so tempting to give up. But of course, in the end we both decided to stay.
And closer to the end of project phase, I was talking to Dec (from Reading) and this subject about going home came up. And I think I asked him whether he would pack up and go home if it wasn't a 15 hour flight home, but just like a couple of hours drive. He said, "Of course not. Because then you'd feel like crap. Cuz you'll be thinking, 'what if I stayed till the end, what would it have been like'". I dunno. It might not make sense to you, but. To a person who's quit stuff before, who has thought about quitting stuff even now, that's just such a simple reason to not let your weakness win.
00:09 Tue 26/2/13
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Lent.
Went to church today. I was feeling reallllllyyyyy exhausted from the late night before and also because coffee always makes me feel bad and I had one and a half cups of strong black coffee then, not cuz I wanted to stay awake. But because of... constipation. :P hahaha. Cuz, as we learnt in Raleigh, coffee is a natural laxative. ^_^ haha. So yea. was feeling like crap. And Denise said that's cuz I'm full of crap. HAHA. Can't blame her for saying that, kinda true. :P (See Dummy? I'm always shooooooo forgiving). But yea. I was too tired to really remember what the sermon was about. The priest said something about how the light of the divine is in every single one of us, depends if we choose it or not. That we have the potential? But then modern society, with all the temptations and just how life has become, dampens our potential, diverts us from being the best we can be or something la. Kinda true. Media, the world being so full of sex and drugs and alcohol, all those things are distractions I guess. And it's so hard to be good. :/ But anywhooooo. After communion when we were kneeling and praying, a 5th year dentistry senior, Erica, started crying while she was praying. Wow. My heart went out to her man. She didn't say anything about it after that la. But she was sobbing, not just quiet tears. (On a side note, unfair that she didn't turn red-faced, blotchy, ugly, after-crying face like me. UGHHHHH. She looked perfectly fine after that -.-). But yea. I was beside her and I was praying and just. I dunno. You never know what people are going through. Just pray she will be ok la. Reminded me of how I always get touched by the message in the sermon and kinda tear up sometimes, and how I cried last time during church in Dublin like a kid. Sad. I guess I was really sad and worried. Hope everything is ok for her. And then. After church I don't know. Maybe it's also because of my exhaustion as well, but I felt so hopeless. So lost oh. I've lost myself. :( Who have I become? This person who really can't sit still and study properly. So distracted and unfocused and... lost. I'm not saying exaggerating or saying all these to be like, oh woe is me I can't study. I've always been a daydreamer, could never really study for an hour without my mind wandering off and daydreaming a couple of times. But it's never been this bad. I can't take anything in, I don't know what I'm doing. Genuinely worried that I'm going to fail. And like for the biochem test we had last Thursday, I made a few mistakes that I know of, but even on the day of the test itself and the night before too, I was still so halfhearted, not entirely sure what I was doing, not entirely focused. I just feel like I don't know what ground I'm standing on. Feel so distant from God as well. I tried listening to Christian songs, but it's like. I'm just not connecting to Him. Or maybe I'm just not trying hard enough cuz my mind is not fully present.
And really, something has got to change. It has to. During the course of lunch at Banna Thai with Paul, Erica, Catrin, Sean, Chris, Anita and Vincent, I've decided that, during this lent season, I will give up some things. I will give up: chocolate, crisps, Facebook, my guitar, and sleeping in (because I always abuse the snooze button on my phone till it's just enough time for me to get ready for lectures). Lent is about resisting temptations. Chocolate I know I can live without. But my guitar, Facebook, and gosh, sleep, these things are so distracting and I know I can waste less time on these. And Cat also talked about taking up something. (Joked about giving up chocolate and taking up koropok haha). I guess I'll take up myself. While I try hard to resist all these temptations, I will try and get back on track and find myself. Really. Things have got to change.
I'm gonna take a nap and then study. Hope everyone everywhere is ok, and not feeling as lost and directionless and hopeless as me. Happy chap goh mei too yo. :) :)
16:41 Sun 24/2/13
And really, something has got to change. It has to. During the course of lunch at Banna Thai with Paul, Erica, Catrin, Sean, Chris, Anita and Vincent, I've decided that, during this lent season, I will give up some things. I will give up: chocolate, crisps, Facebook, my guitar, and sleeping in (because I always abuse the snooze button on my phone till it's just enough time for me to get ready for lectures). Lent is about resisting temptations. Chocolate I know I can live without. But my guitar, Facebook, and gosh, sleep, these things are so distracting and I know I can waste less time on these. And Cat also talked about taking up something. (Joked about giving up chocolate and taking up koropok haha). I guess I'll take up myself. While I try hard to resist all these temptations, I will try and get back on track and find myself. Really. Things have got to change.
I'm gonna take a nap and then study. Hope everyone everywhere is ok, and not feeling as lost and directionless and hopeless as me. Happy chap goh mei too yo. :) :)
16:41 Sun 24/2/13
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Worries.
Honestly. How many times can something go wrong while I'm here? I've been to the doctor once, been sick twice (as in, green mucus sick), got a wisdom tooth infection and was put on antibiotics. Now I have a sinus problem that doesn't seem to be going away. And today in the shower, I washed my neck just like any other shower and realised that I have a painful swelling in my neck, slightly towards the right, under my jaw. Seriously. What is wrong with me!! I'm actually quite worried about this swelling though. Hmm, it's not really a swelling. More like a bump. :/ Lymph node? Submandibular gland? sighsighsighsigh. I really can't wait to go home and jut BE WELL. Haha not complaining or anything. Just. Worried. Will see the doctor on Monday if it's still there. :(
My body is rejecting Ireland. -.-
00:35 Sun 24/2/13
My body is rejecting Ireland. -.-
00:35 Sun 24/2/13
Strength.
Absolutely LOVE this blog too. It's so hilarious and true, yet so tough and strong! :)
I don't know, this post really spoke to me. Feels like what Denise tells me, to be my own man. :)
And this is just the resounding words that spoke to me. Sounds like Denise, to be honest, but just way more well-spoken and eloquent. And maybe more compassionate too because Denise just half-yells hahaha.
"Feel pain and high and heartbeat. Let that rain in, good or bad.
You are your own life. You are your own everything. So move, and smile, and release the things you need to and keep the things you have to and wake up every morning honestly being grateful for yourself. And walk up that hill until the sun breaks, forgetting anybody else but you and the things you carry."
Penny.
"You owe it only to yourself, and that is entirely enough."
14:36 Sat 23/2/13
(Credits: the-frenemy.com)
I don't know, this post really spoke to me. Feels like what Denise tells me, to be my own man. :)
And this is just the resounding words that spoke to me. Sounds like Denise, to be honest, but just way more well-spoken and eloquent. And maybe more compassionate too because Denise just half-yells hahaha.
"Feel pain and high and heartbeat. Let that rain in, good or bad.
You are your own life. You are your own everything. So move, and smile, and release the things you need to and keep the things you have to and wake up every morning honestly being grateful for yourself. And walk up that hill until the sun breaks, forgetting anybody else but you and the things you carry."
Penny.
"You owe it only to yourself, and that is entirely enough."
14:36 Sat 23/2/13
(Credits: the-frenemy.com)
Hanging Up.
I have feelings too you know! You can't just take advantage of me just because I'm always there, just because I would bend over backwards to almost always be there for you. Why am I always the person whom people find when they have problems or need advice, but not the person they wanna share their joys with or spend happy times with just because.
-.- But then. Even though I say all this now with lots of annoyance and frustration, I know that at the end of the day I'll still breathe in, breathe out, tell myself to get over myself, sweep it all under my heart, and find you again.
Sat 13:59 23/2/13
-.- But then. Even though I say all this now with lots of annoyance and frustration, I know that at the end of the day I'll still breathe in, breathe out, tell myself to get over myself, sweep it all under my heart, and find you again.
Sat 13:59 23/2/13
Friday, February 22, 2013
Because Everyone Has Their Own Stories.
I'm really in love with this blog oh. Just the random musings, written sometimes very humourously, but always so beautifully. And I absolutely love the Two Weeks In Love series. The series is just so.. raw. No pretension, no facades. :) The posts, some I don't really understand what he's saying, but I finish most posts wanting to know more about the stories. This one is just one of the many that... made my heart gasp. :)
The Nicest Thing.
Two weeks in love. It's heartfelt yo.
23/2/13 03:21 Sat
(Credits: entertainmeorelse.blogspot.com)
The Nicest Thing.
Two weeks in love. It's heartfelt yo.
23/2/13 03:21 Sat
(Credits: entertainmeorelse.blogspot.com)
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Knocked Out Of The Park!
Today was a blessing. :)
After church, got home and I actually took out the ironing board and ironed some of the really crinkled clothes from the last round of washing. It was also cuz my CNY dress (the one I bought for CNY two years ago I think) that I was planning to wear at night was crinkly too. Haha. Ironing is actually fun because it feeds my fake OCD as I can see the crinkly parts getting non-crinkly. Hmm, maybe ironing can be a therapy session for OCD ppl haha.
Then after that, I skyped my parents while eating left over curry from dinner a few nights ago. It was such. a. great. skype. session. They were in Kuching. As always, it was full of cousins and aunties and uncles. The whole day I've been getting all these awesome food and ang pao and cousin photos in the Sleepless Foodies whatsapp group (a totally crazy whatsapp group with like 16 relatives omggg so many ppl, so many PHOTOS every day!). It was after dinner then for them, so they were just sitting around and playing taboo. I actually joined in and it was just so funny listening to them and watching them. I went unheard most of the time. But it was just so.. nice. To hear the banter and the silly laughter my cousins have, to hear the ridiculous description and answers for the game. It was.. normal. Like how it's supposed to be. Just that I wasn't there. Got to talk to my mum and dad, a treat!! And talked to a few aunties and uncles. Including Aunty Ping, so funny the stuff she asked me. "How's Coke?" "It's Cork, not Coke -.-" haha. It was like almost 2 hours of randomness. When I said bye, I was so sad!!! :'( But I was so happy to have skyped with them though. Thank God!!! Thank God man, especially when you think of the circumstances that led to the skype session. It wasn't planned or anything. I was just whatsapping my mum about how long you can keep raw chicken in the fridge for before it goes bad. And she asked to skype. See? God is good. :)
Anyway. After hanging up, watched a bit of the Ireland vs. England rugby 6 Nations game thingy with Edel and the lads and others. (Ireland didn't play so well. Frustrating to watch -.-). Then got ready for Andrea's place and left for dinner wearing my newly ironed CNY dress hehehe. ::PRIDE:: (pride cuz I ironed it. not cuz. it was pretty or anything haha). Andrea had planned the dinner. Picking out the restaurant we would get the food delivered from, getting everyone to let her know what they wanted to order beforehand, ordering the food the day before, buying paper plates and cutlery and such. And she had said that the dinner was to celebrate the first day of CNY as well as my birthday. She had even put a "happy birthday" banner on the wall!!!!! :') Anyway. We waited for everyone to arrive. Kaumal came last after work. She walked in carrying a guitar in a bag. I was sitting on the couch in the living room, and if I looked right, I could be looking at the front door. So I did actually see the guitar. And Sunil, sitting next to me, was like, they're not even doing it discretely. He asked me if I saw it and I said yes, and I just said that I could pretend I hadn't seen it? Haha. In my mind I was like awww, they're gonna use that to sing me a happy bday song!!!
So anyway. Dinner. Yummy food! Had chicken chow mien, thick noodles with sauce. Quite good la. :) Liked the thickness of the noodles. I ate really slowly. -.- Then we were sitting there chatting. Then Kaumal came in and she turned off the lights. And there was an awkward pause, Sam was like "KAUMAL!", and the cake was coming in but hadn't reached the living room yet. No one started singing. So I started singing my own bday song. HAHAHA. It was such a pretty cake oh!!!! And I couldn't think of a wish! I was so nervous under the time constraint to think of a wish before the candles went out! Haha. Photos photos. Group photos using continuos timed shots! FUN!
Then. we were eating cake and stuff. Then I asked Narina to take a photo of me and Sunil and Jesse and Yong. And Sam and Kaumal came in, Kaumal holding the guitar in the bag. And I was like, oooh a song for me! Then Sam took the bag from Kaumal and she handed it to me and was like "nah". My brain loaded for a second and SNAP. "OMGOSHHHH. ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!". I was. So. Shocked. So surprised. THEY BOUGHT ME A GUITAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!! Denise, Pei and Tur have got guitars for their bdays and stuff and I always was like "yer, I also want". And now I have one! OMGGGG. SO. SURREAL. I couldn't believe la really. I still kinda can't. I took the guitar out of the bag, they also gave me a cd of guitar tutorials and picks as well. I was so touched I actually kinda cried you know. OMG. A GUITAR! One I can call my own! A nylon stringed guitar. Just. :')
The fact that Sam remembered me mentioning that I really wanted a guitar is really touching. I'm sure I've only said it a couple of times way before this. I only really miss my guitar when I'm homesick, and I was only really homesick before Christmas, closer to the start of uni. Because life is simple when you're just trying to bend your fingers to get a chord, and try and strum and sing at the same time and failing, and saying ouch when your fingers hurt. So when I'm homesick, I'll get emo and listen to songs and be like, I wish I had my guitar (technically my bro's guitar) with me. And she spent a long Friday (my cleaning day) in town looking for my gift.
Wow. Just the thought that they (Sam, Kaumal and Andrea) put in so much effort for my birthday. I feel... so unworthy of it, so surprised that they care enough? I dunno. I don't know what I feel. I just feel so BLESSED man. Seriously did not expect that at all!!!!!!! Maybe it's cuz these ppl, I've only known them for a few months, not even a year. So I don't expect much. If it was Steph walking in with the guitar bag, I probably might've assumed it was my present, because I've known them for so long and we're so close. You know? I dunno. I'm really. Taken aback by all of it. By the fact that they care. :') :') The guitar, for the record, is from Sam, Kaumal, Sunil, Jesse, Andrea, Narina, Adib, Wani, Yong (that's everyone that was there) and also Jerome who's in Dublin I think. I just felt really blessed oh. Really really grateful I could cry. An amazing gift, but most of all, just the thought they put into it.
I know I'm ranting. But I really don't know how to express my gratitude I feel. That feeling when you're just, eyes fly open, jaw drop down, hand fly up to mouth. That SHOCKED feeling. Then the immense rush of gratitude. Maybe it's cuz this is the first time I'm reacting properly to a surprise. Maybe this is what it's supposed to feel like. Whereas all the previous surprises I've gotten were kinda awkward cuz I'm just an awkward human being and don't know how to react and I'm be like. "Ohhhh. Brb, put my bag away. *leaves* *comes back* then THANK YOU." Hahaha.
So yea. That was my first CNY away from home. Yesterday afternoon before the CNY "reunion" dinner with the seniors, I was skyping Jason. I didn't feel anything for CNY at that time yet. As in, I didn't feel like it was actually anything significant for me though I tried to make it so, just because there were no cousins, no crazy non-stop fireworks, no amazing food, no family, no lion dances. And I went on FB after a few days of not going on. And on my news feed, the first three posts were photos and statuses about CNY and the reunion dinners (团圆饭) and the food. And I actually teared up, wanting so badly to be in Kuching with most of my family (Kel is in Korea!), cuz Kuching is epic with the Sunny Hill and the cousins all in a sardine can sleeping on mattresses/stuffed in a car going to eat, and the bbqs and the fireworks. It's such an empty feeling not having all that with me this CNY. But you know, as I scrolled through the news feeds on FB, I realised that it's many people's first CNY from home as well. That we're all going through the same thing. But, we're all making it through. :) I just feel so blessed. My first CNY away from home, away from family, without cousins or ang paos or amazing food or lion dance or any of that. But I made it through, and so did everyone else. And we will continue to do so for the years to come while we finish our education. :) I dunno. We're growing up I guess.
I'm swept away by God's kindness towards me. Air knocked out from me by God's grace! I feel that He's showing me that I can survive here, that I can last here because there are people here who care about me. Really just. Wow.
So. Despite the fact that the very tip of my left forefinger kinda feels a bit blistered due to me YOLO-ing and touching the glass covering the gas fire place in Andrea's house with Kaumal (but oh well YOLO right? :P), today, was an absolute blessing.
Happy CNY people! :D Thank you God.
Mon 03:27 11/2/13
After church, got home and I actually took out the ironing board and ironed some of the really crinkled clothes from the last round of washing. It was also cuz my CNY dress (the one I bought for CNY two years ago I think) that I was planning to wear at night was crinkly too. Haha. Ironing is actually fun because it feeds my fake OCD as I can see the crinkly parts getting non-crinkly. Hmm, maybe ironing can be a therapy session for OCD ppl haha.
Then after that, I skyped my parents while eating left over curry from dinner a few nights ago. It was such. a. great. skype. session. They were in Kuching. As always, it was full of cousins and aunties and uncles. The whole day I've been getting all these awesome food and ang pao and cousin photos in the Sleepless Foodies whatsapp group (a totally crazy whatsapp group with like 16 relatives omggg so many ppl, so many PHOTOS every day!). It was after dinner then for them, so they were just sitting around and playing taboo. I actually joined in and it was just so funny listening to them and watching them. I went unheard most of the time. But it was just so.. nice. To hear the banter and the silly laughter my cousins have, to hear the ridiculous description and answers for the game. It was.. normal. Like how it's supposed to be. Just that I wasn't there. Got to talk to my mum and dad, a treat!! And talked to a few aunties and uncles. Including Aunty Ping, so funny the stuff she asked me. "How's Coke?" "It's Cork, not Coke -.-" haha. It was like almost 2 hours of randomness. When I said bye, I was so sad!!! :'( But I was so happy to have skyped with them though. Thank God!!! Thank God man, especially when you think of the circumstances that led to the skype session. It wasn't planned or anything. I was just whatsapping my mum about how long you can keep raw chicken in the fridge for before it goes bad. And she asked to skype. See? God is good. :)
Anyway. After hanging up, watched a bit of the Ireland vs. England rugby 6 Nations game thingy with Edel and the lads and others. (Ireland didn't play so well. Frustrating to watch -.-). Then got ready for Andrea's place and left for dinner wearing my newly ironed CNY dress hehehe. ::PRIDE:: (pride cuz I ironed it. not cuz. it was pretty or anything haha). Andrea had planned the dinner. Picking out the restaurant we would get the food delivered from, getting everyone to let her know what they wanted to order beforehand, ordering the food the day before, buying paper plates and cutlery and such. And she had said that the dinner was to celebrate the first day of CNY as well as my birthday. She had even put a "happy birthday" banner on the wall!!!!! :') Anyway. We waited for everyone to arrive. Kaumal came last after work. She walked in carrying a guitar in a bag. I was sitting on the couch in the living room, and if I looked right, I could be looking at the front door. So I did actually see the guitar. And Sunil, sitting next to me, was like, they're not even doing it discretely. He asked me if I saw it and I said yes, and I just said that I could pretend I hadn't seen it? Haha. In my mind I was like awww, they're gonna use that to sing me a happy bday song!!!
So anyway. Dinner. Yummy food! Had chicken chow mien, thick noodles with sauce. Quite good la. :) Liked the thickness of the noodles. I ate really slowly. -.- Then we were sitting there chatting. Then Kaumal came in and she turned off the lights. And there was an awkward pause, Sam was like "KAUMAL!", and the cake was coming in but hadn't reached the living room yet. No one started singing. So I started singing my own bday song. HAHAHA. It was such a pretty cake oh!!!! And I couldn't think of a wish! I was so nervous under the time constraint to think of a wish before the candles went out! Haha. Photos photos. Group photos using continuos timed shots! FUN!
Then. we were eating cake and stuff. Then I asked Narina to take a photo of me and Sunil and Jesse and Yong. And Sam and Kaumal came in, Kaumal holding the guitar in the bag. And I was like, oooh a song for me! Then Sam took the bag from Kaumal and she handed it to me and was like "nah". My brain loaded for a second and SNAP. "OMGOSHHHH. ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!". I was. So. Shocked. So surprised. THEY BOUGHT ME A GUITAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!! Denise, Pei and Tur have got guitars for their bdays and stuff and I always was like "yer, I also want". And now I have one! OMGGGG. SO. SURREAL. I couldn't believe la really. I still kinda can't. I took the guitar out of the bag, they also gave me a cd of guitar tutorials and picks as well. I was so touched I actually kinda cried you know. OMG. A GUITAR! One I can call my own! A nylon stringed guitar. Just. :')
The fact that Sam remembered me mentioning that I really wanted a guitar is really touching. I'm sure I've only said it a couple of times way before this. I only really miss my guitar when I'm homesick, and I was only really homesick before Christmas, closer to the start of uni. Because life is simple when you're just trying to bend your fingers to get a chord, and try and strum and sing at the same time and failing, and saying ouch when your fingers hurt. So when I'm homesick, I'll get emo and listen to songs and be like, I wish I had my guitar (technically my bro's guitar) with me. And she spent a long Friday (my cleaning day) in town looking for my gift.
Wow. Just the thought that they (Sam, Kaumal and Andrea) put in so much effort for my birthday. I feel... so unworthy of it, so surprised that they care enough? I dunno. I don't know what I feel. I just feel so BLESSED man. Seriously did not expect that at all!!!!!!! Maybe it's cuz these ppl, I've only known them for a few months, not even a year. So I don't expect much. If it was Steph walking in with the guitar bag, I probably might've assumed it was my present, because I've known them for so long and we're so close. You know? I dunno. I'm really. Taken aback by all of it. By the fact that they care. :') :') The guitar, for the record, is from Sam, Kaumal, Sunil, Jesse, Andrea, Narina, Adib, Wani, Yong (that's everyone that was there) and also Jerome who's in Dublin I think. I just felt really blessed oh. Really really grateful I could cry. An amazing gift, but most of all, just the thought they put into it.
I know I'm ranting. But I really don't know how to express my gratitude I feel. That feeling when you're just, eyes fly open, jaw drop down, hand fly up to mouth. That SHOCKED feeling. Then the immense rush of gratitude. Maybe it's cuz this is the first time I'm reacting properly to a surprise. Maybe this is what it's supposed to feel like. Whereas all the previous surprises I've gotten were kinda awkward cuz I'm just an awkward human being and don't know how to react and I'm be like. "Ohhhh. Brb, put my bag away. *leaves* *comes back* then THANK YOU." Hahaha.
So yea. That was my first CNY away from home. Yesterday afternoon before the CNY "reunion" dinner with the seniors, I was skyping Jason. I didn't feel anything for CNY at that time yet. As in, I didn't feel like it was actually anything significant for me though I tried to make it so, just because there were no cousins, no crazy non-stop fireworks, no amazing food, no family, no lion dances. And I went on FB after a few days of not going on. And on my news feed, the first three posts were photos and statuses about CNY and the reunion dinners (团圆饭) and the food. And I actually teared up, wanting so badly to be in Kuching with most of my family (Kel is in Korea!), cuz Kuching is epic with the Sunny Hill and the cousins all in a sardine can sleeping on mattresses/stuffed in a car going to eat, and the bbqs and the fireworks. It's such an empty feeling not having all that with me this CNY. But you know, as I scrolled through the news feeds on FB, I realised that it's many people's first CNY from home as well. That we're all going through the same thing. But, we're all making it through. :) I just feel so blessed. My first CNY away from home, away from family, without cousins or ang paos or amazing food or lion dance or any of that. But I made it through, and so did everyone else. And we will continue to do so for the years to come while we finish our education. :) I dunno. We're growing up I guess.
I'm swept away by God's kindness towards me. Air knocked out from me by God's grace! I feel that He's showing me that I can survive here, that I can last here because there are people here who care about me. Really just. Wow.
So. Despite the fact that the very tip of my left forefinger kinda feels a bit blistered due to me YOLO-ing and touching the glass covering the gas fire place in Andrea's house with Kaumal (but oh well YOLO right? :P), today, was an absolute blessing.
Happy CNY people! :D Thank you God.
Mon 03:27 11/2/13
Reminder From Above. :')
Church!
Another great sermon. The gospel today was the one about Simon Peter and him fishing. Simon and the other men, they were working hard and fishing as usual through the night but they didn't catch anything. They were exhausted in the morning when they got to shore. They met Jesus and Jesus asked Simon to go back out to sea and cast the net again. He said that they had not caught anything the whole night, but because Jesus asked him to do so, he will trust in Jesus and do it. The priest said that, in life, we don't know what God's plan for us is. We don't know where He's leading us or what will happen to us. But we have to trust. This is our faith. We don't know everything, we don't possess the knowledge. That is why we need faith. Just have to trust that God is guiding us, if we choose to follow Him.
The priest then talked about Simon's imperfections. The priest said that the reason he believes in the bible is because of how true it is, how it relates to the nature of human beings. That it's not painting a rainbow of beautiful things to gather followers. He said that, like Simon, we all are imperfect. God knows that. Simon was the one who built up his faith, only to turn around the moment he was questions and betrayed Jesus, and then to turn around again and become a preacher. After so many doubts and struggles, he emerges to become a "fisher of men", preaching the word to many people. We are like that. We are not perfect. There are many flaws in us, and we will continue to sin and sin again. But all God wants from us is that we try. That we try to follow Him and His word. :)
The last thing I noted from the sermon is the priest's last sentence. He said that "through God, we cannot and will not fail". It was then that I realised, once again, how I've been so so so worried and anxious about the upcoming wave of tests and exams. I've been so stressed about the fact that they all come together just like a wave of zombies in Plants vs. Zombies, that I really felt that I was drowning. Once when I was studying in the library I actually found myself thinking, for the first time, that my course is really hard. T.T I realised that I've been so worried about all this, not for the first time, I forgot to look up to God and pray. I used to say all the time, "Look Up". And I meant that as in look up and remember to surrender your worries and troubles to God, and acknowledge that God has the power and grace to guide you. I always forget that!! I always forget to bring my troubles to God and ask for His help. That His will may be done, whatever happens, let it be as God thinks best. So when the priest said those words, I was struck as I rmbred how silly I was to bear all those worries by myself, when I can raise it all up to God, and we can bear it tgth. :)
So now, I'm trying not to worry too much. I will just keep working steadily, acknowledging that God is guiding me. :)
Mon 01:54 11/2/13
Remember to breathe yo!
Another great sermon. The gospel today was the one about Simon Peter and him fishing. Simon and the other men, they were working hard and fishing as usual through the night but they didn't catch anything. They were exhausted in the morning when they got to shore. They met Jesus and Jesus asked Simon to go back out to sea and cast the net again. He said that they had not caught anything the whole night, but because Jesus asked him to do so, he will trust in Jesus and do it. The priest said that, in life, we don't know what God's plan for us is. We don't know where He's leading us or what will happen to us. But we have to trust. This is our faith. We don't know everything, we don't possess the knowledge. That is why we need faith. Just have to trust that God is guiding us, if we choose to follow Him.
The priest then talked about Simon's imperfections. The priest said that the reason he believes in the bible is because of how true it is, how it relates to the nature of human beings. That it's not painting a rainbow of beautiful things to gather followers. He said that, like Simon, we all are imperfect. God knows that. Simon was the one who built up his faith, only to turn around the moment he was questions and betrayed Jesus, and then to turn around again and become a preacher. After so many doubts and struggles, he emerges to become a "fisher of men", preaching the word to many people. We are like that. We are not perfect. There are many flaws in us, and we will continue to sin and sin again. But all God wants from us is that we try. That we try to follow Him and His word. :)
The last thing I noted from the sermon is the priest's last sentence. He said that "through God, we cannot and will not fail". It was then that I realised, once again, how I've been so so so worried and anxious about the upcoming wave of tests and exams. I've been so stressed about the fact that they all come together just like a wave of zombies in Plants vs. Zombies, that I really felt that I was drowning. Once when I was studying in the library I actually found myself thinking, for the first time, that my course is really hard. T.T I realised that I've been so worried about all this, not for the first time, I forgot to look up to God and pray. I used to say all the time, "Look Up". And I meant that as in look up and remember to surrender your worries and troubles to God, and acknowledge that God has the power and grace to guide you. I always forget that!! I always forget to bring my troubles to God and ask for His help. That His will may be done, whatever happens, let it be as God thinks best. So when the priest said those words, I was struck as I rmbred how silly I was to bear all those worries by myself, when I can raise it all up to God, and we can bear it tgth. :)
So now, I'm trying not to worry too much. I will just keep working steadily, acknowledging that God is guiding me. :)
Mon 01:54 11/2/13
Remember to breathe yo!
CNY 2012.
Heya! Happy CNY yo. CNY finally arrived, and I have waited for it to arrive with some sort of weird, nonsense anxiety/trepidation. But it came. And it wasn't that bad.
On Friday, I got up with super determination fuelled by the weird, nonsense feeling of anxiety/trepidation, and I CLEANED. I put my clothes and my sheets into the wash, wiped down my table and other surfaces, and cleaned the sink. Then I vacuumed my room. It was a sort-of fail tho, because the vacuum wasn't functioning properly. *shrugs, it's the effort that counts :P* Then, because my flatmates were doing it, I helped out to clean the kitchen/living room. It was an absolute mess because they built a fort the night before! -.- They as in my flatmates and the lads- James, Jack, Cathal and Finbarr. Haha. Edel joined them in the fort, it was pretty funny. They turned over all the sofas, brought out duvets and blankets, brought jugs of water, crisps and oranges into the fort. And they said like, life is simple in the fort, all is equal in the fort, there is no time in the fort. And stuff like that. Hahaha. Oh, and Tras and Julie (from Clon) came over with CHOCOLATE CAKE and pasta. So there were loads of chocolate-covered plates everywhere. And the fort ppl thought it was a good idea to start throwing orange peels at ppl outside the fort. -.- haha. SO yea, it was a mess. So we started cleaning and, took a while, but we got there. And we cleaned the toilet too, emptied the trash and stuff. :) Also, had to take out my laundry and make my bed, and folded my laundry. And folding actually drives me crazy because I try and take the creases out by folding it properly, and my fake OCD makes me try and fold everything meticulously. Bah. So it was a full day of cleaning! :) ::GROWN UP::
Sat night was the dinner. I went to town during the day and tried to find a CNY top. SO MANY NICE BRIGHT COLOURED tops in Oasis, but so expensive. Like €30-€40 for a blouse la. UGH. And I also realised that I don't look very good in soft colours. Like soft pinkish cream colour? Light pink? Doesn't suit me very well. :/ hahaha omg so random. But anyway. I bought a BLACK blouse in the end. So much for CNY top. But it had colourful flowers/butterflies or whatever on it la. At least it wasn't totally black. :/ It kinda looks like an old-woman's top, but I dunno, I like it. And it's not too expensive so yay! ::it's something::
The dinner. It was nice! Went to Pier's Head Restaurant I think, somewhere in Blackrock? There were like 30 of us there. Asian loud man! As always, our gatherings weren't exactly quiet, cuz after the food, ppl started walking around to talk to other ppl they weren't sitting with. It was pretty cool. The food was quite impressive. :) The best, hands down, was the SOUP that was the starter. OMG. OMG OMG. It was really good oh. It was like the soup mum will cook!!!!! The light herbal one, not the western creamy soups. It was chicken vegetable soup. With the red dates thingy. (Are those even dates? The red small things that are always in our soups -.-). YUMMYYYY. Then went to Paul's after, people played Fifa, played Dota, watched tv, played cho tai ti, gambled playing black jack, and we played bridge. TRUMP CARD! haha It was funny. Bobby was funny. He became so confident as he won more and more. When he won the bid, he would choose his partner and say "FOLLOW ME". Hahaha it was enjoyable.
Then we left. Aysha, Roshini, Bobby, Sam and I. They didn't really want me to walk home alone, as they were all living opposite Paul's place. Aysha even offered her bed for me. Cuz I didn't want them to worry even though I thought it would be ok walking back alone, I decided to stay with Sam. So yea, first sleepover! It wasn't like a typical sleepover because it was already like 2am or something. So we just talked a bit and slept. :) So yea. That was how, according to the lunar calendar, I stepped over the 2012 threshold, into the snake year of 2013. :)
Mon 01:18 11/2/13
On Friday, I got up with super determination fuelled by the weird, nonsense feeling of anxiety/trepidation, and I CLEANED. I put my clothes and my sheets into the wash, wiped down my table and other surfaces, and cleaned the sink. Then I vacuumed my room. It was a sort-of fail tho, because the vacuum wasn't functioning properly. *shrugs, it's the effort that counts :P* Then, because my flatmates were doing it, I helped out to clean the kitchen/living room. It was an absolute mess because they built a fort the night before! -.- They as in my flatmates and the lads- James, Jack, Cathal and Finbarr. Haha. Edel joined them in the fort, it was pretty funny. They turned over all the sofas, brought out duvets and blankets, brought jugs of water, crisps and oranges into the fort. And they said like, life is simple in the fort, all is equal in the fort, there is no time in the fort. And stuff like that. Hahaha. Oh, and Tras and Julie (from Clon) came over with CHOCOLATE CAKE and pasta. So there were loads of chocolate-covered plates everywhere. And the fort ppl thought it was a good idea to start throwing orange peels at ppl outside the fort. -.- haha. SO yea, it was a mess. So we started cleaning and, took a while, but we got there. And we cleaned the toilet too, emptied the trash and stuff. :) Also, had to take out my laundry and make my bed, and folded my laundry. And folding actually drives me crazy because I try and take the creases out by folding it properly, and my fake OCD makes me try and fold everything meticulously. Bah. So it was a full day of cleaning! :) ::GROWN UP::
Sat night was the dinner. I went to town during the day and tried to find a CNY top. SO MANY NICE BRIGHT COLOURED tops in Oasis, but so expensive. Like €30-€40 for a blouse la. UGH. And I also realised that I don't look very good in soft colours. Like soft pinkish cream colour? Light pink? Doesn't suit me very well. :/ hahaha omg so random. But anyway. I bought a BLACK blouse in the end. So much for CNY top. But it had colourful flowers/butterflies or whatever on it la. At least it wasn't totally black. :/ It kinda looks like an old-woman's top, but I dunno, I like it. And it's not too expensive so yay! ::it's something::
The dinner. It was nice! Went to Pier's Head Restaurant I think, somewhere in Blackrock? There were like 30 of us there. Asian loud man! As always, our gatherings weren't exactly quiet, cuz after the food, ppl started walking around to talk to other ppl they weren't sitting with. It was pretty cool. The food was quite impressive. :) The best, hands down, was the SOUP that was the starter. OMG. OMG OMG. It was really good oh. It was like the soup mum will cook!!!!! The light herbal one, not the western creamy soups. It was chicken vegetable soup. With the red dates thingy. (Are those even dates? The red small things that are always in our soups -.-). YUMMYYYY. Then went to Paul's after, people played Fifa, played Dota, watched tv, played cho tai ti, gambled playing black jack, and we played bridge. TRUMP CARD! haha It was funny. Bobby was funny. He became so confident as he won more and more. When he won the bid, he would choose his partner and say "FOLLOW ME". Hahaha it was enjoyable.
Then we left. Aysha, Roshini, Bobby, Sam and I. They didn't really want me to walk home alone, as they were all living opposite Paul's place. Aysha even offered her bed for me. Cuz I didn't want them to worry even though I thought it would be ok walking back alone, I decided to stay with Sam. So yea, first sleepover! It wasn't like a typical sleepover because it was already like 2am or something. So we just talked a bit and slept. :) So yea. That was how, according to the lunar calendar, I stepped over the 2012 threshold, into the snake year of 2013. :)
Mon 01:18 11/2/13
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
CNY?
Sigh. It's CNY this Sunday. I can't believe it's actually here. I'm kinda.. stressed about it, I don't really know why. I think it's because, away from home, the actual day of CNY itself, its importance and its significance is way more amplified! Usually back home, everything that happens is a blur. Reunion dinner on the eve on CNY, with the absolutely hilarious mini lion dance crew we have with the cousins in KK, or the absolutely packed house with loads of Sundrop, amazing food, noise and laughter (and sometimes singing) in Kuching, and then there's all the visiting you do, the red packets you receive, then the Chap Goh Meh dinner (元宵节) with the 汤圆 hahaha. I guess it was also cuz I was the youngest and didn't really need to do anything. But then now, I'm away from home and missing home so much it kinda hurts. And I feel that, celebrating CNY is important because it makes it feel... kinda more like home. Does that even make sense? So, on top of trying to make myself study, and thinking of what to wear to commemorate CNY, and praying I'll remember to get safety glasses for upcoming biochem labs and doing ALL the prep work for the labs, I have to remember to clean my room which I guess is my little house, and wash the sheets and everything. It's not like it's a habit, that cleaning before CNY is something I actively participate in back home. But it just feels important that I do it. Omg, I'm going crazy!!!! Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh.
But anywho! There's dinner this Sat with the Malaysians and Singaporeans. Hopeeee it'll be good!!!! :D
And also. I would just like to say that, I'm actually sick sick sick. It started with my nose, then now my throat is bad as well. So. bubble. itchy oh my throat. I'm so gonna lose my voice. It's so depressing laaaaaaaaa. -.- WHYYYYYYYY does this have to happen when it's CNY and my bday week?!?!?!?! UGH. I honestly believe that I won't recover back to 100% in this cold weather. Sigh.
Tue 23:33 5/2/12
But anywho! There's dinner this Sat with the Malaysians and Singaporeans. Hopeeee it'll be good!!!! :D
And also. I would just like to say that, I'm actually sick sick sick. It started with my nose, then now my throat is bad as well. So. bubble. itchy oh my throat. I'm so gonna lose my voice. It's so depressing laaaaaaaaa. -.- WHYYYYYYYY does this have to happen when it's CNY and my bday week?!?!?!?! UGH. I honestly believe that I won't recover back to 100% in this cold weather. Sigh.
Tue 23:33 5/2/12
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Sunday, February 3, 2013
Darkness.
"I couldn't see worth a damn either. But I just kept driving forward, hoping for the best." - Marshal's dad in HIMYM. :) That's kinda like my life. Don't know what's gonna happen, don't know what my future will become. But. Guess there's no where much to go but forward huh. :)
Sun 18:18 3/2/13
Cool. Previous post was at 17:17 hehehehehe.
Sun 18:18 3/2/13
Cool. Previous post was at 17:17 hehehehehe.
WTB, TO ULTRA MAN SHIP!
I KNOW YOU KNOW. BUT, DENISE DUMMY! ONLY I CAN HAVE CRAZY SHOUTING CONVERSATIONS WITH YOU THAT MAKES ME WANNA STRANGLE MYSELF WHILE SMILING. Hahahahaha. Love ya yoooooozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Please, take care of yourself!!! Body is your temple! ^______________^
~Annoying/caring aunt~
Sun 3/2/12 17:17
~Annoying/caring aunt~
Sun 3/2/12 17:17
Let Me Go There Please.
I dreamt of you last night. Wish I could tell you!!
Dreams, that's where I have to go.
15:55 Sun 3/2/13
Dreams, that's where I have to go.
15:55 Sun 3/2/13
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Last Words.
Hellooo. Just watched an episode of HIMYM, the one where Marshal's dad dies. Super sad man. I cried!!!!! (No surprise there) But anywho. It's just the thought of "last words". It's not that I don't know this already, it was just a really good reminder. I used to be so paranoid. So afraid. I would constantly be sending prayers to God to ask Him to have mercy on my family, that He won't take them away so soon. Like, I'll get stressed so suddenly at the thought of not having them around at all, that I'll say like 5 prayers at once. When I was in Dublin, I would get so upset because I don't talk to my parents regularly, felt out of touch with my family. Then I'll be like, you know, what if what if what ifffffffff I hadn't spoken to them for like a week and God takes them away? Omg. That scares me so much so much I can't even explain the fear gripping my heart. So yea. :) Tell people you love them if you do. Be honest, be sincere, be kind to people. No regrets!!! Appreciate your family! :D :D And make sure they know you appreciate them!
Anywho. On a totally unrelated note. Just thought I should let you know my love for Jeremy Lin. Hahahaha. Love him because he's Asian and because he seems to have a good heart, he's really humble and he loves God too! Hahaha. Omg. I'm so silly. As if I know the dude. But anywaaaaay. It's his youtube videos bah. So silly and then he puts a bible verse at the end and then you realise he's actually kinda great. Whaaaaaaaaaaaart am I even saying! -.- But yea haha go watch and see for yourself!! He's so cute ohhhhhhhhhhhh.
Dear me, how are you going to be 20?
3/2/13 02:20 Sun
Anywho. On a totally unrelated note. Just thought I should let you know my love for Jeremy Lin. Hahahaha. Love him because he's Asian and because he seems to have a good heart, he's really humble and he loves God too! Hahaha. Omg. I'm so silly. As if I know the dude. But anywaaaaay. It's his youtube videos bah. So silly and then he puts a bible verse at the end and then you realise he's actually kinda great. Whaaaaaaaaaaaart am I even saying! -.- But yea haha go watch and see for yourself!! He's so cute ohhhhhhhhhhhh.
Dear me, how are you going to be 20?
3/2/13 02:20 Sun
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