Two Pie Are.

Yup.. I've gone another whole Two Pie Are again. Maybe for the third time. I don't know what I'm doing. Not sure whether or not I should go for it.

Here's the thing. I want to drop Physics. But I don't know if I should. I don't really like my teacher. Don't even get what he's talking about. He gave us exercises and worksheets to do without even teaching us the whole chapter. Now we've officially finished chapter 1 and I'm blundering around wondering what chapter 1 is actually talking about. I hate how hard I'm making this decision seem. Other people would just make decision and go for it. For me, there's always this diarrhea of factors to go through.

One of them is how I'm apparently aiming for a top score. I'm aiming to do well. But whether I can actually hit that top score, I'm not so confident yet. Subject selection is sort of crucial if you are aiming to get the top score. With all the scale up and such. They ask me what I'm better at. But guess what? I believe that whatever I choose, I will be able to excel at it. It's not that I'm bragging and such, it's just that I believe that I can do well in any subject, even if I'm bad at it (except for languages, maybe). So where does that leave me?

I wanted to change my Physics class. But I failed at that. I appealed and was rejected. Oh yay me. I am so miserable in my Physics class now, that I'm willing to drop it. At first, the subject I wanted to 'just go for' was History. Oh but look. If I take History (they only offer ONE History class), I'll have to change my Chem class. But I love my Chem. And my friend won't let me change. So what am I supposed to do? I know I should just suck it up and go for what I want. But then I feel so, so bad. She even said 'don't change your Chem. Please, please!'. What am I to do with that?

IT'S SO STUPID. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! Should I take Bio? But Bio is almost full, I might not be able to get in. And Bio MIGHT just get scaled down because everyone can score well. Should I take Literature? I'm interested but I might not be good at it.

I hate how complicated all this seems to me. How hard it is for me to make a decision and stick to it. But I'm always like a pendulum. One minute I say ok, the other minute I go back on my decision and ask myself 'are you sure?'.

I sort of feel that everything is conspiring against me so I would stick to Physics. But thinking about going to Physics class, I dread it! It's like my General Sci last year. You know why? The Friend Factor. Stupid.

I WISH SOMEONE WOULD SAY 'HEY. TAKE LITERATURE AND DROP PHY!'. An exact answer. That's what I WANT!

I hate that my parents are all 'oh, it's your choice. We don't want to force you to do anything.'

I'M SO DARN CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!