Siblings Who Communicte

I think that my family members (we) don't communicate with each other these few days. Communicate as in talk. Talk as in real talk. Not real talk as in a serious talk about life goals, aspirations etc; rather just talking about what has been going on in your life recently and things like that. All we 'talk' about is 'What are your programs tomorrow', 'What time are you getting back', 'How was school' 'Fine', 'Do you want to watch a DVD' etc. Pointless talk. You know?

For siblings who communicate, especially those who are close, I think they are lucky. Pei's sister has gone to KL to further her studies. It hit me that Pei's sister was the only one Pei really talked to about everything, about things that happened in school, in tuition, things about other people (gossip) etc. I suddenly thought that Pei and her sister were sort of dependent of each other, counting on the other to be there when they wanted to talk. You know, the truth is that I never really felt lost being by myself at home when my siblings were all studying abroad and my mum was visiting them and my dad was at work. Seriously. I don't know why I never felt lonely. But don't get me wrong, sometimes I did feel lonely and sad. But I guess it could be because we never really talked about a lot of stuff to each other, stuff about ourselves. We never really communicated. How could you miss something you never really had.

I actually am a really talkative person. But then that only happens when something interesting happened in school or stuff. I'm always willing to share. But then I always find myself interrupted or just not paid attention too. I'm too lazy to repeat myself when they say 'what?' or speak over them or ask them to listen. So I usually just leave.

I'm fine though, seriously. I don't feel dejected or anything when that happens (sometimes only slightly), but I don't mind.

Like I said, how can you miss something you never really had? Of course, I won't complain if I did have that. But I don't really have that, at least not with my family. I think we are becomming more and more selfish. What do you think?