Phew?

Too early to say I guess. But I think I survived the first day with grace (or whatever it was that kept me almost-normal). It was nerve-racking though, that goes without a doubt. One of the most nerve-racking moments was when we all got our timetables during the year assembly (assembly for each year level at designated rooms). We (the overseas people) were comparing it with one another's and I couldn't find anyone who shared classes with me! Not one! So yea, I was pretty nervous. But I guess a tiny, tiny, tiny part of me was sort of grateful because I could break away from the 'China group' and meet some new people.

So we started normal lessons after recess, third period. I had Methods 3 and 4. It was nerve-racking, heading towards the classroom, not knowing who was going to be in there and stuff. I sat next to a girl and she Hey-ed me and we sort of had small talk. It was okay. She is Diana and she's Year 12, retaking her Methods because she didn't do too well last year. There was a guy I recognized from the Bike Camp last year. But didn't talk to him. Because it was a double period, and a few students were at Peer Support (a group that helps out the new Yr 7 students), we had the first period to wander around, of course only after giving us sheets and intros and stuff. My teacher is Ms. Iacopino. She's okay I guess, but we didn't really do much so it's hard to tell. For the second period, we did a 'Circle Time', like a group therapy session or something. Haha. It was okay. Found out some new names, but you know, it doesn't mean you made any new friends.

Then it was lunch time. I went to grab money from my mum and Kel who were dropping it off (convenient that we live so close!) for me. Then I went to the uniform shop. I bought a shirt and a summer skirt. I bought the button-up white shirt, because the VCE polo (just a collared shirt) was technically only for P.E. classes. I bought the button-up just to be on the safe side, but I really prefer the polo. Come to think of it, I should have bought another shirt because the polo I have now is too big and so not flattering (hahaha). But oh well. The summer skirt was actually phasing out, so it was half price because they would stop selling it soon, and only sell the summer dress. I think the dress is okay, but I totally prefer a skirt. I don't care if by the end of the year I'm the only one wearing the skirt (well... I'll pretend I don't). Hmm.. maybe I should get another skirt? I'll ask my mum about it later. Anyway. The queue was so long that it took up my whole lunch time (yayyyyyy) (that was sarcastic, it case you didn't realize). So now I'm eating my sandwiches (strawberry jam! Thanks mum!!! =D) while typing this.

Anyway, next was Chemistry. I got Ms. Grant, the notorious (though not necessarily in a bad way I guess) class clown, I guess you could call it. Though words like goof, outspoken, joker, really loud etc. comes to mind. Her jokes are horribly lame, but that makes it kind of funny (my weird sense of humour). There were some Asian guys sitting right at the back that kept laughing, and mostly I laughed because of the sound of their stupid laughter. Haha. I think when she's serious she's not bad, I think she'll be a good teacher. I'm dreading the prac work (practical.. those experiments). Never really enjoyed doing experiments. Maybe this time will be different. One of the Asians at the back (the 'cha siew pao' group, according to Ms. Grant) was talking while she was saying something and she stopped and asked the guy what the formula for water is. 'H2O', the guy said. 'Wrong!', she said. 'It's H, I, J, K, L, O. H to O!'. PFFFFFFTTTTT. Talk about bad jokes. Hahaha. =D =D

Next was Advanced General Maths (AGM). My teacher is Mr. Quinn. I think he's very strict. He really DID NOT like people talking while he was talking. Quite impatient. And IMO, a bit eager (I guess) to show his stuff. I guess. I think he was not such a good teacher. He gave us a timeline on how we would be going about the syllabus. And while he was talking through it, he was like 'oh first we will be doing Variation' then he started talking about variation and I was like 'What?'. I had really no idea what he was talking about. Then he said 'then we'll be doing Complex Numbers' then he started talking about them. I was seriously 'sighhhhh.. I'm so sleepy'. It's not like I got anything he said at all. After going through the whole timeline, he really started teaching Variation for a while only. I think he assumed that everyone was okay, that we all sort of knew what it was about. Because I didn't, and I didn't really get what he was trying to say. Pfftt. So yea. I get it. But you know, more on guessing than really understanding.

Anyway. That's how my day went. I have homework to do and things to organize. It's kind of stressful. Because all teachers emphasized keeping EVERYTHING organize because it was very important to do so, and keeping up (which, according to them, is a MUST), and being punctual for homework and stuff. Kind of put pressure on me. Apparently the top enter scores last year for VCE was 99.8%. Whoa. Can I really aim that high?

Anyway. Those who care, check out the photos of my Bike Camp 2009. Just wanted to give you guys an idea on how it was. =D

Conversations

So fun. MSN chatting with some people. Really enjoyable!

Thanks Dana, for the conversation starters. Hopefully I'll have the confidence to use them though. Hahaha. So amusing! =D 'Be confident. New start. You can do it!' Dana said. Hopefully I can!!!

Thanks Clifern, for entertaining me with stuff like perverts and how it differs in the different sexes. Haha. Good to know you'll reply my texts asap... Though I selfishly wish that you brought your hp to school so you could reply right away. But then hopefully I won't need your company at school. Cross fingers!!!!!!!!

Thanks Jessie! For Biolody. Hahaha. Will miss training without you.. Wish we played together more often. But always you have to be with the setter-in-training. Oh well. Good luck for your Biolody test tomorrow!

Thanks Radiance! For your prayer. Haha. Who knows? Maybe one day it'll really be our physiology clinic! =D

Gnite all. Cross fingers for tomorrow. And remember, 'ugh.. I can't believe holidays have ended'. Then move on to things like jet lag and stuff.

Haha. =D

Sweaty Palms

Definition of Nervous:

1. Easily agitated or distressed; high-strung or jumpy

2. Marked by or having a feeling of unease and apprehension

I'm seriously nervous about tomorrow. Nervous at not knowing how it's going to be, nervous knowing how it could be, nervous at everything!!!

Well.. Deep breaths right?

It's time to make a difference...........................

For People Like Jessie And Eye

Extracted from The Best Of Uncle John's Bathroom Reader, gift from Aunty Elaine. =D

This book is excellent. It's just a book packed with entertainment, humour, trivia, science, history, pop culture and more. Haha. It's a book full of interesting stuff which saves you from 'frantic searches at the last minute for that perfect magazine article'.

I know I'm supposed to have left, but apparently the car which was coming to get us had a punctured tire. So I figured why not? Type fast. Hehe. Enjoy!

Left-Handed Facts

We considered doing a piece about left-handedness for several years, but the question always came up- are there enough left-handed bathroom readers to make it worthwhile? After six years, we decided it didn't matter- we just wanted to use the info. So here's a section for you southpaws, from Vol. 6.

Are you left-handed? If so, you're not alone- but you're definitely outnumbered; lefties make up only 5% to 15% of the general population. If you're a female southpaw (heyhey!!), you're even more unusual- there are roughly 50% more left-handed males than females. For centuries, scientists have tried to figure out why. (They're not even sure if all lefties are that way for the same reason.) Here are some theories:

WHAT MAKES A LEFTY?

1. Scientists used to think that left- and right-handedness was purely a generic trait, but now they have doubts. Reason: In 20% of all sets of identical twins, one sibling is left-handed and the other is right.

2. Some scientists think the hand you prefer is determined by whether you're a "right-brained" person or a "left-brained" person. The right half of the brain controls the left side of the body, as well as spatial/musical/aesthetic judgment and perception; the left half controls the right side of the body, plus communication skills. Lefties are generally right-brained.

3. Support for this theory: Most children begin demonstrating a preference for one hand over the other at the same time their central nervous system is growing and maturing. This leads some scientists to believe the two processes are linked.

4. According to another theory, before birth all babies are right-handed- which means that the left side of their brain is dominant. But during a stressful or difficult birth, oxygen deficiency can cause damage to the left side of the brain, making it weaker and enabling the right side to compete against it for dominance. If the right side wins out, the baby will become left-handed.

5. This theory also explains, researchers claim, why twins, any child born to a smoker, or children born to a mother over 30 years old are more likely to be left-handed: they are more prone to stressful births. Children of stressful births are also more likely to stammer and suffer dyslexia, traits that are more common in lefties.

LEFT-HANDED HISTORY

No matter what makes southpaws what they are, they've been discriminated against for thousands of years- in nearly every culture on Earth. Some examples:

1. The artwork found in ancient Egyptian tombs portrays most Egyptians as right-handed. But their enemies are portrayed as left-handers, a sign they saw left-handedness as an undesirable trait.

2. Ancient Greeks never crossed their left leg over their right, and believe a person's sex was determined by their position in the womb- the female, or 'lesser sex,' sat on the left side of the womb.

3. The Romans placed special significance on the right-handedness as well. Custom dictated that they enter friends' homes 'with the right foot forward'... and turn their heads to the right to sneeze. Their language showed the same bias: the Latin word for left was sinister (which also meant evil, or ominous), and the word for right was dexter (which came to mean skillful, or adroit). Even the word ambidextrous literally means 'right-handed with both hands.'

LEFT-HANDED MISCELLANY

1. Lefties are more likely to be on the extreme ends of the intelligence scale than the general population: a higher proportion of mentally retarted people and peopled with IQs over 140 are lefties.

2. Why are lefties called 'southpaws'? In the late 1890s, most baseball parks were laid out with the pitcher facing west and the batter facing east (so the sun wouldn't be in his eyes). That meant left-handed pitchers threw with the arm that faced south. So Chicago sportswriter Charles Seymour began calling them 'southpaws'.

3. What did traditional Christians believe was going to happen on Judgment Day? According to custom, God blesses the saved with His right hand- and casts sinners out of Heaven with His left.

4. Why do we throw salt over out left shoulders for good luck? To throw it into the eyes of the Devil, who, of course, lurks behind us to out left.

=D Random fact found at the bottom of the page: Five Jell-O flavours that flopped: celery, coffee, cola, apple and chocolate.

Things I'm going to miss when I leave:

My friends, my HOME myhomemyhomemyhome!!!, the weather, unlimited internet, American Idol on Wednesday and Thursday nights, the ceiling fans, the fully-functional air-cons.. etc.

EYEHOPEEVERYTHINGWILLBEFINEWHENSCHOOLREOPENS! =( Will see everyone soon. =D

Wave as the rain drop slides down.

I'm going to leave in a few minutes. As in leave my house.

Goodbye everyone! =D =( ?

To all my friends, study hard! Put everything you have into it! No Regrets!

On the sports side, I hope that you will all also put everything you have into it. No Regrets!

There are some things that I've done since I've been back that I'm not proud of. I'll make it up. Hopefully. Sigh.

Anyway. Really guys. Work hard okay! SPM this year. You only got one shot. Goes the same for me.

Well. Goodbye! The second of many to come.

BTW, Happy Birthday Nicholas Hong! =D You're 17! And a flight to Australia is about EIGHT hours! Looks like you've finally grown up. Hahaha. =D

Miss you guys already. See you soon! No hugs...

Oof. Reminder for myself. DSC W380 and W350!

Nerdy Stuff

The book I'm sort of currently reading, though I haven't continued it so far, I'm only halfway.

Tick Tock- Dean Koontz (1996)

Tommy Phan is a successful detective novelist, living the American Dream in southern California. One evening he comes home to find a small rag doll on his doorstep. It's a simple doll, covered entirely in white cloth, with crossed black stitches for the eyes and mouth, and another pair forming an X over the heart. Curious, he brings it inside. That night, Tommy hears an odd popping sound and looks up to see the stitches breaking over the doll's heart. And in minutes the fabric of Tommy Phan's reality will be torn apart. Something terrifying emerges from the pristine white cloth, something that will follow Tommy wherever he goes. Something that he can't destroy. It wants Tommy's life and he doesn't know why. He has only one ally, a beautiful, strangely intuitive waitress he meets by chance — or by a design far beyond his comprehension. He has too many questions, no answers, and very little time. Because the vicious and demonically clever doll has left this warning on Tommy's computer screen: The deadline is dawn.

Tick-tock

Time is running out.

The cover on the left is the one I have. I think this book is also a disappointment. I guess because I was sort of hoping for something like Velocity, where it's all human and not some supernatural thing. It just seems kind of weird I guess. I will finish the book because I'm curious on how the book will go and how the story will end. Well, until then! =D

Eclipse- Stephenie Meyer (2007)

In the dead silence, all the details suddenly fell into place for me with a burst of intuition. Something Edward didn't want me to know. Something that Jacob wouldn't have kept from me...It was never going to end, was it?

Ok, blame it on Kat who took the book out to read. I saw it on the table and I just picked it up to read. Sigh. Wasting my time. But it's captivating (?) enough to make me finish it, AND continue reading Breaking Dawn. Haha. Oh well. I love the distinction between the writing in Bella's and Jacob's point of views. It's awesome.

Percy Jackson and the Sea Of Monsters- Rick Riordan (2006)

After a summer spent trying to prevent a catastrophic war between the Greek gods, Percy Jackson's seventh grade school year seems unnervingly quiet. His biggest problem is dealing with his new friend, Tyson -- a six-foot-three, mentally challenged homeless kid who follows Percy everywhere, making it hard for Percy to have any "normal" friends.

But things don't stay quiet for long. Percy soon discovers there is trouble at Camp Half Blood: the magical borders that protect Half-Blood Hill have been poisoned by a mysterious enemy, and the only safe haven for demigods is on the verge of being overrun by mythological monsters. To save the camp, Percy needs the help of his best friend, Grover, who has been taken prisoner on an island somewhere in the Sea of Monsters, the dangerous waters Greek heroes have sailed for millennia. Only today, the Sea of Monsters goes by a new name . . . The Bermuda Triangle.

Percy must retrieve the Golden Fleece from the Island of the Cyclopes by the end of the summer or Camp Half Blood will be destroyed. But first, Percy will learn a stunning new secret about his family -- one that makes him question whether being claimed as Poseidon's son is an honor or simply a cruel joke.

Whee!!! Second book of the Percy Jackson series! =D This book is good. Yay to Greek mythology! But then sort of predictable at how everything is such a coincidence. But the plot is very good, especially how it's all so well thought out and there's a plan behind every plan or something. Whoa, complicated. Haha. It's a good book. Waiting for me to get the third book! I got the fourth from the Scholastic catalogue. So yea. Hmm 4.5/5 for me. Because of the coincidence thing which is quite ridiculous. How many times can you get lucky? But it was funny too. Nice humour. =D

Really nice song! =D Winter Wonderland (Jason Mraz version) covered by Al, Justine and Jasmine Rafael who comes in in the middle. Really nice. =D

Beginning Again..

Hey guys. I know it's the holidays again for me and I haven't been online to blog or blog surf much. Sorry about that. So here's the thing: School is reopening on Monday. Yes, as in SCHOOL, in AUS! Am I ready? The only answer I can come up with is *INHALE*. Holding my breath and crossing my fingers.

Ok here's the rundown on the things that have happened.

1. (the most formidable and tangible one) I'm leaving today. Later, in the afternoon. School starts on the 1st of Feb, THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW! 30th of Jan seemed like quite some time away when I first arrived back and was enjoying how familiar everything was. But now I'm already here, staring it right in the eye. Inevitable I guess. SIGH.

2. By right, this post should be titled 'Krys' House!' because my friends (Pei, STEPH and Tur) slept in my house yesterday. We got Steph to sleepover too which is totally a HUGE yay for all of us because her parents don't allow her to sleepover in friends' houses but yesterday was that REALLY rare exception. We slept really late, like at 1am or something. We were trying to upload photos on Facebook, that was a failure. Then I was also sort of packing. My willpower was challenged when the alarm rang at 6am (yes, they have school on Saturday) and I had to off the alarm and WAKE UP. So today all of us will be seeing the world through sore, dry eyes. Haha. Gah. At least they don't need to pack and make sure nothing is left behind.

3. Parkson just started their sale and yesterday was 5X Bonus Link! So yea, me and Kat were there for a long time. Mum and Aunty Elaine joined us later. I bought 4 pairs of slippers (flip flops?) and a pair of heels. Haha. I also bought a shirt and Kat bought a pair of slip ons and loads of nice tops. Let's just say I was really, really tired after that. In that morning before Parkson, we went to get stationeries. It was a long day.

4. Yesterday was also my last day of volleyball in KK. I actually stopped to ponder on how I was supposed to phrase that sentence. Yesterday was also my last day of volleyball (stop). Yesterday was also my last day of volleyball until I get back. Yesterday was also my last day of volleyball in KK, hopefully I would get to play in Aus. Question mark! But you know, I'm not sure about any of that. I don't really hold much interest in going to volleyball anymore. I love to play, that's undeniable. But I'm just not that interested anymore. The only reason why I go is because I'm supporting my friends. Lee Pei. It's always been that way. Now there's more reason, Angela is there too. Then there's also JESSIE and Pitza too. Just sort of be there for them you know. But anyway. It was tiring to play yesterday. I felt so bad because I was supposed to go eat BAN MIAN with Jessie, Pei and Angela. But then the line at Parkson was seriously LONG. I really, really felt bad. More towards JESSIE. SORRY!!!! It was the first time I was supposed to go out with her. I was really really sad. =( =( Seriously wasted that chance. =( I would give up all my new shoes to get that chance back. But anyway, there's always next time. Right, Jessie? =D I bought them the Takoyaki (not octopus, but chicken sausage inside (huh?)), and also the Bo Lo Bao we always have. The one with apple inside. It's the BEST Bo Lo Bao. But I think Jessie thought it was too weird. Haha. Don't worry, I won't make you eat anymore. =D

5. Number 4 was a very long bullet point. Ehehehe.

6. Yesterday, we (me, Pei, Tur, Joey and Steph) had a nice dinner in Jesselton Hotel, Bella Italia. I met Joshua and his parents there. Haha. Met Jasper in Little Italy, which was funny because when me and my friends had dinner in Little Italy last time, I met him there too. It was a nice dinner. Introduced Joey and Steph to Chocolate Pudding, our traditional dessert since, I don't know, 2008? If we're eating Italian, we (me, Pei and Tur) judge a restaurant by whether or not they have Choc Pud, and whether or not it is good. =D Anyway. It was a really nice dinner. RM20 each. =D We were all sort of crazy because we kept (emphasize the KEPT) taking photos. My camera ran out of battery so we used Pei's C905. Tur ordered for us so she could get the 50% (5pm-7pm! We were late from school after volleyball) for us. We only had 3 pastas and a pizza to share amongst ourselves. Not bad. It was all good choices. So we didn't eat much therefore we had two choc puds! =D After that (SIGH) we walked to Wisma Merdeka to have Coffee Bean. I've been wanting a Coffee Bean/Starbucks cheesecake for a long time, but there was only the Oreo one left. Not that nice but it was okay. We were still crazy then and took loads of weird pictures there too. SIGH. Then after that we hung out outside Wisma Merdeka, waiting for Steph's mum to pick us up. We took loads of pictures there too. Gosh. I guess we were running on sugar rush after the two choc puds and the cake. Seriously weird pictures, we kept taking pictures with inanimate objects. Luckily we didn't take pictures with the rubbish bin. That would have been lower than low. Hah.

7. We decided to walk to Suria Sabah. It was my first time there. I think it was nice. Big and bright. Empty, but nice. =D Me and Pei bought a pink pair of RM40 shorts each. Hehehe. =D Me and Tur have the same Body Glove shorts which cost us about RM98? I don't remember. Forgot. Pei didn't buy at that time. The colour of Tur's pair is so off by what it is supposed to be. Haha. Anyway. Yay to having the same pair of shorts with Pei. =D We walked around and soon, Steph's dad arrived to send us back home.

8. The original plan was for us to sleep in Steph's house. When I asked my mum before leaving for dinner, she said no. She said she'll pick me up from her house when we were done. Over dinner, I told them and we discussed and said that I should ask Steph's mum to let Steph sleep in my house, and they all would follow. The reason why we usually go to Steph's house to stay is because Steph can never come to our houses to sleep. When we got back to Steph's house, we started uploading photos. At about 11pm, I told Steph's mum that I couldn't sleepover her house and that I was sad (which was true!!!). I used that opportunity to ask whether Steph could sleepover in my house, with the others too (Pei and Tur, Joey couldn't). Then Steph's mum said 'Hold on for a minute' and went downstairs (we were on the staircase conversing) and went to discuss with Steph's dad. Then Steph was called to discuss with them. Then after that Steph started Yaying and dancing around. Haha. So awesome! =D =D We all thanked her parents for giving her permission. =D I guess because I was leaving today only did they allow her. Sigh. What circumstances. Anyway.

9. In my house, we TRIED to upload more photos, but ended up going to bed without doing so, after I sort of gathered my stuff to pack. Haha. Everyone was EXHAUSTED! We didn't even talk. We lied on the bed, I turned the lamp off, and it was quiet after that. =D

10. In the morning, after trying to get them to get moving, we ate breakfast. Wow. First time for me, to have breakfast 'before going to school'. Oh and Kakak Dina is back!!! =D =D It was a total surprise!! YAY! I'm so glad she's back. We had her signature Banana Pancake (Kuih Gulung) for breakfast and she made my friends Milo. =D Nice breakfast. I followed them to school, said hi and bye to some people, hugs and lumps in MY throat, and left. And now I'm here.

11. Yesterday before I left volleyball (for the last time..? Haha) I said bye to some people including Jessie and Janice. I saw Jessie again today. Anyway, yesterday saying goodbye, I was kind of sad. Hugging Jessie, Pitza then Janice, I sort of wanted to cry. Lumps in my throat. Sigh. I will really really miss them. I really wish them all the best in everything, namely the upcoming Sports Day. I know they can do it. Waiting to hear the good news from Jessie and Janice. =D =D

12. Rewinding to the 22nd for a second. =D Friday, the 22nd, we (me, Pei, Tur, Steph, Joey, Liau and Angela) went to dinner in Little Italy. Haha. It was so expensive!!! RM40 each! Anyway, it was fun because we played the game '请你跟我这样做', which was based on the rhythm of four beats. First beat: both hands hit your lap, second beat: clap hands once, third beat: snap left fingers, fourth beat: snap right fingers. It was really fun. =D It reminds me of the 'I am a C, I am a C.H, I am a C.H.R.I.S.T.I.A.N' song they sang during my farewell last year. Anyway, I won't go to Little Italy ever again (I guess). They don't have good ravioli. Jesselton Hotel's one is much better.

Ok I guess that's all. Oh wait.

13. Yesterday's volleyball was quite nice. I think that they are shaping up quite well, much better than last year! =D I played with the boys, Ah Zhong (the computer teacher!), Ang, Ah Ket, Simon and the girl, Ho Mei Yee. We played against the girls' team. It was fun. =D Both sides played quite well. It was just enjoyable. I was actually not planning to go, but because Jessie text me the day before asking me whether I would be going, I decided to go. It was really fun I guess, the mood on both sides were quite high and it was like a friendly match. =D Whee!! I'm glad I went. Thanks, Jessie? Haha. Leaves a good memory. =D

Ok. I guess that really is all. Well, for the future, I have no idea what is in store for me. I'm a bit nervous seriously. I have no idea which way it'll go for me. I will have to work hard on both the studies and also the friends department I guess. Not going to be easy, not going to know if I'll be able to pull through, but hopefully I'll be okay. Sigh. Really nervous. Hope hope hope it'll all be okay.

So yes.. packing is sort of done. All I have to do is remember my guts, my brains and my jacket.

Jessie! Did you watch? =D

So You Think You Can Dance, Season Six, Arizona.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. I have no idea why but I really like this one.

Jonathan Noronha. Enjoy. =D

Come on. You have got to admit, dropping the baton on purpose was a good one. Haha.

Happy Note

Yesterday was fun. I was using the computer, looking for which phone and laptop I want to buy when Steph sent me a text asking me to go to school to join them for cross country practice. I immediately went to change and got everything and left, ignoring the fact that I just finished up what was left of the Pineapple Tarts. Hehe.

We started out behind everybody else but it was okay. I ran with Pei for a while but couldn't keep up. Lights were dancing in my head already by the time we hit the 'hill'. So I lagged behind. When I reached the bottom of the 'hill' at the main road, I waited there for Liau and everyone else (Pei, Tur, Liau, Angela, Steph and Joey were all running). Then I met Liau and Angela. They kept going and I waited for Tur and the others. I walked with them for a while then continued running. After not running for AGES, it was really tiring. Seriously. I couldn't keep running, I had to stop to catch my breath. Willpower all out of the window. But it's okay. I sort of enjoyed myself. In the end I ran with Angela and Liau. On and off though. But we finished together. =D In the middle, I also met up with Amos. He's faster than me. Hahaha. =D =D

I think it was really fun, because I haven't run for so long. After that at about 5.30pm, after rest and buying White Tea with Steph and watching standing with Tur in the hall where Orange Hse dancing practice was, I went to the volleyball court. I couldn't really do anything because my legs were seriously sore and numb. I haven't felt such sore legs in a long long time. The night after that was horrible. Aching and sore. Seriously. And then I had a stomach ache. Gosh. Didn't get much sleep.

Anyway. It was fun. =D Haven't ran such a distance in so long. Yay! =D

Lastly, this is the product of watching too much television:

Let's Just Fall In Love Again- Jason Castro

It's an AWESOME song. Really catchy and so.. carefree and happy. Seriously happy. The lyrics are great and I can only hope that I'll be able to find a love like that someday? Hahaha. Enjoy.

Lets pretend baby
That you've just met me
And Ive never seen you before
Ill tell all my friends
That I think you're staring
And you say the same to yours

And oh, well dance around it all night
And then Ill follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
Its so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because its so funny
Lets just think about it, honey
Lets just fall in love again

Ill call you in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And Ill ask your roommate if you're home
You call me on Thursday
And well hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone

And oh, Ill hold your hand when we drive
And well lose track of all the time
And well tell everyone
That we ain't never felt so alive

Well fall disgustingly fast
And well stop hanging out with friends
And they'll be so offended

What Title?

You know in the Twilight Saga, especially in Eclipse, Bella always says that she is such a selfish person, hurting everyone she loves. Knowing that she is inflicting pain but selfish, because she chooses to continue that way? I so totally understand that. I'm Bella (ermm..?) and I'm a selfish brat.

I overthink things and have high expectations about my family to understand me without asking. Hah. They don't.

So on Tuesday, I went to the dentist to do stuff with my braces. The dentist put bands in between my molars (not all of them) like how they did it in the beginning before braces, to make a gap there between the molars so they can place the tooth brace (the metal box thing... ?). I was in a bad mood during my appointment because the dentist was in a bad mood because of her nurse who didn't sterilize the tools needed. And then she put the bands in without telling me beforehand and it HURT. Seriously. Then I had to change the position of one of my brackets and when the dentist tried to take the bracket off, it seriously felt like she was trying to pull my tooth out. It really, really hurt. So I wasn't in a great mood. I didn't talk all the way home, so no one knew what I had done in the dentist.

I requested fish porridge, but instead got plain porridge, with steamed fish as a separate dish. Call me picky but I seriously DISLIKE plain porridge. I wanted the fish to be cooked with the porridge. But oh well.

Then yesterday night, after I got back from volleyball and watched a bit of American Idol, I wandered into the kitchen and saw 'yong tau foo' on the table. There was also stuffed bitter gourd. I was happy. Really. I was so totally looking forward to dinner. It all looked delicious and I was tired from exercising and hungry, which always makes me want to eat more than usual. So I went upstairs to take a shower. When I came down, there was stuffed tau foo, bitter gourd, and the brown tau foo which looks like a sponge which can absorb soup. And others. =D I was so happy inside. Then I sat down, there was a bowl of fishball soup for me. It was the classic fishball soup with 'dong fen'. There was also vegetables in the soup.

Because my teeth still hurt, I said I didn't want the vegetables, without stating why. For a while now, my Wisdom Teeth have been growing on the left side. So it hurts eating on the left. Then also because it's been a day after the visit to the dentist, my teeth have started to move because of the bands. When I said I didn't want the vegetables, Kat and Kev and mum just said things like 'eat what's on your plate' etc.

That's when the overthinking came in. I've explained to my mum so many times that when my braces are tightened, noodles are easier to eat over rice, fish is easier to eat over meat, meat is easier to eat over vegetables. I was so.. disappointed I guess, that they weren't thinking and just assumed it's because I don't want to eat the vegetables. Truthfully, the kind of vegetables that were in my soup was not my favorite, but it was ok. I understand, I have to eat vegetables to stay healthy. I always do make an effort to eat some because of that reason when it's vegetables I'm ok with, but don't really like. I only don't eat them unless it's some vegetable that I really don't like, like kailan or bean sprouts or Brussels sprouts or something. But then my mum always just notices me not eating my vegetables when I don't eat them. I'm so over the stage of staying away from anything green. Seriously. How long ago was that? Spare me (phrase used in space of 'please lah').

So yea. I was.. pretty down. I didn't want to explain to them. It's not like they care or anything. So I stuffed some vegetables in my mouth and chewed slowly. It hurt. It took so long. Before I finished chewing, my mum said 'Give me the vegetables. Your teeth hurt right?'. I just continued chewing. Then my smart brother said 'but it's been two days already'. Kat said that I only did my teeth yesterday. I didn't realize that, but so what if it already had been two days? They didn't even know I put bands there, which makes it hurt longer. Stupid stupid assumptions. Then my mum started offering me porridge and stuff. She still didn't understand. Dong fen is probably the easiest thing to eat (apart from porridge). That made me even more down. Stupid thought was running through my head: Nobody understands me.

But then like always, like always, my overthinking makes a round and I start blaming my own self. My stupidity, my pessimism, things I've done when I could do it the other way, my actions, my thoughts. Everything. I started blaming myself for not making better decisions. I could have made a difference and made the dinner a happier one, for everyone. I could have just explained properly. I could have smiled and smiled more. Always think of the forked-end road, I tell Pei. You always have a choice. How come I don't realize that until it's too late?

So I just ate the dong fen and the fish balls quickly after they took the vegetables away. I ate it as fast as I could. Then I left the table and went upstairs to study the driving law but fell asleep thinking.. just thinking.

I didn't even get to eat the stuffed food which I like a lot.

Pessimism

Yes, I suck at volleyball.

Yes, I am antisocial.

Volleyball After Months

I'm so exhausted! I went to play volleyball on Monday. I was tired after that, not to mention I fell down because I couldn't catch my weight properly after lunging for a ball and scraped and bruised BOTH knees (wheeeeeeeeeeee. . .). Then on Wed, I was in the process of transforming into a stereotype female. So I missed volleyball on that day. Today, I went and now, I'm exhausted. Seriously.

It was raining today. So after a few 10 minutes in the court warming up and stuff, we headed up to the 7th floor of the CCA building when the rain started getting heavy. There, we just played ball, it was fun. But it was really tiring because I kept taking wide strides to 'chase' the ball. My butt muscles and thighs were really burning (yay?). It was fun though. Me, Angela, Pei and Jessie (woww, haven't played with JESSIE for so long!!!) had a great time (at least for me). The laughs were loud and piercing (as Pei always is). It was really like old times (mroe like old times with Pei, just like in P.E.). The only difference was the low ceiling which was a nuicance sometimes.

But then halfway, Ah Ket and Jia Xin who were playing perpendicular with us, horizontal when we were vertical (???) decided to have some fun I guess. I don't know. They were talking about the Independent School's Ball Games, the one that happens every four years which we went to last year in Perak. At the awards ceremony, there was a team made out of the 12 (I think) of the best players out of everyone, it was called the Celebrity Team. Lee Pei made it into that team. It didn't really signify anything, you just got an extra certificate. Anyway, Ah Ket started calling Pei 'celebrity' and stuff. It was annoying. I know that Pei didn't want to draw attention to herself in that way, by being acknowledged as the only one who got into the 'celebrity team' or whatever. So she just sort of tried to play it cool and ignore him. I could see that she was trying to pretend she couldn't hear him, that she wished he would just shut up. I felt like turning around and asking Jia Xin to just stop the whole thing. It really sucked. He just didn't let it go. Come on! It was really annoying me. Sheesh. Anyway, Pei's mood just sort of plummeted after that. The tiredness just settled in. I was really disappointed in Jia Xin. She knew better. Rah!!!!!

Anyway. Jessie went home quite early, though it seemed like a long time. Pei didn't want to play anymore (stupid people) and so me and Angela played on. It was really tiring. But anyway. We made it through.

At dinner (Chuan Hin! With Tessa, Kat's friend, from Melbourne and Celine, Kev's friend, from Penang. They're staying at our hosue), I got a message from Pei saying things like how she didn't feel like she was in the team anymore. She mentioned this before. She just said that I had left, Sucy left, Pitza too (sort of). She felt alone in the team. She was just so down. Part of me wanted to slap her into awareness that she could make her own difference! That she could just walk up to the new ones and just become friends with them, friends you could laugh with. But then part of me just felt sorry for her. I understand her situation perfectly. It's just like me in Aus. But I'm determined to make my own difference when I go back. I just hope I'll hold myself to what I'm saying now. But because I understand that seriously sucky feeling, I didn't yell at her (theoretically speaking, as we were texting) but just tried to support her and give her advice. She's heard that advice before, she was just tired I guess. Down. So I don't think it helped much.

But this exhaustion, my aching body, my still-in-pain knees, my sore muscles, all just makes me sort of depressed. Sigh. Plus Pei being upset sort of adds fuel to the fire. I sort of thought about how great it would be to still be playing in Tshung Tsin, how I wanted to stay and meet the new guys on the guy's team (the setter with his weirdly bass voice is so funny), get to know better the new girls on the girl's team, and just be there to support Pei and Angela too. But then I can't. I have my own life to live (well, at least I hope I'll have one when I get back and make my own history) and I can't always be there for my friends. I know that. But it doesn't mean it changes how I feel. The feeling where you sort of feel numb and you start to think negatively suckssss.

Anyway. I'm really tired. Stop thinking negative. It's seriously so hard. =(

Steph's House!

Need I say more? Yesterday night we (Pitza, Pei, Tur, Steph, Angela, Liau and I) went to Centre Point to have dinner in Japanese Dream House. I thought the food was only ok. Nothing special. But nothing bad. We had some laughs there, we were the loudest table there (what a surprise). Haha. Because the shop is just beside the toilet (RM0.20 per entry!!!! With no toilet paper provided!!!), we could see people going into and out of the toilet from where we were sitting. There was this one point where some girl went into the toilet and guess what? She was wearing the exact same t-shirt as Steph!!! It was absolutely hilarious!!! We were taking a photo at that time, we had asked the waiter to help us take it. So we were all half-laughing, half-smiling, trying to be still to take the photo (the waiter's face was getting sourer and sourer by the second). Tur ended up covering her mouth because, being the one with the hugest (?) sense of humour, she just couldn't help it.

Then after that we went down to take the sticker photos. We paid RM23 for two sets, it was on promotion or something. Unlike last time (which was a long time ago, seriously), we couldn't choose the machines we wanted to use then pay after. The guy had to 'unlock' the machines for us. So the one on promotion was this crappy machine which was quite hard to navigate. But oh well, it costed us RM3 only anyway. As long as the memory is there. It was so fun taking those pictures. We were all scrambling around this small booth (there were 7 of us!). Snap! Then we were all 'change places! Change places!' and scrambled around again. It was fun.

After that we went to Warisan and walked around just to kill time. Pitza bought a jacket from Padini. There was nothing much. Soon enough Steph's car came (by that time Pei and Liau had gone back). Pitza was by herself. So we went to Steph's house (me, Tur and Angela). Her house is so awesome! In my opinion, that is. It's still under small renovations, but it's so cool! Her bedroom is carpeted, which is so nice to me! Her bedroom ceiling is those tinted but transparent ones where you can see the sky! How awesome is that. I would love to have a cool bedroom like that. !!!!!!!!!

We took some photos then went to bed after chatting for only a few minutes. Everyone was very tired. Everyone had a long day of tuition and activities. Except for me. Steph took her sofa's seat cushion and two matresses as beds for us. But we ended up with Tur sharing Steph's single bed with her, and me and Angela sharing the sofa's seat cushion. It was a comfortable sleep for me. =D

Anyway, this morning, after washing up, I went downstairs and was welcomed by the smell of FOOD! Her mum cooked fried mee hoon and we also had Milo! It was awesome! It's been seriously SO, SO long since I have had breakfast before going to school (except in Aus). So yea, it was really fun for me. I had a really great time. Thanks mum! For letting me go! =D

It's a shame though. Because Steph still sort of feels uncomfortable with us. Not uncomfortable, more like worried when we want to sleep over at her house because she sort of thinks that her house is not nice, that there's nothing to do or eat, and things like that, you know? But I think that no matter where we are, as long as we have each other, that's more than enough. Seriously. But hopefully she'll learn that soon enough. She's the newest to our group anyway, we only met her in the middle of last year (thank goodness we did!!!!).

Anyway. An update on myself. Eye am now a walking stereotype of females on this earth. Which is a big sad when you think about it like that, but it doesn't make it less true. I straightened my hair. I just got tired of having to care for my curly (previously permed, but wouldn't have been a difference if I didn't perm it), naturally frizzy, messy, too-much-of-a-handful hair. Seriously. I'm sort of glad I did it. Now I don't have to worry THAT much about looking like an idiot after waking up. Haha. But yea, like I said, I'm a walking stereotype of females now. ROAR. Oh yea, I also cut it short. I used to have sort of waist-lengthed hair, but now it's only shoulder length. GASP!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know. It looks so weird to me. But oh well. It's nice to have it short after such a long time. Pei said it's not long, not short, it's in the middle, which is weird. But she said it's ok. I would NEVER cut it short, like short short. NEVER! (I guess). But oh well. Now I know that I'm lying to everyone. When they see I look okay, hair plays a BIG part in that. How thick-skinned of me.

That's all I guess. My mum called Pei yesterday, called Steph when WE WERE ALL SLEEPING. Steph answered the phone and my mum was talking and Steph, being half asleep was like.. what? She heard my name and she nudged Tur awake and passed her the phone, mumbling to her that it was my mum. Tur was like.. what? And my mum started talking again and she was like 'Oh. She's asleep' and hung up after my mum said sorry. It was kind of funny. I say 'my mum was talking' because both of them couldn't understand what she was saying. Luckily I silenced my phone before going to bed if not we would all have been awakened by the annoying shrilling of my phone. 7 times, my mum called. I'm sure by the 3rd time she would have guessed that we were asleep. Oh well.

So that's all I guess. Hehehe. Sticker photos!! =D =D

Pei's House!

You guessed right! I slept in Pei's house yesterday. It was supposed to be with Pitza, but then Pitza's mum didn't let her go. So it was just me and Tur. We had dinner in Pei's aunty's house in Donggongon. It was quite nice. Simple Chinese food. We had 'wong jiu kai' (wine chicken soup?), which was an interesting first for me. After dinner, we sat down and continued watching the weird movie with Jay Chou in it, Treasure Hunt, or something. It was kind of fake, all the effects and everything. Haha.

We left after the movie finished, which was already nearing the end when we ate dinner. We began the long journey to Pei's home! =D We just got ready for bed and 'pillow talked' for a while then slept. Everyone was tired. Pei kept saying 'Ok, good night!' but we still kept talking. Gosh, we woke up at 5.30am! Woaahhhh!!! Now I'm seriously sleepy! But it's nice here, sitting in the Stationery Shop.

Pei's mum, her kakak, and the other workers were sitting down eating Pei's dad's shop's noodles. It's just so Malaysian, just sitting there, chatting in Haka or Malay, eating Economy Noodles and drinking Milo or something. I don't know why, but we (me, Steph and Tur) have always had a thing for the mee hoon from Pei's dad's shop. It's not particularly nice or anything, I guess we just don't go out to eat economy noodles anymore, or maybe it's just something nice to eat which isn't some sort of snack (as in koropok or confectioneries, because we don't usually eat the mee hoon as a meal. So maybe it counts as a snack?). Every morning Pei's mum brings a few packets to the shop for breakfast (like what I just witnessed) and sometimes (usually) there's a packet or two left over. We always eat those packets together, sometimes with a fried egg or a sausage or an eggplant on top, or just plain. We usually prefer mee hoon, though sometimes we still eat mian. This morning, Pei packed a packet for me and Tur, with mee hoon and kueh tiao mixed together, with an egg, a fish cake and an eggplant. I can't wait until first recess when they come here to eat. =D Yay. We're always so excited (I guess except for Pei) when there's a packet of mee hoon in the shop. Hehe. Wrapped in plastic and then newspaper. How stereotyped! =D

I brought a book today. A Dean Koontz book. I was in a dilemma yesterday before I left to Lintas to meet them in their tuition centre. I couldn't decide which book to bring. I was sort of reading Eclipse again. Kat took it out from THE book shelf and put it on the TV table. I saw it and just picked it up and started reading it. Though I'm in the middle of a sci-fi (I think) book, Tbe Glitch In Sleep. It's quite interesting I guess, but not what I was hoping for when I read the back of the book. I considered bringing Carrie by Stephen King. But I guess I was sort of disappointed by his book, Cell, so I put the book back down. In the end I just took the thinnest of the Dean Koontz book I have, Tick Tock. Scary cover. But I don't know whether I'll continue the book or just finish the ones I've already started. I'm a bit sleepy to read though. Sigh.

I'm helping Pei's mum upload photos on her Facebook. Hahaha. I don't mind, it's the least I can do for her hospitality, letting me sit here in her shop. =D

It's so funny. We keep following Baby Brent's 'Uh oh!' from Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. The movie is good. =D Ok. I'm going to go off.. and try not to sleep. Gah. Probably going to the dentist today, then lunch with Gee, then volley? Not sure yet. I can't manage!

Tur's House!

Yesterday after church at St. Simon's then lunch with Popo, I went to Tur's house after packing the night before. Sleep over!! =D Anyway, as usual, we just chatted and chatted and caught up with each other. Sort of. It was enjoyable.

So now, I'm here in the Stationery Shop in school, using Pei's mum's laptop and am just bored. I enjoyed this morning when S2Zhong (Steph and Angela!) had P.E. lesson and I joined them. Mr. Yap is cool, seriously. =D The last two periods, which is coming soon (Oh time, please fast forward yourself until 1.50pm!), I will be joining S2Xiao (Pei, Joey, Liau) and Ren's (TUR, Pauline) P.E. lesson. (Sad, huh? Everyone is more separated than before). Yay! Seriously. I haven't exercised in months! Though when I say exercise, I mean jogging and playing volleyball. I exercised at the Bike Camp (hahaha). Anyway, I'll seriously have fun later (hopefully). I haven't played volleyball with Pei in SO LONG!!!

After school, I'll be going to the volleyball training. Hopefully I'll have fun. =D (Whee! I love volleyball! I mean, love volleyball as in love playing it, not being in the school team. Which kind of sucks for me). Sigh. Overanalysing. I'm just too specific.

Ok. I have to stop going off topic!

So yea, yesterday slept in Tur's house. Oh it was Tur's dad's birthday the day before yesterday! Happy Birthday Mr. Ling!! =D So the whole family went out to eat dinner in Putra. Me, Pei, Angela and Steph discussed and decided not to go because we felt bad. So Tur cooked Korean Maggie for us for dinner (yay! =D). Only me and Angela slept over. But it was enjoyable. =D Pillow talk, as Pei puts it! =D

Anyway, it's been pretty boring here. I played volleyball with Angela this morning. And I tried to do my work (writing notes for Maths Methods) but didn't do much (seriously). I'm feeling kind of sleepy after waking up early. But it was nice to be back in Tur's house after so long. The old, comfortable familiarity again. I should have brought a book, I know. Will not repeat the same mistake twice! =D

Well, surely there will be lots more to come. As in lots more sleep overs and yam chas. But it's quite hard because everyone has full schedules of volleyball training, tuition, dancing and church. Sigh. But it's ok. I'm willing to wake up early at 6am during sleep overs on weekdays just so I can spend time with my friends. So many other people I have to go out with. Be patient!!!!

1.20pm 11.1.10 (Starting now, I'm going to put the time and date here after every post. So remind me if I forget!)

Siblings Who Communicte

I think that my family members (we) don't communicate with each other these few days. Communicate as in talk. Talk as in real talk. Not real talk as in a serious talk about life goals, aspirations etc; rather just talking about what has been going on in your life recently and things like that. All we 'talk' about is 'What are your programs tomorrow', 'What time are you getting back', 'How was school' 'Fine', 'Do you want to watch a DVD' etc. Pointless talk. You know?

For siblings who communicate, especially those who are close, I think they are lucky. Pei's sister has gone to KL to further her studies. It hit me that Pei's sister was the only one Pei really talked to about everything, about things that happened in school, in tuition, things about other people (gossip) etc. I suddenly thought that Pei and her sister were sort of dependent of each other, counting on the other to be there when they wanted to talk. You know, the truth is that I never really felt lost being by myself at home when my siblings were all studying abroad and my mum was visiting them and my dad was at work. Seriously. I don't know why I never felt lonely. But don't get me wrong, sometimes I did feel lonely and sad. But I guess it could be because we never really talked about a lot of stuff to each other, stuff about ourselves. We never really communicated. How could you miss something you never really had.

I actually am a really talkative person. But then that only happens when something interesting happened in school or stuff. I'm always willing to share. But then I always find myself interrupted or just not paid attention too. I'm too lazy to repeat myself when they say 'what?' or speak over them or ask them to listen. So I usually just leave.

I'm fine though, seriously. I don't feel dejected or anything when that happens (sometimes only slightly), but I don't mind.

Like I said, how can you miss something you never really had? Of course, I won't complain if I did have that. But I don't really have that, at least not with my family. I think we are becomming more and more selfish. What do you think?

Surprise, friends!

No one knew when I was coming back. Except for Pitza. Oh, talking about Pitza. She's moving to Ipoh! No!!!! I'm so sad, seriously. Though we sort of fell out. But she really made a difference in my life. I'm going to be so worried about her. I really hope she'll be happy there. So sad. =(

So yea. Yesterday I was so stressed, stressed because I was planning to surprise my friends at school today. Stressed because I was scared I would forget something I wanted to give my friends, and whether the guard would let me in etc. etc. Pointless. Anyway, yesterday night I set my phone's alarm at 7am. When I woke up, I clicked the Snooze until it was 8.20am (I know!). When I saw the time I was like, no! because they get recess at 8.30am on Saturdays. So I was lying there thinking whether I could make it or not. Then suddenly it hit me: I haven't changed the time of my phone. It's 5.20am. Way to wake up at dawn for no reason. Gosh. So I reset my phone time and slept.

When I got to school, the guard just asked me to sign the visitors list or whatever it is and let me in. Thankfully! I was so worried about that. And then I walked straight and I saw that prefects were up and about doing a spot check on attires. 'Wow, first week of school. No mercy.' went through my head. Naturally, the Prefect Board was full of prefects and the first people (those that I knew) I saw were Tham and Sabina! I was so excited and nervous, I have no idea why. I was just really happy. Then they called Ephraim and Pearlyn. It was nice. Then they brought me up to S2 (thank goodness! I didn't want to walk around the school lost) and it was a few minutes before recess then. I crossed Zhong, Xiao and Ren just so some of my friends could see me. I was aiming for the 'OMGosh! She's back!' expression. Haha. It sort of worked. In S2Xiao, Mr. Law (Add. Maths teacher) was teaching. The windows were open so when he saw me he was like 'Hello. How come you're not wearing uniform?' 'Because I'm not a student here anymore. If I wear it I can't leave the school compound. They'll think I'm playing hooky.' 'I'm now the teacher in charge of the uniforms. I want to see you wear your uniform' etc. etc. Hahaha. It was so funny. He's such a weird, old teacher, but can be mean with the white board eraser when he wants to be (I'm serious!).

Anyway. Recess came and my friends came out. So fun! I brought so much junk food from our pantry in Melb. for them because I knew they would appreciate it during class or tuition. We just hung there and chatted. Went to the canteen and to Pei's shop! It was just enjoyable. Everyone kept asking me 'when did you get back?', 'when are you leaving?' (which, by the way, is the 30th of Jan), 'oh, then you're not celebrating Chinese New Year?'. So yea, I kept answering the same questions over and over again. What annoys me sometimes is that people who are not close to me pretend like they are my best friend. Okaayyy.. Or worse is my close friends being distant like I've never been away before. Fine by me.

It was awesome. Seeing my friends and just hanging out with them. But. Guess what? I didn't finish this post and left it half way, and now I don't remember. I guess I went home after recess was up. Anyway. Miss my friends a lot. Glad to have them. =D