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Ok. So the night before I left for Aus, we were packing until about 2am I guess. After a shower, I allowed myself, finally, to open my farewell gifts.

Denise: Hahaha. Thanks!!!!! It's so you!! Seriously! I'll definitely start saving money! =P
Angela: Hahaha. Actually I didn't guess it right until you smsed me. Haha. Thanks!!!! That is a really great gift that I will use. You put alot of time in it too! Thanks!!! =D
Pauline: Thanks!!!! Really, really great gift! =D But again, pencil?!?! Always tell you to use pen but you never listen. Hahaha. But thanks k!!!!
Jessie: Hahaha. So cool!!!!!!!! Little Miss Christmas. Too bad there's no Little Miss Weird, huh. When I saw the journal, I immediately thought about Twilight. Why is that? Thanks alot!!

I really like all the gifts very much! It'll always remind me of you guys! Thanks alot! =D

So after reading Pauline's gift and Jessie's note, after crying/tearing up, went to bed. I had to wake up at about 5am to go to the airport.

After a dazed packing and goodbyes to kakaks, went in the car and just stared out the window. I remember looking at the sky and thinking how the sky of the past days had been so beautiful, full of clouds, until early afternoon, when usually all beautiful clouds were blown away by mid-morning. So on the way to the airport, in the car with Kev, I remember Kev getting a text msg and him reading it while driving, I remember being annoyed at him. But you'll know why later, which is a guess. Haha.

So we checked in, me, mum and dad, I think. Then after that we walked out and Kev was standing there beside the car and then all of a sudden SURPRISE! Steph, Pei, and Tur came out of nowhere, wearing their school uniforms. I was so shocked, well, not really. I was sort of indifferent, as I always am when I get surprises. (I have a glitch in my brain) But I seriously, seirously had no idea they were doing this. I seriously was touched by them caring enough to wake up at such early hours (when they always come sort of late to school) just to send me off. Then they gave me this booklet they call the 'album'. The front page was really, really awesome. Haha. But they said only open it in the plane. So we spent some time just chatting and laughing. Whispering furiously about the smokers and pointing at the No Smoking sign. Hahaha. Oh ya! After they came out and surprised me, Liau's car pulled up, her bro drove her. She was late. But I was touched that she would come too. Pei and Tur slept over in Steph's house. They spent about a day doing the album, I think, and they slept late finishing it.

BTW, I guess that it was one of the, texting Kev when he was driving. What do you think?

Soon it came the time for us to leave, and for them to head off to school. We hugged and stuff, it was all good. I was going ot miss them desperately, travelling into the unknown, just a deep empty hole waiting for me and my sisters to colour it up. Then when they were walking to the car, I started crying, I have no idea why. When they all were in the car except Pei, Pei just stood there facing me. How sad. I'm going to miss her so much! We stared at each other, she was smiling, I was crying, tears blurred my vision and I was j ust waving and she just stood there. Then she went into the car, and Steph, who was sitting in the front seat, took a tissue and waved her hand outside the window, just waving that tissue up and down, up and down, like in those movies. Hahaha. It was funny but sad too. =(

Then sat at the waiting area before screening, and wiped up the tears. Then said goodbye to Kev. Dad was going to leave us at KL. Cried with Kev too, so many unspoken things in that hug. =S

Then in the plane, (we were travelling by Air Asia!!!) I started reading the album. OMYGOSH. It's such a great gift! Seriously. I paused after typing 'such a great gift' to think of words to describe it but there really is none! Really. It was funny, sad, happy, nostalgic, and so many other things. It put our history in such concrete evidence. Then at the end there were letters from each one of them. But I didn't read that until in the KL-Melb flight. I seriously cried alot when reading the album. I didn't think I could cry any more but I did when reading the letter. My eyes were sore and dry, but maybe because I cried just a little too much, it didn't go puffy as usual. Haha. Turtle was so funny, she mentioned some things that we went through together before, and some I don't remember. What banana?????????????? Haha.

Well... That's all I guess. Sad sad sad. Cry cry cry. Closure? I think I got it. Thanks alot guys! Seriously, truly! Thank you! For those who came to the farewell party. Denise, Siow On, Sim Ying, Liau, Pei, Tur, Angela, Pauline, Nick, Tham, Crys, Pui Chi, Jessie, Janice, Steph, Joey and Jamie. Did I miss anyone? Yes it was a small party. Thanks for coming! Especially Pei and the other Mr. Lim group who had to miss tuition to come. I really appreciate it, and I'm happy that you guys came. Thanks Steph, and Pei for surprising me with Jessie and Janice!! Haha. You guys are great. I bet Jessie and Janice were abit confused and awkward because they were exposed to how crazy and lame my friends were, but that's why I love them. Gah. And thanks mum for cooking, even though you were stressed and busy. I appreciate it!!!! REALLY! And the funny 'I am a C, I am a C.H., I am a C.H.R.I.S.T.I.A.N.' song. Haha. Had it in my brain the next day. =P

Well.. This was my closure. The end of the chapter of one part of my life. I hope that I have grown. I know I make a difference when I walk down a path, but sometimes I think I make difference that would have been better off not made. Seriously. Oh well. The beginning of this chapter, is still unsure, I can safely say that. We'll see how it goes.

As I say, have faith in your friendships ok? Don't ever, ever take advantage of them. I have done so. Learn not to. SERIOUSLY.

I miss my friends. =( =)