When I'm here, which I will continue to be for some time, my friends will all be moving on. They will be going out with new people, attending parties, sleepovers, outings and DINNERS without me. I'm going to be so jealous but it's bound to happen. I really have to accept this fact and learn to let go.
Hopefully I'll be able to get my own life then, which I do not have much of now.
Well.. I just pray that God will guide me through this rough patch. I pray that He will take away this horrible jealous-ish feeling. It's not good. I want to say that they are lucky they are back home and safe and happy with all their friends, but I am also lucky to be here. Oh well.. Que Sera, Sera.
Going to bed now. Tomorrow it's work! Work Hard (Die Hard) 4 point Ou. Hehe.
Gosh!!! Im sorry you have to feel that way. I really hope my stupid brain can preserve the short time we had together. Its a responsibility to keep reminding myself to email you and not forget you. Leaving you out behind a closed wall in my mind.. I m sorry.. =) I hope things will get better now that i have A LOT of free time..
ReplyDeleteI wasn't really talking about that. I was just talking about generally you know. But it's ok. Really it is. Haha. You guys are on holiday already.. Sigh.. Exams for me coming soon.
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