Church!
Another great sermon. The gospel today was the one about Simon Peter and him fishing. Simon and the other men, they were working hard and fishing as usual through the night but they didn't catch anything. They were exhausted in the morning when they got to shore. They met Jesus and Jesus asked Simon to go back out to sea and cast the net again. He said that they had not caught anything the whole night, but because Jesus asked him to do so, he will trust in Jesus and do it. The priest said that, in life, we don't know what God's plan for us is. We don't know where He's leading us or what will happen to us. But we have to trust. This is our faith. We don't know everything, we don't possess the knowledge. That is why we need faith. Just have to trust that God is guiding us, if we choose to follow Him.
The priest then talked about Simon's imperfections. The priest said that the reason he believes in the bible is because of how true it is, how it relates to the nature of human beings. That it's not painting a rainbow of beautiful things to gather followers. He said that, like Simon, we all are imperfect. God knows that. Simon was the one who built up his faith, only to turn around the moment he was questions and betrayed Jesus, and then to turn around again and become a preacher. After so many doubts and struggles, he emerges to become a "fisher of men", preaching the word to many people. We are like that. We are not perfect. There are many flaws in us, and we will continue to sin and sin again. But all God wants from us is that we try. That we try to follow Him and His word. :)
The last thing I noted from the sermon is the priest's last sentence. He said that "through God, we cannot and will not fail". It was then that I realised, once again, how I've been so so so worried and anxious about the upcoming wave of tests and exams. I've been so stressed about the fact that they all come together just like a wave of zombies in Plants vs. Zombies, that I really felt that I was drowning. Once when I was studying in the library I actually found myself thinking, for the first time, that my course is really hard. T.T I realised that I've been so worried about all this, not for the first time, I forgot to look up to God and pray. I used to say all the time, "Look Up". And I meant that as in look up and remember to surrender your worries and troubles to God, and acknowledge that God has the power and grace to guide you. I always forget that!! I always forget to bring my troubles to God and ask for His help. That His will may be done, whatever happens, let it be as God thinks best. So when the priest said those words, I was struck as I rmbred how silly I was to bear all those worries by myself, when I can raise it all up to God, and we can bear it tgth. :)
So now, I'm trying not to worry too much. I will just keep working steadily, acknowledging that God is guiding me. :)
Mon 01:54 11/2/13
Remember to breathe yo!
Sunday, February 10, 2013
CNY 2012.
Heya! Happy CNY yo. CNY finally arrived, and I have waited for it to arrive with some sort of weird, nonsense anxiety/trepidation. But it came. And it wasn't that bad.
On Friday, I got up with super determination fuelled by the weird, nonsense feeling of anxiety/trepidation, and I CLEANED. I put my clothes and my sheets into the wash, wiped down my table and other surfaces, and cleaned the sink. Then I vacuumed my room. It was a sort-of fail tho, because the vacuum wasn't functioning properly. *shrugs, it's the effort that counts :P* Then, because my flatmates were doing it, I helped out to clean the kitchen/living room. It was an absolute mess because they built a fort the night before! -.- They as in my flatmates and the lads- James, Jack, Cathal and Finbarr. Haha. Edel joined them in the fort, it was pretty funny. They turned over all the sofas, brought out duvets and blankets, brought jugs of water, crisps and oranges into the fort. And they said like, life is simple in the fort, all is equal in the fort, there is no time in the fort. And stuff like that. Hahaha. Oh, and Tras and Julie (from Clon) came over with CHOCOLATE CAKE and pasta. So there were loads of chocolate-covered plates everywhere. And the fort ppl thought it was a good idea to start throwing orange peels at ppl outside the fort. -.- haha. SO yea, it was a mess. So we started cleaning and, took a while, but we got there. And we cleaned the toilet too, emptied the trash and stuff. :) Also, had to take out my laundry and make my bed, and folded my laundry. And folding actually drives me crazy because I try and take the creases out by folding it properly, and my fake OCD makes me try and fold everything meticulously. Bah. So it was a full day of cleaning! :) ::GROWN UP::
Sat night was the dinner. I went to town during the day and tried to find a CNY top. SO MANY NICE BRIGHT COLOURED tops in Oasis, but so expensive. Like €30-€40 for a blouse la. UGH. And I also realised that I don't look very good in soft colours. Like soft pinkish cream colour? Light pink? Doesn't suit me very well. :/ hahaha omg so random. But anyway. I bought a BLACK blouse in the end. So much for CNY top. But it had colourful flowers/butterflies or whatever on it la. At least it wasn't totally black. :/ It kinda looks like an old-woman's top, but I dunno, I like it. And it's not too expensive so yay! ::it's something::
The dinner. It was nice! Went to Pier's Head Restaurant I think, somewhere in Blackrock? There were like 30 of us there. Asian loud man! As always, our gatherings weren't exactly quiet, cuz after the food, ppl started walking around to talk to other ppl they weren't sitting with. It was pretty cool. The food was quite impressive. :) The best, hands down, was the SOUP that was the starter. OMG. OMG OMG. It was really good oh. It was like the soup mum will cook!!!!! The light herbal one, not the western creamy soups. It was chicken vegetable soup. With the red dates thingy. (Are those even dates? The red small things that are always in our soups -.-). YUMMYYYY. Then went to Paul's after, people played Fifa, played Dota, watched tv, played cho tai ti, gambled playing black jack, and we played bridge. TRUMP CARD! haha It was funny. Bobby was funny. He became so confident as he won more and more. When he won the bid, he would choose his partner and say "FOLLOW ME". Hahaha it was enjoyable.
Then we left. Aysha, Roshini, Bobby, Sam and I. They didn't really want me to walk home alone, as they were all living opposite Paul's place. Aysha even offered her bed for me. Cuz I didn't want them to worry even though I thought it would be ok walking back alone, I decided to stay with Sam. So yea, first sleepover! It wasn't like a typical sleepover because it was already like 2am or something. So we just talked a bit and slept. :) So yea. That was how, according to the lunar calendar, I stepped over the 2012 threshold, into the snake year of 2013. :)
Mon 01:18 11/2/13
On Friday, I got up with super determination fuelled by the weird, nonsense feeling of anxiety/trepidation, and I CLEANED. I put my clothes and my sheets into the wash, wiped down my table and other surfaces, and cleaned the sink. Then I vacuumed my room. It was a sort-of fail tho, because the vacuum wasn't functioning properly. *shrugs, it's the effort that counts :P* Then, because my flatmates were doing it, I helped out to clean the kitchen/living room. It was an absolute mess because they built a fort the night before! -.- They as in my flatmates and the lads- James, Jack, Cathal and Finbarr. Haha. Edel joined them in the fort, it was pretty funny. They turned over all the sofas, brought out duvets and blankets, brought jugs of water, crisps and oranges into the fort. And they said like, life is simple in the fort, all is equal in the fort, there is no time in the fort. And stuff like that. Hahaha. Oh, and Tras and Julie (from Clon) came over with CHOCOLATE CAKE and pasta. So there were loads of chocolate-covered plates everywhere. And the fort ppl thought it was a good idea to start throwing orange peels at ppl outside the fort. -.- haha. SO yea, it was a mess. So we started cleaning and, took a while, but we got there. And we cleaned the toilet too, emptied the trash and stuff. :) Also, had to take out my laundry and make my bed, and folded my laundry. And folding actually drives me crazy because I try and take the creases out by folding it properly, and my fake OCD makes me try and fold everything meticulously. Bah. So it was a full day of cleaning! :) ::GROWN UP::
Sat night was the dinner. I went to town during the day and tried to find a CNY top. SO MANY NICE BRIGHT COLOURED tops in Oasis, but so expensive. Like €30-€40 for a blouse la. UGH. And I also realised that I don't look very good in soft colours. Like soft pinkish cream colour? Light pink? Doesn't suit me very well. :/ hahaha omg so random. But anyway. I bought a BLACK blouse in the end. So much for CNY top. But it had colourful flowers/butterflies or whatever on it la. At least it wasn't totally black. :/ It kinda looks like an old-woman's top, but I dunno, I like it. And it's not too expensive so yay! ::it's something::
The dinner. It was nice! Went to Pier's Head Restaurant I think, somewhere in Blackrock? There were like 30 of us there. Asian loud man! As always, our gatherings weren't exactly quiet, cuz after the food, ppl started walking around to talk to other ppl they weren't sitting with. It was pretty cool. The food was quite impressive. :) The best, hands down, was the SOUP that was the starter. OMG. OMG OMG. It was really good oh. It was like the soup mum will cook!!!!! The light herbal one, not the western creamy soups. It was chicken vegetable soup. With the red dates thingy. (Are those even dates? The red small things that are always in our soups -.-). YUMMYYYY. Then went to Paul's after, people played Fifa, played Dota, watched tv, played cho tai ti, gambled playing black jack, and we played bridge. TRUMP CARD! haha It was funny. Bobby was funny. He became so confident as he won more and more. When he won the bid, he would choose his partner and say "FOLLOW ME". Hahaha it was enjoyable.
Then we left. Aysha, Roshini, Bobby, Sam and I. They didn't really want me to walk home alone, as they were all living opposite Paul's place. Aysha even offered her bed for me. Cuz I didn't want them to worry even though I thought it would be ok walking back alone, I decided to stay with Sam. So yea, first sleepover! It wasn't like a typical sleepover because it was already like 2am or something. So we just talked a bit and slept. :) So yea. That was how, according to the lunar calendar, I stepped over the 2012 threshold, into the snake year of 2013. :)
Mon 01:18 11/2/13
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
CNY?
Sigh. It's CNY this Sunday. I can't believe it's actually here. I'm kinda.. stressed about it, I don't really know why. I think it's because, away from home, the actual day of CNY itself, its importance and its significance is way more amplified! Usually back home, everything that happens is a blur. Reunion dinner on the eve on CNY, with the absolutely hilarious mini lion dance crew we have with the cousins in KK, or the absolutely packed house with loads of Sundrop, amazing food, noise and laughter (and sometimes singing) in Kuching, and then there's all the visiting you do, the red packets you receive, then the Chap Goh Meh dinner (元宵节) with the 汤圆 hahaha. I guess it was also cuz I was the youngest and didn't really need to do anything. But then now, I'm away from home and missing home so much it kinda hurts. And I feel that, celebrating CNY is important because it makes it feel... kinda more like home. Does that even make sense? So, on top of trying to make myself study, and thinking of what to wear to commemorate CNY, and praying I'll remember to get safety glasses for upcoming biochem labs and doing ALL the prep work for the labs, I have to remember to clean my room which I guess is my little house, and wash the sheets and everything. It's not like it's a habit, that cleaning before CNY is something I actively participate in back home. But it just feels important that I do it. Omg, I'm going crazy!!!! Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh.
But anywho! There's dinner this Sat with the Malaysians and Singaporeans. Hopeeee it'll be good!!!! :D
And also. I would just like to say that, I'm actually sick sick sick. It started with my nose, then now my throat is bad as well. So. bubble. itchy oh my throat. I'm so gonna lose my voice. It's so depressing laaaaaaaaa. -.- WHYYYYYYYY does this have to happen when it's CNY and my bday week?!?!?!?! UGH. I honestly believe that I won't recover back to 100% in this cold weather. Sigh.
Tue 23:33 5/2/12
But anywho! There's dinner this Sat with the Malaysians and Singaporeans. Hopeeee it'll be good!!!! :D
And also. I would just like to say that, I'm actually sick sick sick. It started with my nose, then now my throat is bad as well. So. bubble. itchy oh my throat. I'm so gonna lose my voice. It's so depressing laaaaaaaaa. -.- WHYYYYYYYY does this have to happen when it's CNY and my bday week?!?!?!?! UGH. I honestly believe that I won't recover back to 100% in this cold weather. Sigh.
Tue 23:33 5/2/12
sigh
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Sunday, February 3, 2013
Darkness.
"I couldn't see worth a damn either. But I just kept driving forward, hoping for the best." - Marshal's dad in HIMYM. :) That's kinda like my life. Don't know what's gonna happen, don't know what my future will become. But. Guess there's no where much to go but forward huh. :)
Sun 18:18 3/2/13
Cool. Previous post was at 17:17 hehehehehe.
Sun 18:18 3/2/13
Cool. Previous post was at 17:17 hehehehehe.
WTB, TO ULTRA MAN SHIP!
I KNOW YOU KNOW. BUT, DENISE DUMMY! ONLY I CAN HAVE CRAZY SHOUTING CONVERSATIONS WITH YOU THAT MAKES ME WANNA STRANGLE MYSELF WHILE SMILING. Hahahahaha. Love ya yoooooozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Please, take care of yourself!!! Body is your temple! ^______________^
~Annoying/caring aunt~
Sun 3/2/12 17:17
~Annoying/caring aunt~
Sun 3/2/12 17:17
Let Me Go There Please.
I dreamt of you last night. Wish I could tell you!!
Dreams, that's where I have to go.
15:55 Sun 3/2/13
Dreams, that's where I have to go.
15:55 Sun 3/2/13
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Last Words.
Hellooo. Just watched an episode of HIMYM, the one where Marshal's dad dies. Super sad man. I cried!!!!! (No surprise there) But anywho. It's just the thought of "last words". It's not that I don't know this already, it was just a really good reminder. I used to be so paranoid. So afraid. I would constantly be sending prayers to God to ask Him to have mercy on my family, that He won't take them away so soon. Like, I'll get stressed so suddenly at the thought of not having them around at all, that I'll say like 5 prayers at once. When I was in Dublin, I would get so upset because I don't talk to my parents regularly, felt out of touch with my family. Then I'll be like, you know, what if what if what ifffffffff I hadn't spoken to them for like a week and God takes them away? Omg. That scares me so much so much I can't even explain the fear gripping my heart. So yea. :) Tell people you love them if you do. Be honest, be sincere, be kind to people. No regrets!!! Appreciate your family! :D :D And make sure they know you appreciate them!
Anywho. On a totally unrelated note. Just thought I should let you know my love for Jeremy Lin. Hahahaha. Love him because he's Asian and because he seems to have a good heart, he's really humble and he loves God too! Hahaha. Omg. I'm so silly. As if I know the dude. But anywaaaaay. It's his youtube videos bah. So silly and then he puts a bible verse at the end and then you realise he's actually kinda great. Whaaaaaaaaaaaart am I even saying! -.- But yea haha go watch and see for yourself!! He's so cute ohhhhhhhhhhhh.
Dear me, how are you going to be 20?
3/2/13 02:20 Sun
Anywho. On a totally unrelated note. Just thought I should let you know my love for Jeremy Lin. Hahahaha. Love him because he's Asian and because he seems to have a good heart, he's really humble and he loves God too! Hahaha. Omg. I'm so silly. As if I know the dude. But anywaaaaay. It's his youtube videos bah. So silly and then he puts a bible verse at the end and then you realise he's actually kinda great. Whaaaaaaaaaaaart am I even saying! -.- But yea haha go watch and see for yourself!! He's so cute ohhhhhhhhhhhh.
Dear me, how are you going to be 20?
3/2/13 02:20 Sun
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