So. STUPID.

I don't use that word often. I think that we shouldn't use that word, when our mental health is perfectly fine because we are so fortunate to not have congenital mental disabilities, or even non-congenital mental diseases. I made that decision a few years back.. like probably two years ago or something. But I do use it occasionally referring to myself. I always do cringe a little and feel guilty for using that word. 


But let me tell you now, I'm so utterly frustrated and upset with my new school that I'm going to be moving to soon. And they. are. so. stupid. Why? LET ME TELL YOU WHY. 


As most of you know, I'm doing one subject outside of school, that's Indonesian. Now usually all students take 6 subjects for VCE. So I'm currently doing 5 inside of school, and one during Saturdays. But now, this new school tells me that I have to do 6 subjects inside of school regardless that I'm taking one outside of school. That. is. just. simply. ri. di. cu. lous!!! So now I have to take 7 subjects! That's UNFAIR! The lady said that they have other students doing the same thing too. Well, all I can say is those students must be like, super hardworking or have no life or something. I enjoy my free periods. I like the quiet time I get in the library just doing my homework and everything. I've gotten so used to it, adjusted to it, embraced it. I don't know.. I'm so upset. 


Then also, we have to do religious education which is compulsory. I'm not so bothered by the fact that we have to do rel. ed., but then, does that mean that I'll have NO FREEs whatsoever? In my current school, taking 6 subjects inside of school, you still have like 2 periods of free periods in a week. Designated frees. So then if we have rel. ed., then does that mean we have no frees? At all? What?! That just sounds like they have no control over their students and can't seem to discipline them or something. What happened to the privileges you get when you're a senior? 


Then also, they seem to have very stupid blocks for the subject allocation thing. Each school arranges their classes in certain blocks. So each class you have is from a certain block. You can't go to two classes from the same block because that would mean you have the Time Turner (Harry Potter), but of course, most subjects have more than one class which are in different blocks. So they asked me to choose a stupid 7th subject. I said Accounting. But nooooo it clashes with English or whatever. Then I want General Maths B (which leads into Further Maths, the easier one), and noooo no one does three maths in their schools. So I picked Lit and I'm not very keen because I KNOW that no teacher can beat Ms. Touvoli. And I love my Lit class because the people in our class make the discussions we have so lively and funny and critical all at the same time. 


So upset. You know how when you're upset and you tend to think about other things that make you sad and it just gets worse for no reason at all? Well yeah. Upset as in I'm this idiot who walked home from school crying. Crappy day. I have last two periods off today but it's report day. You get your report at 2.25pm at the end of the day and I asked if I could get my report early. But noooo we'll wag (play truant) the last two classes if we get it early. I don't even know why I started crying. I am just really unhappy about all the arrangements. I'm starting to feel that this school cannot accommodate me. What if I really want to go into Further Maths next year? That's 'impossible' as the lady put it. So stupid. Maybe I shouldn't have opted to change schools. I feel like I want to pull the plug but then I think of the money already paid. Then I think that maybe this is God's will or whatever. 


Whatttttttt. Now I just have to concentrate on Jason Mraz' Every Little Thing, Is Gonna Be Alright.