Haha. Sorry guys. Looks like there's more to bear. As if anyone is still reading. They've probably ran off already. So really unexpectedly, when mum came here, the subject of changing schools came up again. This subject is not new. But then we really looked into boarding schools this time. And surprisingly, we went ahead and sent in an application to this Catholic private school. We went for the school tour and wow it looks awesome. At least from the outside though. The inside wasn't as nice as I expected a private school to be. Actually, it seemed pretty run down in some places. Well.. the thing is that mum was really worried about my school not having good teachers and stuff like that. And me? Well.. I'm not trying to brag or anything. Really. I'm just saying the case as it is. Like all my siblings went to private schools. So when I was preparing to leave home and come here, I thought that I would be going to a private school as well. But somehow, I ended up where I am now. I'm not really complaining. But it's just that I've always wanted to go to a boarding school, I've always wanted, wholeheartedly, to experience boarding school.
So yea. This whole topic has been going round and round in my head, and that's how our progress has been too. Yes.. then no. Then yes. At least in my head. Again and again. I detest dilemmas. I've had SO MANY of them. Even when I tell Dana 'I've got another dilemma' she's like 'AGAIN? OH NO!'. Haha. Horrible. But anyway. I was so scared and unsure. Well. To be honest, sadly, as you guys probably know, embarrassingly, (...) I'm not happy in my current school and YOU KNOW WHY. (Because this is the chronicles of my life (not really) (haha) I shall be thick skinned and pretend I don't feel the heat in my cheeks), I shall state the reason: THE friend factor. Sad huh? So yea. I'm not happy. But I'm not miserable. That's why I think that I have it pretty good already. I appreciate what I have, even though it's not perfect (hah, far from, more like), I'm still alive. I don't hate my school, I don't dread to go to school every day. That's not too bad.
But anyway. The application has been sent in. I'm going for an interview on Wednesday. So this is my take on it: if they accept me, then I'll take it as God's will. If they don't, then I don't. I've been praying for God to lead me in the right direction, for me to recognise His will. So that's what I've decided. I'll just go and cross my fingers. Everything has a reason, that's what I believe. Problem is sometimes it takes 10 years for you to recognise it. Oh well. Wish me luck. Is it shallow to say I want to go to a prestigious school? With nice uniforms and everything? Hah. If I get accepted in that school, I'll be wearing GREY tights. HAhahaaha *cries* Grey tights. Oh well. I'll also be commuting by tram to the school every day. A REAL BIG hassle. But I'm looking for a sense of community in a boarding house. Idealistic much? But put Gavin DeGraw's More Than Anyone in the background, and hear me saying that I'm just going to cross my fingers and hope, really hope, that I won't be a loner. I'm going to change the way I approach people. I've observed that if you just go up to them, not feeling unworthy as I constantly do, not feeling awkward as I constantly do, it's easier. The people here are accepting. Or so I hope. So.. cross fingers and trust God will guide me. Of course, if I do get accepted, I'm not going to be constantly comparing my current school with that school then. I'm going to look forward, not casting wistful glances over my shoulder. Or at least this is what I say now. But really.. I hope I won't be all regretful and stuff. What I say now though, is that I will take everything of that opportunity and not leave space for being wistful. No. (Y)
Next topic. You know I sometimes wear sweat pants to school because it's so cold or I'm just feeling lazy? Haha. Thanks to Gee, I haven't worn sweat pants to school now for ages! Seriously. You guys better go thank her. She said that I'm a loner because I don't dress properly. Hahaha. Well.. I'm a loner because I'm just socially awkward to people I don't know. But dressing properly. Well. I can't really disagree with that. Hahaha. So now I just always wear those darn tights (dislike them!) to school now. Thanks Gee. =D
Well.. the world cup just started yesterday. Me? I'm a basketball, volleyball, BADMINTON fan! Not so much soccer. Haha. It's held in South Africa this year. The FIFA Worldcup. Haha. Australia is in it.. the Socceroos. Hahaha I pronounce it as 'saucer-roos'. Oh well. Don't really hold much interest. BUT YOU KNOW WHY I'm such a loner? It's because I don't listen to the radio. Thus I don't know all the new songs. I don't watch Today Tonight or stuff like that. The new movies as well. I don't know anything. So I always have nothing to talk about.
Indo school. It's been pretty good. I went to the Indo Fest which was probably on the 2nd of May, Sunday. I went there and met up with Indo School friends, Mei, Adhy and Alwi. I had a pretty good time. It was fun. I really enjoyed their company and everything. Oh Mei and I.. we ate BEEF TONGUE!!!!!!!!!! SOB!!! SERIOUSLY! We were standing there (no seats left) eating and then Adhy and Alwi arrived and they walked over and asked 'how's the tongue' and told us they were going to the other stall to get satay. And Mei and I were just looking at each other. I initially thought that he meant how's our tongue.. referring to the chilli in the sauce or whatever. But then we were like.. contemplating. Is this tongue? It can't be. And stuff like that. We continued eating, but we kept stopping and looking at each other with meaningful looks. Haha. We walked over to Adhy and Alwi and asked them. They confirmed our assumptions. Well.. you can't really blame us. They were skewers as well! So we just assumed that it was normal satay. Sigh. Mei had to go to work in Box Hill soon after that (the festival was in Box Hill Town Hall). So I just hung out with them and chatted. We walked to Box Hill to look for Mei after that. We chatted a lot and it was pretty funny. How Adhy wants to get a motorcycle, explaining why he had those black gloves. So we were joking about him having a pink bike, with ribbons and rainbows on it. Haha. It was fun. Indonesians are cool, seriously!
I went out for a movie with them as well. Adhy, his sister Melina (in the Yr 12 Indo class who Michelle and I were classmates with for a while before we were kicked to Yr 11), and his other sister Nessa, Alwi and his younger sister who was friends with Nessa. We watched Iron Man 2! It was pretty good I guess. But of course, the first one was better. Well.. I don't think that it was as fun as the Indo Fest, but it was still pretty good. Adhy was so stressed out that we were late for the movie and everything because we were waiting for Alwi. But it was all good. It's fun. I really think that Indos are cool. I would really like to go to Indonesia someday. Someday. =D
Well... I think that this is all. Hopefully. As in this is all there is on the topic of 'presently'. I'll gradually fill you guys in. Oh and you know AGES ago I was complaining about the cold and said that Weatherzone shows all 20-something degrees for the whole week? Well.. I look at it now and it's all around 12 degrees. Awesome much? (sarcastic!!!!!)
Reminder for myself: (upcoming topics!) Ideals, youngest, books, refined.
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