31st May 2009

GEORGINA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! YOU'RE SIXTEEN!

Awesomeness? Hah! I beat you to it! =P

Ok. So I'm dedicating this post to how it just seems so unbelievable to me that Georgina is one of my best friends when we are so, so different in many ways. AND, before June steps in to replace the last day of May! =D

It's really amazed me when I sat back and thought about how different we are, and still am able to be kind of good friends. Wow. Haha.

Everything about both of us with each other are different. The circle of friends she hands out with are different than mine, her hair is short and funky, mine is long and messy. Her attitude towards studies is different. I'm a geek. Yes I am. She's smart but doesn't really study, while I'm buried in books during exams. The way she talks is WAY different than me, very elegant (hahaha!). I'm sentimental, I'm emotional, I overthink things and care alot, everything she doesn't do and isn't. The things that bring us together? Hmm. I think she doesn't judge. I mean, of course she does. Everyone does. But she doesn't judge the things I do and when I go to her with a problem, she doesn't. Well, maybe she does, but really, who doesn't? And she's always there for me to give her opinion which is always straightforward and true. While I'm the good one who doesn't like to hurt people's feelings. While she just usuaully says what's on her mind. And she's funny. She has a sense of humour, which we share. I don't know. What makes us stay friends after all these years? I don't know. We just are. She's kind of hard to understand. I think. She doesn't really talk about true feelings. Like she doesn't really open up. She might. But I don't know. Not to me?

Haha. I'm going in circles.

So, Georgina, Happy Birthday! We're not those kind of friends who text each other everyday, but like Kel said, true friends are those who don't lose touch even after years apart. =)

Georgina. You are sixteen! We have officially been friends for, erm... 10 years? But you said we knew each other when we were 5. I don't know. Oh well. Hope we stay friends. See you in the future! =D

LOLZ man!

(Reminds me of Mychonny. Believe it or not. Haha) -.- Anyway. On a more elaborate note, exams are OVER! Gosh, it really was a long exam period. For the last day, Sej, I slept really late. The latest I have ever slept just to study for exams. It is because I started studying really late, so I finished late. I was just so happy Add. Maths and Bio was over, it was like exams were over to me. So I didn't feel like studying. So I wasted my time, and then when I started studying, I remembered I had something important to do. So I got that done, then studied, and by that time it was late.

So I didn't do that well for my Sej. A real downer, but it's my fault. So yup, am worried about Sej, Bio, and actually all subjects. But mainly these two. And probably Chem too. Oh I don't know. Let's just wait and see.

This exam took alot out of me, I feel. I studied quite hard because of lack of time. So late nights and too much consumption of food, gosh. My face really looks horrible. When I woke up on Friday, I looked in the mirror and was like, OhmyGOSH! The bags under my eyes. They looked really obvious and black. (what are they supposed to look like? -.-) So yup.

This holiday, I want to, EXERCISE! I have not done so in I-have-no-idea-how-long now. I seriously need to sweat some! I need to get my bookshelf sorted out (hehe, mum). I need to SLEEP EARLY! <- VERY IMPORTANT! Hmm. Go to the cinema, and go out for a drink with my friends. So yup... Hope I actually have enough time! Whee!

On Friday, before I slept, I took my handphone to set my alarm. It felt AWESOME. I pressed the button where it said, DISABLE. Seriously. It was uplifting. Hahaha.

Welcome to the holidays. Shall all have a great time and most importantly, RELAX!

FREEDOM!

We have all survived the Add. Maths and Bio battlefield. Add. Maths was ok, had to think alot but it was ok. I hope I wasn't as careless as last time! *BREATHE* I don't want to be. It cost me ALOT of marks the last exam. So fingers crossed, but not hoping anything. Bio, objective was tough. But stuctural ques were all ok. Hmm..

Daily Desk Calendar: God is silent. Now if we can only get man to shut up.

HAHAHA.

Ngeh...

I was just coming on to see whether Kel was online cause I wanted to ask her something. And to listen to nice songs on youtube because I'm sleepy and I need to stay awake to study! Add. Maths and Bio tomorrow! And we have like, 10 chaps for add. maths? Gosh! Physics today. It was ok I guess. Some tough ones and some easy ones. Hmm. Hope I'll do fine! And Chem yesterday. Chem Chem Chem. The essay makes me sad! =(

I was not going to blog. But then I found the newest issue of BuyersGuide on the table and WHEE! I MUST blog about it! It's so awesome. But then SIGH. (haha) There are no restaurant vouchers inside. SO SAD! NONE AT ALL! The last one I saw had like, a few restaurant vouchers or at least ads in them.

Sigh. Oh well. Back to add. maths and brainmushing thinking. Haha.

Secret Valentine- We the Kings. Touch My Hand- David A. Playing through booming loudspeakers in my brain during exams. Gosh.

Not so amazing

Because, we all knew the results before we got to watch the results show just now at 6pm! =( But oh well. Whee! Kris Allen is officially the Season 8 American Idol! Yea! I'm so, so proud for him. He's really such a nice guy. Even after he won he was still like, Adam is an amazing singer, and stuff like that. And when Ryan asked him what did he have to say to all those who voted for him, he said, thank you, if it weren't for all of you, we all (pointing to the top 13) wouldn't be where we are now. So, yay! Congrats Kris Allen!

But I am abit worried you know. I think it's sort of jinxed or something, winning American Idol. Because all those who didn't win did better post-Idol than those who did win. David Archuleta, Daughtry, and so many others. So I just really, really hope that Kris will do well. Waiting for his album! Hehehe. Congrats Kris! You deserve it!

You seeeeee! I told you he totally had alot more fans than Adam! Hehe! My mum was like, so did you hear who won AI? Her knowing smile gave her away. She didn't tell me who, but I was smart enough (haha) to know. Ohhhh! The results show was AWESOME!!! Really AWESOME! The best part? Hmm.. The outstanding female where Kara showed the girl how to really sing and when she pulled her coat open! Whoa! Hahahahahahaha! The Santana performance was really good too, KRIS WAS DANCING! Whoooo! Only for a short while when he was singing solo, waving his hips and stuff! Hehehe! Good dancer! =P And the KISS performance! Whoa I was like OHMYGOSH KISS! I've never seen a live show from them before and it was really really good. And of course the Queen, We are the Champions. I have always loved that song.

Sigh. The results show was really really good. =D A definite watch-again show if I had the chance. But now, sadly, I have to go back to my studies. I'm really worried I won't have enough time to finish everything. Really worried. I feel a cord around my neck getting tighter and tighter, with every hour that passes by. But it still can't make my thoughts stay still while studying. Oh well.

I'll post some nice photos when I have time to look for them. Well everyone, now that AI and Kris Allen is behind us, let us all study hard and uuusshhh our exams! Hua-tah (Bruce Lee Water! Turtle!!!!!!!!)! Hahaha.

The Sky

On a totally different note than the previous post, I just would like to tell you all about the sky today at around 3.30pm, KK.

It was awesome! It was so beautiful. It was covering the whole sky. Thick, soft clouds covering the whole sky (well, not the whole sky, just as far as you can see!), yes, even over the horizon, it was still clouds stretching away into the unknown (haha). When I saw it, it immediately came to mind: a thick blanket of clouds, exactly like cotton candy. It was really the whole sky, it looked really, really soft and thick and never-ending. And the middle part of it (right above me, at that time) was the pattern, the horizontal ripples kind of pattern you get from the sea. That's my favourite kind of cloud pattern and it was just covering the sun, so it was the brightest part of the sky and so beautiful. Haha. I know my describing it definitely does not give it justice, and words cannot describe how beautiful it was, but the worst part is, I didn't get a pic of it. I don't have a camera (thanks mum, Hahaha), well, technically I do, my mum threw my charger away by accident. So yup. I do have a camera, but it has not power at all. So everyone, appreciate the sky! It's gone now. =( But oh well.

American Idol Finale NOW!!!! 6pm 20.5.09 in Malaysia! NOW!

Go Kris!

Hole in heart.

=( Leepei didn't get into the state team. I'm so sad for her, seriously! And the worst part is, (I think it's the worst) Jia Xin got in. Congrats to her and all, but it's worse when someone gets in, but you don't, worse than no one getting in at all. Thinking of the 'what could have been' stuff. So yea, she went to the toilet during Add. Maths today, and I looked out the window and Jay Ng, Stefan and Sucy were on the corridor talking solemnly. Then when she came back she stopped to talk to them. I was watching her, my heart tightened, I guessed what they were talking about. I hoped with all my heart that she would get in. Then she walked about two steps away from them towards the class, turned to her right (where the railing is, our class is on her left) and stood at the railing looking out at the field. I guessed I knew the answer, but I was not so sure. My heart was going 'no, no, no, don't let it be that way'. Jay said something to her, she just shook her head and walked back to the class. She started crying then.

I'm so, so sad for her! She worked so hard, she trained everyday since before interschool. Missed school for more than a week, leaving class early for training, and then it's a no. She the only one on the team in Science Stream, and she's not a genius, the amount of classes she missed, with exams only next week! Will she be able to get through the exams? If she got in, she wouldn't need to take exams. But now, just arriving back from Kudat (inter district) with the rest of the team yesterday, she's not in the State Team, and she's going to be sitting for her exams on Monday. I'm so sad for her, seriously. She was telling me when she was crying, If I knew I wouldn't have gone to Daerah, in the end it amounts to nothing, I didn't get chosen, I have to sit for exams, it was all a waste of time.
It's not a waste of time. Having the opportunity to participate in these things, it's definitely only a once a year thing. Exams come and go. But these competitions, not everyone can have a chance like that.

They got 4th in Daerah, guys didn't get into semi. They were all so sad, crying too. Jay said, it was his last year. She still has next year. But knowing she got in the team last year, it's even worse! But it's true, her volleyb journey ends here for this year. I'm seriously so sad! Seeing her cry and saying it's a waste of time, knowing she'll have to struggle for exams and knowing it won't end well, knowing she worked so hard and sacrificed so much, for what? For what? I think that's not really correct. For the memories, for the interschool- the winning feeling after losing last year, for first Daerah- the winning feeling, the best thing part of the game, for second Daerah (two daerah competitions, first in Tuaran, second in Kudat)- the memories, just being able to be there. That's worth it. Don't forget what happened before, all the happy memories, winning each match, don't only remember the saddest part of it- the end.

The very worst part is, nothing can be done to make it better. Only time. How horrible is that?

Sigh, my heart really feels a sadness that I can't find words for. All I hope is that time would help as much as it can. I hope it won't take long. Leepei! Me and Tur will be here! Be happy! We don't care if you don't smile, just be happy!

=(

Let them talk, seriously.

Cause it makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

Woot! I love this song. Fighter by Christina Aguilera. But I wish that everytime we face hardships and stuff like that, we would actually be like the lyrics above, stronger and stuff. Sigh.

But oh well. Be strong! =D

Hmm.. I was thinking. It is true I guess. The ad for Army Wives showed this person saying, Why do we try to be strong? In the end, what does strong get us?

Yes, what does it get us? We try so hard not to crumble, try so hard to face it strongly, but in the end, what does it amount to? Why can't we just quit, and be happy? Being strong doesn't make you that happy anyway. So why do we try and be strong?

I want to know why. Which then brings to mind, Those who insist on seeing with clarity before deciding, never decide. Haha. Watched The Biggest Loser, and one guy was telling the other, Don't be the one who rolls over when being attacked this time. Be strong and fight back.

Hah. Daily Reflection Desk Calendar: Poise is the act of raising the eyebrows instead of the voice. Hahahahahahhahahaaaaaa!

HEHE Dilbert!

Today's strip is so funny! Hahahahahahahahahahaha.

Is my blog colour nice? Having yellow is hard, because more colours are harder to see clearly with this colour as a background. But it's bright, multi-coloured and.... well, really colourful. Happy and exuberant. So me when I'm in a good mood! =D HAHA

So anyway, the form is handed in!!!!!!! Finally! I've been stressed over it for the past few nights and had a headache today. It's taken so much time! And finally. We, the still-no-name choir has joined the KK Music Festival. It's our first time, and there are still a number of people I don't know (friend's friends), so I can't wait to meet new people, sing and have fun! =D

So now, focus is: STUDYING! This is the first time I've came out of the two weeks point and into the one week point and have only studied one subject. That is Chem. And it's not 100% yet! OHMY! But I really want to focus and do my best. If only I could do it like I say it. I'll be so great then. Hahahaha.

So yup. GO GO! And the best part is, it's RAININGGGGGGG!! WHEEEE!

OH YA!!! So cool! I received a gift from Kev today! It's a tshirt! The best part is what it says. "I kissed a vampire and I liked it" Hahahahahahha. He must have been thinking about Twilight. Thanks Kev!!! I really really like it. But I think it's too small. I've gained adipose tissues you know. =P But thanks alot! =) =) =)

Do apples make you gain adipose tissues??

OH. MY.

It must be his name, Kris, cause it's so similar to mine! HAHAHA. Just kidding. HE GOT INTO THE FINALS! WOW WOW WOW!!! I TOLD YOU! You know I had that weird feeling, since the last few weeks, that Kris had loads of fans, more than Adam or Danny. Even though they can sing better than him. I don't know how to say it. I just knew that Kris was going to get in, but I didn't dare to hope. The obvious choice would have been Danny and Adam. But WOAH! Kris MADE IT to the finals! Heheheeee! I hope he will win! I have a good feeling, cause I know he definitely has more fans than Adam (I think)! But it definitely depends on his perfomance next week. I seriously hope he would do something like what he did this week. So GO KRIS! =D

Danny! NO! I wanted him to get into the finals. Danny and Kris. But sigh. I really wish him the best, and hope that he will come up with his own songs in his own style and everything. Danny Gokey, congratulations. =D

Hey, you know what? I have a feeling that it's Simon's fault Danny didn't make it. Because Simon was like "Oh, Adam definitely deserves to be in the finals. But all of you should not assume that he is going to be. So vote for him." after Adam sang Cry. So, yup. I think if he didn't say that, Danny would get more votes. But oh well. I believe that Danny would do well. Whee! =D

So all the best KRIS! (and Danny. Haha) Knock them off their feet (or gracefully sweep them off their feet) next week.

WHEEEEEEE!!!!

K.R.I.S.!

OH MY GOSH! Just finished watching American Idol Top 3! Woah! All three were really fantastic, seriously so cool! Haha. Kris! I really hope he will get into the finals, REALLY REALLY REALLY hope! But I have a feeling he won't be. But I don't know. I had that feeling last week and I was wrong! So I'm totally keeping my fingers crossed for him! He wore a black long sleeved shirt for his last performance. He looked so good! Hahahaha. But really, I think he could have done better with Apologize. I don't know. But heartless was WHOA. When I heard that was his song choice I was OHMYGOSH, why did he choose that song? I didn't think it was going to work out well but when he started singing ABSOLUTELY acoustic, without any backup singers or ANYTHING, I was WHOA. He was really really good. Who would sing with only a guitar in a large stadium with I-have-no-idea-how-many-thousands-of-ppl-watching? It was really really good. Nothing but his voice, and guitar, and audiences clapping to the beat. Yea!

Awesomeness! I hope he'll get in!! =D Go KRIS! (Pic not from top 3 performance. Ooooooh. What a nice pic! HEHE!)

My dad

At dinner.

Mum: Hmm. This fish isn't that good anymore.
Dad: Why?
Mum: It's abit sandy right? The texture.
Dad: I think when it was caught, it was swimming in the sand.

HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA... -.-

Har har har... huh?

I quote myself, "If only I knew what the outcome would be..."

Daily reflection desk calendar: Those who insist upon seeing with clarity before they decide, never decide.

HMM.. so true! =D

10.5.09

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!

To all mothers who have given life to other people, sacrificed SO MUCH for those people, today is your day, relax and have fun k? =D

To all of you mothers, especially single mums out there, Happy Mother's Day! =D Stay strong, I know there are many hardships about motherhood (because of us. Eheh), and that it's so not easy sometimes, BUT

Make sure you know that we love you, deep down! And that you guys rock, and HAVE made a difference. Hehehehe.


Here's a BEAUTIFUL carnation for all of you! It's your flower, your well-deserved gift, and it's as beautiful as you! =D

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUM! I know all I got you was three carnations, I know it's not alot... But hope you like it! =D Hope you are happy today, and that you enjoyed the ngiu chap! =) Thanks for being my mum! Love you!!! :D

BED!

Finally going to bed after posting about 7 posts. Hahaha. Because I haven't gone on for so long, I just want to blog about stuff so I won't forget. Because I don't want to forget the feeling I had when things happen. Sad or overwhelming or whatever, I don't ever want to forget because all these are what make me, me! So that's why I blog about boring things I go through in life. Haha. Tomorrow is Sunday. Mother's Day! =D =D I'm getting up early to study.

Define early.

I am so happy Kris Allen was safe this week! =D =D I seriously thought he would be out because his voice can't really compete with the others, they're just so talented. And it's the truth! Haha. But WHEEEEEE. He's in!!! Go Kris! Krys will go too!

As in now.

TEE HEE. Ooooh, colours of blog to be changed soon! =D

Super Touhou

Touhou as in Japanese for me! To be changed as soon as I find a nicer word. Inspired by Hana Kimi manga, Nakatsu-kun. HAHA.

Yes, since my new year's 2009 resolution, I am slowly changing, bettering myself. First by getting rid all bad habits, SLOWLY, not easy but am making some progress. SHEESH. Get mad at myself when I think of those times I still get on with stupid habits that I really don't like. Really mad. !!!!!!!!!!! T-T lah seriously.

But yes, one of them is being a happier and less-stressed person. And it works! I am totally a happier touhou! Haha. The first time I got sad and started thinking too much like I always did before 2009, was for the choir thing when I found out about them talking. Bleh. I was shocked because I was like, whoa, this is the first time this year. Haha. So not bad. I really want to keep this up. So. Yay!

Go super touhou. Or should I say su-pa misu touhou! =D =D

Random!

Exams are coming and *breathe* THE TWO WEEK POINT HAS ARRIVED! Two weeks before the exam, that's when I usually start studying hard (or rather just START studying. [to be changed soon! as in this trait of mine]). I really wanted to start before this. But I'm always doing something other than studying. Sigh. Kind of worried. Bleh.

Go me! With two projects to finish up. GO GO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *faints*

Mother's Day

I seriously wish I could drive!

I LOVE YOU MUM! Hehe

iPod

Haha. A totally late post about the story of the iPod that I got for my birthday. Hahaha. So Kelly brought me to Karamunsing to get some protection for my iPod, haven't decided at that time whether we were getting just the scratch proof sticker or the cover. So we took a long time looking at different covers, and in the end we just chose to get the sticker. We wanted to take more time to decide on the colour. As you know there are many factors on choosing the cover you want to get for your iPod *eyebrows* hahaha. So as they were putting the sticker on, we continued to look at other covers. And I wandered over to the iPod displays. Woah!!! A pink iPod, with the classic look (not the narrow one)!!!! (because I like the classic look rather than the narrow one). And it was pink!

Cool! Hey Kel, where did you get my iPod from? Here right? Can we exchange it to get the pink one? Why didn't you get the pink one for me? Where did you get my iPod from? Huh, huh, huh??

She was like, oh yours is free. And I thought she was just joking and didn't want to let me know the price. I was like quick, tell me! She was like erm... it's free. I still didn't believe her. She said seriously! We got it from the mail on the morning of your birthday.

It was hard to believe but it's TRUE. She said they still don't know who sent it, and that mum thinks it's some free gift from Air Asia or something.

So.. can't exchange it for the coloured one. SO NICE! But I totally have to wait until I get the time to SET MY COMPUTER UP, AGAIN (underline!!!!) to be able to start getting songs into my iPod.

So yup, the story of the origins of my iPod. Where is it from? Who sent it? Are Kel and mum REALLY telling to truth?

We'll never know. Hahahaha. Someday, maybe.

KELLY

HAR HAR!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!!!!!! As in belated, but only because I have not blogged for a long time, and I assume you got my message (assuming makes an ~~?? HEHE), which I had to get up from my lying position on my oh-so-comfortable bed at around 1AM+ on 7/5/09, feeling so, so tired after helping mum with your birthday present and worrying about how I'm going to get up for school tomorrow and whether I'm going to pass out at P.E. later, just to send you that message, with lots of love (LOL!)

Hehe! But YAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! You're TWENTY-ONE! =D =D I hope you enjoyed the party Kat threw for you. She was so annoying asking us for our opinion for EVERY SINGLE THING she decided on and my credit! Seriously. The questions she asked!!! OH (faints)! Hehe. So hope you did enjoy the small party. =D (that's why I asked you to get her ice cream. Talk about worried and stressed)

God has watched over you for TWENTY ONE years! Imagine that! And be thankful that you are where you are now, still safe and healthy, still able and quite well-off. Hehe.

Thanks for everything! And no, no RM3000 music frequency thingy, not even an i-Home thingy you mentioned before. Belated present soon to come~ (hopefully soon...)! =D Thanks for EVERYTHING!!!

Hehe. And on another note. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! 5/4/09! You are FIFTY TWO! Kind of weird, helping you sort of celebrate alone, without Kat and Kel (and Kev?) giving pressure to plan a present of stuff like that. But HAPPY BIRTHDAY! At least you got to blow out a candle! Hope you enjoyed that. And though it's not very well made and it's mostly me and my thoughts rambling, I hope you like your card (and stickers, courtesy of Kat, HAHAHA)! =D Happy birthday DAD! Thanks for everything, for working so hard for us, for going to Aus with me, for so many things and for just being my dad (and deciding to have a fourth and last child, HEHEHE)!

So yea, Happy birthday Kel and Dad! Hope you guys enjoyed your birthday celebrations and appreciate life, because you have celebrated yet another year of living. So yea, happy birthday (again.. -.-).

I LOVE YOU BOTH! =D THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, though thanks is definitely not enough. =)

Volleyball?

Haha. I chose to go to Australia for that holiday. And I missed the interschool because of that. And then I missed the daerah because of that. It's all ok. I was prepared for all that. I knew what I was giving up when I chose to go to Australia. It was going all ok when suddenly teacher looked at me when we had a small meeting for beach volleyball (which also did not happen), and said that I might have a chance to be in the daerah team. He said might, because a girl from the other school might not make it. I did not dare to let myself hope. I supressed it, but it was there, I knew it was even when I said it wasn't. And of course it was a no-go. Hah. I don't think it would have made me, erm, sad if he didn't mention it. I think he's very.... gah to mention it without confirmation first. Bleh. Oh well. So yes, I have looked back over my shoulder, and felt sad. But I just have to remind myself that this is what I chose. I would do it again if I had a chance. Though I didn't really enjoy all that dim sum. It just wasn't that good. The food, the noise, the crowd, the sardines-in-a-tin feel, bleh.

So yes, but seriously. It's not like I can't take the bringing up of volleyball now. It's not like that. The past is the past (yea!) so I'll just deal with this stupid thingy and move on. I still support Leepei and everyone else to the fullest! =D And totally a big great CONGRATS from me to all of you on the daerah (and interschool) win! And yes! GOOD LUCK and WOW EVERYONE in Kudat! =D

Haha.

OVER!

Haha! It's finally over! I've been at school for the whole day until 5pm and I am bushed! And it's a Saturday! The annual singing choir competition was today, which is actually compulsory. It's kind of a big thing in my school, it's only an inter-class competition though. Almost all classes prepare for at least two months or so, oh and the songs are not contemporary songs, it's those old 'folk-songs' they call it. And some classes can do so, so well, it's so beautiful and perfect. Breathtaking sometimes. Haha. So check out the finals where tickets are sold for you all to come watch, it is definitely worth it. There are solos too, but I prefer the choirs. Hehe. So yea, I'm the pianist for my class, S1Zhong and my best friends' class, S1Xiao. The original pianist for S1Xiao didn't have time to work on the piece so, because he found out that I played that song before for my class J2Ai '07, he just asked if I could do it for them. So I was just like, no problem, and it was done. But little did I know some of my classmates would be so... so ugh and make a big deal of it. Of course they didn't announce it, but some of my friends told me what they said. It made me sad, that they would actually think like that. And I thought they were genuinely nice people and I liked some of them as friends. But it turned out they were not what they seemed. Sometimes it hurts. But that is another story.

It totally didn't help that I got stuck in the middle of the song. Sheesh. The feeling of regret is not my friend! I DISLIKE regretting VERY MUCH (hate is stong) because THERE IS JUST NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT AT ALL, except move on. But seriously. I still can't help but ask myself what was wrong with me. I know I can play the piece without problems, and gah. Oh well. It really is sucky because I got stuck for my class, and of course there will be talk. Gosh. I can handle (sort of) people talking, it's normal for everyone to talk about everyone else. But they talk about me favouring the other class. I don't like (hate is strong, haha) them talking like that. It's not true! I've played the song before, and my class' song is chordal, and anyone who plays piano would know that chordal pieces are harder than one with broken chords. Sheesh. They say I play the other class' song much nicer and yadda yadda yadda, I practice more for them, bla bla bla, I favour them and stuff. Seriously, sad lah. You know why? Because IT'S NOT TRUE!

Let them talk.

So it was with much regret, sadness, annoyance, and sadness that it finally came to an end and I went home. Of course we didn't get into the finals, it just is that way. And I'm sort of relieved. I don't want to play for them. Hahahahahaha..................sigh.