i'm back!! been back for a long time! -.-

hiiii!! i'm sorry! i've been sooooo busy since ive been back. i've devoted all my time to studying now. i remember my sister preparing for pmr more than 100 days before pmr and now i'm what? weeks away from it and i've just started!!! stress! and it doesnt help that some subjects are still rushing to finish up UEC syllabus for the mock coming up. =(

so. yup. i flew on thursday. the 14th! to arrive at about 7pm but my flight was delayed. but oh well. we had to wait until EVERYONE arrived to kl b4 we could drive up to perak. and that was about 12am? 1? tiring! bored out of our minds! and LCCT is sooooo small! nothing to shop, nothing to eat. the drive up took 4hrs i guess. we arrived at YUK CHOY sec. school (celebrating its 100th yr -.-) and stayed overnight there. that was where the badminton was held. volleyb was further up in POI LAM sec. school. we arrived there about 4am or 5. the rooms they gave us were so small! there were about 14 of us. 2 rooms. wow. 2 bunk beds in each. but the first room only had 1 broken bunk bed (top couldnt be used), and one normal bed. the mattress was sandy and our luggages almost took up all the floor space. so. it was a sleepless night. omgosh! and after what it felt like minutes of sleep, the automatic announcement/ morning call came on. "good morning students. rise and shine (in chi of course)" then they played songs. those annoying songs. barbie girl was one of them. omgosh!!!!!!!! so annoying!!!! and i remember thinking that the 1st song was not bad..the firefly one. hahaha. so we got up slowly and went to the kantin to eat. cheap food!!!!!!! its like rm2.40+ for noodles!! wow! so after walking round the school and spending half the day walking around/ exploring/ watching the surroundings and celebrations for the 100th year (not forgetting the art exhibition), FINALLY our bus came! so we went off to POI LAM. (leaving janice behind! muahahahahhaha)

we arrived in the afternoon... and WHEEE!! the dorms were quite big (compared to yuk choy =P) and with AIR-CON!!!! 3 bunk beds in one room, each room staying 5 ppl. =) we had "light" training that day. so tiring!! exhaustion from travelling and lack of sleep! and it was NOT light! -.- their concept is sooo off! haha. so it was me, jessie, leepei, jia xin (the juniors!) and yiling in one room! =) =) despite our tiredness, we chatted late into the night! =) we puleed the clean mattresses down to the floor and we slept in one row. and we hung our clothes line in front of the door. no air-con that night... =(

2nd day there. we woke up and went out for bfast and we went... to IPOH PARADE. the only shopping mall there. haha. nth much there. we got back then it was training again. didnt get the 'feeling' that session. we played lousily. other teams started arriving. ht efirst team i saw was KL CHUNG HWA. wooowww! i remember what i thought: so intimidating!!! they were built and tall, wearing identical shirts and pants and sponge knee guards. their hair all above shoulders length (probably sch rule) and all tidy. so cool! and intimidating! =( haha. but oh well. we didnt play long after they arrived. save face =P. oh well. slept early that day. i think we had air-con

we all woke up in the middle of the night. it was TOO COLD! =X

3rd day. opening ceremony -.- and start of matches! =) so we were up against... i dont remember actually. i know yuk choy was one of our opponents. 3 in one grp. 4 grps i think. two winners from each qualifies into the top 8. surprisingly, we won the 2 mathces. the 2nd match was harder. but not bad. honestly, i'm really surprised. bcz i really really thought that we were gonna lose out once we got there. but of course i didnt hold that attitude when we were there, but i really thought we wouldnt have any chance there. so.. yay? but you cant really blame me. the standard we have usually during training.. no surprise if we lost out straight away. but oh well. thats all behind me. yay we won! haha.

in the top 8, we play one match. if we win, we qualify for the quarter finals. not that easy to win but we won. we almost lost!!! sheesh! so stressful! so yay! quarter finals, the points were 5matches, 3 wins. tiring. we play one match to determine whether we will be fighting for 3rd or 1st. sigh... thats when we lost our first match. =( but i dont really blame us. it was the champion team. but we didnt lose with dignity. not really. =( but oh well. so we were up against Klang Sec. Sch to fight for 3rd. wow. to be honest, i thought we were gonna eat that team. but we lost. 3-0!!!! it was like we were back to our interschool standard. taking the opponents mistake points only. our dignity?? stomped by them. -.- oh well. before i make my conclusion, i'm gonna say smth that is......... not my fav thing to say.. but i'm a decent person. (hah. but i'm serious) so oh well. its not smth that bothers me alot. but i sat on the bench. yes. i'm the reserve. (...) but then i know its best for the team. =) so oh well. so watching from the sidelines. it was ok for me. =) i knew i wouldnt be in the court so i supported them from the bench. =)

so my conclusion: i think.. that i have to focus on the positif side. just like the interclass volleyb too. dont think that we lost the last two matches, think that we won others. =) and it exceeded so much more of my expectations. so thats quite good =). but the last match was really horrible. it was an easy match. the smashes were just going to 3 points. first line 3rd position, back line 3rd and 1st position. so easy to defend. but i guess we were just too tired. but oh well.

heres another thing that is... also not my fav thing to say. only angela knows everything. the first match we lost, against kl chung hwa, in the middle of the match, ah ming suddenly fell down. she re-sprained her ankle. O.O i could see her face was in pain. i stood up from the bench and i remember my first thoughts: oh no! is she alright? is her leg ok? then suddenly it hit me. oh no! teacher is gonna put me in now. i looked at teacher and he slowly turned from ah ming and looked at me. go in, he said. my feeling: SCARED! after that match we lost, i... was very sad (=P) and i called my mum cz i couldnt get to angela. sheesh. so embarrassing la. but the point is i just wanna say that its bcz... since training, since before the competition, i already had the preparation that i wont be going into the court to play. i knew that. i understood that clearly. thats why i said i'll support them the best i can from the sidelines. during the 5 mins warm up before a match, i give them the balls to let them serve and smash. i dont use them at all. i know its not smart of me to assume that i wont be going in. but. its true! this was the malaysia's independent schools ball games! what was the chance teacher will put me in? so frankly... i 'was very sad' bcz there was too much stress on me suddenly. and i had no mental preperatioin at all! i worked so hard to make the feeling of scared not exist when i play. but after not playing for so long, i was so scared. i wasnt familiar with the formation. i just... was not ready AT ALL.

but thats not anyone else's fault... except mine.

but thanks to my mum and angela for listening to me. and yiling!!! for understanding! i really really really appreciate it! =) thanks for not judging! i love you guys! =) (pauline! i would have called you if you were not 013. -.-) haha. so its not any of my teammates fault! just want you all to understand! and then i just read paulines comment on my last post, "dont push urself too hard". thanks! =) i get you! thanks alot! =)

well.. see next post for after competition fun!!! =) =) =)