I don't get it! Why am I so similar to her??? The things we do, the way we act, the way we laugh. OMYGOSH. I don't like it at all. I know this is kinda ridiculous, but it kinda gets me down lo. :( It's just that because we're so similar, I'm scared (?) that people will want to be friends with me just because I'm like a stand-in for her while she's gone. And when she's back, I'll have to go back and stand in the side lines. I don't want to be a shadow of her!!!! I don't want to be a reminder of her! Maybe I should get a tattoo or a facial piercing just to differentiate myself from her. UGH. :(
Anyway. Denise said that Crys asked her to go to Singapore too. Or something. Yay (sarcastic). Totally not what I had in mind too (sarcastic). Oh well. My old self (which, I must say, is still there deep deep deep down inside of me) would have been so upset about it.. that I would want her to choose me to go with. Haha. Why not we go together? No thanks. That would majorly suck. After that one time having ban mian at Damai with them both, haha, puke in mouth, no thanks!!! Don't want to be a total third wheel. Anyway. The new me is now just.. sigh face. OH WELL. Let it go, cuz I won't make her choose. I don't want to have the same feelings I had with that KL thing. That was sooo saddd. And I know that I have to accept what is. I have to accept being alone. Like, they might not always choose me. I'm talking about life in general. And I'll just have to get used to that. Haha. I'm fine with it actually. Meh. Gah my writing is so bad, I don't know what I'm saying. Too sleepy. I was soooooo sleepy in physics just now. Hmm.. I shall start controlling what I eat. LESS SNACKING! Haha. St Patrick's Day on Saturday!! Apparently it's so HUGE, but I can't feel the grandeur of it yet. Apparently Ellen DeGeneres is here in Ireland for Sat.. and that lots of American Celebs fly up here for the parade. :O Coolio. Bought strawberry yoghurt with nuts and muesli and such for 1.90Euro I think. It was nice and not artificial. :D And Elaine bought a Mars Bars muffin. That was good. La la la.
OH YEAAAA. Totally funny today in the library chatting with Denise. Cuz I was in the library (where we're not allowed to play with our phones or they get taken away) and I said that I had to go, it was study time. And I asked her to leave a message that would make me laugh. And she said that no one asks other ppl to do something like that. And that I can't push her to do it. I replied 'hahahahah PUSH' and I put the whatsapp emoticon of two open palms that kinda show a 'ten' but could also be like an act of pushing? Haha and she was like 'That's butterfly. Did you not have a childhood?'. OMGOSHHHHHH that made me laugh SO HARD cuz it did actually look like a butterfly. I was rocking my body around, laughing silently. And I was like 'butterfly, butt your head!!!!!! literally made me rotfl but on table. So it's rottl!!! hahahaha'. It was so funny. Elaine just stared at me. I kept laughing! SCLSCP rottl yo! Add it in. And Denise said 'that made me lalbbnsmcinfe' and I laughed again!!!!! -laugh a lil bit but not so much cuz it's not funny enough- SCLSCP FOR THE WIN! Sly funny! Haha. Appreciate you!!!! Bye bye. :D
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
7AM.
It's only for a few months!!!!!!!
ps: Today was White Valentine's. Who knew? -.- Gosh among all these stress and work load and such bla bla, who CARES? Haha. But. We should actually let these small details/events make our lives more interesting/easier to go through. Etc etc something to look forward to, something different. I've never paid attention for such a long period of time in my whole life, and I've never worked so hard. Etc etc. I'm sleepy. Goodnight. Haha. What a long ps.
Oh ya. Got a coat (GREEN!) and a jumper (RED) from Ray and Kat!!!!!!!!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!! I love them lo seriously!!!!!!! And the jackets too. Haha. I'm wearing it tmr! erm. K gnite! :D
14/3/12 23:49
ps: Today was White Valentine's. Who knew? -.- Gosh among all these stress and work load and such bla bla, who CARES? Haha. But. We should actually let these small details/events make our lives more interesting/easier to go through. Etc etc something to look forward to, something different. I've never paid attention for such a long period of time in my whole life, and I've never worked so hard. Etc etc. I'm sleepy. Goodnight. Haha. What a long ps.
Oh ya. Got a coat (GREEN!) and a jumper (RED) from Ray and Kat!!!!!!!!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!! I love them lo seriously!!!!!!! And the jackets too. Haha. I'm wearing it tmr! erm. K gnite! :D
14/3/12 23:49
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
My Life.
Haha so totally forgot to put time and date after my post yesterday. -.-
Anyway. This is in the sidebar of my blog. Wistful when I look at it. I so totally did not fulfill all of it. And it reminds me of the exuberant, thrilling feeling I always got when I thought about the end of UEC. But sadly, UEC results were not the best so all the fun-times aren't super justified. But anywho. We should always try to complete our lists, or they become obsolete and will become something that we won't ever fulfill. Kinda.
Haha. I did not Eat vanilla ice cream with chocolate rice and watch DVD with Denise! I remember me saying that I'll buy the choc rice. Haha. SIGH. Did not go to Waterland at Bukit Padang. Never been!!! Observation tower too. Meh. Did not learn to rap the songs. Denise didn't bring me to her shop. Meh. Haha omygosh! Still haven't done Pei's album! I've got all the paper and photos ready.. haven't stuck them all in yet. Opppps. Hair cut definitely done since I have super short hair now. Haha. Which I LOVE btw, cuz at least it's my natural hair.. though honestly it's so messy and it's grown out weirdly.. gah. Can't wait for it to grow to a better length. I bet ppl think I'm a tom boy. I don't think I went out with Leong or Christabelle.. :O Didn't go Jesselton Point!!!! Did not read that many books as well. Haha. Bla bla bla. Sad. I'll take the list off soon and put a new one for After Leaving Cert. Hahaha. BUT. It must be worth it. And how do I make it worth it? By putting TEARS AND SWEAT (exact words used by Kat in her postcard) into my Leaving Cert (which is what the exam here is called, Irish Leaving Certificate). GO GO GO!!! So I'll start study at 8pm. :D
Tonight had good food!!! Pork slices roasted, roasted potato, mashed potato, mashed turnip. With apple sauce and a brown gravy. YUMMY! Good to have some nice meat that's freshly cooked! Whee!! Always be grateful for the food we have on the table. And then there was dessert!!! Cream cake! Just sponge cake with a wad of cream in the middle, a thin thin layer of jam, and icing sugar sprinkled on top. YUMMY!!!!! :D I soooo wanted to have a second slice but decided not to. :D YAY TO CONTROL!
Hmm. Anyway. I want to make a difference!!! Small small differences. I don't know whether I've said this before but it's like when you see someone sitting alone in class.. if you make the effort to go and talk to them and become their friend, if that person was previously a loner, then you've made a difference in that person's life!!!! It's a simple and as small as that. Just going up to talk to someone.. Haha maybe that's why I'm so 'head over heels' for friends, as Denise says. Cuz I want to make them feel happy!!! And all it takes is a little bit of heart and effort and sincerity. Haha. MY MAIN POINT IS, I want to live a life making differences in other people's lives. If I'm a dentist, I would be soooooooo content charging super high fees from people who can afford it, while giving free treatment to kampung kids once a week or month or something. Haha. Some of you will be like 'UNREALISTIC'. Maybe. But we'll see. Have to work hard to actually get a PLACE to study this stupid ridiculously hard-to-get-in course. SUCK. But yea. And it's like if you're a teacher, you have the potential to make the kid's high school life super amazing! Like everyone will remember 'remember that time when we were in school and this teacher always let us [insert epic action]?' kinda thing. Like how St James kids always remember how epic 张文君老师 was... etc etc. Eeeeee!
ANYWAY. Blackie, I know you're reading. YOU DID NOT KNOW THE IDENTITY OF DREW TILL I TOLD YOU! Don't be all 'oh stop it you' flattering yourself when pffttt so not!
I talk a lot. I LOVE IT!!!!! Eeee almost 8pm! Hahaha.
OOooooOOoooo. 13/3/12 19:56pm. HAPPY DAY! :D
Anyway. This is in the sidebar of my blog. Wistful when I look at it. I so totally did not fulfill all of it. And it reminds me of the exuberant, thrilling feeling I always got when I thought about the end of UEC. But sadly, UEC results were not the best so all the fun-times aren't super justified. But anywho. We should always try to complete our lists, or they become obsolete and will become something that we won't ever fulfill. Kinda.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! (after uec)
Haha. I did not Eat vanilla ice cream with chocolate rice and watch DVD with Denise! I remember me saying that I'll buy the choc rice. Haha. SIGH. Did not go to Waterland at Bukit Padang. Never been!!! Observation tower too. Meh. Did not learn to rap the songs. Denise didn't bring me to her shop. Meh. Haha omygosh! Still haven't done Pei's album! I've got all the paper and photos ready.. haven't stuck them all in yet. Opppps. Hair cut definitely done since I have super short hair now. Haha. Which I LOVE btw, cuz at least it's my natural hair.. though honestly it's so messy and it's grown out weirdly.. gah. Can't wait for it to grow to a better length. I bet ppl think I'm a tom boy. I don't think I went out with Leong or Christabelle.. :O Didn't go Jesselton Point!!!! Did not read that many books as well. Haha. Bla bla bla. Sad. I'll take the list off soon and put a new one for After Leaving Cert. Hahaha. BUT. It must be worth it. And how do I make it worth it? By putting TEARS AND SWEAT (exact words used by Kat in her postcard) into my Leaving Cert (which is what the exam here is called, Irish Leaving Certificate). GO GO GO!!! So I'll start study at 8pm. :D
Tonight had good food!!! Pork slices roasted, roasted potato, mashed potato, mashed turnip. With apple sauce and a brown gravy. YUMMY! Good to have some nice meat that's freshly cooked! Whee!! Always be grateful for the food we have on the table. And then there was dessert!!! Cream cake! Just sponge cake with a wad of cream in the middle, a thin thin layer of jam, and icing sugar sprinkled on top. YUMMY!!!!! :D I soooo wanted to have a second slice but decided not to. :D YAY TO CONTROL!
Hmm. Anyway. I want to make a difference!!! Small small differences. I don't know whether I've said this before but it's like when you see someone sitting alone in class.. if you make the effort to go and talk to them and become their friend, if that person was previously a loner, then you've made a difference in that person's life!!!! It's a simple and as small as that. Just going up to talk to someone.. Haha maybe that's why I'm so 'head over heels' for friends, as Denise says. Cuz I want to make them feel happy!!! And all it takes is a little bit of heart and effort and sincerity. Haha. MY MAIN POINT IS, I want to live a life making differences in other people's lives. If I'm a dentist, I would be soooooooo content charging super high fees from people who can afford it, while giving free treatment to kampung kids once a week or month or something. Haha. Some of you will be like 'UNREALISTIC'. Maybe. But we'll see. Have to work hard to actually get a PLACE to study this stupid ridiculously hard-to-get-in course. SUCK. But yea. And it's like if you're a teacher, you have the potential to make the kid's high school life super amazing! Like everyone will remember 'remember that time when we were in school and this teacher always let us [insert epic action]?' kinda thing. Like how St James kids always remember how epic 张文君老师 was... etc etc. Eeeeee!
ANYWAY. Blackie, I know you're reading. YOU DID NOT KNOW THE IDENTITY OF DREW TILL I TOLD YOU! Don't be all 'oh stop it you' flattering yourself when pffttt so not!
I talk a lot. I LOVE IT!!!!! Eeee almost 8pm! Hahaha.
OOooooOOoooo. 13/3/12 19:56pm. HAPPY DAY! :D
Monday, March 12, 2012
Date and Time!
Haha. Blogger never gets my time right! I should get into the habit of putting down the date and time after each post!!! Eeeee!
Well.. I'm trying to get into the habit of not turning on my laptop until the weekend. This is the first time I've turned it on today! Not bad. :D
Got a postcard from Kat from Aus!! Hahaha totally made my day! Love it lots!
Teemoh is today!!! A good happy day! :D You're worthy!!!!!!! The suckiest loveguru but that's why you're awesome. Haha. SCLSCP for random needs to be created! Happy teemoh yo!
Etc etc. Lots to study. Nothing new. Host dad got back from England today. Means good dinner tmr!!!
Oh, I shall stop binging. The continuous tense for binge? Haha. I shall stop binge eating!!! I eat sooooo much it's kind scary. Even if I'm super super full. Like I had rice and sweet and sour chicken for dinner. And there was LOADS of rice. I eat probably a quarter of that amount at home in KK!!!!!!!!! So that's really A LOT. Then I eat dessert. Tonight it was two fairy cakes (mini cupcakes) and like 6 biscuits or so with custard cream in it. Then an apple. Seriously it's kinda disgusting. So. No more. In moderation!!!!!!!!
Etc etc. Sleepy! Today was cold. No sun. Hope tmr is better! :D GOODNIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Well.. I'm trying to get into the habit of not turning on my laptop until the weekend. This is the first time I've turned it on today! Not bad. :D
Got a postcard from Kat from Aus!! Hahaha totally made my day! Love it lots!
Teemoh is today!!! A good happy day! :D You're worthy!!!!!!! The suckiest loveguru but that's why you're awesome. Haha. SCLSCP for random needs to be created! Happy teemoh yo!
Etc etc. Lots to study. Nothing new. Host dad got back from England today. Means good dinner tmr!!!
Oh, I shall stop binging. The continuous tense for binge? Haha. I shall stop binge eating!!! I eat sooooo much it's kind scary. Even if I'm super super full. Like I had rice and sweet and sour chicken for dinner. And there was LOADS of rice. I eat probably a quarter of that amount at home in KK!!!!!!!!! So that's really A LOT. Then I eat dessert. Tonight it was two fairy cakes (mini cupcakes) and like 6 biscuits or so with custard cream in it. Then an apple. Seriously it's kinda disgusting. So. No more. In moderation!!!!!!!!
Etc etc. Sleepy! Today was cold. No sun. Hope tmr is better! :D GOODNIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Menghargainya!
After some googling and wikipediaing, I found out that Carl Sagan, which is the narrator of the comic strip above (certainly not the creator of the strip! I got it from 9gag btw!), is actually a skeptic. So in that context, he actually is just saying that there's no such thing in the after-life, that there's no heaven and such. But that's beside the point. To me, the message that I got out of this is that we should all be grateful for every single day! SERIOUSLY! Though life is tough.. reality is harsh.. there are people living on the streets and such.. poverty and horrendous living conditions out there.. but we all have to look to the joys that life present, though they may be tiny. Like what Justin's church friend, Rachel said to me, 'You have to make room to enjoy what you're doing'. Which is true. We have to make room to enjoy life, though we might not like it much. If not we'll be miserable!!! Focus on the positive! "The world is so exquisite with so much love and moral depth" and "to be grateful every day for the brief but magnificent opportunity that life provides". :D :D
TEEMOH.
Today is a special day, because it's the 12th! It's my FAVOURITE number. But more importantly, 'tis the day where the vegetables celebrate their awesomeness!!!!!!!!! Haha. Just want to say I'm so gratefullll for having a friend like a cucumber that's in my life, and the best part is that it's in the present! Honestly. You've kinda shaped my sense of humour, making it more epic and weird in a confusing way. Haha. SERIOUSLYYYYY. I'm me because you're you. (Whuuut).
ANYWAY. Here's a memory I shall dig up from the past just for this special celebration! Haha remember how we used to ride together to Mr Lim's tuition after school? (Haha.. did you ever follow my car? Or was it always me in your car? And I don't say me following your car, cuz it was kinda given that I'll be in your car.. At least that's what it felt like to me ;p) And Feiven and Dudu would follow us sometimes? And we would kinda be in our own little world, singing along to the radio.. and then we would put the volume down to zero. And all of us would sit in silence.. and we'll be like.. 'AWKWARD SILENCE' in hushed whispers.
OMGOSHHHH. SOSILLYSOFUNNY!!!!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Hahaha. I remember always being so so happy at times like those!!! Us against the world yo!!! Like all I can remember about me is me smiling so broadly and being so hyper! Cuz I was always just me, not afraid of embarrassment or such, cuz I knew I had you! Hahaha.
Well. Saw this post on 9gag. It's to you yo!! Cheers! Long live president blackie dummy princess! FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D MUAK MUAKS!
ANYWAY. Here's a memory I shall dig up from the past just for this special celebration! Haha remember how we used to ride together to Mr Lim's tuition after school? (Haha.. did you ever follow my car? Or was it always me in your car? And I don't say me following your car, cuz it was kinda given that I'll be in your car.. At least that's what it felt like to me ;p) And Feiven and Dudu would follow us sometimes? And we would kinda be in our own little world, singing along to the radio.. and then we would put the volume down to zero. And all of us would sit in silence.. and we'll be like.. 'AWKWARD SILENCE' in hushed whispers.
OMGOSHHHH. SOSILLYSOFUNNY!!!!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Hahaha. I remember always being so so happy at times like those!!! Us against the world yo!!! Like all I can remember about me is me smiling so broadly and being so hyper! Cuz I was always just me, not afraid of embarrassment or such, cuz I knew I had you! Hahaha.
Well. Saw this post on 9gag. It's to you yo!! Cheers! Long live president blackie dummy princess! FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D MUAK MUAKS!
(Everyone's so caught up about Voldemort not having a nose, that nobody notices that he has no eyebrows. HAHAHA Made me laugh when I was down!)
Thank you, Denise! You're definitely the worthy one! ;)
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