Indescribable!

The feeling I feel now is indescribable! Oh wait, maybe it's not that hard to describe. I feel... Elated! It's the feeling of incredible happiness! One that comes with the joy of feeling blessed, knowing there're people around you who appreciate you, and most of all, it comes with the knowledge that you have what it takes to make the peopl you love feel happy and appreciated. This is the kind of feeling that makes me think of 'afterglows'. Means it's just the immediate response after a great thing happening. For example, Lee Chong Wei winning. And you get so hyper and you think the world is good. Then your feet touch the ground again. But it's pretty unbelievable cuz I've been feeling really really blessed for a long time. Maybe I'm learning how to be positive and to keep myself happy, to appreciate more, I don't know. But let's get to the point.


K.T.P.S. That's the thing that's giving me this incredible joyous feeling right now. It's us, this friendship between Steph, Pei, Tur and I. It's just been growing stronger as we push past the obstacles and make effort to be close friends for each other. Took a while (like 8 months) but I think we're really back to where it used to be, where it felt so good. And Pei, Tur and I just gave Steph her bday present today. It was a diary and a book with yellow, recycled paper (that looked really rustic) and it had a green cover. And in that green book, we each wrote how we met each other. Some of our stories go back to primary school, and the stories of coincidence and chance are just amazing! How we all came together, it's not chance man! It's God's work!! And after that section, we each wrote stuff about Steph herself. What we thought of her and what we loved about her etc. We've been trying to get it done since her birthday, and we finally did! We gave it to her today. And just now she sent all of us a text saying


'Oh my goshhhh!!! I dont know i'm that easy crying girl lo!! Argh!! I just read finish the one u guys intro. Haven finish yet and i cried like dono what ady. Argh... I didnt want to read finish first cause i with my sis in room, and i dont want they know. Haha!! Thanks thanks thanks thanks girls... Love u all forever and ever and ever.. Cry cry cry... Tears are my best friend in my house for this month i think.. Argh! I'll continue the book soon. When i'm ready! I thought i have immune ady. But still... Hahahahahaha.. Study now. Jia you!:)'


I seriously feel so blessed oh. I felt so so so happy after I read that message. I felt the feeling that you'll feel when (refer to above), just all of them at one go! I think I might be alone in the intensity of my grateful and happy and 'this is so surreal' feelings. But I think it's because I've had a..tough time this year in regards to all these friendship stuff, especially with them. But these past few days, it's been amazing! 


Just the other day, we had a career talk. And both of the Sci classes had to attend. Us four walked to the Lecture Hall together with Feiven and Priscilla. And when we were getting seats, somehow, Feiven and Priscilla didn't sit with us even though we pulled chairs for them. *everything happens for a reason*! Seriously!!! So it was us four, and it was amazing!!! We all chatted and laughed and whispered and joked around. It was really fun! Non of us slept even though we were all complaining about how sleepy we were. There was this guy who talked about Agriculture, but he mainly just spoke about palm oil trees, and he even gave each of us palm oil seeds. We went on to play with the seeds and Steph even named each of them. There was Guluk, Ah Bian and the other two I can't remember. 


It seriously felt like old times. I don't know. I just feel that every piece of the puzzle has fallen into place and things are finally back to how they used to be. 


It feels like the feeling where you believe that friendships actually last.

BROOKS BLOOKS BOOKS.

I've found this really nice blog that reviews books. And it's the main cause of my TBR list increasing exponentially. -.- I can't wait to start!!!!! 

http://booksandmovies.colvilleblogger.com/

4 Weeks.

From today onwards, imma study intensively. I finally feel the pressure and the time shortage. I kinda know I'm actually short of time. 4 weeks to cover all subjects? Well, I just keep praying that I'll be able to put in my best. No regrets!!! I wanna be able to have fun after UEC, with no nagging worries and guilt on my mind that I could've done better. Just..pray for me so I'll have the strength to do this, mentally and physically. I'm gonna have even less contact with my friends than before. Sigh. Gotta be strong! Planned a weekly time table yesterday. Bio and chem today! No regrets!!!!!!!!!

Clara

To sing like no one is listening, to dance like no one is watching, to eat like it won't go straight to my thighs, and to love like I was designed to.

Soh truez.

‎"你以为只有受伤的人才痛吗? 那伤人的那一个呢? 他连喊痛的资格都没有，甚至连关心的资格也没了.." 


*SLAP* STOP BEING SO POOHLISH! QUIT BEING MISO!

You'll Never Walk Alone

I was napping with the tv radio on, it was tuned to the Gold channel, playing super old songs that were really nice. And when I woke up after oversleeping, THIS song started. And I had just prayed this morning to ask for strength and God's grace and everything.. and I don't know. Everything happens for a reason. Even oversleeping. Hmmm...

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Denise gave me my super belated birthday album today. I seriously am sooo surprised that she gave it to me. I found out about it on Steph's birthday cuz I saw Fiona writing the card and I saw my name. But I thought Steph was doing it. And it turned out to be Denise, which is AWESOME. Seriously la. It just makes it even more of a surprise! I seriously have no idea why she would do the album for me, since my birthday was in February. Like I don't understand why she would have the idea to do it for me. You know? 


UGH. I just read it just now and I came down to facebook it. I was lying on my bed, sleeping sideways, reading the album and I kept crying ohhhh. So touched, the words everyone wrote were just normal words. But they all felt true and I just was so overwhelmed oh. -____- 


Sure, the album is plain and just normal. Like it's not those nicely decorated, creatively laid-out albums some people get for their birthdays, but I LOVE IT, JUST THE WAY IT IS. Seriously. Love it so much, I just wanna read it and read it again. I wish I could tell the WHOLE WORLD that they did that for me. Cuz though it may seem small, it's the best gift I've received man! Words and memories and photos are the best things you can ever give me, and I got them all in one small album. 


So here, I would really like to express my gratitude to Denise. Though apparently we were close in S1, I have no memory of you, and we kinda drifted. And we became close again this year. And it's just such a crazy friendship. So many heated feelings bla bla. I never get jealous over anyone but you. WHY? It's just different. With you, I'm like the youngest child, I'm spoilt and I'm the brat and you're the responsible one. With you, I whine and whinge and throw tantrums and lash out with my mood swings. And we kinda drifted in the holidays.. bla bla. Things aren't the same, but I dunno. It's still awesome. I know I can still count on you and slap you. I really, really do love this album. When I think about it it just makes me wanna cry again. I REALLY LOVE IT SO, LIKE I LOVE YOU. 


PEOPLE, BACK OFF. She's my territory and only I can SLAP HER! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Hahaha. I shall give more coherent details when I'm sober and not drowning in tears and snot and gratitude and other incomprehensible feelings. 


All in all, LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE. 


I'm not lucky, I'm BLESSED! YES!