Yesterday at like 3 or 4am Tur skyped me suddenly. It was pretty sudden cuz we haven't skyped in AGES. Turns out that Steph was at her place doing models that are due on Fri. It was really really fun ohhhhhh. Not necessarily chatting to each other. But just watching them interact and tell jokes and tease each other and LAUGH. OMG how I miss their laughter. And Tur was wearing this really cute kimono-like pajamas that her bf's sister gave her. (YES, she has a bf and he seems really nice!). And her bf came over to grab something so I kinda met him. It was nice. What I'm trying to say is that. It's one thing to know they'll always be there for you. But it's another thing to remember how it used to be when everyone is together. The bants and the laughter and the ridicuuuloousssss omg-I-can't-breathe-lack-of-oxygen-my-stomach-hurts-I-can't-stop sound of laughing. Just the familiarity of silly conversations and non-stop playful snides at each other. It was really so fun. I realised how much I truly missed them you know!! Missed how it used to be when we were all in one country, hanging out. After we ended our Skype call, I went on to check flights to Melbourne straight away lo. That's how much I felt it in my heart that I miss them!!!! There are cheap air tickets in my summer holiday! So who knows? I might just go if I really think it's worth it. But then I kinda feel undeserving of it because I'm doing pretty badly in uni. :/ So this is motivation for me to buck up I guess. JIA YOU!!!!!!!! So yea. I put this sticky on my desktop. Hopefully it'll give me the drive that I had for the Leaving Cert. (I also had a sticky for my Leaving Cert. It said something like, How much did you pay?? And for these four months? Work hard! No regrets! 做人不能半途而废!! or something like that).
Gonna study then sleep. Nights yall!
Haha omg!!! Eating koropok with chopsticks. WHY HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT!!!!! You don't get oily bits on your hands afterwards. BEST IDEA EVER! Haha and realised Tur played POU! :D (Isn't my Pou so handsome??? :D)
We're blessed in many ways. :)
Fri 01:52 5/4/13
Every time I listen/read stuff about God or having faith or Christian stuff, I feel kinda down because... I think it's because when I see what others are doing with their lives, and how it's so God-centered and how they put everything down before God, I dunno, I look at myself and I don't see something more. It's just that me who goes through life day by day, only occasionally looking up and praying, that me that's kinda without peace. The Christian mixes on 8tracks are great. :)
Part of the confession prayer in Ray's church on Easter Sunday: "Forgive us when we live by our own strength and try to do Your work our way. Forgive us when our Christian lives seem a duty and not a joy. Forgive us when we live for this world alone and lose our perspective on heaven". It's kinda true. Recently I've been thinking about how it's hard not to swear. Not swearing kinda sucks the craic out of you. (Irish word!!!) And I don't swear (out loud anyway). I think that the me I really wanna be is one who gives the impression to others as a nice and approachable person. That's why I don't swear. But then recently, I was thinking of giving up on that to fit in more. You know? Then I read that prayer, and I realised that that's kinda losing your perspective on heaven. Living for this world alone. So yea. I guess I stand by my decision to not swear even if it makes life harder. :)
Breathe in us a new spirit of service and make us joyfully obedient to your will, that we may serve you gladly all our days. Amen.
Thurs 4/4/13 03:33
Hello! I'm here in Eastbourne with Ray!!! Had a great great time with Aunty Doris and Emer before they flew back home ystd! It was filled with food food food and more food! We had Thai the first night I arrived, then dim sum FEAST in Brighton, then Spanish food for dinner (not really that special but it had GREAT banoffie pie for dessert!), then an awesome carvery buffet as their last meal! The dessert was unexpectedly great! It was a lemon and orange sponge cake, but the sponge was excellent!!! Really moist and soft, and it came with a jug of very well-made custard!!!! Haha. So happy. :D But now they're gone and it's just me and Ray and our laptops and our work. UGH. My eyes are perpetually dry cuz I keep staring at my laptop screen. Which is kinda my fault cuz I youtube and facebook and do lame stuff like that, but also because I'm using a softcopy of the biochem text book now. Meh. A few days left here. BETTER STUDY HARD! Can't have another repeat of the disastrous DS exam!! :/ Gonna have KFC later I think YAY!
The amazing feast!!
Excuse my never-perfect hair!
Oh and Happy April!!! :D It's the month of Denise and Tur's bday!
Tue 19:13 2/4/13
Heya. So very quickly, FIRST YEAR LECTURES ARE DONE! We finished our last test on Wednesday. OMG it was kind of a joke la the test. The lecturer gave us the exact same paper as last year's one. He didn't even bother changing the sequence or whatever. I guess he didn't think we would have last year's paper? I don't know. It was ridiculous though. The amount of time I could've saved NOT studying extra material. UGH. But oh well.
It was fun!!!! Yong and I ordered food from Mania Stream, the Malaysian chef that delivers food to your place if you order, and it's only 3.50euros. That night it was Nasi Dagang with chicken or fish (Mackerel) curry. It was SOOOOO yummy. It was kinda like nasi lemak, it was coconut milk rice (according to the internet anyway) and then it had half a boiled egg, and then the curry was so yummy. OMG. I had no idea why I hadn't ordered her food more often. Oh and we fried an egg too!! Then we watched Tangled!!! HAHA BEST MOVIE! Sam joined us a bit later. We watched the movie together then at the end when the credits rolled right, they played a really happy song, and you can just imagine the actors and actresses dancing in a silly way in front of the camera like they do in some of the typical movies. So I dunno why, Sam and I naturally started becoming spastic or like Yong said, as if we had seizures. It was so fun oh.. just dancing like that on the bed while sitting down hahaha. Then Sam left after we had a chat, and Yong stayed till 3.45am!!! We just watched a couple of episodes of HIMYM, watched Youtube videos. It was kinda nice, but I kinda wondered why it had to wait till we're at the end of first year to actually hang out you know?
High on life!!
Then on Thursday, went for lunch in the city with Sam, Yong and Andrea. Ate in the Natural Bakery or something like that, the orange shop. Had smoked turkey sandwiches with BRIE in them, SO YUMMY. Had dessert after that with Yong, I had an apple crumble I think which was 2.60euro (30 cents for cream!!!), and I have to pay Yong for that because I didn't have cash then!!!! (I haven't paid her, gotta remember to do so!). Then bought some groceries stuff in the English Market. I actually bought ONE chilli padi and one tomato for an Asian spaghetti meal I was gonna have with pan fried cod! And the scale couldn't detect the negligible weight of that one chilli padi, so the asian lady at the till just charged me 15cent for that. T.T I FELT SO CHEATED!!!!!!!! But oh well my meal was yummerz! I gotta learn how to pan fry fish properly!!! Yong came over after dinner to print her tickets, and stayed after that to hang out till about 1am. :D
Today (technically ystd) was Good Friday. Didn't go to church tho because it wasn't in the Honan. And I didn't wanna go to some boring church where I can hardly understand the priest. Feel kinda guilty :( But I spent some time with my flatmates in the living room. They had a party last night at our place. Oh gosh. Someone set off the fire alarm, they hit the button that you're supposed to hit when they're actually a fire. -.- Don't know if we're gonna get fined for that. :/ Then, some half naked guys no one knew broke the window in the stairwell outside our apartment by kicking it. Sigh. -.- and our toilet's blocked too. THANK GOODNESS I'm leaving tmr, hope it gets fixed by the time I get home. :D Then I ironed my clothes at Yong's place. Then dinner at hers too. Pan fried cod, garlic chilli broccoli carrots tomato spaghetti, and boiled potatoes cuz I love eating butter with boiled potatoes. Hahaha. Had strawberries with dodgy Tesco chocolate mousse and a great chat with Yong!!! We talked about boys and funny stories etc. It was so nice to be talking on topics which you talk about in high school you know? It was great. :D Packed and I skyped my mum!!!!! It was so funnyyyyyy. She was at the Sutera gym (weird cuz she doesn't go there often) and she was lying on the floor, she said she was doing stretches. OMG. So there she was, lying on the floor IN A PUBLIC PLACE and SKYPING her daughter. HAHA she always does all these embarrassing stuff UGH. Love her for it though. So funny.
So yea. I'm gonna open a Savings Account in AIB cuz they have the best interest. :D Oh, I'm going to London btw to visit Ray. I'm leaving tmr!!!!! And I'll be able to see Aunty Doris and Emer too cuz they'll only be leaving on the 1st! I'm SO EXCITED OHHHHH, cuz I'll be seeing someone from HOME. :') Can't wait!! Spending a week there, then I'll come back and hardcore study cuz I'm so ashamed of my DS exam that I don't ever wanna repeat it. Remember! Pack your toiletries and chargers tmr!!!!
The reason I asked my mum to skype was because I had a stress episode. About how life is short and all that. It was brought on by seeing Yee Kee post on facebook about the anniversary of her dad's passing. :( It's so sad. And I'm always just absolutely terrified that that will happen to me. It's so scary. And I don't skype with my parents often at all. The last time I skyped my dad was the 20th of Feb. That's more than a month ago!!!! We just don't have the habit I guess to skype regularly. :( This needs to change!!!! So yea. I had a good chat with my mum tho. It was nice.
Appreciate ok! Don't wait until misfortune hits for you to learn how to appreciate stuff. :)
Nights people!!! I've been sleeping so late these past few days. -.-
Sat 30/3/13 04:04
I LOVE THESE BISCUITS SO MUCHHHH I DON'T CARE THAT THEY EACH CONTAIN 85 CALORIES AND 35.1% FAT. And yes, I just googled these figures because... well, I won't know them off the top of my head. I DON'T COUNT CALORIES!!!!! (Haha, remember when we were in Raleigh during Project Phase, we were all under the tarp for lunch or something and they were talking about how many calories our high-calory lunch contained etc, and Alice kept saying exasperatedly that IT'S STUPID TO COUNT CALORIES. Hahaha well maybe she didn't say it like that, but yea. GOOD TIMES). JAMMIE DODGERS NOM NOM.
Oh, I watched Easy A just now though I'm supposed to be studying. It's a greaaaaat movie. I think Emma Stone is absolutely beautiful. The colour of her eyes are so wow! Totes LOLed at David Letterman complimenting her when she was on his show.
Oh, cooked ASIAN SPAGHETTI last night for dinner. It wasn't really asian. But it just doesn't really have a sauce. I was aiming for the one that mum always cooks at home which I LOVE. She usually puts prawns in it or make it a vegetarian dish. Last night, I just put eggplant, fresh tomatoes, chicken (in case my flatmates don't eat eggplants), garlic and chilli in, with some herbs. I was SO WORRIED the girls wouldn't like it. It was the first time in ages that I cooked something that's NOT stir-fry chicken with rice. It turned out ok, so relieved. It wasn't anything like my mum's dish, but it was yummy and chilli hot so I liked it and apparently so did the girls hehe. 
Then after dinner we sat around the living room and realised that IT WAS JUST US GIRLS. We ALWAYS have guests in the living room. When I say always, I mean always! The lads from Charleville and Grace are usually always around. It was SO NICE to sit in a quiet living room. We just played 4 Pics 1 Word, Laura played with Pou, and we just talked. It was great. Haha. Back to study!
Tues 19:36 26/3/13
So I was bored, I was finding ways to procrastinate. But I didn't wanna go on FB. So what did I do? I went to read my first few posts in this blog!!! Ohmygosh. Life has actually changed so much. It's kinda hard to grasp that idea because we're here NOW and it just seems so natural and maybe we don't properly think back to what the old times were like. Well, maybe you do remember a couple of memories here and there. But you don't remember how life actually was! The mundane day-to-day stuff. Like studying for Sejarah and doing projects. Gosh. It seemed like ages ago. Well, it kinda was, it was 2008... I was 15!!!! haha. And now I'm 20. Woah, time is scary. But yea. I'm so glad I blogged man and talked about amazingly trivial things. I kinda miss life back then. Now I feel like my posts are mostly about... changing and being better and being strong and surviving. :'( I guess when you're out of high school, out of that amazing family of 50 other ppl with whom you spend 6 days a week with, when you're hardly ever alone and can just always fall back to your circle of friends with whatever's on your mind. But now... adulthood without a boyfriend or girlfriend is full of lonely self-searching paths. bla bla bla bla. Whatever it is, I'm grateful for the life I've had so far. :D :D :D Memories are awesomeeeeee.
Mon 21:56 25/3/13
LOVE dipping biscuits in my hot drink, either milo or hot chocolate or just warm milk. :D
Milo in my milo cup that I brought from Malaysia. :D
I love the biscuit when it's become soggy. So NICE. But then it's the WORST first world problem when it breaks off from the rest of the biscuit and you try and retrieve it with your spoon and you scoop and you scoop but just end up breaking it into small small pieces and you end up with tiny specks of biscuit and you do a rage face and flip the table due to anger. :P Study bye!
Mon 01:03 25/3/13
