Two Pie Are.

Yup.. I've gone another whole Two Pie Are again. Maybe for the third time. I don't know what I'm doing. Not sure whether or not I should go for it.

Here's the thing. I want to drop Physics. But I don't know if I should. I don't really like my teacher. Don't even get what he's talking about. He gave us exercises and worksheets to do without even teaching us the whole chapter. Now we've officially finished chapter 1 and I'm blundering around wondering what chapter 1 is actually talking about. I hate how hard I'm making this decision seem. Other people would just make decision and go for it. For me, there's always this diarrhea of factors to go through.

One of them is how I'm apparently aiming for a top score. I'm aiming to do well. But whether I can actually hit that top score, I'm not so confident yet. Subject selection is sort of crucial if you are aiming to get the top score. With all the scale up and such. They ask me what I'm better at. But guess what? I believe that whatever I choose, I will be able to excel at it. It's not that I'm bragging and such, it's just that I believe that I can do well in any subject, even if I'm bad at it (except for languages, maybe). So where does that leave me?

I wanted to change my Physics class. But I failed at that. I appealed and was rejected. Oh yay me. I am so miserable in my Physics class now, that I'm willing to drop it. At first, the subject I wanted to 'just go for' was History. Oh but look. If I take History (they only offer ONE History class), I'll have to change my Chem class. But I love my Chem. And my friend won't let me change. So what am I supposed to do? I know I should just suck it up and go for what I want. But then I feel so, so bad. She even said 'don't change your Chem. Please, please!'. What am I to do with that?

IT'S SO STUPID. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! Should I take Bio? But Bio is almost full, I might not be able to get in. And Bio MIGHT just get scaled down because everyone can score well. Should I take Literature? I'm interested but I might not be good at it.

I hate how complicated all this seems to me. How hard it is for me to make a decision and stick to it. But I'm always like a pendulum. One minute I say ok, the other minute I go back on my decision and ask myself 'are you sure?'.

I sort of feel that everything is conspiring against me so I would stick to Physics. But thinking about going to Physics class, I dread it! It's like my General Sci last year. You know why? The Friend Factor. Stupid.

I WISH SOMEONE WOULD SAY 'HEY. TAKE LITERATURE AND DROP PHY!'. An exact answer. That's what I WANT!

I hate that my parents are all 'oh, it's your choice. We don't want to force you to do anything.'

I'M SO DARN CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spot Jason Mraz.

If It Kills Me.

What am I to do? I don't feel like replying me emails!!!!!!

Indonesian test: Unit 1 and 2.

SIIIIGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On the other hand. I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so in love with this song right now!! Just like I was with so many others before. But I really like how in the chorus in this song, you want to sing your heart out and more, to try and make it mean something. It's so, so heart-wrenching. That's how I felt when I heard this song properly for the first time. WHEE!!! His live ones are really so slow! I don't think this is his best performance, but he's still great! And is he barefoot? =D

Second video is the recording. So much faster. LOVE THIS SONG!!! =D

The 'sing your heart out' feeling, I felt it when I listened to this song too. It's so awesome. I think the best voice in this world is the voice of a crowd. The audience singing along, don't you think it sounds absolutely amazing? =D You're in my heart- Rod Stewart.

Where's my me?

Blog about: Birthday, Indo, Subjects, Printer, Videos, Where's my me.

I told myself, I'm going to do this for myself. I'm just going to go for it. For once just do something that Eye want, for the sake of my interest. But now, Just Like Every Other Time, I'm back on square one. I've thought hard, stressed so much about it, and I've gone one whole Two Pie Are and yes, I look down on my feet and hey look, it's a square one. Huh, who would've guessed?

Before that, I told myself, I won't think too much about it. I'll Just Do It. What's the worth of thinking again and again about it, wondering, Always wondering, and stressing and frowning for? When in the end, it's all worthless. Give it two weeks and I'll look over my shoulder and see that it was all for nothing much, that it wasn't worth all the wrinkles and grey hair. Give it a month and I'll sift through my memories and Scoff at myself at how Stupid I was to Agonise over this so much.

Haven't I learnt this lesson before?

In My Dreams

It so didn't last.

Optimism

Stress cannot bring me down this time. A storm is coming. You can feel the wind cooling down already. The sky is generating some dark clouds and thunder is rolling far, far away.

Though before this, the weather was horrible. There was not a rustle in the leaves at all, no breeze to cool you down. Calm before the storm? It was so, so stuffy. Absolutely still

Was kind of stressed before this. Have lots of things to do. But I thought, what the heck. The weather is great now, becoming greater soon. I'm sort of sludging through my load of homework, on the way to completion (though quite a distance a way still). Dinner is on the way.

So. Let's give optimism a chance shall we? I used to think being optimistic is one of the hardest thing to do, if it wasn't set in your genes. But maybe it's simpler than we think.

Which is usually the case in everything we face. Cheers to optimism. =D

Cool!

I was just scrolling down my blog when I realized that my post titles have been starting with C for the past 4 posts! Cha Siew Pao, Copy and Paste, Corny, and Classic. Hahahaha. How Cool is that? =D I know.. *bows head in shame* I'm weird.

Classic 3! =D

THE BEST EVER!!!! Really nice. Of course, the one we used to eat came in clear plastics and was sold in huge packets. The ones you can find really cheap at the bottommost shelves in Giant or where ever. I don't even know whether there's a brand for those ones or not. Anyway. They are really nice! Miss them!! =D

旺仔, 小馒头!

Blur tool, much? =D Hup Seng, Teddy.

Hello Panda! =D The chocolate one is SO good!

Need I say more? Anyway, does anyone know the brand of the small plain biscuits which are shaped like fish? =D It looks like the one here:

Anyway. Pictures are NOT mine!!! =D

Corny

This is for you, for all of us. Got it from Josh's Facebook.

People who aim for a perfect ending watch to much fairytales . Whereas people who aim for a dramatic life watch too much dramas. Some of us aim just to have fun. Awewyyeeeeaaaaa! To he'll with drama and fairytales . We don't lie to oursleves! Agree?

Copy and Paste

So here is everything. I've been busy sending everyone emails and stuff. And because there's quite a few of them to send out, I decided to just copy and paste most of the stuff. And thus I shall do it here too. Seriously. I'm too lazy to type out everything like before. So here it is:

I just finished my first week of school. Really, I have A LOT of homework!!!!!!!!!!! I just came back home from school at 3.30pm and did my homework until 7.30pm!!! I still have some more homework I haven't finished yet. Sigh. And it's only the first week! Have to finish it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow is Saturday and I'm going to a different school (Glen Waverly) to attend Indonesian classes. Because my school doesn't offer that subject, so I have to go to another school to do it. Indonesian is sort of like Malaysian, but a bit different. Hopefully it won't be too hard. I'm a bit sad that I have to go to school on a Saturday. =( But it's ok.. no choice. It's from 9am until 12.30pm. =D Wait. Why did I put a smiley face there? NO SMILING HERE!!!!!!!!

I've made some new friends. I'm really, really happy. (smiling here!) I met this girl called Fong Yun. She's from Malaysia!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D =D I really like her. She's same height as me and she speaks English. But her English is not perfect. She's very nice. She speaks Chinese! High five!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Malaysian Chinese is so different from China Chinese. Happy to have a 'Malaysian Chinese' friend here. But we don't speak Chinese to each other, we speak English. When the China students start blabbing off in high speed China Chinese, we always exchange looks. It's so funny. She's 16 this year. I'm a bit sad that she's not in the same year as me. So sad. But then.. never mind. It's great that I have met her. She's still in the Language Center, the place where overseas students have intensive English lessons until they 'graduate' and go for normal classes (I didn't have to go though). I don't know why she's there, her English is okay. But she said she'll probably be out in a term. I'm really, really happy that I met her. You know, I've been waiting for so long, waiting since I started studying in Aus, waiting for that friend who I can connect with instantly. And I've met her. When I'm walking alone towards the Overseas Room to look for her (where the language classes (that's what they call it, even though it's only English) are held), I think about how unbelievable it is that I've met her and I smile to myself like a complete idiot. Haha. And you know what makes me smile to myself like a complete idiot? How much I think she's like Janice. Haha. I'm serious! I really think she's so like Janice! Physically, she's tanned and has big eyes (a bit bigger than Janice's eyes though) and short hair (different hair styles though). That's so like Janice! Really! And then the way she talks! Her English sounds like Janice! The way you both put your lahs in, the way you both explain things, it's so similar! Hahaha. It's so cool and funny to me, it's got me smiling like an idiot to myself (yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, like I'm not enough like one already).

I also met a few other people. There's a girl called Janet. She's in some of my classes (remember that we change classes for different subjects!). She's from China but she migrated to Australia a few years ago. She speaks Australian English. She's quite nice. A bit quiet. But she's a nice friend. =D She's very fair, a random fact, I know. We walk home with Sum Sum after school. They take the train and the train station is on the way to my house here. So yea. =D

I met another two other Malaysians who have moved to Australia. They speak Australian English. They are both nice people. They speak very well and it's fun talking to them. But I don't really like one of them, Michelle, who is in my English class. She's really smart and witty, but I think she doesn't really have enough respect for the teachers. Or maybe it's because I'm too nerd. Haha. Anyway. The other girl, Ee, she's in my Chemistry class but I've never talked to her in class. I met her at the library. She's really friendly and nice to talk to. But I'm still not sure about what kind of person she is. =D I'm just happy I've made some friends that I can talk to easily in English. But then I'm still looking for a friend who is like Fong Yun and also reads story books. Because I'm a nerd and love books. Haaaaaaha.

The weather here is crazy!! It's been quite hot, like in Malaysia. Like 35degrees or something like that, which is about the same as Malaysia. But then today it's like 17degrees!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So cold!!!! It's crazy! You have to always be prepared for all sorts of weather and always, always have to check the weather before leaving the house. Seriously! It's crazy how it's really 'four seasons in a day', as my mum puts it.

The skirts here (uniform) are kind of long. Actually, they are not that long. It's just because all the girls alter their skirts until it's above their knees, so it seems long. So I just bought a summer skirt (the winter one I have one already) and altered it myself. So yea. Because I shortened it myself by sewing (HAND sewing!) and I did it a bit shorter than I intended because I don't have the skills. But anyway. It's still sort of ok. I'm not going to redo it I think. It took me about 2 hours to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So tiring. But it's ok. I'm kind of proud of myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woooooowwwwwww. I altered a skirt all by myself! And it looks so neat and nice. Hahahaha. Better than when my mum altered my winter skirt. Haha.

So yea. That's about it. Growing up, learning new stuff. Like making my yum sandwich for school. =D Really yum!

I've been reading the same thing over and over again. Waiting for Clif to come back online. WHERE ARE YOU?

Corny-ness. It's a lot of corn. HAHAHAHA. Nice Clif. You are so awesome.

Cha Siew Pao

This is going to be a boring post. Just like all the others. It'll be about books, the weather and school. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (sarcastic).

So anyway. You know Ms. Grant? My 'hilarious' Chemistry teacher? She always says 'Settle, petals.' in that Australian accent when the class is noisy and she wants our attention. I think that's funny, she keeps saying it. Haha. At the back of the class, there's this row of Asian guys and one of them has this seriously HILARIOUS laugh, which is kind of annoying. It's quite high-pitched and it's those that effortlessly goes on for quite some time. Anyway, the Asian guys keep laughing at everything Ms. Grant says, even those that are not that funny. They usually laugh at how lame her jokes are or just laugh for the sake of laughing. When she says a joke, she'll give you this serious look when she's finished. And a second of silence goes by and then the Asian guys start their laughter. I always laugh at how funny their laughter sounds. Hehe. Anyway. During the first lesson, Ms. Grant had that 'serious look' on her face and 'glared' at those Asian guys. Then she started saying in a loud voice some random Chinese-sounding words. That was so funny! She mostly said stuff that you can order in Dim Sum (those Chinese/Cantonese names). She has named the Asian guys the 'Cha Siew Pao group'. Haha to that. =D There's this guy called Carl from the Cha Siew Pao group. And Ms. Grant says that 'I once had a bear called Carl'. Hahahaha. How random is that? And when she marks the roll (takes attendance), she always stops at his name and mention that again. During teaching, 'So that's how the structure of the atom was discovered. Carl?' 'Yea?' 'Did you know I once had a bear called Carl?'. Randomness. Hahaha. =D

Anyway. What other teachers have I not talked about? Physics. I got Mr. Nickelson (or however you spell it). I'm still not too sure about him. He's pretty strict about tardiness. Like seriously. Some guys were a few minutes late to his class just now and he listed out their names and gave them a warning to never ever be late again. I'm going to have to beware of that. He speaks quite softly. Like he doesn't make an effort to raise his voice louder, and his voice is quite deep, so the words kind of join together and I'm totally like 'SPEAK LOUDER!' sometimes. His words are also quite small. Sheesh. He's such a tall guy. Can't his handwriting be more proportionate to his body size? But Mrs. Wilkinson (or however you spell it) (the really cool-in-her-own-way-but-scary-at-the-same-time-and-exudes-waves-of-intelligence Physics teacher) said that he'll push me when I told her I got him for Physics. So maybe that's a good thing (aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!)? Hope so?

There're these two girls who sat to my right. They are Yr 11+ (from the accelerated program, they jumped Yr 10) students. I was getting kind of annoyed with their conversation topics. Please. Competitive much? Give it a rest! Seriously!!! They weren't really competing to see who was better, but they just kept comparing each other's abilities/experiences etc! Like how many subjects they did last year, how old they were (how young they were to be in Year 11), how they could recognize words from the shape of the alphabets from a far distance even though they had bad eye sight, how small their hand-writing were ETC ETC ETC. Couldn't they just talk about something more normal, which didn't need any comparison by the other person, like Grey's Anatomy or something? Huh, they would probably go on on how they have finished watching all the episodes or something.

English. I have no idea what his name is. His initials are DB (the time table has each subject teacher's initials at the bottom) but he didn't introduce himself. Anyway. I'm not sure about him either. He's not that good so far. But it's still too early to tell. I don't think he really planned his lessons at all. And does he really just plan on reading the book like that until we finished? It brings to mind Cikgu Rosaina (or however you spell it) (the BM teacher in TTSS who is really thin and always 'shrills' and doesn't care if you pay attention or not). Her classes were always planned well, she knew how to teach the short stories. She summarized it and used only the whiteboard and her marker to explain everything. She expected you to read the story yourself, if you cared to that is. Anyway. That was a good method, less time-consuming and it got you to understand the plot of the story. Anyway.. Mr. DB just started the book today even though it's already our third lesson with him.

Yup that's all. Yesterday was a really hot day. Seriously. This morning I woke up and it was weird. Usually I wake up shivering in the cold, but today it was really warm. Walking to school, the wind was really warm too. Usually the wind is cool. Anyway, it started raining at about 10am. It's been bearable since then, but still a bit warm. Actually the weather now is not too different from back home. Really. But it's just that we don't have ceiling fans here. =( =( =( Our air-cons are still not working well. It's tough though, imagine doing your homework while you're sweating. How left-hand (or right-hand, for most of you) are wet from gripping your pen, and how it wets (well, dampens) the pages when you turn it. Makes me uncomfortable. Haha. I know now to rush for the seat under the fan in class now. If you're not sitting under the fan (for those classrooms that HAVE ceiling fans) you'll be willing yourself to stay cool and not break out in sweat the whole lesson.

Anyway. Books I have finished: Tick Tock and The Glitch in Sleep, which are separate books, just in case you were wondering (hahaha). Anyway. I've talked about these two books before. So, Tick Tock. It's quite interesting I guess. The characters were really interesting. The girl, especially, was great at conversing. It was really amusing to read their dialogues. =D What happened in the end, well, that was pretty weird. But then I think that how it ended, the reason behind everything, that was pretty... okay I guess. I don't know. I'm not a big fan of supernatural stuff. But then because of the really sharp and smart conversations, it wasn't that bad. =D Will I put it on my shelf? No I guess, because of the supernatural stuff.

The Glitch In Sleep- John Hulme and Michael Wexler

(2007)

Ever wonder where your dreams come from? Or what caused those ten inches of rain last Tuesday? Or who picks the colours of Autumn leaves?

Welcome to the world of The Seems.

The Seems is the organisation responsible for making our world work. From the Department of Weather to the Department of Time, The Seems keeps everything running just the way we like it.

But every so often something goes wrong, and A Fixer is sent in to take care of the problem. On Becker's very first mission, a glitch crops up in the Department of Sleep, and Becker quickly realises that this is no routine assignment.

Being a Fixer may be the coolest job ever, but it's no walk in the park. And Becker is hoping that this mission won't be his last.

Sounds cool huh? =D The one on the right is the one I have. Anyway. I think this book is quite cool. It pictures the world as how it jussssssssssssssssstttt might be. But then I guess you could say The Seems sort of plays the role of God or something. It's pretty cool to see it in this perspective. It was a bit disappointing. I was hoping on more technical stuff, like how The Seems really did pick the colours of the Autumn leaves etc. How The Seems really made the world turn round. But nah, they didn't really put much of that into the story. The part towards the end really got quite interesting. =D You know how when you close a book for the final time and you just go 'wowwwwwwwwww' in your head? And how you picture yourself giving the book a standing ovation or something like that? That's how I felt when I finished the book. Haha. It was just those endings that really made you smile. Haha. Apparently there are two other sequels to the book. I think I might get it. =D It's not too bad, really. Hmm.. Rating? 4/5. Haha. Pfftttttttt, I know.

The book we're doing now for English is The Kite Runner. You might have heard that book before. I've started reading it, have to really read faster if I want to finish it by this weekend (which we are supposed to do, hehe homework I don't mind!). Let me tell you, this book is really... interesting. A real page-turner. Not in the sense that you are in suspense and that it's really thrilling, but in a sense that the author really knows how to tell a story. Not one page is boring. Every page makes you want to read the next page. Which was surprising for me. Since the first page (which started off kind of like Montana 1948, IMO) I've not had one moment where I wanted that page to end sooner because it was boring. It really was a page turner. I don't know whether it's just I was aware of it this time, that I've met the same books like that before, or if it's really that way. I guess the background of the story contributes to it really being interesting for me. It's the first book I have read that is set in Afghanistan, or any really far place for that matter (I mean like except for American, Europe etc where books are always set). I'm unfamiliar with everything in the book. It's just really, really good. Wowowowowow!!! Can't wait to see the movie!

The Kite Runner- Khaled Hosseini

(2003)

Twelve-year-old Amir is desperate to win the approval of his father and resolves to win the local kite-fighting tournament, to prove that he has the makings of a man. His loyal friend Hassan promises to help him - for he always helps Amir - but this is 1970s Afghanistan and Hassan is merely a low-caste servant who is jeered at in the street, although Amir feels jealous of his natural courage and the place he holds in his father's heart. But neither of the boys could foresee what would happen to Hassan on the afternoon of the tournament, which was to shatter their lives. After the Russians invade and the family is forced to flee to America, Amir realises that one day he must return, to find the one thing his new world cannot grant him: redemption.

I'm jusssssssst getting to the world-shattering part. So excited. Hehe. Oh the one on the right is the one I have.

Today is the first day I don't have any homework!!! =D Well, I do, but it's not due though. Just have to get it done. There are other pressures coming from different sides. But sigh, let's just focus on one thing at a time (hah, if only it were that simple) and just.. read The Kite Runner first.

REMINDER: Evilness, friends.