I Have No Idea

I hate having this characteristic where I so easily feel passionate about something. I fall in love with something so easily, I believe something so easily, I believe that there is good in everyone, in this way I forgive easily, get hurt easily, get angry easily. It makes me feel so embarrassed, so vulnerable, so useless. Emotional. I dislike it, very much.

I have no idea. Like I said before, I wonder about many things. Especially about friends and stuff. Do they actually look forward to meeting me online? Through email or MSN? Look forward as in look forward, not because they feel obliged to, not because they have nothing better to do, but actually, honestly look forward to it?

Honestly, now that's another problem. I am genuinely honest about most things, about the things that matter. I honestly look forward to meeting my friends online, I honestly look forward to seeing what they have to say, I honestly don't look forward to going to school, but I honestly look forward to seeing chatting with Sum Sum in school.

Anyway, I would like to mention here how dependent I've become since I came here, as in dependent on my friends. To me, they are like my 'refuge'. At that time when I was feeling very lonely (as only some of you might know), they were really like my 'savior', but savior is a strong word, so I prefer a simpler yet more meaningful word,.... 'friend'. Clifern, Nick, Denise, Jessie and TURTLE. I think that most of you will be kind of confused, I bet most of you don't even realised what you guys have done to help me at that time(this time?). Haha. That's why I said the 'characteristic' is embarrassing. Ooohh, I would also like to mention Tham.

Tham gave me a book that he lent me last year during my farewell. Way overdue, as I mentioned the book a few months before. Haha. But thanks anyway. So nice of him to give the book to me for free. Hehe. Thanks alot, I really appreciate it. Now it can sit in my collection of books (mostly unread). THANKS THAM! (There's no such thing as Ahya, only Ah Tham). HAHA.

Life As We Knew It- Susan Pfeffer

Miranda’s disbelief turns to fear in a split second when a meteor knocks the moon closer to the earth. How should her family prepare for the future when worldwide tsunamis wipe out the coasts, earthquakes rock the continents, and volcanic ash blocks out the sun? As summer turns to Arctic winter, Miranda, her two brothers, and their mother retreat to the unexpected safe haven of their sunroom, where they subsist on stockpiled food and limited water in the warmth of a wood-burning stove. Told in journal entries, this is the heart-pounding story of Miranda’s struggle to hold on to the most important resource of all--hope--in an increasingly desperate and unfamiliar world.

A Scholastic book. It's awesome. As you read it you feel so absorbed into the story and feel as if you are actually in it. It's so unbelievable and makes you feel so lucky and thankful. It's sad, yet funny. It's just a great book that I really enjoyed reading and didn't want the end to come so soon. But like every book, the end comes sooner or later. But all I know is, I'll definitely reread it. Can't wait! 5/5 for me! =D

Anyway, here comes a shocking update. I have decided to give up the Maths thing. I say that it's just too hard (not really), the book has lousy explanations, the examples are not good enough, and it's just so frustrating because I keep getting stuck in the problems. But then I think it's more my own fault. I'm just too lazy. Honest. I'm so disappointed in myself. I wish someone would kick me and yell at me. I feel so bad too. Feel so bad for Mrs. Loke for trying to pull all these things together for me. GAH.