Two Pie Are.

Yup.. I've gone another whole Two Pie Are again. Maybe for the third time. I don't know what I'm doing. Not sure whether or not I should go for it.

Here's the thing. I want to drop Physics. But I don't know if I should. I don't really like my teacher. Don't even get what he's talking about. He gave us exercises and worksheets to do without even teaching us the whole chapter. Now we've officially finished chapter 1 and I'm blundering around wondering what chapter 1 is actually talking about. I hate how hard I'm making this decision seem. Other people would just make decision and go for it. For me, there's always this diarrhea of factors to go through.

One of them is how I'm apparently aiming for a top score. I'm aiming to do well. But whether I can actually hit that top score, I'm not so confident yet. Subject selection is sort of crucial if you are aiming to get the top score. With all the scale up and such. They ask me what I'm better at. But guess what? I believe that whatever I choose, I will be able to excel at it. It's not that I'm bragging and such, it's just that I believe that I can do well in any subject, even if I'm bad at it (except for languages, maybe). So where does that leave me?

I wanted to change my Physics class. But I failed at that. I appealed and was rejected. Oh yay me. I am so miserable in my Physics class now, that I'm willing to drop it. At first, the subject I wanted to 'just go for' was History. Oh but look. If I take History (they only offer ONE History class), I'll have to change my Chem class. But I love my Chem. And my friend won't let me change. So what am I supposed to do? I know I should just suck it up and go for what I want. But then I feel so, so bad. She even said 'don't change your Chem. Please, please!'. What am I to do with that?

IT'S SO STUPID. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! Should I take Bio? But Bio is almost full, I might not be able to get in. And Bio MIGHT just get scaled down because everyone can score well. Should I take Literature? I'm interested but I might not be good at it.

I hate how complicated all this seems to me. How hard it is for me to make a decision and stick to it. But I'm always like a pendulum. One minute I say ok, the other minute I go back on my decision and ask myself 'are you sure?'.

I sort of feel that everything is conspiring against me so I would stick to Physics. But thinking about going to Physics class, I dread it! It's like my General Sci last year. You know why? The Friend Factor. Stupid.

I WISH SOMEONE WOULD SAY 'HEY. TAKE LITERATURE AND DROP PHY!'. An exact answer. That's what I WANT!

I hate that my parents are all 'oh, it's your choice. We don't want to force you to do anything.'

I'M SO DARN CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spot Jason Mraz.

If It Kills Me.

What am I to do? I don't feel like replying me emails!!!!!!

Indonesian test: Unit 1 and 2.

SIIIIGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On the other hand. I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so in love with this song right now!! Just like I was with so many others before. But I really like how in the chorus in this song, you want to sing your heart out and more, to try and make it mean something. It's so, so heart-wrenching. That's how I felt when I heard this song properly for the first time. WHEE!!! His live ones are really so slow! I don't think this is his best performance, but he's still great! And is he barefoot? =D

Second video is the recording. So much faster. LOVE THIS SONG!!! =D

The 'sing your heart out' feeling, I felt it when I listened to this song too. It's so awesome. I think the best voice in this world is the voice of a crowd. The audience singing along, don't you think it sounds absolutely amazing? =D You're in my heart- Rod Stewart.

Where's my me?

Blog about: Birthday, Indo, Subjects, Printer, Videos, Where's my me.

I told myself, I'm going to do this for myself. I'm just going to go for it. For once just do something that Eye want, for the sake of my interest. But now, Just Like Every Other Time, I'm back on square one. I've thought hard, stressed so much about it, and I've gone one whole Two Pie Are and yes, I look down on my feet and hey look, it's a square one. Huh, who would've guessed?

Before that, I told myself, I won't think too much about it. I'll Just Do It. What's the worth of thinking again and again about it, wondering, Always wondering, and stressing and frowning for? When in the end, it's all worthless. Give it two weeks and I'll look over my shoulder and see that it was all for nothing much, that it wasn't worth all the wrinkles and grey hair. Give it a month and I'll sift through my memories and Scoff at myself at how Stupid I was to Agonise over this so much.

Haven't I learnt this lesson before?

In My Dreams

It so didn't last.

Optimism

Stress cannot bring me down this time. A storm is coming. You can feel the wind cooling down already. The sky is generating some dark clouds and thunder is rolling far, far away.

Though before this, the weather was horrible. There was not a rustle in the leaves at all, no breeze to cool you down. Calm before the storm? It was so, so stuffy. Absolutely still

Was kind of stressed before this. Have lots of things to do. But I thought, what the heck. The weather is great now, becoming greater soon. I'm sort of sludging through my load of homework, on the way to completion (though quite a distance a way still). Dinner is on the way.

So. Let's give optimism a chance shall we? I used to think being optimistic is one of the hardest thing to do, if it wasn't set in your genes. But maybe it's simpler than we think.

Which is usually the case in everything we face. Cheers to optimism. =D

Cool!

I was just scrolling down my blog when I realized that my post titles have been starting with C for the past 4 posts! Cha Siew Pao, Copy and Paste, Corny, and Classic. Hahahaha. How Cool is that? =D I know.. *bows head in shame* I'm weird.