Mathematical Methods

Regarding this and all the VCE stuff, I'm probably doing Indonesian Unit 3 and 4 next year. Hopefully I'll be able to adapt to it. I'm not doing Chinese (OH MY GOSH you're not doing Chinese?!?!!) because it's no chance, seriously, especially when you're competing with the China people. And mainstream Chinese is crazy. It's all about China culture, China articles etc. China China China stuff. So hopefully Indo (doing Mainstream too, as I'm taking ESL) will turn out to be ok. Cross fingers!

For the test I mentioned before which was supposed to be today, it was a no-go. I studied like crazy (not really) and only got half-way (or less?) and I downloaded the Sample Exam for MM, and it was HARD. Hard as in I have not learned any of it. I have, actually, just that not to that extent, it was either a step further than what I have learnt or another side to it that I have never learnt. Or, of course, it flew out of my mind already. So, believe it or not, I only could do one question. I have a sneaking suspicion that the paper I'm doing is Unit 3 and 4. It really was a blow! So I told the Overseas Coordinator, Mrs. Loke, that I didn't want to do the test because I was just not prepared. Not enough time. So she said next Friday. I'm not even sure whether I want to do it anymore. Kat said that doing MM 3 and 4 in Yr. 12 is also good, because it helps you as revision in Spec. Maths. I don't know LAH. I guess I'll just try my best for this test on Friday, see how it goes. Whatever will be, will be (Que Sera, Sera). Cross my fingers and pray that God will lead me to the path that is better for me.

School is still ultimately boring. I only look forward to lunch time and the bulletins we sometimes get. Students in Year 7 (I think), they take turns doing this job where they bring this PDA thing to each class every period so the teacher takes the roll on the PDA, and sometimes they bring along a bulletin which has all the announcements on it. It's cool. Haha. Sad isn't it, that I actually look forward to it!

Anyway, the weather has been getting warmer and warmer. Yesterday was HOT. There were no clouds and it was hot, really. I wore a long-sleeved undershirt and the white polo shirt (one of the uniforms) and I felt hot. When I got home I changed into shorts. SHORTS! The first time I wore shorts since I arrived here you know! Felt really weird!! The weather report said it was 27 degrees but I think it was abit more than that. So today was supposed to be 27 too, but a thunderstorm too. I was debating with myself whether I wanted to wear a long-sleeved undershirt or a singlet or no undershirt at all as the day before really was hot. I didn't come to a conclusion. When I woke up, it was weird. I didn't feel cold, for the first time. I didn't shiver in the bathroom as usual. The air was quite warm. So I wore no undershirt today. FOR THE FIRST TIME! There was no thunderstorm in the end, just constant rain the whole day, on and off. Abit heavier than a drizzle but not those rain where the drops are big and fat. The air was warm but not hot. It was like a typical rainy day in M'sia but probably slightly colder. It was AWESOME. Then after school went to Box Hill to do some stuff and walked around. It was nice. Perfect Day! =D =D

Asians

Don't you think that us, Chinese-ish Asians are so.. ugh! This applies to alot of people, probably me too. We always like to compete with people. I think that this comes from jealousy. We get envious that the other person might be better than us that we try and compete with them, pushing ourselves more and putting ourselves more out-there. Yea, you might say that this is a good thing, but to some degree it's ridiculous. What's wrong with us? Can't we just push ourselves without being jealous over nothing, trying to compete with someone who isn't even aware of our efforts. This comes from us not having accepted the position we ourselves are in, what level we are on.

I believe that (excluding languages), all countries' education is at the same level. There is no 'Malaysia's Maths and Sci is so tough', 'Australia's Maths is so easy, at such a low level' etc. At some point, the level is going to turn out the same. Maths is maths, ultimately it's the same. Sure you might learn it a step faster in this country than in that, so what? Ultimately it's the same! In the end you'll reach the same finishing line more or less! Don't assume, because it makes an Ass out of U and Me, if you get what I mean.

That phrase is so true!

And I also don't like some of the Asians in some of my classes. What's wrong with them? So racist! There's a guy of colour in our year and he keeps to himself alot. And sometimes they run out of seats and there's only one seat left next to him in the 'Asian side of the room' (generally the locals sit at the back and the Asians sit in the front) and the Asians go (in Mandarin), 'Oh.. Ah Beng (random name), now you have to sit next to the Fei1 Zhou1 ren2! Hahahahaha.' Like.. what rubbish is this? Or sometimes the person who has to sit next to the guy will say 'Aiya, being forced to sit with the Fei1 Zhou1 ren2 now.. What should I do?'. Sheesh, seriously! It's not like we've never been discriminated before, who are we to treat other people like that? So crappy, puts me to shame that I'm the same race as them.

And there's another thing. I found out today that one of my friends (what is a friend?) is half-colour blind. I think. I'm pretty sure, but she could always be playing me. She said she could only see some colours and didn't know whether I was wearing the white shirt or the blue shirt (both are uniforms). She said everything is just greyish, so she said that text books which are in black and white only are so much more comfortable to look at.

I've thought about colour-blindness before (as I think about everything!) after watching Para Para Sakura. Like all other handicapped people, it is so horrible. For colour-blind people, they can't see colours (-.-) and think of this. You ask them 'So you've never seen the sky blue before?'. They say 'What is blue? I've never seen blue before. What is it like?'. Think about that, seriously! They won't even know what colours there are, what colours even are! They won't know what blue looks like, although we see it everyday, they won't know what green looks like, although it keeps us alive. Sigh... I might be wrong, because I don't have much knowledge regarding this issue. I just pray that every handicapped person will be blessed with a talent or skill, gifted to only a few people. And that they will be blessed with one day or a few hours at least, to be able to see the earth in it's full colour, see how beautiful it is.

Appreciate life yo. Seriously. We're lucky and blessed. E-VE-RY-DAY. =)

Catch Up!

I'm lacking behind myself! There are many things I want to say.

First of all, I would like to, once again, state how wonderful my friends are, bet you guys are tired of hearing it. So anyway, that day I took out the album to look through, then I came to the page, 'Words From Heart'. They used a pink piece of paper and folded it into a long envelope and stuck it on the page, and the words were there, written by Lee Pei (am I wrong about this?), 'Words From Heart'. So in the plane when I read the album for the first time, I lifted the flap open but didn't see an opening there, so I just flipped the page over. But as I was looking through it for the second time, I did lift the flap up again, but I didn't see the opening. Totally by chance, I pressed down on the page and realised something WAS in the envelope. So I looked more closely and there was indeed an opening. I reached in and found that there were many short letters! But I didn't want to read it then. So I waited for a few days and finally a time came when I was comfortable, in a good mood and free. Thus I decided to read all those letters.

So touched! Seriously! I wonder how much work they went through to get everything, to compile all the photos, to go and cut and paste everything by themselves, writing everything by hand. There were many letters! Thank you, seriously sincerely, everyone who wrote the letters! And of course to Steph, Pei and Tur for giving this gift to me. I'm sure you guys had fun asking Alexis to write the letter. Joway's letter was SO FUNNY!!! There were so many! Half the class wrote one I think, and also some from other classes. I'm just... seriously I don't know what to say! Speechless (Lee Pei!!! Speechless =P)! I love you guys! I miss you guys. Thank you very, very much for everything. All the memories! The Nestum Bubur, the 'Phoebe Sandwich', the Mi Hun!!! The 'Chicken Rice + Soup RM3', all the movies, the outings, the volleyball, the parties and of course, the sleepovers and the SURPRISES! Oh, never forgetting the so-pro STEPH serving the ball during the interclass competition after sitting out and suddenly being asked by me to come in and play the last point (opponent's, unfortunately), and it so-awesomely going over!!

So many memories... so, so many. Speechless.

Time

Time is definitely running out! I mean that literally actually. Because it's almost the end of school. I'm in school now and our teacher is busy so she just asked the sub to give us a work sheet, finish that and we can use the computers. And it's a double!

Anyway, Yes, I caught Jessie online yesterday! Finally! I was about to go offline actually. Haha. Kel was standing beside me with a hanger asking me to go to bed. Was absolutely hilarious! Asked mum to save me and we kept laughing. SO MEAN! Kel is so MEAN! Seriously the Dragoness! Hahaha.

Anyway, I'm sick now. Have the flu. Seriously hope that it will go away ASAP. So troublesome!

Tim and Aunty Ping has left and returned to Kuching after spending about a week here. Went out for Dim Sum on Sat and Sun, it was quite ok. But then unfortunately they didn't have the sago+yam dessert me and Dana love so much. Both places didn't have! How unlucky is that!

And we passed by the state library and it just reminded me of when Dana was here in Melbourne and we kept laughing at how Australians had a thing for grass. It was funny. We also went to the Pancake Parlour and I really enjoyed it this time. We had Kat's favourite Korean Pancake, she calls it. It's just a crepe and owned by a Korean. It's actually a place for couples and stuff, called Harajuku or something. Tim had fun with it.

Well.. That's all I'm going to say now. Since it's almost time for the bell to go. Well.. see you guys on the weekend. Have to prepare for this stupid test. Have to run through the whole text book by Friday. By myself. We're not doing it at school yet. Gah.

Random Stuff

6th of Oct, we had abit of hail at 6.50pm. It was still bright, the sun had not gone down. It had been raining on and off the whole day and I was just sitting at the dining table (which is just beside the sliding transparent door to the 'back porch' when it started to rain ice! But it was really small and light, it wasn't like the ones in The Day After Tmr where you can bleed by getting hit by the ice. Haha. It was so cool but it lasted for only about 5 seconds where we were. Oh well. It was cool anyway. A first experience for me.

Today was Crazy Hair Day for my school, as well as Free Dress Day. But you had to pay to Free Dress, which is abit ironic, if you take the 'Free' literally. Hahaha. So I didn't, along with a few other people. Crazy Hair Day was really funny. There was a competition during lunch (an hour break) at the quadrangle, which is like the courtyard of the school. So anyway, this girl won. She had candy all over her hair. It was either real candy handing by a pin, or wrapping or candy, there was even a small Maltesers packet hanging there (empty), a small pink balloon, and all her ponytails were tied by those snake gummies. It was really cool. And this guy who wore this crazy huge wig and beard won too. He dressed in a robe and held a staff, he was Jesus. It was kind of funny. Because I overheard him talking to his friend.

Friend: Why don't you have any followers Jesus?

Him: I couldn't get anyone to follow me. As long as there is one person following me, I'll still be here. And there's one person who is still following me, and that's me. And unless you can make me not follow myself, then I'll still be here.

Haha. And when it was his turn for judging, he turned around and ''parted the red sea'' which was just a big group of people sitting on the ground enjoying the show. They just moved to the side and 'parted'. It was really good. Funny.

People just mainly sprayed their hair with loads of colour, put loads of glitter and stuff. Interesting. Haha.

Oooh. Just saw that Joey blogged about me leaving. Thanks for the wish!!!! HAPPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to Joey!!!! 19th Oct 2009! You're sixteen! Enjoy it while it lasts. Hope that this year will be a good year for you! Work hard! =D

Well.. for those of you who know,

Set yourself free, go pee on a tree. (peeoutside.org)

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyway, hopefully everything will improve here. Waiting for JESSIE to come online the same time as me, and waiting for TUR to reply me.

Love too much.

Big Thanks

To all my great friends who blogged about me leaving, thank you. I'm really touched and happy that I have you guys as friends, seriously. I cross my fingers that I'll be happy here, because I said I'll take care when I'm here to you guys.

I'm sorry this is belated, and I just don't know what to say. What exactly do you say when you are blessed with such great friends?

It's so weird, sometimes, if I stop and think about it. It's so weird without my close friends beside me. Seriously. I do wonder how things are going back home, whether they are going out after exams, whether they'll stuff themselves with Wagamama. And I also wonder whether or not they wonder about me.

Smile-just-thinking-about-it: Steph at her party going: Allow your body to rock with the movement of the earth. (讓你的身體跟著地心引力自由擺動). Seriously funny. Miss her!!!!

Well.. Thank you my friends. Love you guys. Hope you guys are doing well.

Tell Me Your Wish

Hey! The weekend is coming to a close! Sorry I didn't really go online much. I can't believe this weekend has gone by so fast.

Tomorrow and Tuesday is supposed to be quite warm, about 20 degrees! YAY! I totally can't wait! But unfortunately I haven't bought the school summer skirt so my legs won't be able to enjoy the Vitamin D. How sad, seriously!

Well.. Because I want to reduce my workload in Year 12 (last year of high school), I want to do at least one subject for VCE next year (Year 11). So I'm planning to do Mathematical Methods Units 3 and 4 next year for VCE. For that, I'll have to try my best to finish up 1 and 2 this year. There are alot of different maths here, one of them is MM. There's General Maths which is easier, there's Specialist Maths which is way harder. I think there are others, but I'm not sure. It's just that I'm really doubtful about next year, what subjects will I be doing, will I be able to take 3 and 4 for VCE next year, will I have too much work in Year 12, etc etc! Before I go to sleep this is what I think of.

But there is something else more urgent weighing my mind now. But I'll blog about that after it's over. This issue has been taking up my free-time-day-dreaming to analyse every step, thinking it over and over and over again, even EYE am sick of it. But there's no quitting. I just really, really hope everything will turn up fine. So far so good I GUESS. Cross my fingers!

I think this second week over here was better... Still haven't made friends with locals. Slowly. No rush. Focusing on my studies now. Haha. Moving very slowly with The Taking. Now the lights are permanently out, THE DOLL disappeared!!! Haha. Creepy, if you really imagine in clearly. ARGGGHHHH!!! And despite 'focusing' on my studies, I play Kel's DS too. Haha. I'm playing Harvest Moon. Really frustrating sometimes! So it's basically what I do here. I do my homework (if I have any), and then I play the DS or read The Taking. But now I guess it'll be different. Because I'll be doing my MM! Sigh. But I really have to finish it. Because I seriously am doubting myself whether I'll be able to learn all these things and excel at it and stuff like that. Make use of the time I have now!

Stressed! *internal scream!*

HAHA. Watch this! So cool. I really, really like this! This is a Star Dance Battle, where two groups of singers battle by dancing and singing to the opponent's songs. So this is Super Junior, singing and dancing to SNSD's Tell Me Your Wish (Genie) (SNSD aka Girls' Generation). It's really funny. Go watch the original ones! And bear in mind, the song is for hot girls to sexy dance to. Haha. So enjoy!

Genie, I want to be able to do well in, well, my studies, I guess. Gah..